Wednesday, June 30, 2004
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hyelozZzZ...1st tings 1st....YESTERDAY NIGHT SINGAPORE HAD A BLACKOUT N MY HOUSE WERE ONE OF THE VICTIMS!! GOSH!! my radio light was TO THE RESCUE!! wif a few other torchlights n batteries..i was talking to him sia..den suddenly..AHHH...sheesh...my hp's light was d 1st to provide light...gosh....i saw someppl playing wif the torchlights..noting to do izzit?!!...my hse got back its lights at 11+pm...did my hw using my radio's light..heehee...see! my radio's useful afteraLL...kkk aniwae...had my fUll dress rehersal today!! sec 3, 2 n 1 watched it....it wasnt good thou...argh....kkk..dis was wat happen...frm d beginning of d day.....went to sch wif sorida...saw idayat..sheeesh...embarrassing sia...shant say more...erm...english lesson was okay...learnt abt reviews n stuffs..p.e lesson was okay too....played frisbee...so nice...i culd catch it!!..yay...of all d tings...i cant catch a ball but i can catch a frisbee..wat sense does dat make??...mt...we did some stuff about listing d tings that happened recently in n out of s'pore den followed weder to collect d food...
=make up session=
mdm salenah scolded us for not following her to collect d make up n costumes...put down our bags at d P.A.C room...kinda hot...no air con!!...starting of d make-up session..washed my face...den mdm norlinshah put make up on me...heheh...den...mdm salenah scolede me for not instructing d sec 1s on wat to do..hey! i did okay...i told them to wash their faces!!...gosh she is totally mad when comes to d make up session...did my hair..pain!! but have to endure....no choice..then did salihah's kain samping..ergh!...kinda tough......then wat happened? erm...found mine...tried to wear mine....hah!...did khairunnisa's hair..diff u noe...she rebonded her hair...n its like stick out here n there..ergh..den pin here n there...then wat happened?...er..can remember...oh..i put on d brooches...did my hair...did the 2 sec 1 girl's hairs...d hair pin cannot clip both hair n wig together!! it keeps popping out!!...sheeesh...did my kain samping.......did my hair....put on d cucuk sanggul..not enuf flowers for me!!...shitties...practiced awhile..den off we gooo..
=our performance=
i was knda nervous! i cudnt hear d song!! i was like..wanna go out..now? later? ah...go now....argh..i saw mj...i saw wj...i saw many others...gosh..juz now i had fold my pants so...i guess it was by luck i folded...dance3....den at d 2nd or izit 3rd chorus we did...after dat azleen fell!! on her knees!! gosh..she was like...0.0! ono!! i was like...o dear..relax....juz do it...carry onn...don faill...azleen had dat 'auwwwww!! pain' face....gosh...ergh...at d last part!! i did a step shorter..i forgot to do a part of a step....i sat earlier!!...i was like...huhhhhh!! o shit....now nobody has got life to dance...it was a failure!!...but not to worry..we shall work harder....waited for d finale...d finale...mazlin go to d other side sia..wat d heLL...i stood there alone..in front...oh yah...did i tell u yet...i saw mj!! oyah..i did..she had dat 'wweeee' smile on her face!! mj..mj.....ergh....finale was okay..but nomore life....aLL dead....
=after performance=
got rid of all our accessories....packed....me dayu n weder didnt wash our face n hair 1st....we did d accesories tingies 1st...d others washed their faces.....den we had to go down to d hall...i told d rest to hurry up...salihah n azleen were taking their owwnn sweeeeeet timmmmee sia.....they went down wif their bags but ended up going back up to d P.A.C rm again....d sec 1s got some scolding frm mdm marlinah coz they were going off 1st...1st time i saw her get real angry...after that...i was suppose to lock the door but me weder n dayu relaxed in there instead..hahax..noti2...mdm marlinah came up...wooops!...we went off after that..washed our faces.....washed our hair...den go to d canteen...bought drinks....den i blah..went off...saw ________ but...cant b bothered....went off...dun ang had dat...wat had happened?? look on his face....when he looked at me...haiz..walked alone....was onli a few cm away frm getting run down by a van....faridah....stop tinking n start paying attention!..sheeesh.......hiaz......cant tink....no...i'm full of thoughts...
=at home=
i slept....sooo tired.....slept wif my contact lens....woke up at ard 6+.....took out my contacts...had difficulty thou...next time cannot sleep wif contact lens!! must remove it 1st...sheeesh..blah3.....watched tv abit...ate.....tried to do hw....talked to mj...kept saying dat i was goood...*roll eyes*..i disagree....i am no good...no no....haiz...now i shall continue doing hw.....dats all wat happened...oyah..i can use my hp!! weEeEe~~!!!!....so now...u can msg me!! call me!! aniting..yippie!! aniwae...todays---->TIRING,HECTIC,NO GOOD!
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
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kkkk....today....i mean..now...i'm damn tired!! in d morning...i mean it....around 1 am...i was printing my stuff...chatted wif adam..hahax...he was also printing stuff..but his printer went dead...i slept 1st...sorry! den i woke up late! shit!...poked my eye for about 5-7mins to put in d FRIKIN contact lens....but its okay..d contacts are very comfy...=P...my father fetched me n sorida to sch...hahar...thank kiu dad!!..hehe...sorida was like..huh??? wat3?...hehex...took her by surprise..coz I was late...stupid contact lens...
at sch...blah3...copied my ss hw..noti faridah!!..heehee..rai went= "hey! i havnt finish that too!!"...2 times..blahah..saw him afew times..=D..haiz....i'm wanting to cry but...sorry...i cant....chged back into our original places...i guess joseph's fed up wif me...i shant say a word den..mr lee kept askin me abt d rehersal tmr...sheesh!...haiz..i went straight home after sch...______ wanted to talk to me but i gtg go...sorry....shitties.....hmph..saw idayat when going home....gd gracious me...i didnt take off my nametag..soo embarrassing!! gawd....blah blah blah...at home my 2nd bro had a new hairstyle!! he was also holding a spiderman figure...gosh..SPIDERMAN!! reminds me of sumting........hmph..
went back to sch...osman didnt come!! osman's my instructor....i wont be suprised if something happens... bloody hell if dat happens....i shant say a word more..d haLL was damn crowded...D BADMINTON PLAYERS ARE SOOO EXTRA!!....we looked for a new place to practice...d 3rd level...no plug hole tingy...at last we used d 1st floor...in front of d toilet at d canteen place there.....Shazni, Fauzy n Farhan MENYEBOK AJE!! don mind me..i'm kinda too tired...at d 1st floor....practice...i taught d two sec 1 ruby girls some dance suddenly huda n gang arrived...i was like...oh god..sHHHH...carry on...den i sw him...idayu called out my name SOOO loud!! gosh....hmph...so loong nvr talk to him...i wonder if he even remembers me animore...=I....hmph...(GOSH FARIDAH! why r u thinking like this??)inform d others about wat to bring all that...gosh! i've got no mirrors!! onli big big ones...hmph....hold on...-gotoshop-..k i'm back..where was i...oh kay.....den we practiced for a few more times...den me, dayu n weder go buy d stuffs for tmr n speech day..i bought waffle...dayu tooo....weder noting...heehee...den bought d stuffs...tmr i'm gonna bring a ppr back FULL of stuffs...i'm so damn tired....i wanna sleep...but i gotta do my hw....saw a couple fighting juz now...i saw her b4...she's my 1st bro's fren....poor ting...haiz...i met a guy hu sang a hidhustani song n danced at d lift lobby juz now...gosh....he stopped n stunned when he saw me...hahax..guess dats all...todays---> TIRING..DEAD TIRING..BUT OKAY...
Monday, June 28, 2004
FUCK LARH!!!!
WAT D HELL HAPPENED TO MY PRINTERR
I'M GOING TO HATE PINK!!
gRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
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hyeloz...todays damn tiring..i don't know y...we did only 1 dance...sheesh..tried on d costume...nice! but so damn troublesome to wear...i guess raihanah knows how it looks like....i bcame d 'model' for d 1st try..its ok..its pink! gosh...wats wif pink these days?? mdm salena made me feel like d president...which TOTALLY SUX TO DA CORE!!! haiz...today there's a chg in time table..so great! had hist today....n i didnt finish my hw...gd thing d next lesson's on friday....there's still mly compo to do...shitties...shared stories wif izza n mazlin...saw adam at d bustop....nasri gav me a piece of chocolate in d morning...how nice....he brought a packet of chocolate almost everyday...sheesh...chocolate freak..juz like me...i guess there's many more out there who are chocolate freaks....har har...hmph..bought my contacts for 18 bucks...so expensive!...d uncle gave me a whole load of advises..told him abt d time i 'droppped' my contacts....harhar...see....how persuasive i am...or shud i say how i can be persuaded sooo easily...hmph! tmr practice....wednesday full dress rehersal...sec 1,2 n 3 gonna see it...sorry sec 4s..u'll have to see it on d 10th of july....its especially for u all....hehe..my printer!! put green colour..prints out beige...put blue prints out pink!! n some red...ergh.....saw d slipper my mom bought...sheeesh...somting like nad's hari raya slipper...sheeeesh...i want something else!! gotta finish my ss now...todays--->TIRING! BUT OKAY!!
Sunday, June 27, 2004
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tried to finish my hw but cant...a whole lot of amaths n emaths to do...gosh...i tried my best..pray tmr i wont be d only one...end of story....-->BORING n SLOW
Saturday, June 26, 2004
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hye....i'm gonna list d tings i did today
-started my emaths hw
-mom,dad n lil bro went to johor(again!)
-met mazlin at 4.30pm
-loitered around Bugis Junction till 6..
-bought a wood-made bracelet tingy
-went to S'pore conference hall
-waited for nad, weder n dayu
-watched d concert/tapestry(it was mesmerizing!)
-ate sumting coz i was starting to hav a terrible headache
-watched d chinese orchestra n band (its was superb!)
-went to bedok
-bought food for my bro
-walked home in d rain(i wont mind getting sick)
-a kitten followed me INto d lift but not out
-refueled my empty digesting system(d food wasnt nice)
-headache still terrible..horrible...unbearable..
now i shall go to sleep...argh! today-->GREAT but TERRIBLE!!
Friday, June 25, 2004
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hyelozZzZz...had a hard time waking up today..i guess its bcoz i cudnt sleep d night b4..haiz..mom woke me up...1st she asked me "do u wan to follow me go to d market?" i said no....den i returned to my dream world..den she asked it again...and again and finally she forced me n my brother to wake up n bathe...awhhh mom....while i was waiting for my brother, i watched a vcd...i waited n waited...my mom was watching d portugal n england match! she said "wait!! 11 den we go"...stupid vcd player, i kept forwarding it but it kept stopping!! shitz...we went off afterall....i wore tappered pants!! i'm no minah tappered okayz...i was hoping NOT to bump into anyone i know...its a small world afterall..i saw nasir...n d sec 4 guys...n sumore i shall not mention...bloody hell...it'll ruin my reputation!! ate at macdonalds with my lil bro...my craving for food depleted just as i started eating..argh!! hate that!! i guess its bcoz i saw d bgss students..everything seems soo boring...soo unlifely..my bro went into d toilet like 15 mins or more which seemed like an hour!! waiting for my mom seemed like a chore!! my mom went home coz my dad forgot to bring his hse hey...wait...! waiting IS a chore..gosh..
finally my mom arrived....we payed some bills esp my hp bill!! ergh! still can't use it!! shitties..after that we went to geylang! looked for d shirt i wanted...heehee..cudnt find a very nice one but found one at least...she bought my lil bro a jersey..she went into a shop n bought for me a skirt!! yeay!! den she went to pray....at d surau there, i observed d man cleaning d rooftop...it seemed fun...i observed d man feed d cats..soo cute...d way they cat cleaned its mouth after eating....see! even cats has some good hygiene...(is dat how its phrased?)...d man tried to disturb a kitten eat..it pounced on its food...its like it was saying "go away!! don disturb my food!! u have ur own!!"..there was one kitten which came after most of them had finish eating..it was like peeking2..den it went nearer n nearer to d food....it was eating wif another cat..i guess dat cat was like "go on..finish my share..i'm full..."..whenever d other kitten went near it..it will like "u don come near me!!".."go away!!"...hahax...den after dat me n my mom n my bro went to d supermarket..bought alot of foodstuffs...even d jelly my mom wanted to buy...i wonder wat was she dreaming off last night...sheesh...den we went to First Lady...bought another shirt for me!! n 4 scarfs...awh mom...WHERE DID U GET DAT MONEY?!...heeheez..after that we went home....wat a day...me n lil bro kept 'fighting' wif each other..hahax..childish...aniwaez todays--->TIRING BUT FINE!!
Thursday, June 24, 2004
oyah.....i forgot something...i met Joshua on d way home....he's got HAIR..really!! shao hao was with him n a few other guys...omg! Joshua's got HAIR!!
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kkk...this time, i shall have to write in perfectly perfect english...nomore singlish(Singaporean English)..coz my panpal might be reading..hoohoohoo...HeLLO TJ!!!!..lets start with todays update...today i went to school for mcc practice....b4 meeting mazlin i used d computer...replied TJ's email...but i was late to meet her...good thing she was still waiting....woops!..our instructor didn't come today...*jump for joy*...good...but then, i keep straining my voice to correct them...i guess nobody likes that...i guess they went "wats up with her?? She isn't the president. So how come she acts like one??"...I'm apologising now....i hate to do that but it is wat I've been told to do...by mdm salenah...me n mazlin corrected them but it seems that they ARE NOT listening...its like I'm talking to d floor or something...hate it sooo much. I taught Indra d 1st part of our step...Indra is d only guy in our grp...isnt it sooo pathetic?? hahax...its been okay teaching him....he got the steps n I hope he remembers it...weder was suppose to teach him too but she rested(is there any such word??) instead...arghhhh....went home with mazlin...my legs are dead tired....they didnt want to return d radio!! shitties...i'm nice for now....i shant be nice nomore....! u heard dat!! i shant b nice!! walked home...ate....slept till 6+...blah blah blah...later i HAVE to finish up my hw....i MEAN it....sch opens in
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
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hyelo..today got mcc...better den yesterday...totally..went to sch wif mazlin half way...den met him...*evilgrin*..erm...saw rai n they all at d bustop..har har...den walk wif him to d hall...he sent me there...heehee...den practiced...we were all quite tired so when rehersals started, all of us lepak...har har..i fell in d 1st rehersal...woops! sorry salihah..heehee..den a tcher complimented me dat i smile alot...well dats wat we are SUPPOSED to DO!!..sheesh...den 2nd rehersal...i kinda forgot my steps...wooops!..saw ____ quite a few times..blahahaha...don boder..don boder...now i got fren during d finale!! yippee!!..mazlin lah..hu else..=)...during d break between 1st n 2nd rehersal, i talked to jyss..(sempat sakz)...she got sunburnt bcoz of yesterday...she went to LP concert!! sooo coool..den i did my hw...so se-mangat....but i leave it bcoz i cudnt do d 1st sum...Amaths larh...wat else...den when rehersals were over maz n i dcided to go eat..weder wanted to follow..i think..but she didnt..terserempak dgn _______...don boder, don boder....nad so loud sia..hahax...no offence...of all d peepz...nad n weder are d best..they are very d open minded n all...i respect themm...JGN KEMBANG PLsss..hehex..maz told me ______ had dat sulky look...i was like...i know...like duhh ______ will look like dat sia..sulker...nti cepat old sakz....don boder don boder...so me n maz ate..den walk home...blahaha....i walked d looong way...wad i care....ohhh i think i'm in love wif d song "come on" by Ben Jelen...reallie...yesterday2 nite i woke up in d middle of d night den i heard dat song...yesterday i switch on d radio in sch n heard dat song...today i switch on my radio n heard dat song AGAIN...ahhhh....so nice to hear...to me larh...heehee...kkk..i reallie have to do my hw now...tuduluz...o yah...do listen to "teenage superstar" by kim-lian too....cool....--->TIRING, LEFT OUT, UNFINE
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
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todays damn tiring....he came..he tortured..we dreaded..yeap...supposed to meet maz at 8..but i came late..hahax...kkk...den i walked..when i reached there, nobody was at d hall so i wonder ard..u NOE hu i SAWW...ehem n ehem...kkk..i don think u noe..hahx..i guess when skool reopens sumbody's gonna b mad...n d ehem will be juz like meyyyy..haiz...stupid drama...i hate it alredi...when skool reopens..i shant b bothered...d dance was HORRID!! damn tiring...we front peepz tried our best..but d back peepz...forgot their steps!! bcoz idayu n izzah werent there...note to idayu: COME TO SCHOOL!...but i understand she's feeling unwell...but she has to bring an mc tomoro..den after d rehersals we continued...i kept shouting...hehe..pls dont think otherwise yah..mdm salenah doesnt seemed to look happey..hmph..i'm no lesbian but i miss Hawa's way of controlling d dancers...they're like sooo good..haiz....osman doesnt seem happy too...hmph..we continued till 1.00pm...den went to eat...we talked abt how to 'control' d dancers tmr...haizz....after dat me n kam n maz walked home...i walked with maz to her blk den i walked home...sleppt for d WHOLE afternoon...but i'm still tired...gonna do hw again later...aniwae, i dont think u want to noe abt my trip to johor...todays--->TIRING TIRING TIRING!
Monday, June 21, 2004
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hyelozzz...today...mcc kinda tough...realllie did some stretching...went home wif maz,kam n izza...bought bb tea..i dropped one!! shitttt....den we lepak at d gazebo..near my hse...nice....talked...i listened...izza n maz talked aloottt...den me n izza bought sum stuff..den go home..tmr gonna hav mcc n rehersal sumore...shitzzz..mom came home wif lotsa cloth..gona make baju kurongs mayb...hehex...i'm gonna update abt yesterday..wrote it in d car...i shall start...
20/06/2004
Today i went to JOHORR!! balek kampong larhh..found my passport at my aunt's hse...fetched my uncle at 10.00..promised him at 8.00am..my mom had d cheek to say she waited for a long time redi...shheeeh...in d car, i tried to sleep buttt i was getting a headache instead...we reached d checkpoint...it was sooo long...my mom was scolding my dad for not going in d other lane n all dat stuff...hahax...heard a drama..sounds abit like our phatetic problem..lets name d gals A n B..A like d guy but he likes B...d guy talks wif B n reassures B dat he has NOTING to do wif A.....A n B got into a verbal fight..B confides in him n tells him abt wats going on...(unlike me)..A had kept some feelings for him but after d news, she felt dat all her hopes n dreams was shattered....but at last it was solved...d guy had a talk wif A....den B came...they talked...solved d matter...A reveals dat she has a husband...she has learnt to forgive herself.."as we get older, we learn more, we get more matured"....i guess everyone has a chance to have a say or two..neither A nor B nor d guy is wrong..nobody knows hu will end up liking hu n hu will get hu n hu will get hurt by hu...i feel like in one of those dramas sia...how phatetic can it be...but watever d case is..i'm not gonna get bothered which is wat i always do...esp dis kind of stuff.....dalah...go do wat u wan...i shant care...everyone shud respect everyone's desicion..well...aniway...enuff of this...
Hidup jangan menyusahkan orang
Biar orang susahkan kiter
i gtg now..update again tmr....
o yah....
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Dear my dearies...(arshad,rai,ct,nisa n ur guys)
would u like to go watch Spiderman on 4/7/2004,Sunday. can u make it? pls tag on my tag board or call me..:D
wif love frm,
Idah
Saturday, June 19, 2004
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hyelo again..just came home from my uncle's gathering...went there at ard 4 plus...met my cuz...wahhh...semue dah maju sey!! hidayah...sec 2..pierce here...pierce there...i wanted to ask whether it hurts or not..but nahh..leave it..imah..sec 1...erm..ok lah..but...erm..i dono how to xplain...at there..i was wondering hu r they praying for...(FOR not TO)..den i realized...my uncle's not there...oh gosh..i'm soo slow...i didnt know HE was d one hu had died..omg...FARIDAH!!! WHY???..after that we went to fetch my granny(bside my father) home...den we went to fetch my sis...welll...i wasnt keen to meet her..but wat d heck..my parents want her to come 'home' on time..me n my lil bro bought food together...den went home..i guess our foods gonna b eaten by my bigger bros instead...LAZY OLD BROTHERS!! argh!! on d way home...i remembered d times my sis got beaten up..how my mom reacted...how my brother reacted..how I reacted...when i was beaten up by her..i was always scared..once i wantde to go to my granny's but my sis stopped me...i even tried to hide in d toilet...NOTHING worked...i'm always d victim...hate d beatings..hate d pain...hate HER!!...i rarely get beaten up by my bros..really...u noe y?? coz i tolerated...n i'm sick n tired of my sis...sick n tired of my bros as well..sick n tired of my parents sumtimes...sick n tired of my lil bro..sick n tired of my friends sumtimes..sick n tired of sch...how abt putting it in whole huh...k fine...I'M SICK N TIRED OF LIFE...MY LIFE!! there..i've admit...todays---> FINE
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y do i always get weird dreams??? n i don mean happy ones...last night i dreamt of my bb fren..yeap..mj..o gosh...i woke up crying as well sia!! i can't really remember wat had happened but i know we were at this place...she was still sick i guess...=/....den she was wif d [dis might sound weird] popular group..while i was just watching from afar..we were still frens but dat time..i dono wat happened we were kinda like avoiding each other..at dat place or shud i say a 'club'...she was kinda like 'performing'..i guess i cudnt stand it animore..so i approached d area where she was...she saw me...den we hugged....n we were crying...i really don get dis dream..but mayb i was afraid of losing my bb fren...after dat i woke up..i think back on dat dream n i CRIED!! omg..i know wat its abt i guess...d heartache of losing a very very great fren...[?]...how abt u figuring it out...?
Friday, June 18, 2004
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juz now..i went out wif my mom n my lil bro...go lib den go window shopping...hahax...its a rare treat for me coz my mom always have 2nd thoughts abt going out esp when my lil bro always dowan to go out...sheesh! typicalll...
1st we went to TAKA to take my bracelet...den we went to lib..wanted to borrow books BUTTTT bcoz my card has fines n my mom's also has fines...[dun bother abt my bro's...] so we can't...my mom was shocked when she saw mine..she was like..9.90?!!! who's going to pay hah?? i'm like..haiz...wad can i do...? harmmmmmmm..den we went to marine parade...go parkway parade n window shopped...looked for sum clothes...i reallie dun fell right wearing a skirt...skirts are a NO NO for me...unless its skool skirt lah..kekek sey...den we bought food den go home...bought bbtea b4 b4 going home..looked like it was going to rain....ahhHHH....at d lib..a strange ting happened...lately i've been hearing tings...at d lib..i heard sumone humming a song...BEHIND ME!! i was like..huh? behind me was a wall...nothing else...err...err...i gotta do my hw now...tuduluz`...--->FINE n BORING
y can't she juz admit it? i mean...its written all over alredi..more than on her face..n she dare say I hate her...omg..hu told her dat man?? trying to cover up using italics n such...i didnt write aniting abt hating her...or did i? watever d fact is..i don't think she shld 'secretly' hate me...o man...juz say it to face lah..ok...i will have my reactions...but isn't dat normal..step kurang ajar sey...i admit i took sumbodi away frm her...n i'm not gonna regret...nope..no offence but she's acting like sumone else...i mean...following another persons footsteps...how dat person also did this to me n all dat..but i think she's acting much more meluat..i dono how to xplain..this is wat i tink..ergh...watever it is...i'm not gonna say sorry again this time...even if i have...ok?...fine then....o gosh..i'm shivering again..ergh
Thursday, June 17, 2004
ouch ouch ouuuuuuuuuuuuuch! i stepped on a thumbtack! grrr..*throwtantrums*..over n out!
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hyelo...not much happened today..i guess..woke up at 10.30 today coz my big bro shouted sumting across d house...den my mom pestered me to hurry up...next thing i know i was waiting for her instead..den we went to my granny's house..
at granny's..i asked my grandadi if i culd use his bike..heehee...its not like those oldies bike u see other old ppl use..but its a..a...stunt bike? i dunno..den my grandadi asked me to do sum errands for him...so i did..bought sum cooking stuffs...after that went down again to cycle wif my lil bro..but he dono how to balance n we kept stopping...he backed out initially..after that, i cycled awhile b4 meeeting my lil bro..i was lazy to carry it up d staircase...thennn carried d bike up to my granny's hse...i carried it up n down like 2 times alredi..sheesh...den my grandad told me to do another errand...i told him i was dead tired but at last i went..wif my mom n my lil bro..har har..i kinda used my money to buy food for them..but my mom returned me d money when we reached d hse..ate..blah3...den walked to d HDB centre..to complain abt a leakage..i was damn lazy to even stand up..told my mom abt how i'm getting sick but not sick yet..after that we bought drinks..i think i'm gonna have a sorethroat...ergh...i hate sorethroat..but thats wat happens when u'r going to get sick..we kinda 'lepak' at d void deck for a while...hahax..
at home...i slept!..for abt 1.5 hrs..i was awaken when i heard techno songs playing..omg! my lil' bro listened to it then my father turned it up really loud..like in d disco..mimpi ape seh dorg...!! i juz ignored..after a few mins my 2nd bro came to d rescue! hahax...he was like ''u think this here is a disco izzit?!!'' den it was kinda softer..but no diff to me...sheesh...i woke up..help my mother on sum cooking..i dropped d coconut pulp into d curry...woops! told u i was a NO NO at cooking..well thats all...i'm doing my hw next...today-->FINE..OK..
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
another piece of me written down....
today is great!! totally...it rox! for me dat is...hehe..k stop dis crap..n get on wif d 'show'..*grin*
yesterday nite...i cudnt sleep..i dono y..den in d morning i woke up CRANKY...yep..it didnt start well..felt like vomiting..i AM NOT pregnant!..force myself to eat..argh..i told my mom i wanted to go out...she was wif her usual words..where u wan to gooo~?? i was like...go jln2 onli..to make her happy...i prayed...yah..or else she wld go...faridah! go pray 1st! or else u don go out!..n also bcoz i had an hour still to meet him..to make time past...haiz..den i went out...hehe....weEeEe~
i reached there quite early..or shud i say 10 mins early? yah...he scare me!! i was like..watching sum person or sum ting..den suddenly HI! n wave2...i was like..okey.....hahax..den we went off...i realized he was happy den usualll..reallie...den we reached d mrt station..we talked...i MEAN it...hehe...den at d mrt station he gave me a gift...its our 1st mth..!! [d gift is a necklace..looks very sweet!! i LOVE it]HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DEAR!!! hehex...den we went to orchard...he wanted to check d movie timings...but we didnt watch a movie..den we walked to Far East...hehe...there was a channelnewsasia interview going on..we were like..o no...but we ignored it..i was stunnned..y? coz he invited to go in starbucks...aHHHH..hehe..i didnt see dat coming...i wasnt sure wether to go or not...ahhHH...*unsurelook*..but we had a drink..har har....den we went out...we walked at far east..den he suggested we go to d beach...yep...east coast beach...we took mrt back to bedok den took a bus..err err...we missed a stop...woops! sorry...stupid me...den sumting happened...ahhHH..hehe..at d underpass...i shant elaborate...mayb u noe wat happen..*grin*..den walked n walked..sat at bench n enjoyed d breeze n d view...aww...den we walked to d jetty...it was a quiet walk...no talk...u noe me....if u don talk, then i wont know wat to talk abt..den we went home...he sent me home!!! weEeEeE~..awWwW..he's just so sweet..i guess its in his blood..hahax..=l...den...heehee..at d lift lobby...i gave him my 1mth anniversary gift....[mj...don say a thing].. *biiigsmile*....i don tink he saw dat coming...*grin*..har har...*cheeky*
den i ran home...har har..i've got my happy mood back!! lalala~...at home..i ate...like wat he told me to..=l...then my mom told me to fry some chickens..i was like..i'm a total NO NO at cooking...really...but it was fun lah...heehee...my mom had d 'hmmm..gd job' look on her face...har har...den my comp got hang hang n more hang..to my dear hacker,can u stop it for dear pls..i hope he/she cares in d 1st place...den at last! it worked...my comp n my mouse was usable! har har...yippiiieee..todays-->GREAT!! HAPPY~~ FUN``
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
another piece of me written down....
wats d point of getting into a relationship if u know u'r gona get hurt sum day? y do ppl even go into one? for now..no relationship can last till d end of ur day..isnt this true? u can't b sure dat it will last till u die..unless u die fast in an accident or u have some illness..the fun of being in a relationship is that u'll feel great...u feel that theres sumbody out there hu at least cares for u..even when u feel d world's gona end tmr..i mean...its not wrong for anyone to get in a relationship...neither is it right for anyone to not get in a relationship..then, y do ppl rule out relationships after they got hurt? they'll know they will get hurt in d end...den y do they get in it in d 1st place? they can't get away from getting hurt,can they? until when will they not get into another relationship? they think they aren't redi...but mayb..MAY BE..they are afraid...afraid of getting hurt..afraid of d fact d guy/gal they will b loving will leave them in d end..y? bcoz d previous relationship hurt them sooo much that it hurts even to see their ex....they even hate them for hurting their feelings..i mean...doesnt that always happen? this is how it goes 'u love him/her sooo much, he/she leaves n hurts u, u get hurt n u start hating him/her bcoz he/she hurt u...' isn't being hurt sumting that always happen? u cannot help it can u? one day if its not u, the other party will ask for it..even if u dont expect it....
another piece of me written down....
today....tuesday 15/06/04...is hot hot day..my goddd.. woke up at ard 11 plus...coz yesterday reached home at abt 12 n slept at abt 1+..so...i'm kinda tired...was awaken by noise...my wish to do my hw today wasnt accomplished..it always goes like that..u say u wanna do it but in d end u dont..unless u r those enthu kind..mom went to clinic wif my sis..she sick lah...GOOD FOR HER!..me at home..do hsework instead..chat n chat..watch tv...slept..now blogging..i'm soooooooooooo bored..shit...i wan to do my eng hw now...eng hw left 1 more review,tys n 2 newsppr cuttings..the rest of my hw...HAVENT START! k...i'm gonna do it NOW...tuduluz`...-->HOT N BORING!!
another piece of me written down....
14/6/04
hyeloz...today started out boring..at home..did nothing..went to do some errands...blah blah blah...den mj called..asked if we culd watch d movie today...so we did! wanted to do my hw..but..argh..cudnt...went to meet mj at simei mrt...n i mean it..MRT..we really did..hehe..den went to TM to see d movie timings..den walk2..called my sis a few times..coz we planned to watch it wif her..den met her at plaza singapura..
at plaza singapura..me n mj bought d tixs 1st coz my sis ws late..den we walked n walked...juz to make time pass n mj got to eat sumting..she was hungry...cannot blame her..blame her stomach...hehe...den..went up again..waited n waited n waited..at last my sis came...she suprised me till i practically squaded..ouch! den bought d popcorns n drinks n nanchos...n watched Harry Potter..is dat how u spell it? i suddenly forgot...
Harry potter was ok..his very gd looking i hav to say.. hermoine too...jambu~..dreko...ok2 lah..to me he isnt a hot stuff...bcoz my sis had watch it n mj had read d book..it left me alone hu has totally no idea wat d story is gona be..it turned out ok...i was d one hu was...how u say...dramatic? i kinda wanted to scream[not bcoz i was scared but bcoz it was juz so evil] but mj n my sis kinda stopped me..sheesh..it was sweet...it was sad..it had quite alot of action...it had humour...it was full of thrills...d dementor looked evil....serious wasnt dat bad..d professors were ok...snape looks..erm...silly...not d fierce type...it was great lah...everything turned out fun...n unlike wat i xpected until....
here comes d part i hate..k..mj n my sis got along well...yea..we were hungry so we kinda looked for a place to eat...my sis told me to go in watsons so i did..wif mj...like duhh..her bf was inside...wanted to eat at pizza hut...but didnt...at pizza hut..her bf suprised us...sheesh..he was kinda frenly i must say...too frenly i guess..but i still give him a 7.5..her bf wanted to bring us to a place to eat..so we waited for him.....
the wait...it simply sux..i didnt think my sis wud do it but she did..she told mj ALLLLLL d bad things abt our family...such a bitch..no..she IS a BITCH!! this is d 1st time i actually name sumone a totally a BITCH!..it juz hurts me to hear my sis..saying at least a bad thing about all my family members..i mean...doesnt she feel bad?? i dont think she has feelings...no..i doesnt..while she was telling mj abt MY family members..which does include me n doesnt include her...i was like.."WAT D FUCKING HELL?!! WHO DO U THINK U ARE?? HOW DARE U TALK LIKE THAT ABOUT MY FAMILY?!! ABOUT MY BROTHERS!! HOW DARE U!! WAT?? U THINK U R AN ANGEL EY?? FUCK OFF U SHIT!! U ARE NOT EVEN GOOD LIKE THEM! NOT A TINY BIT...DON'T THINK U WERE SENT TO GRANNYS COZ MOM WANTED U TO HELP THERE...she sent u ther coz U r a TROUBLE MAKER!!U coz ALL d TROUBLE IN this house..think u R so goodddd..." from here onwards i was alredi crying...everything i heard was ear piercing..heart breaking...how can she say such things..n she dare call my mom n shout at my mom sumore...forcing my mom to tell her wat happened to me..WELL GUESS WAT! its U!! its ALL abt U!! U TROUBLE MAKER...U BITCH!!..i was crying like nobody business..me n mj went to d toilet...she called my mom den...i told mj wat actualli happened..my brothers had d right to scold or even beat us if we were rude..isnt that true?! everyone does..even frens...its like my bro told her to turn off d radio n she switched it on even louder..hu wudnt get mad...get angry?? she's totally insane..I HATE U!! I HATE U!!
then her bf came...he was like...wat happened?? he didnt know anithing...she's so inappropiate..she wears a tudung n she uses nail polish n says bad things abt her own family members n she holds hands with a guy...she even called us[mj n i] lesbian...pls lah..if u wanna wear it..den, behave like one...minah fering sak...den we ate...d food sux...really..n he said it was nice..*puke*..den we went home...he send her to city hall..my sis wanted to send mj den send me home..but i went home by myself instead...got to know that her bf actualli went to jc...he told us to go poly..LIKE DUHHHHH..omg....den he said amaths n Olevels was easy..i'm like 'u've gone thru it alredi...we havnt'...he asked us wat sub we took..n we emphasized AMATHS n PURE..he looked like O.o ...watever...came home...told my mom abt y i cried..she was like..ur sis got a problem..she ah..whenever ppl ask her properly, she will shout back..its nowonder ur bros get angry so fast...i'm like..DATS Y.....hu wudnt get angry...she is a BITCH!! she Is a BITCH!! SHE SUX! SHE SUX! SHE SUX! since d day i was born!
I HATE U SISTER!! U OFFENDING BITCH!!!
aniwaes todays-->FUN, FRUST, TIRING
Sunday, June 13, 2004
hyeloz...i stayed at home today..did some chores...went to do some errands...saw idayat on d way..watever lah..cooked sum eggs..hehe..watch bend it like beckham..surf d net...dats all...funnie...i didnt sleep...coz it was too quiet...my bro was watching golf so it was as if d spirit of this hse has left..oh dear..no life...my 1st bro went out..2nd bro came home..den got some life..me n my 2nd bro kinda noisy lah..hehe...till now parents still havnt returned home..shud hav gone out juz now..sheesh..my butt still hurts...my hand hurts as well..feel so weak..damn it..argh..dats all..end of story...-->BORING
Saturday, June 12, 2004
hyeloooooow...today was tiring n butt-hurting n leg cycling n loads of laughter n far distanced n hours long n muscle cramping n FUN n...d list goes on...hahax..it was a very GREAT day!!! hehe..spent like 4 hours cycling plus some walking..hahax..i cycled to n from home to East coast..such a blast! hehe..
this was how it went..i barely did anithin at home..waiting for time to pass seems like a chore!! sheesh..i cutt by thumb while washing d scissors..ouch! den at last it was time to go!!! like usualll my parents told me to ring dis lah..dat lah..my mom helped me sew my bro's bag bcoz it had a hole n i wanted to use it..den i filled up my bottle..blah blah blah den went off...
went to d bike's shop to pump my tyres..i feel sooo stupid..i tried to pump but d it seems dat my tyres were losing air..so i stood there like a fool..waiting for d uncle...den i realized dat i had to lie my bike to pump d tyres...stupid me...i hurt my other thumb while pumping d tyres..so now BOTH of my thumbs hurt..den i rushed to east coast coz i tot i was late...butttt i ended meeting them went at d bustop...they were getting down d bus...i was like..ehh??? den i saw rai..she was like EHHHH..farrr...!! hehe..everyone was like suprised to see me..esp coz i was still on my bike..hehe...den we walked slowly to east coast..rai helped me wif my bike..rai so strong..so baik.. so......i dono wat else to say...:p
at east coast..mj tried my bike...den rai..mj was like wobbly2..going ahhh..ahhh...den laughing..den when rai rode my bike..she was like wahhhh bestnye....hehe..den they rent their bikes..rai n weder took a mountain bike kind..while mj n wj took a double seated one..mj bcame d bike's navigator..hehe..they were like wobbly wobbly den woosh...they're gone...hehe...rai was having trouble getting her bike stand off...i helped her...hehe..den we cycled n cycled n cycled...to d jetty..weder had trouble with her bike...i kinda do some adjustments n it kept quiet..hahax..den when we reahed d end of d jetty..wj had difficulty adjusting her seat sooo a 'hunky n handsome' young lad came to her rescue....whoosh...hehe..me n rai had dat look...hehe..wj's a pretty lady waht...den we cycled n cycled n cycled again...to dono where...wj n mj had some trouble wif their bike so me n rai n weder went off 1st..we cycled n cycled n waited for d pair to arrive but they didnt so we u-turn back..rai n weder xchged bike wif wj n mj...rai n weder went off 1st...wj was having difficulty paddling..she cud reach d ground buuttt she wasnt dat confident n kept saying i'm gona fall..i'm gona fall...hehe..nolah wj..see u can do it!! mj didnt have anni ploblem...den they chged back to their original bikes..hahax..den we cycled to another jetty...so peaceful n calm there...so windy too..mj n me were like 'competing' to d end..hahax..laame..den u-turn to d other side...mj n wj were like sooo fast..i was abt to catch up but bcoz i was afraid i cycled onto d pieces of shit[yea..dono which dog go n shit on d bike track]so i cycled on d grass but went into d longkang instead..gd thing wj,mj went off 1st while rai n weder we still at d back..den we cycle cycle cycle..rai took over me...den weder...i was d last...i was tired...tried to catch up but..wat d heck..they're too far..at last i did..den weder me n rai cycled together..n we planned to over take mj n wj..which wat we did..hehe..den we cycle cycle to 7 eleven...mj n wj returned their bikes halfway...so they were waiting for us at d Lagoon restaurant place thingy...we bought drinks..rai so goood..treat weder..me leh??? heh..we saw arwin n another guy...i forgot his name redi..we were like figuring out where d cups were..we had to pay 1st b4 getting d drinks sia..went out of 7-11...i was d last to go off..saw arwin smiling at me..i was like okay...den i went off..don care...it felt gd to stand up for a while..den we cycled back to d lagoon...i was 1st so i didnt know wat was happening..felt uneasy when d guy i didnt know said bye to me..i was like..huh? hu r u?..but i didnt bother...heard rai n weder talking to another guy..i was like..were u talking to him...??? but it was like duhh..it ws arwin..askin sum stuffs...cycle cycle cycle..i finish my drink soooo fast sia..den when we got to d lagoon thingy..we were like wondering..where n how can we get in??? no bikes allowed..but den mj was waitin at d other side...they sat at d table where we culd like 'park' d bikes rite bside us...rai bought for me n weder chicken rice..THANKS RAI!!! she bought herself kway teow while mj n wj bought char kway teow...mj was like..we r drinking oil sia..d noodles r like swimming in oil...me n weder ate...rai ate..wj oso ate..talked abt d tmr thing..SORRY i cant go...then we went to return their bikes...funny..d cleaners there were like competing to clean up d table...o.o...hehe...den we returned..mj was in a delimma..whether to go home or follow us..but at last she went home..so me, weder n rai walked on d beach..aww so sweet..hehe..weder got 'shoo-ed' away by d sea water..hehe...den we walked n walked n at last walked home..i mean to d bustop lah..we were like talking n laughing n hurting our stomach to d core! hehe...den weder was 'Belo', i was 'Sotz' while rai was 'Giler'..hahax..n they also gave me a nick for their you n me tingy..i'm 'WE'..sheesh...lame sia..hehe..we walked till d bustop...damn funny sia...its like ya...we were making jokes n stuffs..i told them of my dream..i wonder hu is d guy in my dream...i don think d previous one was mr lee also..i wonder if it was him..haiz...i miss him..really...stupid bill of mine..shit sia..den after d bustop i cycled home..my butt damn hurts sia...i had to like stand everytime there was a bump..even now my butt still hurts...shit...haiz....reached home..got myself water..den bathed..so cooling...argh i'm soo tired..haiz..ok lah..aniwaes today is ---> BUTT HURTING FUN!!!
Friday, June 11, 2004
hyeloz peepeelz..i'm feeling great today...today didnt start out great but it went on great..i spent most or half of the day at mj's hse...we did many stuffs..yep2..it was FUN..u noe FUN...F+U+N=FUN...yea...this is how it went....
i had dis weird dream of mr lee...oh god...of all tchers..sheeeeeeesh...den after dat i met up with rai, mj, fizah n weder...rai n weder was wif their ME n YOU stuff...u wont understand...i'm positive of dat..den we went to ljs at tamp to eat...rai ate damn slow...sheesh..no offence ya..den we went to TM..me n mj went off early...we went to mj's hse...at mj's hse mj taught me how to roller blade..hehe..it was funny lah..i laughed till i cried...hehe...den we went outside to roller blade..i was abt to fall when i wanted to reach outside d gate..phatetic...i went damn far i tell u..erm pratically..ermm...two houses away? yah..two hses away...its far...for 1st timers like me...hehe..den we had a drink..den went upstairs n used d comp...we kinda got scolding frm her mom coz there were some inspections going on...so..we went outside...we went to play d swing...b4 dat mj wanted to sort of play catching..remind us how old we are???? hehe...d swing pat was fun...we are childish..mj n i had an idea...to have a bbq pit...yea..anione wanna join??? hehe...not yet planned thou..den we went back to d hse n water d plants..we saw many rainbows...aww...we played wif d water oso..hehe..so fun.....very d funny...den...i had to go back home..awww.. den we walk to d traffic light..hahax..her mom was nice...yeay...tmr go cycle-ling....yea...cant wait..hehe..i wanna sleep now..todays-->FUN!! GREAT!!
hyelo peepeelz...me is at mj's hse now..learning how to roller blade.. fortunally..i can balance...unfortunately i cant move myself..laugh till i cry sia...just now i fell...mj got scratch..ouch!*..hehe..SORRY JANE!! she got scratch by me of coz....we were going fast den....AHHHHHHH!! *boom!* den when i wanted to get up...wahhhhhhhhh...like climbing mountain...sheesh..now is just in her room...wish me luck later...coz i'm going outside to blade..ahhhhhh...hope fully i don fall alot of times..i must count..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....wish me luck!!
good morning everyone...i've this very weird dream just now...mr lee beng wah was in it...i ws crying like hell..i dono y...it seems that d dreams was abt maths..ya..maths! sumthing i realli love..but...i dono y..i cudnt do d sums..others cud...i was d onli one hu cudnt do aniting..i was d onli one hurrying...how to get it done?? was d question in my head....i really cudnt do it..seeing how hopeless i was..i cried...all my heart out...i threw d papers...i threw my frens papers away...i juz cudnt bear it anymore..i was crying like it was the end of the world...den mr lee came..he walked slowly..his look..it was pitiness...he was looking sad n disappointed n pity..i didnt care..i juz continued crying..he might have been afraid..he touched my head slowly..those caring touches..u noe...stroking my head...slowly..with care..i closed my face with my hands...i really dont know y i cried...y am i having these kind of dreams where i end up crying my heart out??? y? i woke myself up after dat...trying my best not to end up crying in reality..in d real world...is my life that sad??
Thursday, June 10, 2004
hyelo...i'm bored...REALLY BORED...u know BORED..B-O-R-E-D=BORED...k..dis was wat i did today..
i went to geylang with my mom...yea..go to d market..ya..d mommy n daughter ting..when we crossed the road my mom hold my hand...awww...d mommy ting...awww..it was kinda short..we ate porridge..oklarh d porridge..hehe...hmph..i wonder where is everybody....i slept after readin d newpaper...i really need to stop sleeping n get out..do something really useful...rather than sleeep sleeep sleep..i'm sick of it redi sia....ahhh...we're going ice-skating..omg..i cant even skate..u wan me to go ice-skating??? o dear....hmph...i got to learn somewhere...hu's willing to teach?? thats d problem..haiz...i willl totally look stupid..ahhhhhhhh
aniwae...today's-->BORING!!!!
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i'm afraid i cant go on saturday...shit shit shit..wat am i going to tell my mom?? "mak,can i go to a grp date this saturday? i'm going wif my bf..pleeese.."..my mom will go ballistic!!
today i didnt go out wif him coz of d bad n stupid weather..so he called my hse...den my mom picked it up..when i wanted to ans it...she asked "hu r u going out with later???" i was like...huh??...den i answered d fon..quietly..shit shit shit...after dat i acted scared...i mean as in dont disturb my mader..n hiding under d pillows...shit shit shit...after dat..it seems my mother wasnt angry...phe'eww! ergh...wonder how will she react when i ask her abt saturday...aniwaes todays--> BORING!! SHITTY!!!
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
hyeloz...d main main thing i did today was...SLeEp..yes..me is a terrible terrible sleepy head..yes..I'M A SLEEPY HEAD!!!
k..today..i woke up..blah3..den sleep again till 9.30 am..my mother lah..i told her to wake me up at 10..she wake me up at 9.30..stupid living room clock..den i ironed my clothes..blah3..i got redi 30 mins faster..sheeesh..so i went into msn..chat wif idayat..den went off to sch..i walked...i reached there rite on time..11.30am..yesh..buuut d person whom i was suppose to meet..was late...weeedddeeer.....yup..i met mazlin while looking for weder..but at last we met in d toilet..blahxz..den we put down our bags n looked for mdm salenah..on d wae we met up wif d sec 1s...den met up wif mariana n her lil sis..awwwwwwww...so cuuuuutee..mariana's such a sweet n responsible sister..ogod...i wish i had a sis like her...hmph..den at last we practiced..i tot mdm salenah did not notice her sis..blahxz..hahax...den we got to eat..it was d leftovers d npcc left..we had to finih it somehow...den i went home wif mazlin..we went to bedok int 1st..i needed to do sum errand..mazlin was talking non-stop..i was laughing non-stop too..blahxz..notin to do..i reached at home..den...i......SLEEEPPPPPPP...yesh..such a pig..i was like...sleep den wake up...blink3...sleep again..hahax..den i woke up at 6...ate...den blah3...den i went to do some errands...i'm such a good girl...*bluekz* saw some mats n zahid...my ex sch mate...i saw one of d mats..he was ok looking..but we cant judge someone by their looks can we...so now...i've got noting to do..hmph..can't wait...i wanna go tmr...n sat/sun's grp date..i wonder...........aniwaes..todays--->FINE yet BORING
Monday, June 07, 2004
hyeloz peepz...todays a FINE day..yep..hehe..today me n abt 2 third of my class n 1 third of 3/3 went to jurong island!! yea..d fact dat d previous class said it was boring..i totally have no interest in going..here's how it went..
it was raining this morning..my father fetch me to sch...i tot d gate was closed..my father was screaming at me coz d staff 'magically' opened d gate..blahxz..he was screaming at to go in..omg..i was like 'yelah..yelah..org gi lah..pe seh..' which means yes2..i'm going!!..i met jyss n d rest at d canteen..we sat for awhile..copied for awhile den went to d porch...ya..we saw many studs frm other schs coming in..eg victoria, coral sec, chai chee, st pats n etc..they were here for npcc training i guess..at d porch, we sat there like got noting to do like dat..hahax..d funnie part was when ms kang & mrs song arrived..ms kang had d 'wat d heck r u all doing here?!' look..we greeted mrs song..she gave us abit of lecture..hahax..den we took d bus..d boring part was mr joseph,d facilitator, talked all d way till we reached the place..NON-STOP..hahx..we sort of paid attention..WOW~!~..u noe y..i too dont know y..mayb coz we r interested? he was talking abt geography n abt competetiveness..for once..we are hist studs..k lah..giv way to d 3/3s...hahx..i doubt they're listening..josie read his 'barry trotter' book..kinda like harry porter but another version..shessh..he got chua-ne'ed a few times..by da-ren of coz..we were 'amazed' when we reached there..d pass was DAMN big i tell u..when we reached there, we were amazed by the pipes n industry.. kind of..then..we had a break..after dat we went to ChemGallery..which was interesting for us coz we're pure chem studs..ya...we had to see a kind of programme 1st..i sat on a kind of loong seat..my foot culdnt reach d floor..ya ya..i noe i'm short...mr joseph show us a kind of periodic table..mrs tan was answering the qns..hehe..its like mrs Tan n mrs Wadhwani was also learning n filling up d wkshts wif us..u noe me..like to test n experiment n meddle wif stuff..we culd do dat there..hehe..there was a hole dat we culd crawl thru..i didnt do dat lah...walao..but i tried other stuff..hehe..i pressed the buttons..dropped d balls..pulled the cranks(i tink thats wat it is called)..hehe..den..i had to argue wif ting2 abt d iodine bottle..she tot d ting covering ard the bottle was rust..i was going 'no...its iodine..u see..look at the rest of bottles...omg..' den it was time to go back to sch..we applauded to mr joseph n captain chong(i tink)..i wanted to sleep on d bus..but cudnt coz d stupid speaer wont shut up..sheesh..i saw an accident..a few cars were smashed behind a truck..a few metres away were 2 cars..both badly 'hurt'..i went straight home after dat..i ate den sleep...sheesh..yep..hehe..i slept..ya..dats all..woke up at around 6.30..den blah3...yep..dats all...Todays-->FUN n INTERESTING..:p
p/s argh...i miss sumbodi...whats happening to me?? but i cant stop myself..its sumting i've always done.....i miss u..
Sunday, June 06, 2004
hyelo peepez..today i went to 2 places and stuffed myself wif food...i went to 2 weddings..actualli 3 but we didnt arrived at d third one..my parents got d wrong address..me n family went out to d 1st wedding at rivervale..we tot we were at d wrong wedding...hahax...didnt know my father's fren was very....'nice'..hahax..one of them had their hair standing up..culd he b a punk? hahax...the place was beautifully layered out..it looked very simple but it was nice...it ws blue..got butterfly somore...hehe...my father told me i was big oredi so i have to salam d bride's/groom's mother...i was like..huh?? den d second wedding was at woodylands..woodlands lah..it was my aunt's aunt's daughter/son wedding..if u get wat i mean..it was ok...d karaoke part sux! dono hu sing..my god..tot my ear cud've broke! sheesh...it was very fancy there..d gifts esp..d big/old ppl got these big prezzies..while d kids got a small one..aww..i got d BIG one...i must b a vase or sumting..hahx..den my aunt gave me n my bro 'airbatu m'sia' n i took a container of pudding..kinda nice..but...it didnt suit my taste thou..bluek!...hahax..den i slept in d car...i'm a heavy sleeper...ya..dats me..rarely i wont sleep...yep...we wanted to go to d 3rd wedding...but..when we reached there, there was NO sign of ANY wedding..shish..we gave up den went home..i sleep again..hahx..aniwae todays-->OK, FINE n TIRING.
Saturday, June 05, 2004
hyelo...how are u? havin fun? i came home a few mins ago..lost my appetite to eat coz of d moment..
in the morning,i met guan at d bustop den went to d dbsbank in tampines to meet fizah,rai,jun n weder..ya..mj was late..sheesh..i tot i was d one hu was late..den..we collected d tin..jun went home to chg but we didnt see her after dat...fizah n rai went to rai's place to chg..me, cal, mj n weder went off to simei..yea...we did some collections..i recieved loads..they all were like kinda jealous plus pissed off wif me coz i keep 'taking' d 'customers' away..hahax..it was kinda tiring..den we went to mj's hse..a few mins later,rai n fizah came as well..we watch Honey...its like soo out-dated redi..but wat d heck...we still enjoyed it..den we went to collect more money...hahax...we split up to pairs..me n mj were like walking..walking..but most of d ppl took a detour when they saw us..sheesh.....soo sorry mj..i was damn tired n yah..needed my mom's consent 1st..sorry jane..dont hate me........: (
den...me, rai, weder n fizah went to tm awhile...walk2 den go home...kinda boring...i was so sian..so i decided to take 67 wif fizah n weder...den walk hm....duno y..i felt stuffed n d bus..i felt very, very heavy...den i walked hm.....bought sum food to eat on d wae but...d particular moment made me lose my appetite..my heart felt heavy after d 1st sight..i was telling myself..calm down faridah..its juz ______...nomore den dat...dun get urself abroad..i felt like getting myself knocked down by a car..wats worth living when all u get is trouble and all d negative thoughts and everyone's against u and hating u and..argh..there's juz too much to say...i shan't say more..as i walk after dat..my destination seemed longer n longer..my footsteps were getting shorter n shorter...i'm alredi disheartened b4 dat...i'm feeling much more miserable rite now...argh...mayb i shud spend time tinking abt myself..tink abt wat i want in life..tink abt wat i really wan to do..time to tink abt me..not anibody else..don be self-conscious..don think abt wat other's might say...haiz...i shall go for now..goodbye..
Friday, June 04, 2004
hyelo...i'm being hit wif a slight flu for now...a normal thing esp after i wake up...sumore i slept on d cold cold floor...blahz..
in d morning, my mom told me dat she was going to cook spaghetti tmr...i was NOOOOO coz i wasnt going to be hm for like half of d day or more..hehe..den went to meet mazlin to go for mcc..it seems like me n her r like hawa n marlina..ya...we had to like so-called be the so called ppl incharge for today coz ya...me n her came 1st..me n her are like d ppl hu know wat to do...i sux at commenting so...yah..sorry..hahax..no offence ya..mazlin, relax ya..
den me n mj n fizah gg went to watch Shrek 2..woohoo~ at last..it was fuuny and cute and childish and fun and sweet and sad and and evil and u culd juz go 'awwwwww..' for like alot of d scenes..ya...i duno how to describe..esp d part when....d cat went-->
soooooooo cute!!!! omg.....Fiona's father n shrek had a so-called food fight...d pig flewwww...hahax...den when shrek turned into a human being..so sweet.....den when d Donkey went "i'm a stallion beybeh!"..hahax...den when Fiona said she love shrek bcoz of hu he is..so sweet...i guess fairy godmothers arent so nice after all..d prince charming sux sia..sooo arrogant...REALLY!! at last Fiona's father finally get it why Fiona loved shrek..n finally accepted shrek..so sweet..he got turned into a bullfrog sia..sheeshh..den when they had d fiesta...so...fun! hehex
den me bought sum stuff den went hm..but fizah went to meet her prince charming...where's mine??? where IS he?? haiz...den at hm..ate watch tv den slept...coz i needed to wait for my bro to use d comp..he needed to finish his hw..i woke up when i was forced to send sumting to him..he forgot to bring an envelope..den in return..he gave me a half filled can of coke..soooo phatetic..eesh..haiz...tmr's flag day...woohoo~...wish me luck..todays-->TIRING BUT FUN!!!!
Thursday, June 03, 2004
hyelo...me eygayn..juz reached hm frm d rehersals..ok lah..our dance was a HORROR i tell u..i wasnt confident we culd do it but ya..we tried our best..it was tiring..there's another self-practice again tmr..shoot..but nemind..it gd to hav sumtings to occupy me..we had to sing a song called The best that i can be..kinda nice..i have to stand in d front row..shit..den me n mazlin went hm together..i tink she can write up a book...she has alot of stories up her sleeve..can't stop talking..blahz..we talk frm frens to d dance to d ting in d trees.....uhuh..yep..i felt kinda terrified after dat..sheeesh..i guess dats all..todays-->BORING & TIRING
hyeloz...me aegaen..kinda tired but i don care..went out to eat at bk wif mj n wj..they're like sisters sia..ya..we ate very slow..its like i'm d 1st to finish...which is like so rare...n i choked! o gosh...sux sia...i went to sch wif him..i came right on time..yea..he oso..:P..remedial was fine..kinda funny...not dat boring..it was raining when we finished remedial...fizah bcame d human transporter...hahax...ya..my umbrella sux..sorry..juz wanna type dis few words down b4 i return my book..its damn nice..so meaningful to me..bluek..k here it goes..
"It seems to me when ppl went around insisting that things like beauty & dates & popularity didn't matter when they knew it wasn't true. Why couldn't they just admit that things like that did matter & that life was sad & unfair sometimes & maybe if you cried alot about it,then you'd feel better later? why do they go around lying about things like this?"
k..now's time for me to go for d stupid rehersal..tuduluz~!~
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
hyelo..its me again..not much hapened..well..i chat wif him..yea..hehe..den i slept..me n my bro woke up at 5..dats coz my elder bro called n i have to pick up d frikin fon..sheesh..den he ordered pizza..two kinds..so nice..:P mayb coz he's hungry n i dowan to buy food..=P lazy lah...juz woke up u know....haiz...i dun like holidays when i'm stuck at home doing noting..neither do i like holidays when i need to go back to sch...dats not call holiday now does it? well..guess dats all...such boring days...
hyelo peepel..how are u? having fun these days? thats gd to hear..if ur having fun i mean..i'm juz bored..bored to death..i had a dream dis morning..i woke up awhile den sleep again..den i had d dream...i dreamt of sumbodi...:P it was nice thou..hehe..i always have those kind of dreams...it NOT wet dreams k..
wanted to go m'sia today..but too bad i cant find my passport..owhere owhere is my passport...so now i'm at hm...i tink i saw my ex juz now..he still looks d same..at last i saw him..but its from afar...wonder if he realized i was there......kinda miss him thou..but i dowan to get back to him...i juz don't..haiz...i'm cut off frm contacting ppl thru my hp..no calls no msgs..shit..i miss msg alredi..haiz...most of all i miss my frens..i miss him..:P...i kinda miss d tchers as well..haiz...
ppl whom i miiiiiiiiiissssssss so much are
MEI GUANNIE(where are u girl,nbr contact me..:(),
My DeAriE(haiz...wad shall i do..),
RAIHANAH(thx girl! for d 'long lecture' on d tag-board),
Weder(mane kah dikau? dgn si dektu kot),
Nad(miss u frm d start gerl),
Lidya!!(u ah....dun forget to buy me souveniers k),
Joseph chen wei xian!(hahax..thx for d advises!),
Jyss(i'm no lesbian.u helped me alot.thx!),
Khadijah(when r we gona go out?),
my ex(i'm sorry....)
summore hu ah...i cant seem to list down all..aniwae..if u treat me as a fren..den u'll know i'll be missing u..i'll blog again if anything good happens aight..for now its-->BORING!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
hyez.....i don't have any mood to blog today..since the start of today. went to skool wif him...den had amaths remedial...kind of boring...walk home with joseph after that...he gave me advises as usual..he cudnt explain wat he was talking..he ended up walking coz he was chased n chua ne'-ed by kok hwa..if u dono wats 'chua ne'-ed'..ur not alone...thx joseph...at home, i tried a skirt which was my aunt's last time..so tight sia...sheesh..den i slept..read my bk...i finshed it today..juz like wat i planned...it was sweet. esp when sarah went out with ben...they are like not steadies but they start holding hands n stuffs redi..not sleep together lah..found out my mom hadnt paid my fon bills...haiz..aniwae...thats it..sorri dear......
I think about all those people in my life. I think abt the ways we all fail each other & hurt each other. But maybe that isn't the important thing. Maybe the most important thing is we go on trying. Do u think so? No matter how terrible we are or how much we fail, we go on trying, picking oursleves up, trying agaiin. Reaching out. Trying again. Do you think that's true? Maybe it is. I'd like to think so.--words from the book, Conditions of Love by Ruth Pennebaker.