Friday, March 31, 2006
another piece of me written down....
went to school just now for camp briefing....and i was early...wahahhahaha....
me n hanis were quizical about where to meet the seniors and stuff....met junaidah thr as well! she was having her camp...some cssc camp...heck i duno what it is....and she has another one, MIT camp...heck i also duno what it is....mine is a sports camp....but anyway, we were called in....so we met the briefers and we played a few ice breaking games....we played 'concentration', MY FAVOURITE!, 007, wacko and i can't remember what the other one is....anyway, i was dman lagging at 007 sia!!! coz when u're shot, u're not suppose to do anything....the two people beside you are suppose to raise their hands and say "AHHH!!!"....hahah...i had to do forfeit sia....tumbling tower....like wth??!....they made me put my hands into the heads of two other people doing the forfeit....welll, maybe thats better than writing with butt right?! hahaah.....funny sia the games....=)))....o yah, the very 1st game was 'good afternoon'...gd thing i'm the 1st few coz u have say gd afternoon to the 1st people before you...so imagine if there's more than 10 people before you or you're the last person to say it....ish....thats before the briefing....the actually briefing was very short...the games was 1hr...
HEY!!! from the briefing right, i got to know thatttt, we are gonna go to SENTOSA!!! =DDDDD the sand, the sea and the sun....woohoo!!!! i can't wait!!! and they said we're going to Orchard....hmm.....go orchard road?? haiyoo....hahha...i CAN'T WAITTT!!!! sports camp, here i come!!! hehehheheeh...
here are the fishes of my dads...the victims of my 2nd brother....
may they rest in peace.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
another piece of me written down....
my brother's a KILLER!!
he is dead.
he killed about 5 of my dad's beatiful orange laohan.
now my dad's mad.
tsk.tsk.tsk.
another piece of me written down....
another simple day out with the girls...
its either me or them being mabok cause, somehow, today was full of funny and happy laughter...miss those good ol' days.....went out with nad n dayu...met nad at the bustop..n guess who we terserempak with....Adam....and my 1st reaction waaass "oh my fucking gawd!".....what kind of reaction is that?!!! i know.....i'm hostile towards him.....hurhur.....too bad lah...nad kept asking whether i was okay or not....well, i AM not okay coz i'm having a migraine since morning...but she kept asking the question again and again...she actually refering to him....hurh! nad layered her hair..now it looks like raider's.....dayu posted her letter and then we walked to ljs.....we were stopped by a few people....some asking for donations, another asking us to buy perfume....she said one box cost 150+bucks, now its being sold at 39.90, and it comes with 3 extra boxes....which is like what, one for 10bucks? cheap right? haha....in the end we didn't take the offer....nice smell though.....WHATS WITH PEOPLE STOPPING US TO DONATE AND WHATEVER??? urgh.......had a loonnngggg talk at ljs....miss those times.....
well, i'm gonna start going to school next week, so bloody damn fast! but i hate staying home anyway....i'm excited but i'm scared....FUH!
"Hang On" Smashmouth
Things are getting weird, things are getting tough
Nothing's making sense but you keep on looking up
They tell you to be true, you're trying every day
You keep it on the real, still you gotta find a way
To make your mama happy, to make your papa proud
You gotta turn it up but all you hear is turn it down
So gather round I'm here to say
You'll never make everybody's day
But while you're around you might as well
Catch the tiger by his tail
And hang on hang on hang on
Everybody just
Get on get on get on get started
Just go on go on go on
Everybody just hold on
Sometimes I wanna cry and throw the towel in
They try to beat me down but I'll take it on the chin
And everywhere I go the people are the same
They just wanna know that everything will be OK
Things are getting rough, turn it back around
You gotta turn it up when they tell you tone it down
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
another piece of me written down....
guess what me, raider n nad did just now?
SWIM!
heheh.....we went swimming just now!!! and it was FUN!!! heheh...we had the pool all to ourselves until those learners came...hurh!
today we went to the gym and then went swimming....and my legs are quite exhausted....i only trained my legs today....didn't do anything for my hands....and gosh, my arms are chow-ta already sia...nad kept saying hers is...haha....NAD IS A PERVERTTTTT....hahah....nearly touched my uknowwhere sia....ew...went to kfc to eat...like, wth??? went exercising to get rid of the fat and we just added it on again later....sheesh......now i smell funny...used body spray, powder and hand spray PLUS we went in body shop and tried the lotions and make ups....each and everyone has got scents....so NOW i smell funny....my hand smells different, my face smells different, and my body smells different....my hair smells different too!!
we've GOT to go there again! or maybe tampines...relax our bodies in the cool water...FUH!
Monday, March 27, 2006
another piece of me written down....
harharharharharharharhar...........
nobody likes you..
everybody left you..
ARGH!!! i hate it!!!! shut up!!!! shut up!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate it when u NAG at me! i hate it when u pin point EVERYTHING i do! i hate it when u order me around! i hate it when u boss me around! i hate it when u left others do whatever they like and make me do what u want! i hate it when u accuse me of everything! i hate it!! i hate it!! i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ku Seru - Misha Omar
Ku membayangi jiwa hati mu
Tapi perpisahan menunggu
Ku ingin membelai mu
Namun kasih ku tiada restu
Diri begini kerna selalu
Di tinggalkan marah sengsara
Hingga hilang terlupa
Siapa aku sebenarnya
Sayang…
(Korus)
Oh dengarlah sayu tangisan ku
Mengapa degupanmu ku seru
Kerna kesepian nan berlalu
Kembalikan hidup yang ku rindu
Oh dengarlah sunyi tangisan ku
Kau tahu ku amat menyayangi mu
Pergilah kau bukan milik ku
Pulang pada yang mengasihi
Diri mu…
Kesepian berlalu…
Maafkan daku…
Sampai di sini ku lepaskan pergi
Biar ku damai bersemadi
Luka mu ku mengerti
Kan ku hilangkan derita… ini
(Ulang korus)
Kau ku seru…
Saturday, March 25, 2006
another piece of me written down....
bloody hell.
today i woke up with hatred and angst in me. i had 3 consecutive dreams about that bitch! what did you expect? ARGH!!!
1st dream, a few seconds before i woke up, i was hanging laundry and that bitch go drop it. i took the bamboo pole and hit her. on the head.
i woke up to do my morning prayers.
2nd dream, i was shouting at my mom about her. i was telling my mom not to stand by her coz that bitch doesn't even know how to take care of her mouth. she's a monster. she called my cousin "welfare child". wtf!
i woke up feeling angsty and very very pissed. i took one deep breath and slept again saying "i hate her! i hate her! i hate her!" to myself.
3rd dream, we were fighting, and the next thing i know, i was on the stand in court telling my story. she was the guilty one. urgh!
i woke up feeling very damn pissed, and took a deep deep breath. i tried to let go by punching the wall. you know how painful that is? i don't think so.
bloody fuck sia! get out of my life you bitch!! i hate you!!! i loathe you!!!! i bloody fucking don't want to ever HEAR you name at all!!!!!
thanks to my mom telling me about her yesterday, now i'm having nightmares! FUCKER!
now, when i want to talk about her, i use the word "monster" to substitute her bloody name. fucking MONSTER!
Friday, March 24, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo!
this morning me n my mom went to bedok to pay my fees...since its opened at 930am, mom decided to have breakfast 1st...we went to the nearest place we can find...haha...not mcdonalds thou...after breakfast, we went to the bank and paid the fees...clement and mom was there too but i didn't say hi....haha..typical me...after that i wanted to go school straight away but mom wanted to pay some bills at UOB...good thing there was barely any people at the bank sia....the mrt ride was long....50-60mins journey? my butt pain sia! clement was in the same train as us...haha...i was kinda 'stalking' him all the way...went to the enrolment centre...had to wait for 20 people before my queue...that's better than waiting for 100 people right?? it wasn't that long either....confirmed my fee payment, then went to the other side...mom was just sitting there waiting...kesian seh! had to go in a queue to make sure i had all the documents...my papers were practically flying all over....sat with mom and clement...HAHA...my mom surely knows where to choose a seat...talked to clement...had to wait to 20+ people sia...when i look at the previous queue, thank god i was early!! haha....after that, took my pic....for the card....MY FACE SUCK!!! bukan nye nak suroh chin up ke, smile ke, ape ke.....ish......they gave the card right away and then took my lanyard....i had to wear it all the way sia....ish...saw some laptops..i'm sure my mom was gonna get one for me.....but since she didn't have the card, we'll just have to come another day.....then we were separated. urgh!!!
i went up the stairs while my mom waited me at Mcdonalds....upstairs, i had to fill in a form...they asked me whether i wanted to go for a camp or weekend activity...i chose the camp...HAHA...after that we(me n some other people) went through a trail....listened to some bullshit...after that went into another room...there was where i met a friend! heheheheh.....her name, Hanis Syafinaz....nice uh....she also a malay dancer like me n we are in the same course! hahaha.....i kinda influenced her to go for the DE camp..my school's camp....as in school in poly....signed up for that and had to pay 10 bucks for it..after that we went for other bullshitting craps asking us to go for camps....all must pay...hanis was already irritated sia....it was neverending! room after room.....in the end, we signed up for this SSC camp...some sports camp...8 bucks....6-9 april....clashed with the DE camp....so i guess i'm not going for the DE camp which is at ST John island...wth....hahahha...after that we hurried thru some CCAs and then, coz hanis had to hurry, skipped a few rooms, and exited....i met my mom while she met her friend who kept calling her non-stop...hahah....my mom was agitated....she was like "what took you so long???????"...when i realised, it was already 1.30...when we were separated, it was 12...maybe coz she was waiting on her own...thats why...but she too made a new friend! hahah......
after that we went for lunch at inspirasi...mom was kinda disappointed i didn't want to have lunch at school with her...HAHA...segan ah.....hehhe....den we went home....i pity mom....my gramps was admitted to hospital and she was just starting to relax when the nurse called and she had to go pick him up.....haiz....now she's back to her routine...haiz.....=/
but hey, i've now known my sch and at least met some people from my course....get myself familiarised.....
Thursday, March 23, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo. i'm home. and all alone. yippie.
have you ever, in your last -state your age- years, made a friend with the opposite gender. he/she was ALWAYS there for you, help you in anyway, anyhow. both of you were great while you were friends. he/she's always there for you, and you're always there for him/her. but one day, he/she wanted to be more than that, more than friends. so you end up feeling dilemmatic. you are already with someone and your greatest, most fondest friend wants to be with you. will you stay as friends? or will your friendship drift alittle apart after that incident? better to stay as friends and be happy than to be attached and fill yourself with troubles, right?
Teman Tapi Mesra - Ratu
aku punya teman
teman sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku
dia amat manis
juga baik hati
dia selalu ada
waktu untuk membantuku
namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan
tuk ingin jadi kekasihku
reff: cukuplah saja berteman denganku
janganlah kau meminta lebih
ku tak mungkin mencintaimu
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra
aku memang suka pada dirimu
namun aku ada yg punya
lebih baik kita berteman
kita berteman saja
teman tapi mesra
aku punya teman
teman sepermainan
kemana ada dia selalu ada aku
namun aku bingung
ketika dia bilang cinta
dan dia juga katakan
tuk ingin jadi kekasihku
repat reff
another piece of me written down....
bloody fuck. i hate it when i have migraines. hurts like hell. urgh!
anyway, it sucks having to wait so long for a stupid medical checkup which lasts less than an hour. went to the bloody clinic TWO times and i was told to leave. bloody fuck. third time i went and i met a few of my friends and a new friend. her name, amylia[?]....a small world sia...she's rai's cousin...wooowwww..ahahah...and she goes to the same school as MY cousin...very small world...so the medical check up is done, now to make sure everything is ready for the enrolment day....which sucks lah coz i must go there ALONE....haiz....i saw damn alot of people having the sp envelope while at the clinic but i DON'T know ANYONE there. =/ so what if there are people whom i know going to the same school? i can't go up to them and say "hey, wanna go together?"...i know its NOT wrong but i'm scared. like bloody scared. if i don't start saying hi, i don't think i'l make friends UNLESS they say hi first..pathetic sia! example: incident at the clinic. amylia was the one who talked to me 1st sia...i was just sitting there and minding my phone, my mp3.....my god....i need to take initiative...can anyone help me with that? teach me!! i'm afraid at what people would think....if i say hi, would they think i'm mad? or if i ask a qn, would i sound stupid? omygod. haiz... life is unpredictable.
i hate to think i am alone.
o yah, i had a jolly great time on the 16th march 2006! raider's birthday bash at Sentosa. heheheh....now i'm stuck with the song sia! haiyoyo....
PUMP IT - B.E.P
Ha ha ha
Pump it
Ha ha ha
And pump it (louder) [4x]
Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right
N*ggas wanna hate on us (who)
N*ggas be envious (who)
And I know why they hatin' on us (why)
Cause that's so fabulous (what)
I'ma be real on us (c'mon)
Nobody got nuttin' on us (no)
Girls be all on us, from London back down to the US (s, s)
We rockin' it (contagious), monkey business (outrageous)
Just confess, your girl admits that we the sh*t
F-R-E-S-H (fresh) D-E-F, that's right we def (rock)
We definite B-E-P, we rappin' it
So, turn it up (turn it up) [3x]
C'mon baby, just
Pump it (louder) [6x]
And say, oh oh oh oh
Say, oh oh oh oh
Yo, yo
Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right now
This joint is fizzlin'
It's sizzlin'
Right (Yo, check this out right here)
Dude wanna hate on us (dude)
Dude need'a ease on up (dude)
Dude wanna act on up
But dude get shut like flavor shut (down)
Chicks say, she ain't down
But chick backstage when we in town (ha)
She like man on drunk (fool)
She wanna hit n' run (errr)
Yeah, that's the speed
That's what we do
That's who we be B-L-A-C-K -E -Y-E-D-P to the E, then the A to the S
When we play you shake your ass
Shake it, shake it, shake it girl
Make sure you don't break it, girl
Cause we gonna
Turn it up (turn it up) [3x]
C'mon baby, just
Pump it (louder) [6x]
And say, oh oh oh oh
Say, oh oh oh oh
Yo, yo
Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right now
This joint is fizzlin'
It's sizzlin'
Right
Damn (damn) [5x]
Wow
Apl. de ap. from Philippines
Live and direct, rocking this scene
Waiting on down for the B-boys
And B-girls waiting, doin' their thing
Pump it, louder come on
Don't stop, and keep it goin'
Do it, lets get it on
Move it!
Come on, baby, do it
La-da-di-dup-dup die dy
On the stereo
Let those speakers blow your mind (Blow my mind, baby)
To let it go, let it go
Here we goLa-da-di-dup-dup die dy (c'mon, we're there)
On the radio
The system is gonna feel so fine
Pump it (louder) [6x]
And say, oh oh oh oh
Say, oh oh oh oh
Yo, yo
Turn up the radio
Blast your stereo
Right now
This joint is fizzlin'
It's sizzlin'
Right
Monday, March 13, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i guess i shouldn't be going out while i'm sick.
haizz....
i was kinda hyped for today's trip to the gym(sounds like a trip to the zoo), but i guess without some people, the day won't be exciting, at all. would it?
i kinda knew it would happen....(i'm just putting my thoughts down kay, so don't be all mad at me).....erm, whenever rai's not around, i see wj lonely...they are unseparable...that's what best friends are about.....but thing is, well, ouh...i don't know....i'll just pen this thought of mine somewhere else.....
ANYway, after wj left, it was me, nad n raider....harhar....we tried stuffs, had a race....and after that, we had lunch....hah hah hah....after that we went to the library.....oooh, thats the 1st....
oyah, u know how it all started with Ta-Ren calling me Fad, then everyone calling me Fard...well, i made a discovery today...Fard is actually another name for God....so its like, when u call me Fard, you're calling me God......HAHAHAHAHAHAAH....but, everyone KNOWS it's for fun...so i'll take the other meaning, Fard also means unique, no other equal....HAHAHAHAHHA....i feel good......hahah.....
i read a this book called "Mom, I hate my life", typical 'how to handle your teenage daughter" kind of book lah....haha....then we read a vagina workshop book...and nad took somany foreign books, spanish, mandarin, korean, thai...and somany more lah...hahah...raider took out somany bio books....like what mj would say, "thats so raider".....
after that we went to the post office coz raider wanted to pay some bills....me and nad godeh-godeh the SAM machine there...hahah.....after that it was home for all of us....
-boring post. i know.-
God is a Girl - Groove Coverage
Remembering me, discover and see,
All over the world, she's known as a girl,
To those who are free, their minds shall be keep,
Forgotten as the past, 'cause history will last.
God is a girl, wherever you are,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, whatever you say,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, however you live,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, she's only a girl,
Do you believe it, can you receive it?
She wants to shine, forever in time,
She is so driven, she's always mine,
Clearly and free, she wanted to be,
A part of the future, a girl like me,
There is a sky, eliminating us,
Someone is out there, that we truly trust,
There is a rainbow, for you and me,
A beautiful sunrise, eternally.
God is a girl, wherever you are,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, whatever you say,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, however you live,
Do you believe it, can you receive it,
God is a girl, she's only a girl,
Do you believe it, can you receive it?
Saturday, March 11, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i've have pre-enrolled.
now for the medical check-up.
later for the enrolment day.
i'm excited! yet, i'm scared.
what if there's like bloody few people in my course? esp girls??
pray for the best, that's what i've gotta do..
I Pray - Amanda perez
(Talking:)
You know with every day that passes i pray to god I'll never forget who you are.
You mean everything to me.
I love you
Ooooh Ooooh
Ooh i pray
You were in my dream
Before i even knew there was a you and me,
Now i can't wait to see your smile,
When i wake up each day,
It makes it worth while,
With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that i don't wanna miss.
(chorus:)
I pray,
When it's time for me to say goodbye
I'll never forget looking in your eyes,
I pray,
That i feel your touch
And that God doesn't forget our love,
I pray,
When i close my eyes,
I can still see visions of you on my mind.
I pray,
That i see you in another life,
I pray that you stay by my side.
Oh i pray.
Everything that you give to me,
Only comes in a fantasy,
It seems like life goes by so fast,
But in this time i wanna make it last. (i pray)
I hate that we live to die,
But only God knows why (i pray)
We all have a purpose,
And to see you again it'll be worth it.
(chorus)
(Slow rap:)
I wish that i could stop time,
I wish that i could rewind,
To the very begining of every second of my life.
To ask God on my hands and knees,
To never let me forget all my special memories.
See i'm only promised today,
And if it's my time to go,
I don't want the love of my life to ever fade away,
So one last time
Let me open my eyes.
To see what my life used to be like.
Oh God.
another piece of me written down....
hyeloooooo
i'm sick.
i'm bored.
i'm having mood swings.
i wish i was born in a different family, with responsible and hardworking siblings and understanding parents owning their own company.
i hate my life. i hate being the different one. i hate being responsible.
life's a bitch. and it will never end.
i hate it. its making me miserable.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
another piece of me written down....
the pain is killing me!!!
arghhhhhh...........
i hate this period of time........
there are a few things i need to get right now but i keep thinking twice, and am never getting it asap......bloody shit....
- new spectacles i'm growing blind siaaa
- clothes i need them! what am i gonna wear later at school???
- new handphone i hate this phone due to shitty memories.
- a laptop i wanna use it when i go school later....easier for me n i will NOT be a nuisance to my 2nd bro anymore.....=/
- new shoes my shoes now are fading off, hole-ing apart and tearing off!!
- new bags my bags now are stinky, torn and urghhh, worn out!
i guess that's the main stuffs i
so how am i gonna get them? guess i'll just have to save from my everyday allowances....haizz.....i wonder how much am i gonna get a day....$10? dats quite alot actually....i need to manage my money sia....haiz.....start from, tonight! no buying of foods that i crave......i'll just have to sacrifice.....that's not fun.....haiz.....
Where’d you go? - Fort Minor
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing, "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing, "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Saturday, March 04, 2006
another piece of me written down....
MY WISH HAS CAME TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM GOING TO THE SCHOOL I ALWAYS WANTED!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so happy!!!! heheheheheh....
but right, i don't know if i'm going to the course i'm really suitable for....i don't even THINK i like the course......haizz.....
i wonder who else is going to that sch........i know one person from my class is going....(i'm stuck with that person! shit.).....about 1/3 of 4/3 going too.....i'm like.....ALONE!!!! nad, idayu n raider ALL got into different schools sia!!! haiyooo........GAWAT dehhhhh....so sad sia.....but nad's going to a school near me, so maybe we can take the mrt together or something.....hehehehe....i LOVE her....till tiny bits....since PRIMARY ONE!!! hahaahahah.....=)))
i'm gonna study HARD and PROVE to THAT BITCH that i'm not one of those...
Stupid Girls - Pink
Stupid girl, stupid girls, stupid girls
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Go to Fred Segal, you'll find them there
Laughing loud so all the little people stare
Looking for a daddy to pay for the champagne
(Drop a name)
What happened to the dreams of a girl president
She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent
They travel in packs of two or three
With their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny tees
Where, oh where, have the smart people gone?
Oh where, oh where could they be?
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
(Break it down now)
Disease's growing, it's epidemic
I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it and I'm going crazy
I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see
Disasters all around
World despaired
Their only concern
Will they fuck up my hair
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
[Interlude]
Oh my god you guys, I totally had more that 300 calories
That was so not sexy, no
Good one, can I borrow that?
[Vomits]
I WILL BE SKINNY
(Do ya thing, do ya thing, do ya thing)
(I like this, like this, like this)
Pretty will you fuck me girl, silly as a lucky girl
Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid girl!
Pretty would you fuck me girl, silly as a lucky girl
Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid girl!
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, stupid girl!
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Friday, March 03, 2006
March 2nd 2006.
another piece of me written down....
i woke up a min earlier today and all hell broke loose...
i realized everyday that i wake up at 6.42am to pray and i coincidentally see my watch at 8.15am....i don't know why but today, i woke up at 6.41am....and guess what, i woke up late for work....okay, so i viewed my watch at 8.20am....bloody hell....8.20!! and i was still at home!! shit!!! so i reached work at 9.00...changed and all, when i report, i WAS LATE! fuck. and guess how slow today went.......haizzz.....everytime i look at the clock, only 20/30 mins has passed....wth.....and i felt damn lethargic sia.....
okay, that was the lame part of my day....now for the fucking bloody shitty hell to break loose...
when i was allowed to go home, my sis was waiting for me....she fucking forced me to follow her to tampines.....which i didn't want to....so i hurried my pace....AND YOU KNOW WHAT???!! she CHASED ME!! CHASED as in police and thief chase, as in run here, run there! so i ran....i called my mom, crying for her....i was so scared....terrified at what would happen....coz i know if i didn't do what she wanted me to do, she'll MAKE me do it aggresively....ran all over till tao nan school....i could't cross the road, so she caught up with me AND SHE PULLED MY HAIR TO STOP ME!!!!!!!!!!!! i fell onto the ground....crying....everyone there saw it, those walking AND those in the vehicles...i was crying like hell....i was so scared.....my mom kept calling me....so i let her listen to what was happening....that bitch go accuse me of losing her phone! what the FUCK. she was the one who chased me, she dropped her phone, and SHE lost it. one pakcik, on a bike cycled passed us...but returned to 'cool' us down....heck lah kay, i was screaming my heart out to send the message 'I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME WITH YOU'...AND SHE BLOODY HELL THINK OTHERWISE! she kept calling me giler and insane and kept telling the pakcik that i was only thinking about myself. FUCK LAH! I HATE HER! thats what i told the public...she bloody hell go take my bag away! fucker! then this lady came to cool me down ah..she gave me a hug and tried to soothe my anger....i hate her.....i HATE HER.....I HATE HER!!!! i told the lady why, and i told her i didn't want to go home with her....i just don't want...i was weeping like hell....she wanted so much for me to follow her to find her phone so we went...as in the bitch, me, the lady and the pakcik....while the bitch go search for the bloody hell phone, the pakcik sat with me....i told him why i hated her....he asked me for my name...heck i'm NOT gonna give my true name lah, so i just said my name was NUR....asked me where i stayed, whether i wanted him to fetch me home and blahblah....i was weeping, but i knew i couldn't let him take me anywhere....when that bitch returned, we came to another quarrel...you know what, she told the pakcik that i was only thinking about my own feelings, and that i wouldn't listen to her at all, i wouldn't smile, i wouldn't this and that at work...I'M LIKE, WHAT THE HELL?! THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WORK!!! bloody fuck! the pakcik tried to tell her the real reason and she said the pakcik was trying to interfere! good thing the pakcik was there, or else i might be beaten up till death...she called me STUPID! hey, i'm clever kay, so i answered lah "MEMANG AKU BODOH! SEBAB TU AKU MASEH BLAJAR!" FUCKER SHIT! my finger was pointing at her face and at my heart....coz i hate her.....i HATE her....and she told me to GO AND DIE! FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!and she just walked off.....FUCKER! i begged the pakcik to get my bag back or else i wont get home....he tried to snatch it back...but the bitch was 'strong'...they came to some agreement that if she gives that bag to me, we will peace up...LIKE REAL!! i didn't want it coz i know it will NEVER happen.....so i told the pakcik, don't let go, while i retrieve my wallet and my mp3....she already took my hp....suck lah! my hp is out of batt anyway....after i took my wallet, i walked away...i threw away my bag.....all my uniform was inside....SHE WANTED ME TO QUIT RIGHT? so i QUIT! i ran away....but i was cornered by a fence.......like damn! i saw a boy climbing over the fence so i was like, hey, if the boy could do it, i can do it too! eventhough risky coz of the expressway, i just climbed over the fence and crossed the road....my pants was stuck at the fence sia! ish.....i ran.....tothe other side of the neighbourhood....THANK GOD the taxi came at the RIGHT time...after the taxi u-turned, i saw my sis crossing the road the taxi was on...i ducked! and the driver was like "your parents?"...i answered, "no, my sis"....my voice was so damn hoarse.....imagine crying like hell and talking afterwards....wouldn't your voice go hoarse?! haiz.....but when i saw her crossing the road, i was kinda relieved...by seeing her there means, she's not at some bustop or at home waiting for me....i'm like 'PHEW!'.......haiz....i guess i'm gonna quit coz she was carrying my bag just now, so i have NO uniform now....
bloody hell broke loose just now at the predestrian crossing beside toa nan school.
WTH!!!
i hate my sis. i hate that bitch. i hate the bloody slut.
she told me to quit, she told me to die, she said i was insane, she said i was giler, she said i only knew how to think about my OWN feelings. [that bitch forced me to follow her to tampines to buy a milkshake! heck i DON't want lah...i was already so bloody hell tired. who's talking about their own feelings right now???]
I HATE THAT BLOODY FUCK WHO CALLED HERSELF 'KAKAK' IN MY LIFE!