Sunday, July 26, 2009
Lunch at Barcelos
alone at home, called swain over, had breakfast and left for vivo. LUNCH! BARCELOS!
think nandos...
when we reached there, we didn't know what to order. so, swain ordered Beef Pita, Very Peri while i had Sweet Chili Cheese Burger, Chicken Mild Peri. we had refillable drinks thinking that the glass would be those typical 16oz, but the glass was big! there were 4 marinations, Zesty Lemon(i think), Mild Peri, Very Peri and Supa Peri. Peri is the spiciness of the patty.
while waiting, we filled our glass. thinking we would need chilli sauce, we took 3 sauce plates.
Look how big the cups are! and that, in the bottle, is the Very Peri sauce.
the sauce i'm holding is the Zesty Lemon. i didn't tried that during the whole experience there. Was indulging too much on my meal!
This is Beef Pita. It had chunks of beef(duh). Looked small but it was definitely filling. Plus! Look at the Fries!!
This, is Sweet Chili Cheese Chicken Burger. I took single patty but there's Double for those with big appetites. you can't see the patty but the burger is super filling thanks to the buns. the cheese was thick, though not oozing out. they missed the pickles. cheese burgers should always have pickles.
Look at swain indulging in his fries! Their fries are really soft on the inside. That, is Supa Peri sauce he poured all over the fries and in his Pita. For the first time, he ate in silence!
look at that Pita Filling!!!! all their dishes have a flag.
see that? see how big my burger is? i had to put the buns away after sometime coz it was just too filling. i ended up just eating the chicken and cheese wrapped in lettuce. haha.
swain gives 9 out of 10 for this store. maybe its too overrated but for our first time, we love it!
next, i wanna go Charcos. Anyone wanna come with me?
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Flowers for Algernon
For 18 years of my life, i never thought the worst about my little brother. yeah, i really wish he was normal and such, but i've always thanked God for making him what he is right now. yeess he has been notorious and cheeky and, truthfully, stupid but his cuteness and his willingness to learn what he really wants to really inspires me to be a much better person just to help him out.
times when i hoped or wished i had a normal brother, i keep thinking how happy my mother and father is right now. how he tickles my father and gives kisses when my father is never one who would take kisses from his other children cos i think he thinks we are grown enough to be on our own and free of the manja-ness. my mother on the other hand, loves how he'll cheer her up, be by her side when she was sad, help her when she was sick, accompany her to the clinic when she's got her appointment.
right now, the book Flowers for Algernon has set me thinking. Its scary to put myself in that position. but what about my brother? has he been thinking that way? though he don't understand everything that's going on, he knows that, if he makes other people laugh, he will be liked. all he wants is to be liked. all he wants is for other people to like him, that's all. In this story, Charlie goes through this amazing operation and he becomes a genius, and surpasses even highest professors. but when it all comes tumbling down, it becomes a scary whirl pool that even reading and writing was difficult. while he was a genius, he loss his friends and those who cared for him and all. and at the end of it all, when the IQ's lost, everything not only went back to square one, it got worst.
i won't know how bad things are when people are around them, but sometimes i hate it that people laugh and take advantage of them. well, i do too of my brother BUT i take advantage like all older siblings do to their younger ones. yes, i'm guilty. but treating him like a normal person helps him to learn. though it takes more than once to teach him, though he gives up everytime he try and try and could never get it straight, the encouragement is something every able-ed person should have. its tough, but its fun. kids like him are really cute and it makes my house much less tense than it was.
he makes us smile. he knows whats happening. stop thinking these people are stupid. coz they are not. they've got all the love they can get and never once will they stop needing the love you can give, unlike us able-ed kids who'll leave our parents once we grow older and smarter.
i love my brother.
Monday, July 20, 2009
TEDDY FACTORY
played teddy factory the whole day at work coz there weren't any.
thought i wanted to godeh-godeh my template but i guess i'll leave that to another day.
when i am really bored.
right now, i've gotta iron the clothes.
Rob Thomas - Her Diamonds (acoustic).mp3 -
"Oh what the hell" she says, "I just cant win for losing"..
and she lays back down
Man there's so many times, I don't know what I'm doing..
like I don't know now
By the light of the moon she rubs her eyes says..
"its funny how the night can make you blind"
but I can just imagine..
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
but if she feels bad, then I do too..
So I let her be
and she says..
"ooh.. I can't take no more"
her tears like diamonds on the floor
and her diamonds bring me down
'cuz I can't help her now
she's down in it
she tried to best, but she can't win it
aww.. to see them on the ground
her diamonds falling down..
way down
She sits down and stares into the distance..
and takes all night
And I know I could break her concentration..
ohh, but it don't feel right
So by the light of the moon she rubs her eyes
sits down on the bed and starts to cry
and there's something less about her..
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
so I sit down and cry too..
but don't let her see
and she says..
"ooh.. I can't take no more"
her tears like diamonds on the floor
and her diamonds bring me down
'cuz I can't help her now
she's down in it
she tried to best, but now she can't win it
aww.. to see them on the ground
her diamonds falling down
She shuts out the night..
and tries to close her eyes
But if she can find a light.. then she'll be alright..
she'll be alright.. just not tonight..
and she says..
"ooh.. I can't take no more"
her tears like diamonds on the floor
and her diamonds bring me down
'cuz I can't help her now
she's down in it
she tried to best, but now she can't win it
aww.. to see them on the ground
her diamonds falling
oohh, I can't take no more
her tears like diamonds on the floor
but her diamonds bring me down
'cuz I can't help her now
she's down in it
she tried to best, but now she can't win it
aww.. to see them on the ground
her diamonds falling down
Thursday, July 16, 2009
mind MY own business.
gotta breathe through my mouthh....
a week has past and still no sign of a healthy nose..
i'm tired. i dont want Work.
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why the hell do i feel so...angry when i read your life? there's so much that i would want you to know right now. and i really want to know everything that has happened to you. but i dare not ask anybody. even when i know of people close to you. after awhile, this guilt comes back and everytime, the confessions start again and really, i hate doing that. its so distracting when you come into my mind. all i need is to talk to you and hopefully, this ends. but, there's no way i would want start it coz the rareness of meeting you is one factor, but everytime i do meet you, i put up a fake smile on my face and treat everything fine. i try the hardest to not avoid you and i try my hardest to seem like nothing's bothering me. coz i know everyone would love to see that nothing about you is bothering me. not that i wanna meet you in person, but is there another way i can get rid of this guilt for good?
everyone comes with a baggage. its just how you keep it displayed that matters. you can't help having past ties with everyone but when you just don't know where that baggage came from, you'd just keep wanting to know about it inside though you seem to ignore it. true?
i don't think you read my page so i guess this will go unnoticed. screaming silently while everything goes deafening.
this time, i tell myself, Mind My Own Business.
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i wonder what my inamorato's doing....
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
bored
don't go relieved just yet, there might be more to come.
anyway,
had fnco for a company dinner for the completion of tender(why are my company dinners there?) and it was greeaat! people there are fun but for the exceptional few. Mr Golem accompanied me to get Mr Giant a card and he got him a funny one. surely he's got a sense of humour. i hate it that the keling had to tag along..ish...the celebration over at glasshouse was great..i wanna go there again! i kinda like it that the people here are pretty relaxed and fun. thumbs up!
had an explosion last night with swain. sometimes i think i'm making no effort to clear things up. but he knows when things arent right and he just knows when and how to trigger the bomb. unlocking the things from me..sometimes, i gotta admit, i hate him but truth is, its always hard to see anyone heartbroken. its like, hmm...how can i say it...everytime, when everything seems beautiful and too good to be true, it becomes too good to be true, and things just messes up and then, get on the nerves and triggers the mega bomb and then it turns to something beautiful again. you know, like stuffs you put in the washing machine..clean(fresh), dirty(worn), nasty(washing) and then clean(after wash).
we've been sick. hate this nose right now coz i'm sitting infront of the a/c and its blocking the airway. oxygen's flowing through the mouth making me dry. grr.
like i said, when something's good, it'll be too good to be true.
swain went karaokeing and cameback with a sorethroat. sorethroat + camp? fever at the end of the week!
i had the yummy f&co, came back with a flu. damn it.
i missed the ancient's gathering. boo.
OH! i watched obsessed and it got me hating ali larter! but she's good. random movie to watch on a boring evening. not exactly the must-watch movie.
the more you know, the more you lose.
people hate to be intelligently surpassed. everyone would love to stand beside a moron coz it makes them look smart.
moron with people around making fun of you
or intelligent with noone at all.
Sunday, July 05, 2009
thrown down.
how the hell did people go through such long relationships and make it look so easy?
with hope turned down first thing in the morning, i had to got through my day with a smiling facade. i keep thinking to myself how the hell i kept going through this every single time. i hate being disappointed first thing in the morning. makes me sick to my stomach, and especially if its by him, it makes me just want to sit down and cry. lembek seh aku..
though that happened, i had a nice morning with my love ladies. we made leather straps and had late breakfast over at mcd. ran some of my errands. raider can open up a shop seh. specialised leather straps. handmade with love.
realised ever since i've been in this, i've become quieter among my friends. i don't like to share. coz i don't want to talk abt it with friends. enough with talking abt it with him, i want to talk about something else with everyone else.
work, him, family. my life right now revolves around these three. friends? rarely. why? no time. making people happy is just so tiring.
ARGH!
sakit hati seh aku.
kat keje, aku kene buat keje orang lain. keje aku?
there was once, i returned home crying coz of work. i was fasting that day and i did most of my colleagues' work coz their freaking work was not done. mcm sial. all i wanted was to get the work done and over with and that bitch go 'its her fault what, she don't want to go buy food.' BABI! aku da tolong KAU sampai blakang aku sakit nak giler, kau dudok kat situ buat keje senang perintah2 orang. kau ingat aku BABU kau kepe?!
give me the strength to not let this happen again.
i just gave a 6pg sms to swain.
part of my life is a the greatest state. part of my life is at its lowest state. and its not 50/50.
i wanna go shop for stuff.
going f.co tmr for the hard work we all did at work. the people at work are nice. just that work is hell.
cycling from the end of the siloso beach to the other end of tanjung beach sucks like hell coz i think its worst than walking. its so exhausting. especially with no proper meal from the start of the day. i'm hating swain for it but i love him for it. geez.
nak kene buat cermin mate ah.
i want a hug right now.
my mind is freakingly all over the place!
lets stop this and start reading Flowers for Algernon. i even found a literature paper for it. English, how i've missed you.
nak itouch jugek! tak buat keje aku nanti.
i'm watching MJ's top 40 and it looks tiring just watching him dance. its such a pity even after his death, there's still so much conspiracy about him going on.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
ARGH!!
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