i've been tired of listening to my mp3 songs so i tuned to 987fm from the start of the day till night. it's refreshing to listen to new but common songs. listening to the djays babbling all the way puts life and i just laugh when its funny. heck where i am, its just nice to let out a sincere laugh sometimes.
i'm thinking of getting my lil neffy a tabla toy but i just couldn't find it just now at tampines. it's either because i'm not familiar to the place or i find other places much better, because TM is starting to be such a bore. okay, i am sorry. but right now, there's renovations everywhere and there's just too much common things. something new-er maybe?
talking about birthdays, happy BEEEELATED birthday to RAIDER, GOH MEI JUAN, ADILLAH, AISHAH(SASH), NADHIRAH, SHAKINAH, ADILAH(BVPS) and whoever else who had their birthday before today.
celebrated raider's surprise birthday at ECP and it was funneh. everyone was there before the birthday girl and bf, and when she walked in, sufian go shouted her bf's name. they didn't walk the route we waited at so we started singing as she walked past, within the fence. kecohhh! one thing, WE WAITED FOR THEM TILL THE CANDLES DIED! thanks abdillah. it was the first time we had our own bbq and it was the first time EVER that we had melted wax covered cake. ew. we heard it was poisonous so we had to throw a quarter of the cake. thanks to abdillah too. hah. love ya'll!
i joined MJ's party halfway and they were on top of a hill in pasir ris. i got lost at the beach so i took 2freakinnghours to get there. walking alone while it was getting dark IN pasir ris. i was just hoping nothing passed by. wwe sat on the rubber mat thingies and we had sparklers too! mj was throoown into the sea and then rai, kenneth and ryan followed. i escaped. hehhh. hanna just had to stuff her homemade sushi into my almost empty mouth and good thing i didn throw up. haha. everything else was fine but i lost my earpiece there. boo. i miss you all!!!! lepak soon!!!
you how sometimes listening to a new song, a new language or a new information can be so interesting that you don't have to understand to listen to it? a french man talked to me just now and his accent is just so new to me. he promoted his glass pendant necklaces and i love them but i'll get them some other time. he said its painted by students in italy so that makes the necklaces so unique. unique, thats faridah. name je...padehalpadehal.
ohohoh! swain and i attended the Maroon 5 concert along with Jeffrey and Sarah and it was pretty good, apart from the seats(we sat across J&S, like literally) it was good. M5 sounds the same, recorded or live. so that should be a good good thing right? but they gave an abrupt stop to the concert so that's the boo part. adam looks good and drummer's cute. heh
whudddelseee...oh, did i say? i had to describe 400photographs in my report? and it took me 3 days. incredible! and its the most lamest descriptions ever to write in a report. love my job. sneezy was stressed due to grumpy but he's doing fine. and tamagochi's hot among the chinese girls(there's only 2 in the office) and one has got a baby. they can be the lamest people but they're cute. 2 MORE WEEKS!
ah sheet, i've been thinking about tarian lately. i don't know lah why. but i have to say now or its going to hit me like concrete. passion, there. morale, lost in the amazon. get what i mean? no? figure it and don't ask me.
yah, when i have the oppurtunity to meet those faraway, i feel too lazy coz they are far away. but i miss them. now i dread going to school. eunos is already too far.
love this song now, just dont know where to get it.
Sleep Must Heal The Heart - Molly Marlette
I find out answers When I don't ask While I stand here With a visit form my past
I didn't invite you I asked you very kindly To leave when I wanted you Please do not remind me
It was me that said
Chorus: Please do not go You don't know you can't stay I can't sleep When you're gone Did you know I only lie awake Til mornin'
I consented to walk What's the harm in a stroll A couple of blocks Couldn't take a toll
I consented to talk What's the harm in catching up It's been twelve blocks and back I'll never have enough
It's me that says
Bridge: You said what's the harm in trying I say, what's the use when you know all along You always said, each day's a new start You must sleep well Sleeping must heal the heart
Thursday, March 27, 2008
get back MISshaped
get back to school, mis-shaped.
i am always 30mins late to work. don't care what time i get out of the house.
i miss the ssp geng. don't care who you are.
i miss dance too. eventhough it aches my body.
i miss running. even if it breaks my legs.
but i'm so tired to go out. and i don't have time.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
dead unconcious.
i am so tired.
i am tired of working. the best thing, kak zee said, that it brings me to places i never thought i could go. but the worst things she said that it can be super tiring.
i am tired of thinking. when you think you can do something, and everything just ends up wrong, you just want to stop. things you want to do, you can't do, but things you never hope to do, you do.
i am tired of losing my things. i lost my red wallet, my ic, my cards, my pebblestone usb, my pebblestone earpiece and i think that is not the only things that i've lost. i think i lost myself. and i dont trust myself anymore.
what happened to all the plans that i've been making? i think noone can understand what i need to tell anymore. i can't tell it in the first place.
now all i want to do is sleep. DONT ask me out anymore.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
colored
i wore colored contact lenses today and it is irritating. first i had this blurred look on things, then, on the bus i realised i didn't check the degree after looking out the bus window so when i reached work, i headed to the ladies and changed sides but then, after that, i changed back coz i realised it was much worst to the previous. hah. but i feel weird wearing colored contacts. hmm.
i'm never into fan-based thingies, but i was there for hyrul's fan gathering just now. it was slow and mendak at first but matstoken lightened the mood abit. and well, he was lame funnyfunny. the songs hyrul sang were pretty much the known, so when he sang his very own, everyone was quiet. or else they'll be whispering or something. and the whole thing was sooo hyrul. all the games were aimed at him. and it so...couple-dating like games. -_-" meluat jugak..
work is good right now. its at that good-paced timing. i always wanted to go into buildings and take pictures for fun. now, that's what i'm doing. but i saw the report just now and i realised my photography skill is so bad! i always thought we had half-press the camera before anyshot and MOST of my pictures were blur. the best thing is i get to go up the rooftop of every tall building i work in! haha. the experience is really something. really. you dont get to go up to the 45th storey everyday you know, and you don't get to see everything from a bird's eye view everyday.
swain handsome lah harini..haha. kkk, we're tired. i just want to sleep all day right now because i am so tired from work. and sometimes, it sucks to be home when you're super tired because you'll be seen as a lazysleepingbum at home. and it sucks to be at work with nooooo internet access. gooooooddd!!!
maroon 5!!!! pleaseplease.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
GOD ihateyou.
that's what i feel like saying. it's been awhile and i just want to say it out. it's okay, i'll type it somewhere else.
insecurities. hurh.
aku tak tau suntec city gitu punye popular sampai orang queue just to get on the escalator. mak kauuu..punye lah ramai orang tadi..lepas tu aku tak tau suntec city punye lah besar sampai ade binatang-binatang terselit kat basement. ade horse, vulture dan macam-macam lagi. aku tak tau suntec city gitu punye kotor sampai kan dinding die hitam! lepas tu, aku explore, aku jumpe jungle. kau tau kat atas suntec ade 2 jungle. satu yang au-naturel dgn lagi satu manmade. aku dah naik jelak jugak dengan tu kota. sheesh.
god, life has been sucky but heavenly these few days. working dont feel like working coz you see your everyday wants but IT IS SUCKEDUP WHEN U ARENT GETTING YOUR PAY! sheesh mrs manager, pleaasee, we need the dough. well, and the best part of working in a public area is that you get to finish work before knock off time and get gg to whereeveryouwannago early. and i get to exercise too. climbing up and down the stairs, walking one whole building just to get to the same spot...what else? kay, it sounds stupid but i get to take photos everyday. something i like doing when i get my hands on a little metal piece called the camera. who gets to take photographs of nothing everyday right? right. when you feel like snapping, you just SNAP. and the pictures can look the same for hm...50over pieces? but still, you won't get scolded. coz all you need to do is comment on those pictures you took. effingly easy right? hah. love my job WHEN THERE'S ACTUALLY A JOB TO DO.
gooddddddd, sometimes i hate life. i just do. sometimes i just want to let everything else go and just leave. i just want to ignore and be elusive. sometimes, i just want to stay down and just wave my hand front like those traffic police do to make you go ahead and shout "GO GO GO", and leave. or maybe i'd be one of those guards on bike who just cycle the whoollee entire building back to same spot and be done with everything else. life is a cycle don't you think?
what you get is what you give. like when you drop an effing 50bucksworth of visitor's pass and someone picks it up for you, you return a ringing handphone someone else left on the table next to you to the person. or if you don't contribute a single cent to anything, you wont get any cent from anything either.
i hate thinking lah. why is there such a function in this stupid brain of mine? coz it hurts the hell out of the skull and i just want to knock myself on to the wall and fall unconcious. like that person at the mrt lobby. glad the person's got the attention of the CD people.
wondering what mei juan, asmida, sarah, mira, diah, raihanah, nizal, jeff, zana, mai, khairiah, haddad, aizat, shakinah, jihad, adam, mas, amal, idayu, and whoeverelsematters is doing.
i love my life now.hah.
2AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake, "Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?, I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season" Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes Like they have any right at all to criticize, Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason
'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button, girl. So cradle your head in your hands And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe
May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss "Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist, "Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year." Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while, But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles, Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.
'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable, And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table. No one can find the rewind button, boys, So cradle your head in your hands, And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe
There's a light at each end of this tunnel, You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again If you only try turning around.
2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me, Threatening the life it belongs to And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud And I know that you'll use them, however you want to
But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable, And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button now Sing it if you understand. and breathe, just breathe woah breathe, just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe.
Friday, March 07, 2008
missing.
I'M MISSING EVERYONE AND I'M READING THEIR BLOGS TO SEE HOW THEY'RE DOING BECAUSE I'VE NOT CONTACTED ANY OF THEM AT ALL.
what a friend!
i've been going to suntec city every alternate days and i still can get lost. suntec is boring. the carpark is huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge. and stuffy. and there's other ways to get to bugis from there. oh, and i thought reserving tables with tissues were just to kid people around but it actually happens in suntec! okay. people are just kiasu.
i've been to that 'flat' building and it is called The Gateway. the place is fiiiinnneeee. seriously. and we smuggled in to get to the canteen. haha!
had lunch at ikea yesterday and i like the way they put out their food. well, the western ones that is. its like those cafeterias u see on tv in britain or america. sliding the tray over and picking everything out. how i wish singapore's cafeterias were like that. but that means super long queues.