I'm supposed to be working.


but this is a short memory that lead to my longest love memory.

On 22nd April 2013,
My dearest, most beloved, most patient, most humble, most caring Mother passed away.


I haven't had the courage to blog this. It's a memory i wish would never happen, atleast when i'm older, with kids. There's so much I want to do with my Mum. So much i want to ask, seek advice and know. There's no other teacher better than, apart from Allah SWT & Nabi Muhammad SAW, our mother. No matter how uneducated she is, she was the first to teach you how to walk, and smile and everything that you might know now.


There's so much I want to do with her around. But, Allah SWT loves her more. I prayed that He stop her sufferings, and He did. I prayed that He'd save her, and He did. I prayed that she will not leave until she has heard/say the verse Laa 'ilaaha 'illallah. And Alhamdulillah, she left with those. She left, with tears falling..

The image of her during her last few seconds in the world, is still etched, vividly, in my mind.


I've had so many dreams of her..

I can only wish she is happier there. Please take care of her, Ya Rabb. Please have Mercy on her.


I miss you, Mak.
See you in heaven, in shaa Allah.
I love you so much.