Tuesday, May 30, 2006
another piece of me written down....
HYE.
what the freak lah my group! kate smalam nak buat, pastu semue tak bawak vest, lagi satu ade cca whatevertheshit! cekik darah! kate ANYTHING! PASTU GIVE ME THIS SHIT! what the fuck ah. dalah tak tau nak SMS! bilang ah lain kali kalau ade hal! pastu si KERUSI lagi satu hal. nampak sah si DORAEMON tu pon tak bawak vest die! what the hell ah korang! whatthefuck lah. orang da lah take the bloody fucking time to arrange this bloody thing and you all just never bring the bloody thing! and everything cannot do! don't tell me, i have to do it MYSELF right?! pergi mampos da lah! make sure this bloody hell thursday SEMUE org BAWAK their vest ah fuck! shitasshole. satu persatu ade hal! nanti on thursday entah ape hal korg bagi. bloodyhellassholeshit.
URGH! i am not the leader but we haveta meet to finish this damn thing! no cooperation then no work done ah! fine.
i feel burdened. shit.
i need to talk properly.be less rude.
went to jurong n then to boon lay then home.
i miss my childhood.
Monday, May 29, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo!
this is the very first time i was late for a test! like, what the hell! i went out of the house at 8...but ya, i took my own sweet time...i went to the shop, i missed a few trains...knowing that it was alredy near 8:30! hurhur....just my luck! i got there on time...phew!
test was okay....i had time to check the last qn WHICH i had ALOT of mistakes to edit...good thing i checked! =) thought of doing the bloody practical after that BUT EVERYONE excluding miao san forgot to bring their vests. i smsed them the night before!! what d hell...i kinda screamed lah...coz i was stressed...hey! who wudnt be right?
after that, we went out for lunch....=)....after that, went back to school to study at the lib...on the way, arif(is that his name?) stopped me...he said something about the camp....SHOULD I GO?! hmm.....i'm just segan(shy) to go...i HAVE to get over it soon or else....but, yah....they all know each other alrdy....i feel funny.....
studied geomat n applied sci...went thru struct mech alil bit...then went home...went to TM to get some stationaries....i miss that place...i miss bedok more...took mrt home n stupid ITE guy go sit beside me....i dont mean literaly lah...but ya, of all places, HE sat beside ME! wtf. urgh.
SUPRISE SUPRISE! my cousin was at my hse when i reached home...we TIDIED UP my room! n seriously, its damn neat lah....BUT not clean...NEAT is the word...i never knew cleaning up was so much fun....i like her....she makes me laugh....ALOT....n u know how much i love to laugh right? haha....she's gonna stay over for the night....=)) she's way older than me but hey! its nice to have her around once in a while....and guess what! SHE HATES MY SIS TOO! we have something in common here.....=)))
i guess i hvnt gotten over that fucking bloody incident over at marine parade. i hate it! i just realised it just now, when i talked about it to her....i felt like crying. =(
i had a dream yesterday afternoon. i read this book concerning ppl eating drugs so in my dream, my class or shud i say my clique was about to be injected with drugs....all of us felt scared n weak...the syringe n needle were HUGE! we fell to the floor when the guys(they are from sports club...like, whud?!) came out with the needles....they were also high....but was sitting right behind the group...one of the guys alrdy targeted me but somehow, i ran away.....trying to avoid their people.....
i woke up breathing heavily, as if i really ran....is it true? i'm scared....help!
as i was cleaning my room, i came acroos alot of JUNKS.....one includes this 'diary' i had during the times i started to know him....n edayat......i can't believe how tough/sweet/bitter it was....oh well.....after i read the 1st few pgs, i tore it away. its time to forget. till whenever, i shall write a new one abt my new found one....till then.
i recieved the email abt the camp! whats with the tampines, woodlands n bedok? =/ i'm confused.
typical.
NAIVE - KOOKS
I'm not saying it was your fault
Although you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yeah so
How could this be done
Your such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful
That everytime I look inside
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
But she's still out to get me
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
But she's still out to get me
I may say it was your fault
Cause I know you could have done more
Oh you're so naive yet so
How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful
That everytime I look inside
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me
I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me
So how could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh you're so naive yeah so
Such an ugly thing
Someone so beautiful
And everytime you're on his side
I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it maybe
But she's still out to get me
And I know she knows that I'm not fond of askin
True or false it maybe
But she's still out to get me
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to this kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Sunday, May 28, 2006
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GOOD LUCK TO THOSE
TAKING THEIR MALAY
OLEVEL PAPERS TOMORROW!!!
BEST OF LUCK TO ESPECIALLY TO MY COUSINS! =))
HOPE EVERYBADY DO WELL!!
another piece of me written down....
hyelo.
i'm bored.
i need to practice my modules.
i'm lazy.
i've got 25 articles to read. none started.
i need to wake up and pay attention.
blahxz.
mei juan! i tried to call but u were always not in. =(
till later.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo.
how was ur week?
its not the end of the week yet, but how was it?
ANSWER AT MY TAGBOARD PLEASE!
so anyway, i spent my week this week feeling shitty. i don't know why lah k, maybe its one of my mood swings...i don't talk in the morning, but my dear crazy friends just perk up my day again and again! love ya! =))
i poly-hopped yesterday....frm SP, i went to NYP and then to NP...it was fun...explored their campus....this is an advantage of having your friends scattered in all the polys in s'pore..HAHA! but they have YET to come to my school...my school is old and the library is small. unlike NP n NYP's....maybe tmr i might be going to TP...so funn...=DD had dinner with them...=DDD sayang mereka! i had dinner with my primary school friends too! last friday....took neo and it was crayzay...haha....I MISS THEM! EVERYONE. today, i bumped into nad at the MRT station..i was already walking out when she pulled me to take the train AGAIN to bedok...mentang2 pakai mrt concession...~ haha.....my crazy friends. love them.
at school, i tried to catch up with the tutorials and assignments.....i'm stressed! good stress lah, coz i understand most of the topics....esp for geomatics...big improvement....from nothing to something...haha.....erm, we've been rushing through tutorials lah....i've tried to edit my practicals which are like, in a mess! thanks to shak, adel n kai, i now at least know what i'm doing now...haha....
my day starts bad, goes along fine, and ends bad.
are my blogs boring?
TEENAGE LIFE - Daz Sampsons
Now hear this!
"What, did you learn at school today?"
That's what the teachers used to say (Oh yeah)
But they don't know, don't understand, do they?
Why, do they always give advice?(Always)
Saying "Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long time since they had a teenage life(Let's go)
"What, did you learn at school today?" (What did you learn?)
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know, don't understand, do they?
Why, do they always give advice?
Saying "Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long time since they had a teenage life
Dwelling on the past, from back when I was young
Thinking of my school days and trying to write this song
Classroom schemes and dreams, man they couldn't save me
Cos my days were numbered when I signed down on Avy
Teenage kicks running out what could we do?
I still show respect to my boys who made it through
And getting told off Mr T how my life would be
Then giving him a signal so everyone could see
Sunshine and shade, those girls I'd serenade
Thinking of those sixth form chicks that misbehave
Hoping that those days would go on and on forever
Every day something new, just friends running together
But suddenly school ends, your teenage life's gone
All your mates are growing up, now they're moving on
And now I'm looking back, I'll tell you what I know
Do you listen to your teacher? No I don't think so!
"What, did you learn at school today?"
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know, don't understand, do they?
Why, do they always give advice?
Saying "Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long time since they had a teenage life
Now if you give the kids time, together they will shine (yeah, yeah)
Ooh-oh-oh shine We all will shine (hear me now)
And if you treat the kids fine, they won't do the crime (no, no)
Won't do the crime
Now my bad old ways were during my school days
Messing with those grade A's, my life is just a haze
I'm going through the struggle, five ten and kicking back
So I could lock the flow, lace it up now on the track
Oh yes I felt the pain, whilst chasing all the fame I
'm being told I'm nothing just a player in the game
But now I walk tall, stand proud for you to see
I'm driving these fast cars, it's five stars for me
"What, did you learn at school today?"(Just take your turn)
That's what the teachers used to say
But they don't know, don't understand, do they? Why...
(They don't know nothing)
... do they always give advice? (Always giving advice)
Saying "Just be nice, always think twice"
When it's been a long since they had a teenage life (Yeah yeah)
When it's been a long since they had a teenage life
Sunday, May 21, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i hate my internet connection!
two times in a row, i've blogged out all my thoughts BUT i couldn't publish it! damn.
all thanks to the internet connection.
lets see what i'm irritated at right now,
1- my aunties and their children(aka my cousins). and maybe plus my family.
they are just so annoying!(my aunties that is). my cousins are so disgusting! except for a few. there's one who stupidly plays truant and involves me n my fav cousin to lie to his parents. wtf. my aunty asked me once "is your mom coming home?"..like duh! i've been very rude to my family these few days. esp my mom. i keep snapping at her. and she keeps saying "why can't you just answer properly?" i guess this started after that HUGE GIGANTIC fight between me and my jahanam sister. ask me if you wanna know what happened. i hate HER! that bitch.
2- people.
i hate this feeling. i don't know what has happened to me lately, but i keep misjudging people. like wth! fuck me. i'm ungrateful. it makes me feel damn guilty. it has been a long time since i used vulgarities like, so much. what happened to me? i guess people are judging me as a mixed up. people think i'm rude. well, maybe i am.
3- life.
i know i have no control at all here. but i hate it. its sucking up the hell out of me.
4- school.
ahhh....the 'i hate school' phrase again. my turn to use it. I HATE SCHOOL. but i love my friends. i'm just not having the mood to study. maybe thats the bad part of being in a poly, u slack. and its TIRING! even when i've gotten myself more than enough time of sleep, i'm still tired. listening to loud music doesnt help anymore. IN FACT! i can sleep with loud music blasting through my ears. i guess i won't even wake up when a hurricane blows me. that was so me last time, and it still is now.
why the hell is my mouse not working now?!
shit.
okay. i need to read. books.
how can you like someone, but don't even know it?
something needs to happen.
Friday, May 19, 2006
another piece of me written down....
HYELO!
today, i played truant. i'm such a naughty girl. i really REALLY had a bad night yesterday. my aunty came to my house and i'm really REALLY annoyed by her and her children. called my house like somany times. and like, come on lah, your mom will come home soon okay! stop calling already! *i get very irritated very easily* i'm already tired and my mom told me to fetch some stuffs from my other aunty downstairs. bloody fuck that shafiq. i was trying my hardest to open my rusted mailbox, and he n gang kept calling my name. fuck him. i was damn irritated already lah. i thought my day was over but i kept waking up at night. fuck me.
so today, i woke up feeling very tired. i thought i was all ready for school when i suddenly realised i lost my wallet. it was a few minutes to 9 and i was still looking for my wallet. freak. decided to not go for CRS coz didnt feel like it. and i thought my 'friend' pautoh[?] us. and i kinda end up 'scolding' kai. i am so SORRY! i'm like that sometimes. words just escape through my mouth without me thinking. but i found out everyone who didnt go for the class recieved a message, even if it is not a reminder to come. =/ btm was ok...felt like a carpenter. and felt like doing DnT. i it was hot and i was wearing two layers of clothing. how cool is that? i mean it.
i totally need time to sit and think about what i've done these few days.
waited for Sahuria at at city hall just now and she was LATE! actually, no, she was on time, i was early. so anyway, talked and caught up with each other. saw kian yi[?] at orchad mrt station and he just walked past us. we were like pointing at him already and was expecting himto say hi BUT he just walked past. me n sahuria was like "HE DONT REMEMBER US!" haahaa. met Adilah at Orchad..we felt like in a maze since she said she couldnt find us..padahal depan mate..haha...ijah found us VERY easily..haha...then we walked to FEP. ate at sakura. i really laughed like old times. once i start, i'll never stop. i guess the people there are like "this girl is crazy." but hey! we really caught up with each other. who knew Sahuria actually adores Efin. HAHA! haiyoo....we ate and talked and i felt i was eating damn slow coz i was talking. haha! we took a neoprint after that. =DD was really crazy! we really laughed out loud! who ever knew khairul D had a gf n never cared abt her. omg! and Anthony is REALLY handsome now. Xing wen has grown taller, n lost ALL his baby fats. Justin has grown BIGGER. who is in where and stuff like that...haha! i love them!! so long never meet! ijah is prettier. adilah has a longer face. and crazier. sahuria has ALOT of nicknames and has grown thinner. me? nothing. haiz. but i get to see their changes! so nice!! i LOVE them. i MISS them. i know everyone must be going "i've lost all my pri sch frens contacts ready sia! never see them anymore." haha. i MISS pri sch. =DD
Thursday, May 18, 2006
another piece of me written down....
now i know why efin keeps picking me out.
i wish i hadnt met these kind of guys.
makes my heart ache.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
another piece of me written down....
I CANNOT ACT!! period.
went for cca and u know what?! that arshad-look-alike, ariffin(Efin *pronounced as E-pain), chose me d FIRST to do the emotions ting....WTH?! aiyooo...i gave him the "u want ME to go?!"...but good ah, i was in the first grp...so we could just hentam bocai...haha! n we had to act a scene...i was in the same group as Fuad! woohoo....very fun...he's very enthu leyy..haha...n I AM DAMN MONOTONOUS[?]...haiyoo....i was in the same grp as this girl in tudung(i duno her name), farlinah? n...erm....another guy i also duno whats his name.....n MY GROUP WAS THE 1ST TO ACT!! damn it lahh....why?! why?! WHY?! haiyooo......anyway, for the 2nd act, i was also choosen by Efin....wtf! n i can tell by their faces, my voice n my acting suck....NO STANDARD...harharhar...........but ok lah....it was fun...I JUST CANNOT STOP MYSELF FROM LAUGHING! hurhurhur!!
ok. that was my 1st time in their training. n i like. haha! fuad is very fun btw! harharhar!
time to do my tutorial...CAD STUDIO! damn it.
another piece of me written down....
hyeloooo....
how was your day??
so many people ask me this qn nowadays....hmmm.....no other qn i guess?
had geomat practical today...was ok....thot we've finished it unTIL mr (whowasit?) told us we missed the very 1st measurement...and THAT measurement was d most DIFFICULT to get...damn it! haiyoo...nevermind...at least the new girl get to learn how to use the instrument..practical was good since we had finished the rest of the readings last week...PHEW! ivan joined us for lunch today....its nice to get to talk to d guy again...HARHARHAR. for CAD, we bought snacks to eat in class....it felt like a picnic...which is better than old, boring class atmosphere...hurhur....damn my tummy....felt queasy[?] just now...urghh...but i finished my CAD tutorial!! woohoo....took, 4 weeks to finish it! 10 drawings to be done using the software...damn troublesome lah....but fun!
was walking past FC5 when we incoincidentally saw shak's fren..CCA tmr....should i go?! i'm scared...what if i freaked out? what if i made a fool out of myself....i dont wanna turn red....as in blush....hmph.....went to tamp for awhile...had EARLY dinner there...shak treated me! so nice right?! i have yet any chance to treat her...n i owe her a treat..actually, alot ah....*grin*...borrowed (*wait, did i just hear coins falling in my bro's room???*) a magazine for CRS...damn i hate crs....after that, i went home. d end.
erm, did struct mech tutorial...n i'm halfway to finishing my geomat practical on software. wth...SO TROUBLESOME! i prefer drawing by hand....hurhurhur....i'm learning DnT...IT style....
i bought the WRONG degree for my left eye....i'll have to live with it...for the month..
TO HELL WITH MONDAY BLUES!!!!!!!!!!!!
tmr - cca
next day - study
d day after - out with pri sch frens.
MY DAYS ARE SO PACKED!!!!!!!!!!!
mom said "why don't you wear skirts to school?"
i say "siao ah! how to cross over boulders/rocks,etc like that?! i'm doing struct eng., not elect eng." so not me to wear skirts, i hated it since pri sch. TO HELL WITH SKIRTS!!! harhar.
people ask " so you need a friend to accompany you when you need to shit?" think about this one. n u'll find it PRETTY amusing.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo.
boredom is really boxing me up right now, for the last few days.
and it sucks! haiz......right shak?! ahaha
anyway, i slept almost the whole day today, thinking my migrain came back just now...i was LATE for madrasah just now! actually my alarm rang already, but sleepy me go switch it off and returned to the darkness of dreamland. SO! mom WOKE me up by SHOUTING my name across the living room...made me JUMP! good thing i didnt fall from my bed...u know how bad that can be...coz its d 2nd deck...my fren kept calling me sia! wthhh...
madrasah was OK.....walked home from there....i saw the hafiz guy keep turning back...hmm...HAHA...his appearance has totally chged...looks better now..HARHAR!
so anyway, at home, i....slept...slept....and slept....very VERY mundane....was really awake when my dad n lil bro wanted to go out and fetch my mom....so now, i'm home alone wrapping gifts....have wrapped erm *counting* 14 gifts.....and still counting...jeez....
(I Hate) Everything About You
Three Days Grace
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it....
(2x)I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it.....
(2x)I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
Only when I stop to think about you, I know
Only when you stop to think about me, do you know?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me?
I hate, you hate, I hate, you love me
I hate everything bout you
Why do I love you?
Saturday, May 13, 2006
another piece of me written down....
ya wanna know something?
i
love
you!
hahaha.....
i'm crazy.....
but seriously! i do love you!
*hugsNkisses*
Friday, May 12, 2006
another piece of me written down....
did i blog that i saw mr LBW the other day.....the day when i went to esplanade with shak....n ya! he still looks the same! haha!
sheeeshhhh!
i miss secondary sch.
"Rush"
Into your head, into your mind
out of your soul, race through your veins
You can't escape, you can't escape.
Into your life, into your dreams,
Out of the dark, sunlight again.
You can't explain, you can't explain.
Can You feel it, can you feel it,
Rushin' through your hair,
Rushin' through your head,
Can you feel it, can you feel it,
Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.
Pulling you in, spinning you 'round,
Lifting your feet right off the ground,
You can't believe it's happening now.
Can You feel it, can you feel it,
Rushin' through your hair,
Rushin' through your head,
Can you feel it, can you feel it,
Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.
It takes you to another place,
imagine everything you can.
All the colors start to blend,
Your system overloads again.
Can You feel it?
Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.
Don't let nobody tell you,
Don't let nobody tell you,
Don't let nobody tell you your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Give into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
another piece of me written down....
i'm starting to like s'pore poly.....HAHA!
there's too much things to explore...
too many people to get to know....
too many tricks to learn...
hehhehheehehehehehehehehehhehehe
dad just sold some old old junk radio for 22 bucks.
and he's giving 10bucks to me, n 10bucks to my lil bro.
cool! =DDD
heehhehehehehehheehehehehehehhe
-evil smile-
Thursday, May 11, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo!!!!!
how are you??
today, my day started ok...oyah, i woke up in the middle of the night with a teary eye...i keep crying in my sleep...n i duno why....anyway, i THOUGHT i was early since i went out of my hse at 645...BUTTT damn thermometer, i forgot to bring it....and i was bloody near the mrt station lahh...wtf right! called home and asked my dad or anyone to pass it to me at the bustop...had to take a bus back...fuck sia...so in the end, i was late...AS USUAL! was so tired n damn fucked off....sheesh!! but!! there's always a reason for everything that happens....nad msged me telling me she thought that guy was sitting infront of her...a feeling of relieve surged thru me as soon as i read it! fuhh! met shak...she had that face on her saying "YOU ARE LATE!"..HAHA! told her abt the news...i msged that guy for confirmation also...(i regret that!)...gd thing nad sent me a pic of the guy n confirmed it wasnt him coz he was too tall n too cina lookin....n good thing we werent in the same train with him...haha! great!! i felt relieved. class was boring as usual..was thinkin whether or not to watch poseidon with 03 but too bad, i decided not too...so anyway, since shak n kai needed to BOMB, me n adel went to fc2 1st to get the food....n i swear i didnt look around my surroundings while choosing the seats....i was queueing when mahir asked whr i was sitting...DATS when i realized he was there....even when i cudnt exactly see that guy, i knew it was him...i was like wth!!!! fuck sia....ok...so whatever...told adel...now she knows who he is...HAHA! shak gave me a call straight away sia.....haiyooo....n guess what, she couldnt BOMB..haha....while queueing, i cud see he walked off alredy...good lah...wont make me feel uneasy anymore....phew! and my 3 little darls kept teasing me sia...so sad!!!! hmph!!! i'm sad, i'm scared. whatever happens, they'll know. after that, we went to the lib...i went thru a website...i like!! shak also....a resource to get to know more rough songs....
look at what they did to me!
with the rage and anger in me!!
had engineering maths quiz just now....was kinda easy.....and bloody hell fuck the people in class lah, go bargain2 for what! just follow what the lecturer say lah! the faster we start the faster we finish right! freaks. i was the 1st to move. actualli victor ah...but when he move, noone care...so i made my move...then, it happened...so after the quiz, men shak thought of bombing,...visited the toilet...AND THAT WAS WHEN IT HAPPENED! laughed the hell out of ourselves...sampai tergolek-golek!! hahahahaha...after that we needed to shift to mathcad class...since shak cudnt bomb b4 that, we thought of going to fc1's toilet to bomb...but bought food instead..HAHA....mathcad was ok....me n shak saved our work...1st time.....adel n kai went off quickly after that....watchin movie mahh.....so me n shak went to citylink....went to marina square.....went in all the shops! ate at LJS.....shared stories abt our axes....and hey, it was nice kayy.....went to marina square, esplanade, and raffles....i remembered alot about him...like, everything came back....but, good thing, i dont cry at these kind of things....walked n talked...shak was like a tourist...taking pics everywhere....HARHAR!!! time to update my songs..
i've found a friend who loves making shit!!
this is my friend. i can make shit with her n she can shit when i'm around.
today was full of reminders....about everyone....
dumb reminders - no use for a name
i heard the message
then i rang it off the hook
i didn't get you till 1 am
who was wrong and who was right
and this distance caused a fight
now i'm waiting to give in
honestly
i'd give anything
to be with you
right now
this day was full of dumb reminders
having a good time can't you tell
hang up the phone and then i come back down
miss you i hope you're doing well
i'm used to waiting
what's a voice without a face
i think i'm dying without you here
so i drink myself to sleep
and then i hide beneath the sheet
and i try to disappear
i get up every single time
cuz you keep me alive
this day was full of dumb reminders
how far ahead from you in miles
if i could get one time as take it down
maybe then i could see you
this day was full of dumb reminders
having a good time can't you tell
hang up the phone and then i come back down
miss you i hope you're doing well
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
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"whooooaaaaaaaa"
that was my reaction when i saw my sample eng. maths quiz paper online...looks so difficult...i'm scared....haiz...
i'm having chest pains....it feels like a stone wanting to break through my ribs....so painful...
mom said i was having nightmares at last night...she said i was 'mengigau'-ing...i was crying...like how i always cry when i dream abt that monster....my hands were over my face n all that...omg...how can like that?! omg.....whats happening? am i too stressed? wtf...
anyway, today i dressed damn slacked...i dressed as thou i want to go study at east coast...not as thou i want to go sch....gio 'me' tshirt with sleeves all folded, my green pants n slippers...no bags, just a file....dats all....like going market liddat sia...but heck..who cares?
haiz................................................................................life's ironic. its tough.
another piece of me written down....
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i'm bloody fucked up with blogger.
i'm starting to miss him when i shouldn't be.
i feel like bloody hell shit.
my brothers are a pain in the neck.
and i have not done my bloody hell tutorials. due tmr.
and i hate the way things are going right now!
FUCk THE HELL UP BLOODY WORLD!
sial pey chee bai pey kanina pey buto
bloody hell fucking shitty slutty bastard bitch!
stop bugging me!
fhesuo vthweoipgheopqrhoquehgp9whq vhoquhguiohgoieu ghwopg howighrep hgeouq ghopeq hgwoeg h qph ghpq hgoph gop!
Monday, May 08, 2006
another piece of me written down....
never ever go out without eating something!!
haiz......went on an empty stomach today....urgh!
nearly lost my blueprint today. FUCK!
went to fc6...and went off totally forgetting about it....maybe coz my tummy wasn't in a good situation...
good thing adel had a fren there...so she helped me keep it...adel nshak helped me get it...they slopped class bytheway.....HAHA!! omygod. i am so GRATEFUL for them.....THANK YOU!!! i felt damn anxious about it....thought i wanted to msg my fren, but thing is, i didn't have her no. and dayu didn reply my msg......so disappointed......haiz....but hey, i'm still happy! =DD
fucking shit! what the shit! bloody fucking slutty bitch!
URGH!
today i'm kinda angsty...BUT i'm happy....
fuck up with the bloody hell bitches/bastards! i've been there, i've done that. nothing is new anymore. so, FUCKUP!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hey! how the hell do you download the CAD studio tingy ah? i'm blur. shit. should've paid attention.
had a wonderful night yesterday....
with the WONDERFUL [JR]^2....hahhahahhahahahaha...
went to parkway kfc to meet raider n mj...its been weeks since i met them, ESPECIALLY MJ!! they were busily studying ah...aww, so hardworking...anyway, since i didn't bring anything to study, i 'studied' from them....p+s, s+s....anyway, rai came layter...n tell u, she looked very prettyyy....really!!! haha.....actually, she's already pretty...hahah....so she joined studyin....they were studyin boichem...so, ya...i'm like in another world....we had so many things to talk about! i MISS THEM!!!! so we walked to the bustop to go to Lagoon....so funneyy...hahah....Lagoon was soo crowded...but! we got a rather comfortable seat...other than the smoke that was blown towards us, the rest were okay.....rai n raider ordered the food, mj fetched wj...i stayed....after the two [R]s ordered, me n the two [J]s ordered ours....and drinks...hahah....it was so amusing...d guy sent mj's n mine to our table, he was close to raider but raider didn't take the food from the guy...kesian seh....haha...we ate, we talked, we crapped, we cam-whored...haha...after that, we headed home since raider's mom was calling....we did the BOO! cheer....there's two....one goes like this
Raider - BOO sama dia! BOO!!
WJ - BOO tetek org! BOO!!
MJ - BOO pantat baik!! BOO!!
ME - BOO balek kampong!! BOO!!
Rai - BOO sama minah!! BOO!!
the next one....
Raider - BOO sama dia! BOO!!
WJ - BOO tetek org! BOO!!
MJ - BOO pantat baik!! BOO!!
ME - BOO bulu banyak!! BOO!!
Rai - BOO konek pendek!! BOO!!
i know its obscene but its fun!! FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss going insane with them! it felt so much like 14oct05!!! hey! how about we do it again on..er...who's b'dae is next....MINE! haha...but its another 5 months to go ah...another reunion? how about that?! great!
US!
as u can see, i'm out of pose frm everyone..sheesh.
i didn't really got scolded by my mom....so what my 2nd bro said was true, i don't have a curfew...but i've gotta inform my mom about my whereabouts...=DDD
my cousin just came into my mind just now...my almost 8months pregnant cousin....and suddenly they reminded me of idayu n amal...HAHA....hmm...i wonder.....
WOOHOO!
Friday, May 05, 2006
another piece of me written down....
now, what happened today?
hm......o yeah, shak was crazy this morning....and i was blur.....haha.....
after that kai went crazy.....hahah.....
our lessons were boringgg......long seng was good....his opinion was close to the real message of the newspaper article...had to do news paper articles throu-out crs.....so bored since my mind was still asleep.....Zzzzz....anyway, had lunch....n the kerusi came....HAHA! sajak lah tu...btm was okay......i barely did anything....i sat on the base and my butt was white! haha.....we had to bid for a job in the project....so my group got to be the carpenters.....ok lah....better than concretors......the least we can help is put the timber together since we've got two giraffes in our group.......oh gosh, i hate the sound of people clearing their throat almost ALL the time....that pisang is so bloody irritating! urgh....
anyway, went to bedok to meet dayu....i thought my sch had already closed seh....but phew! it didn't....and there's a new guard! so..urghh....mas was already waiting inside...took our certs...i miss the clerk!!! haha......and art at my school has been raised a few standards up....goooddd....had a little chat with Mr Tng and Mr Azahar.....Mr Tng cute sia...HAHA! and we've got a new vice principle! 3 years older than Mr Tng....so young!!! haiyoo....Mr Azahar just adds up to the laughing crack....he's expecting one!!! very soon? hahah....too bad the rest of the teachers weren't in.....hmph.....so sad.....
dear Mr Tng ___________________dear Mr Azahar
walked to LJS...had dinner there.....dayu n mas were talking abt macroeconomics which i totally had NO idea of.....haiyoo....then nad came....and we bought food....talked and caught up....ahh, my day just gets better.....and with them around, its the best....hehehehehe.....aiyo....amal n gang very irritating siiaaaa....call but cannot hear.....so ungentleman...cheyyy....klah klah, i'm kiddinggg....i love them...n they love me! right?!??!??!?! hahah....after that, went home lah of coz....there's nothing to do....
my parent's bed just broke! due to my lil bro.....HAIYO!!!!! time to change!!! too bad the new et of bed only comes on the 15th.....they'll just have to wait.....n get used to sleeping in a sloping bed.....HAHA....i'm so evilll.....
heck, i know u're reading, n this is a comment from someone, "you told her you didn't need to know her, and now you can't accept what she does. what kind of a guy are you?! typical!"
another called u a "wussy"
and here, i'm laughing my ass out....
another piece of me written down....
its 1247 now n i'm still awake.
just finished my btm tutorial. and i thought i would never find any answers.. fuhh!
ANYWAY!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY SITI RAIHANAH BINTE AHMAD!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahhh, 17 ready sia...and i have a total of a few more months to go.....so sad seh....eh!! must catch up ley!!! i've never seen u for a gazillion days/months already!!!! must have fun on this day oukay!! smiles!!! =DDDDDDDD
Catch Your Wave
In the middle of the night
That's when you caught my eye
I chased you round in memories
Through the breeze and trees and you tease me
But hey
The clock's turning around
And you're still playing these games
It's such a waste to bring me down, down, down
Don't bring me down cause
Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl, you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go
When I turned sixteen
That's when I started to dream
I chased you round in memories
Throuh the breeze and the trees and you tease me
But hey
Well every princess has her knight
And I'm still in it for the fight
Not givin in, I'm gonna win, win, win
I'm gonna win cause
Hey girl,I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl,I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl,hey girl don't wanna let you go
I'm never gonna let you go
Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl, you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, dont wanna let you
Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl, you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you
Hey girl, hey girl don't wanna let you go
I'll never let you go
Alright
Thursday, May 04, 2006
another piece of me written down....
si makyah sat down on the kerusi eating a pisang.
HAHAHAHA!!!!
gi mampos dgn dorg...HAHAHA!
- the 2couples.
today was a damnnnnn damnnnnn bored day. even going home felt bored. u know, BORED. i slept in the mrt sia...hahah...thats how bored i was.
didn't pay attention during geomatics, fooled around during eng. maths....slacked at spgg....taught ivan how to fully use the blog......whoaaa.....i was so bored.
thats all.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i guess we had the whole room(except for those who really knew us both) fooled by not denying that we are twins. HAHA!
anyway, today was all boredom n all nonsence. my two classes today was SOOO boring, me, Ade n Kai played BINGO..haha! i started the whole thing basically by playing tic-tac-toe with Ade...then we moved on to hang man, only i got my head hung...haha...after that Kai joined in....then, it started...i kept losing!! Ade kept BINGO-ing all the way sia...haiyoo...
that was during structural mechanics.
we brought forward the next class, 1/2 an hour earlier....continued playing BINGO...shak joined in this time....haha!..until we got into our groups...as pernormal, me, Ade, Kai n Shak...and we included zhang yan...we discussed and vandalised my game paper...HAHA.....suck up lah the 1st group....me n shak went up front to present and we talked in a discussion manner, but hey! its better than saying "-read qn- the ans is no." like, very sian right?! urgh! they said we were telling a story....WHICH IS BLOODY MUCH MORE INTERESTING than THEM! scaredy cat lor they all...don't dare to go 1st....my group was the loudest ah...jeered them ah...the 3rd group FORCED them to present 1st and guess what! the flirt didn't go up front..the guy went...PENAKOT!......the 3rd group was the most, erm...i forgot the word....they included everyone in their presentation...which was kinda funny...haha!
our masterpiece!
this is shak. i'm her shit fren. she can only shit when i'm the only one around. HAHA!
after thatt, i went along with shak to her cca....n i guess i joined in...haha....was kinda shy at first ah.....i didn't talked much but with kai...after that we went to the room....alot of ppl said i look like this girl , Nadiah...who was standing in front of me btw....HAHA...n during the intro, almost everyone went "EH!!!! ARE THEY TWINSS???!!" hahah....before my intro, they had a dramatic intro....i was damn scared sia....but they skipped me....WOHOO! khairul Anuar was there...his brother too....but they were kinda quiet tho...hahah.....they sure can act...its a drama cca btw...haha...ME? drama?! u've gotta be kidding.....hhaha.....n the ex-chief looked like arshad.....its been a looooooong time since i heard that name around...hahah....haizz.....time to leave...i'm tired.....
nadiah n me. do we look alike? no? haha!
some of the girls in SSP.
good night!
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
another piece of me written down....
today is a bloody bad luck day for me. go ahead, laugh at me.
here goes,
i ACCIDENTALLY kicked those burning incense tingy. i was so bloody scared sia...
AFTER THAT, in the mrt, shak told me abt what he said, n that i owe him an apology.
so i msged him...n bloody hell, it ruined my day.
so anyway, that aside, i felt bloody irritated by that bloody flirt around me.
so i went home with ivan n shak n fuad n mahir.
talked talked talked but i was the quiet one...
i hurried home...walking under the bloody sun...as fast as i could..
i accidentally breathed in smoke from a ciggerate...my nose hurt!
after all the deposit, i went home. n bloody fucking shity forgetful ME, i didn't have my home kep with me....DAMN SHIT!!! bloody hell. i was already tired n bloody fucked up, n i wasn't at home. FUCK! AND MY hp battery was FLAT!! fucked up larh.... i had to call my dad downstairs.. haiz.....how i wish if my nice neighbour was still living here... argh! so i waited for him downstairs....better than on the stairs right? anyway, i followed my dad fetch my mom n lil bro....went to Bimla to pay some gift stuffs and bought myself a kebaya for the day....and now my mom feels cheated.....ARGH!!!!
what the fuck.
tuesday blues.
chatted with josie just now...
"Teifer. says:
and stop thinkin tat jus by stickin to the gal u like and tryin to scrap every bit of info about her, she'll fall madly in love with u"
Terbaik untukmu - tangga
Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku
* oh kini aku sadari
ini salahku
tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali
reff maafkanlah bila ku selalu
membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
ku lakukan itu semua hanya tuk buatmu bahagia
mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
aku cuma ingin jadi terbaik untukmu
Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikan sesungguhnya cintaku
repeat *
repeat reff
Monday, May 01, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i'm such a lazy bum today....wth! its a holiday! harharhar...
ANYWAY, due to my friend's request, i'm gonna chg some stuff about my previous blog(april 28th)...the guy doesnt know me, so heck he doesn't know what i'll do to make him know the evil side of me. oklah here goes...
the guy's NOT a stalker.....he's a busybody. a kaypoh.
there! i've done it.
but PLEASE, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!
ohmygod. haiyooo. i am so bloody evil. fuuhhh!
its like all guys i'm close with gets this treatment. right jose? right adam? right salman? hahaha...noone knows me better than my close friends. so my dear busybody, you've got to know me 1st before treating me the way you did a few days back, underSTAND?!
thank you.
time to take care of my tutorials.
see ya!
another piece of me written down....
its 2.20am right now and i'm blog-hoppin....EVERYONE on my list....
some people never update others about their blogs hahhhhhh!
so ssad seh.....
some ppl NEVER update their blogs. esp ABDILLAH! aiyoyo...his blog made my comp lag..what sia!
hey hey!! if u chg url, please tell!! i wont harm....hehehehehehe
time to sleep. Zzzzzzzzzz.
another piece of me written down....
its 12+ now and i'm still doing my online prep maths. since afternoon!
how much longer can it take?!?! started it since yesterday night. haiz.
late night mugging.
Walk Away - Franz Ferdinand
I swapped my innocence for pride
Crushed the end within my stride
Said I'm strong now I know that I'm a leaver
I love the sound of you walking away, you walking away
Mascara bleeds a blackened tear, oh
And I am cold, yes, I'm cold
But not as cold as you are
I love the sound of you walking away, you walking away
I love the sound of you walking away, walking away, yeah hey
Why don't you walk away
Why don't you walk away
Why don't you walk away
No buildings will fall down
Don't you walk away
No quake will split the ground
Won't you walk away
The sun won't swallow the sky
Won't you walk away
Statues will not cry
Don't you walk away
Why don't you walk away
Why don't you walk away
Why don't you walk away
Hey
I cannot turn to see those eyes
As apologies may rise I must be strong and stay an unbeliever
And love the sound of you walking away, you walking away
Mascara bleeds into my eye, oh
And I'm not cold, I am old
At least as old as you are
And as you walk away
Oh, as you walk away
Oh, as you walk away
My headstone crumbles down
As you walk away
The Hollywood winds will howl
As you walk away
The Kremlin's falling
As you walk away
Radio Four is static
As you walk away
Oh, as you walk away
Oh, as you walk away
Oh, as you walk away
Hey
The stab of stiletto on a silent night Stalin smiles, Hitler laughs
Churchill claps Mao Tse Tung on the back