Monday, July 31, 2006
another piece of me written down....
ok, this weekend have been fun.
saturday had Awallah Dondang and it ROCKED! couldn't stop ourselves from dancing on d stage.
sunday had Class BBQ at Mr Yoong's condo. the food ROCKED!! esp d stingrayyy..
saturday:
met nisy, fina, aizat n syab in d train..fuh! i wasnt late! BUT i forgot to bring a tshirt for practice. =/ so anyway, we waited at outram mrt for the rest BUT got shoo-ed. met suhaila n syikin. syiqin nvr wear tudung. look pretty. but with tudung, much sweeter. haha! so met hilmi, nazif, falina, ama, nad n asmida. walked to KAPT. set our things right, changed to watever for rehersals. went to 7-11 to get some stuffs. aizat n hilmi gayed on the way. hilmi, the girl. O.O!
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as they walked together, they decided they loved each other TOO much and..
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haha! ee...
then, we had our rehersals. epilog was crap the 1st time coz we didn't know our places n stuff like that. SP took too much of their time coz of their props. WOOPS. then, abg akil came. we ate our lunch and then we practiced. innova was actually causing the delay, not sp. we had a 2nd rehersal, full dressed. good thing d worst costume to wear is d 1st costume to wear, for spians of coz. d epilog costumes were a pain in d neck! BUT it was NICEE! black n white. ooo....d 2nd rehersal went smoothly. later, we got ready for the actual thing. took our dinner and started make up n stuff. i was soo damn nervous, i jumped backstage. suzanna calmed me down..phew...everything went smoothly...nice...BADANG WAS GREAT! finale was superb! danced till d place was empty! haha..gonna miss the hard times we practiced. haha..met THE girls (and guys) at d audience...aizat was d one who pulled me down...i didnt want to go...but i'm not regrettin. so anyway, helped clean up. den later went home. we crazed while walking. haha..walked with nad n dear. den dear walked with me home. itwas12midnightandthescenewasnice. nearly bumped into mom! ooppp!
sunday:
didnt go madrasah. again. bad bad me. mom went melawat. d food wasnt ready till 5. omg. but managed on the way. my parents fetched me n shak there. met adel n kai n marcus. please dont be mad at me. D= so after that went to mr yoong's condo. they got the pit ready. started the bbq. everyone ate d bee hoon. said it was nice. =)))) cooked al d other stuffs. many were chao tah. haha! haiyo...second half, when fuad came, the fire was better. cooked the stingray. EVERYONE loved it!! well, those who were cooking anyway. =)))) save the best for the last. then it was good bye. kinda fun but kinda short coz it was lights out at 10 over there. so, yea...
and i love HIM.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo.
things have been kinda tiring these few days...i've been coming home at 11 for two days straight now....i BET its gonna be the same for today and especially on SATURDAY. confirm reach home at 12.....hurhur....damn shit....BUT two days in a row, i've been seeing westerners at tanah merah mrt....hearing them speak is so nice especially when they kinda speak vulgar coz it doesnt sound like one...haha.....most of them are black ah....HAAHAA~ washing detergent.
thanks to him, i end my days with a smile and i feel very calm whenever and wherever. who's d he? u'll find out.
so ya....i'm tired and tired and damn tired....in d train, i sleep while i stand...cool huh....yeahhh....
CANT WAIT TO SEE U GIRLS ON SATURDAY!!!
thing is, am i gonna forget the steps?? i have 3 different scenes to dance in...fuck that shit!
-i'm in love-
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i wanna go up to this guy i see almost everyday while on the way to the mrt and say "HEY! were you the one who went to Genting with me and my cousin's family when we were pri 6??? u were with ur family and sis with the name 'amal'...were you?!"
spank me and call me crazy coz i am.
when complications arise.....
(sounds familiar..hmmm)
anyway, it seems everyone is having a bad day these few days...especially my bestest best best friend for more than 10 years...i hope u are doing well love...because life is a wheel and u seem to be at them bottom of it...i'll cycle d bike n bring u to the top...=)
i wanted to msg u this morning to say good luck but suddenly it strucked me that i cant and i cudn't call ur fon anymore since u've just temporarily terminated the line...but i hope u had the greatest day today...i just hope...loveu.
well, i hoped today was getting better but when i took the mrt today n saw my fren dropping her stuffs all over, i just realised, the day wasn't getting better for me...i feel sad....later i found out another fren was feeling phatetic and the other felt guilty.....well u people know who you are....i just hope things just got better for you all...
just when u think you've found someone really nice, u just feel that thing that says 'that person is too good to be true'....don't u feel that sometimes? and then u'll go all around to pull back a little....and when u do, things just go silent...break the silence for me...coz i'll never try to touch it in the first place..
suddenly i feel kinda scared. and i have no idea why. life.
the thing is THIS saturday, and we still have not gotten our dance ready YET. and its damn tough...but not that long...i hope i don't walk so drunkenly that i make a fool out of myself..and u know what? never a day have i gone home early these few weeks. early as in 4/5 plus. NEVER. i reach home around 8/9pm in the evening every day. and it hurts my head. i need more rest BUT i just can't get any yet. if i were to eat my pill, then i'll feel drugged. and i feel i've owed everyone atleast something somehow..even if it is not big. i owe everyone a big THANK YOU for changing my life. love always.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i LOVE you!
"you love who???"
i LOVE you!!!
"me???"
yes you!! =)))))
"awww.."
typical reaction huh....haha...AMRIN!!! mane kau?!!! da lamer tak 'jumper'...there's sooo many things i wanna tell you!!!!! msg me ASAP oukay!!! call me!!!!
heeheehee....
okay. i'd like to tell whoever and whoever n whoever that i AM NOT searching for any BOYFRIENDS! YAR!!! why?? coz...erm, i want to find them...cheyyy....but true, i'm not looking for one....this was one of the qns that ite guy asked...whether i'm single anot and i told him i am but i'm not looking for any and he replied "then if someone wants you?"..then i said, that depends....HAAHAA!!! funny eyh....anyway, u'll find it when u least expect it. truth been told, i'm in the drain.
go figure.
SO anyway, i'm suppose to be practising mathcad but looky here, i'm blogging....what a crime. ishh....people are lame...don't you know that? even i am. and i'm also a hypocrite, an ironic, a bitch, a freak, a backstabber, a heartbreaker and more in many different ways. so don't be surprised if you find out i backstabbed you...-i see my fingertips are green as i type this...damn-
so i shall stop and continue my work. tata!
SHAK!! U SHIT YOU!! pangsei us...PANGSEI ME! hmph!!!!
n glitterfren, please don't be late again....n don't be sad. cheer up. kay?
adel! harharhar. stop sagging lahhh
kai!!! u ah...big bad wolf you.....why i say that i also don't know...hahaa!!
OK BYE!!
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
another piece of me written down....
fuck! i've got FOUR assignments to finish IN 2 DAYS! AND!!!! tmr night i have to go to sriwana to get the costumes.
bloody fuck.
this goes to that person whom i called MORON just now.
hey, u know i don't really like you. you also know how i feel about you. so can you act like i DON'T lke you? it IS a two way world. if you could just STOP bugging me, AND my friend, maybe, JUST maybe i MIGHT approach you and say hi. BUT for NOW, stop being DESPERATE would you? its not that i'm being unreasonable or whatever BUT i find you DAMN irritating, DAMN annoying, and fucking damn lame. so what if you've stop stalking around, but u are still driving people up the wall. can't u understand WHEN people state they are BUSY, MEANS they DO NOT want to be DISTURBED! so what if you are busy also? that doesnt make u have the allowance to chat with others AND THAT includes ME! especially ME! and i have READ your blog and you know what? i think you are really some psycho. come on! i DON'T like you so PLEASE accept THAT FACT!
bloody fucked up. and i still have more to type but i just don't want to be TOOO harsh. urgh.
FINE! I'M GONNA DO MY TUTORIALS. BYE!!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
another piece of me written down....
eh, sial lahh!!!!
there's this ITE guy i MISTAKENLY added in msn and now he's like going all "are u single?" on me. those typical irc kind of chats u know...the "intro?", "single?" and "school where?"... harharhar. EEEEEEEEEEEE. n COINCIDENTALLY he is from ITE DOVER! u know how NEAR that is?! n like, he's looks like those typical guys who takes oppurtunity on every girl he meets. eek. -_-" i hope my cousin is connected to him...SOMEHOW......eek. i'm gonna dig all d info from him! urgh. let he be a good guy. let he be a good guy. let he be a good guy. =/
another piece of me written down....
i don't know what to blog about.
thus, i shan't blog. maybe i will get an idea in....5 mins.
-5 mins later-
i still have nothing in mind to blog about.
a quote editted from 'seinfeld ' - "this blog is about NOTHING."
Sunday, July 16, 2006
another piece of me written down....
i use to have a penpal..but i think she's too engrossed with her life and new family, she never replied my last email...sad...her baby's name is soo nice...i miss her....i wonder what is she doing...
"Well i had a baby girl (you do remember that i was pregnant) and she was born on 16 November 2004. She was 10 pounds 14 ounces, a really big baby! I named her Paige Kaitlyn Moore. She's got her fathers last name. Sh is so beautiful i dont regret having her at all i love her to bits! She is now 10 mths old and crawling and trying to walk, she says mum real good and alot. Follows me around going mum, mum, mum. Its so cute. She can say dad and bubba. Were trying to teach her nana and pop. I turned 21 last week, i feel so old."
i need a Guy's black baju kurung...where can i find it??
i heard this song yesterday...reminded me of so many things..
stupidd psychotic fan. urgh.
"Stan"(feat. Dido)
[Chorus: Dido]
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,it's not so bad..
[1st Chorus: volume gradually grows over raindrop background]
[2nd Chorus: full volume with beat right after "thunder" noise]
[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Slim, I wrote but you still ain't callinI left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
but anyways; fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father
If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her?
I'ma name her Bonnie
I read about your Uncle Ronnie too I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit that you did with Skam
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man
I like the shit you did with Rawkus too, that shit was fat
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back,
just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan
This is Stan
[Chorus: Dido]
[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert
you didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
That's my little brother man, he's only six years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you,
four hours and you just said, "No."
That's pretty shitty man - you're like his fuckin idol
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do
I ain't that mad though, I just don't like bein lied to
Remember when we met in Denver - you said if I'd write you
you would write back - see I'm just like you in a wayI never knew my father neither;
he used to always cheat on my mom and beat her
I can relate to what you're saying in your songs
so when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on
cause I don't really got shit else so that shit helps when I'm depressed
I even got a tattoo of your name across the chest
Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me
See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you tell it
My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don't know you like I know you Slim, no one does
She don't know what it was like for people like us growin up
You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Stan --
P.S.We should be together too
[Chorus: Dido]
[Eminem as 'Stan']
Dear Mister-I'm-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans,
this'll be the last package I ever send your ass
It's been six months and still no word - I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters;I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect
So this is my cassette I'm sending you, I hope you hear it
I'm in the car right now, I'm doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim, I drank a fifth of vodka, you dare me to drive?
You know the song by Phil Collins, "In the Air of the Night"
about that guy who coulda saved that other guy from drowning
but didn't, then Phil saw it all, then at a a show he found him?
That's kinda how this is, you coulda rescued me from drowning
Now it's too late - I'm on a 1000 downers now, I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped +ALL+ of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim, we coulda been together, think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
See Slim; [*screaming*] Shut up bitch! I'm tryin to talk!
Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screamin in the trunk
but I didn't slit her throat, I just tied her up, see I ain't like you
cause if she suffocates she'll suffer more, and then she'll die too
Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now
Oh shit, I forgot, how'm I supposed to send this shit out?
[*car tires squeal*] [*CRASH*]..
[*brief silence*] .. [*LOUD splash*]
[Chorus: Dido]
[Eminem]
Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner but I just been busy
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?
Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that
and here's an autograph for your brother,
I wrote it on the Starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I musta missed you
Don't think I did that shit intentionally just to diss you
But what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too?
I say that shit just clownin dogg,
c'mon - how fucked up is you?
You got some issues Stan, I think you need some counseling
to help your ass from bouncing off the walls when you get down some
And what's this shit about us meant to be together?
That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter, I just hope it reaches you in time
before you hurt yourself, I think that you'll be doin just fine
if you relax a little, I'm glad I inspire you but Stan
why are you so mad? Try to understand, that I do want you as a fan
I just don't want you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend in the trunk, and she was pregnant with his kid
and in the car they found a tape, but they didn't say who it was to
Come to think about, his name was.. it was you
Damn!
Saturday, July 15, 2006
i like this phone!!! nice huh.....love samsung.
another piece of me written down....
ok shit. my card reader isn't working. damn. shit.
so anyway, today went for practice. ended at 4+. so damn long!! but fun ah..haha...ok ok, this was what happened, i was late...why? coz i washed my clothes. sooo hardworking righhtt?? haha...no lah...i couldn't find a nice shirt to wear so i washed one. haha....i was late, but aisyah n nisha were much more late. heh heh. -ok i forgot what i wanted to type- so ANYWAY, we went 7-11 to get some things to eat and then when we reached the sch, ONLY OUR SCHOOL CAME! like wth...so phatetic. innova was late, np n nyjc not coming. all cause of CIP. hurhur..i recaptured my steps and tried to remember the steps...harhar....we were slacking so sofirna kept bugging me to practice to steps. hahaha....so funny....then, around 2+ abg akil came and 'pulled' us dancers out...hahahah.....we practiced the contemp. dance...SO CONFUSING!!!! its the 1st time i danced those steps that REQUIRE me to lift my legs UP...as in IN the air...and its sooo tiring!! had to run here and there, squat here and there, pose here and there..really! we had to POSE! i nvr did that before EITHER...i had to pose something ignorant....asmida was on d floor, amalina was squatting, i was standing...quite cool actually...haha....but its damn complicated. but HEY! i told mr osman about idayu n raider's hasrat to join his grp AND he told us to come down there...maybe next week...just give him a call...he gave me his card...SELF MADE okay...hahahahahaha....ended damn late due to contemp dance. took the train with asmida....n like, she commented that this few boys 'CONFIRM GO BAYBEATS'....N SHE'S TRUE! hahahah.....
so anyway, went to bugis...i tell u, next time i see a group of boys who look like they WANT to ask for my no., i'll NEVER move from the spot UNLESS they ask...haha! coz ya, dat was wat i tink this guy wanted to do BUT i disappeared myself from the spot. HAHA....saw yasmin while i was waiting for nad...sorry tak tegur...she was walking damn fast lah....n there were so many people....confirm later go baybeats. hahah....at last nad came.....so loongg....den we walked to the makan place....looked at some watches...I WANT!!! its soo nice....haha....later lah....went to this place to eat...jihad, achap n some other seniors were there...so shocked..haha! they waved at me...HAHAH!!! funny lah...i heard someone say 'lain sak dier...!'....errm....ok, ignore....den me n nad ate wanton noodless....ok lah...tastes d same everywhere....i guess the girls beside us knew on of them also...hahahahah......and they eavesdrop lah...i was talking to nad about going back to sch one day and this girl asked HER friend also...KEPO! den jihad n they all went off...achap waved to me n said bye...so funny...hahahahahha.....i duno why i find it funny....but ya, i find it funny...nad also...hahahahahah....WE'VE GOT A PROBLEM WITH GUYS! help us....hahah! so sad....when they come, we put a shield. like, wth...u've got what i mean....so anyway, we went walking around bugis...and we stopped at this shop that sells jeans and the lady gave me a stack of jeans to try on....like, "here's one design u can try one"...and "here's another"...but in the end, i didnt buy...why? coz i nvr intended to buy any....after that, went home....in the mrt, we took photos....one photo, i looked damn scary, nad say i look like juon...HAHAH!!! but really...even i was freaked....later i post...now, my card reader aint working...shit.
lalalalala....so what if this thing we're having ends here. what if it just stops coz one of us had put a barrier between us so that none will get hurt? what if i tried to start it but you just don't put it to work? why is it this way? why is it that after this happens, the treatment always change drastically? maybe either of us are confused. maybe either of us are afraid. maybe either of us just do not want either of us to get hurt. life.
its been a long time since i blogged this long.
Friday, July 14, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo.
today i screwed up my part of the presentation. which is like, damned. i'm unclear, i'm too fast and i didn't introduce my group members. i was rushing. damnshit.
today i had a site visit at Pinnacle@Duxton. 50 stories!! and they're still doing the footings and stuffs i think..haha! d guider, mr teo, is SOO opposite the mr teo I know..haha...he is very soft and has no confidence. ish ish. loved taking photos.
today i had practice. which is like, SHIT! coz i kept losing the counts and kept forgetting which foot to start with. WHY? coz i'm used to starting with the right, that when she changed to starting to with the left, i get all tensed. but i kinda got it..i think.
ok. i'm loving that song lah. hearing it like ten times a day. maybe more.
so anyway, i received an email frm idayu about this and it struck me how ironic it is.
9 Things I Hate About Everyone
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?[HAHA!]
2 People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.[lazy bums]
3 When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too".
Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it? [yalor!]
4 When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses![like duhhhh]
5 When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.[haha!]
6 People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?[STRUCK ME BAD!]
7 When something is 'new and improved!' Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.[GET IT?]
8 When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer? [correct]
9 When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass??[true true, unless you were waiting for someone.]
Collide - Howie day
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
I'm open, your closed
Where I'll follow you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
Somehow find you and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide
Thursday, July 13, 2006
another piece of me written down....
ok fuck. what is happening now? =/
so anyway, kinda finished the crs project presentation. now for the script...had help from benji, marvin and edmund...haha...so funny....edmund is soooo, erm...serious...AND HE LOOKS LIKE MR TEO CHAI LAI!!!!!! really.....hahah! he kept saying he's more charming than mr teo....n i didn't make his day by saying both of them arent charming, instead benji is...[BLUEK]...but but but, i turned the tables by proving he is the smartest among us....haha! he has gotten straight As lah...damn good....haha.....what lah, kai lin nvr meet us....yet benji saw her at bedok...which is like, we were late by a few mins...HARHAR! ok ok....our bad....
okay! i need to finish up
BTM tutorial 2 to 4.
Engg maths tutorial 6-8
App Sci tutorial [pressure]
erm....what else?
i have to memorise steps, which, i have already memorised except i keep forgetting my feets..
CRS SUCK! do you know that? everyone hates english. hurhur.
okokok. maybe it always feels funny to tell someone something personal...but does it always change how you treat them? lets think.
i love this song.
i love peterpan.
Peterpan - Mimpi yang Sempurna
Mungkinkah bila ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Dan bila ku mulai merasa
bahasa kesunyian
Sadarkan aku yang berjalan
dalam kehampaan
Terdiam, terpana, terbata
Semua dalam keraguan
Aku dan semua yang terluka karena kita
Aku kan menghilang
dalam pekat malam
Lepas ku melayang
Biarlah ku bertanya
pada bintang-bintang
Tentang arti kita
dalam mimpi yang sempurna
Aku dan semua yang terluka karena kita
Aku kan menghilang
dalam pekat malam
Lepas ku melayang
Biarlah ku bertanya
pada bintang-bintang
Tentang arti kita
dalam mimpi yang sempurna
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelooo......my dear darling idayu requested me to update so here i am. harhar...
lately in life, i've just realised how neglectful i've been.
yes. very neglectful. even in my studies. even with my family. and my friends.
i'm very guilty.
i've just realised how long it has been since i've touched a novel.
so i went to the lib and borrowed two. BEDOK LIB! i love that lib. somany kenangan.
nowadays i'm damn busy and tired, i don't even watch my favourite shows. that is very sad.
just caught my lil bro wanting to smoke. as in lit up a cigarette and put inside his mouth. MY LITTLE BROTHER! the one who IS NOT as normal as WE ARE. THE one who just copies what others do. THE one that barely know what everything is all about.
haiz.
on d 29th i've got a peformance. anyone want to see?? tell me. =DDD
can anyone sing and play d guitar d song Mimpi yang Sempurna?? for me? heheheh....=)
Monday, July 10, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo!!!!
ahrharhar...
i feel crazy today...ahrharhar....
it was just yesterday i was feeling a lost for hope.
things are just turning around....
sweet pri sch kids found my CARD!! =DDD i was sooo happy....
now to go there tomorrow. damnnn....but hey! i don't mind.
dear god has heard my prayers. Amin.
another piece of me written down....
fucking shitty luck i'm having here. so many misfortunes in FOUR days!
on
thursday,
fuad was late ONE WHOLE HOUR.
some bastards go say they can't make it for that bloody com service i organised heartfully. and they've got no idea how i feel.
friday
bitchy lecturer go lose my assignment.
mahir splashed concrete on me.
saturday
only 10 people came for the com service.
fuad bastard us.
i had a blister on my thumb.
came damn late for my cca practice.
fuad didn't come for practice.
we couldn't find the right place to place the speakers.
mr osman was THERE!
lost my admin and ezlink card. (fucking double damned)
took a bus going towards town instead of bedok.
had quarrels with my mom.
sunday
was so tired i didn't go madrasah
had diarhoea.
was in a damn long traffic jam on the way to and from johor.
the car broke down while we were on the expressway.
but for all these days, i had my fun and laughter. eventhou only 10 people came, i guess those people who came were WAY BETTER than those who didnt come. i think if they DID come, there'll be even more tension. which is, fucked up. but our CIP turned out fine. playing with concrete was fun too. thats why i got some on my shirt. 'kenangan' kate kan...i went to see the ndp preview...it was their idunohowmanytimes rehersal n i couldnt feel their presence...so, ya...the performance was abit boring but i like the fireworks and spending time with rai, raider n mj AND somebodyelse was the greatest thing to happen to me while i'm in the no-so-good mood. cheers! anyway, even though i was in traffic jams n the car broke down, i had my rest and i had fun at the expressway...i took photos..ahaha!
so, there's always a reason for something to happen. i need supportive people around me all the time to carry on, and i know just the people to count on. love ya all! sweet memories all the time! =)
pray that i have better luck in the days to come. smiles.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
another piece of me written down....
I WANT TO KILL MYSELF
I WENT THROUGH ALL THE TROUBLE AND THIS IS WHAT THEY GIVE ME!
I FUCKING HATE THEM!
I TOLD THEM ALREADY ABOUT IT!
AND SOME PEOPLE GO SAY
THEY ARE BUSY
THEY ARE GOING FOR DINNER
THEY CANNOT MAKE IT
THEY DONE EVERYTHING FINISH!
THEN WHAT?!
AM I SUPPOSE TO GO TO THE VICE PRINCIPAL AND SAY oh, my classmates couldn't make it.
DAMN SHIT!
FUCK UP LAH!
LIKE THAT I ALSO SAY I'M BUSY LAH!
I'VE GOT TRAINING! IN THE MORNING SOMEMORE!
DON'T EXPECT ME TO TALK NICELY TO YOU ALL TOMORROW!
FUCK OFF.
freaking bloody species. where the heck did they come from?! argh! i cried just now. fucking all my efforts wasted. fuck you all!
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
another piece of me written down....
HYELO!!
it has been a long time hasn't it? since i last blogged. haha!
ok ok. i've been tired. too tired to even go to class today. haha. yeap, i skipped. BUT i still went to sch for project and practice. the irony. i know.
so anyway, i've got a few assignments awaiting to be handed in.
they are
CAD project.(7th)
Engg maths PBL.(7th)
CRS presentation.(7th)
CD CSP(8th) tmr i've got to meet the principal.(!!)
BTM tutorials 2-5.(idunowhen)
ALOT!!!
and i've got to practice for some erm...what do you call it, performance? dat sounds so dance like..whatever u call it...ya...i'm practicing for it. i duno when it is gonna be held..so, erm..ya....two different dances to memorise, and this saturday, i'm gonna come late. ARGH!! every wed we've got practice. shittiee!!
erm...other than THAT...went to NP yesterdy...and ya, u shud've guessed it....i saw him. said hello even. hurhur. yesterday i was damn tired, i didnt even wave to dat 02 guy...he did...haha! sorryyyy.....it's nice to know somepeople saying 'you are not forgotten'....(:
adel n kai keep bickering to each other...haiyoyo...like mother n father fighting lidat...me n shak only listen n lauugh....MUMMY!! DADDY!! STOP QUARRELLING!! haha!
what ELSE! okay, now i know how that guy nad always talk about looks like. but she wants to know his friend so, i still have yet to know WHO THE HELL HE IS. hurhur...my fren knows 2 person with dat name but both not from year 2. haha! life.
i still smile when i hear that sone...she's my alien from simle plan. haha!! sweet. my inspiration for my msn add. hahahaha! (u go, AHHH! now i know. -__-")
now for CAD.
BYE!
Saturday, July 01, 2006
another piece of me written down....
hyelo!
my crs stuffs has been sent! n i feel DAMN relieved. eventhough i didn't manage to get 25 articles but at least, i did ard there. and that is also thanks to IDAYU and JOSIE, i had more those no. of reviews. =DD
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!
so anyway, josie also helped in my wrs.
DOUBLE THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
other than that, now i have to do CAD and memorise what i learnt just now...
met da girls just now, and haha! raider misses dancing. too bad her sch only got traditional. but hey! u should just join for d exercise. haha! its been damn long since i danced and stretched..now my feet is in pain. eeeeeee-pain.
i feel erm, better after today's session...haha! nadiah(my twin) made a comment while we were reading the script "aku tau kau suke, cume kau diam je"....so she noticed. n today changed my impression of shamil. hurhur.
SO ANYWAY! i need to change my skin. i've got a few in mind but, hmm...
NAD!!! i miss talking to you about the things going on...updates larh....lets do that again! hahahahah....n did u get to know that guy's name?? tell me!! mayb sumone i know knows him? hahahahahahha! come down to my school this thursday?? u've gotta be kidding. most prob u'll get lost!
ok, tmr cip. wonder what will we do...I HOPE D VP REPLIED! hurhur.
saw salahuddin just now. he's got a gf! hurhur. but she looked like a minah? maybe its just my eyes. but, its expected. ISH! i duno who to tell so i expose here.
my cousins are getting attached and their parents go heck about it. MINE?! talks ALL OVER about how the male species can be very bad. haiz....when are they gonna treat me like an adult?
i sang d 'oh mama, saya mahu kahwin' song to mom, and she went "eh eh eh.....blaja dulu, blaja dulu"(study 1st, study 1st)... like wth?! so not sporting. life.
ah, ppl who've never seen me in years asked whether i've gained weight. aka saying i've grown fatter. how amusing is that?