Tuesday, October 30, 2012
May distance bring us closer.
You said you'd text.
I waited.
But nothing came.
You said you'd call.
I waited.
But my phone kept silent.
You said we'd meet again.
I waited.
But nothing happened.
My head tells me to stop waiting.
But my heart longs for you.
If ever, there will be next time.
I wish for this feelings to go away.
I wish for me to let go of these feelings.
I wish for me to stop all this.
So that you don't have to worry about me anymore.
The pain isn't in the sadness. It's in pretending that the sadness isn't there, or doesn't matter. Your deliverance will come in your truthfulness, in removing the masks, and being entirely bare. Escape the pain of half a sajda.
-Yasmeen Mogahed
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I waited.
But nothing came.
You said you'd call.
I waited.
But my phone kept silent.
You said we'd meet again.
I waited.
But nothing happened.
My head tells me to stop waiting.
But my heart longs for you.
If ever, there will be next time.
I wish for this feelings to go away.
I wish for me to let go of these feelings.
I wish for me to stop all this.
So that you don't have to worry about me anymore.
The pain isn't in the sadness. It's in pretending that the sadness isn't there, or doesn't matter. Your deliverance will come in your truthfulness, in removing the masks, and being entirely bare. Escape the pain of half a sajda.
-Yasmeen Mogahed
Mungkinkan bersama
Dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati(nan suci)
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat kini
Monday, October 29, 2012
finally, october is ending.
i never once hoped for a month to end quickly.
wake me up, when october endsss~
is it me, or is october very draggy this year?
it is supposed to be MY month. I'm supposed to be HAPPY this month. but no, i'm not.
sick again.
sick sick sick.
i just want to get this phase over and done with. fast forward 64x.
only God knows why he put me through this.
I can't breathe.
getting the wedding preparations done. i need to let go of this sense of trying to be in control of everything. it's like i want to control every outcome but it turns opposite instead. like, pastel to striking bold colour. like a budget small room to a huge spacious apartment. like from an expensive once in a lifetime must have gift, to a cheaper one. i need to let go of these sense of in control. let others make decisions instead. as long as they are happy, i'm sure i'll be happier.
but i do wish things could turn around sometimes. i wish i can make the decisions. but its not my event. majority wins. you won. your interests won. i lost. i wish i could just let go of you, of these memories i have, of these feelings. i wish it was as easy as the past boys. i wish i could stop picking up my phone just to want to see a text from you. i wish i could stop picking up my phone just to want to dial your number. i wish i could stop missing you. i wish i could make you happier by just leaving you alone. i wish i could feel as happy as i was when you finally had your dreams come true. i wish i can start making myself happy. i wish i can just be happy knowing you are happy.
i keep telling myself, you will call, you will text, you will do something.
but i let myself down.
I can't breathe.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't respect me.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't respect my family.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't respect the true value of a woman.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't respect my family values.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't respect my religion.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't bring me closer to Allah.
i need to learn to walk away from a relationship that doesn't aim for a halal marriage.
I knew we were doing the wrong things.
I knew we going against Your Commands.
why doesn't he listen to me?
why didn't he stop years ago?
why now?
They say,
Let go of him, if he is truly for me, he will be mine in halal.
Ya Allah, you taught me alot in my birthday month. i learnt to find ways to understand your beloved Prophet Muhammad (SAW), i learnt to find ways to understand the Qur'an though i can't read it. You showed me that love, doesn't have to be physical. Please don't stop bringing me closer to you, Ya Allah. I am still too far away from you. Amin.
Thursday, October 25, 2012
throbbing pain. finally, something familiar.
i
want
to
make
this
work!
but i can not.
because you don't want to try.
you don't want to talk about where we are going.
you don't even call.
you don't even tell me you miss me.
you don't make effort to meet me.
even if you do, it's cos i initiate.
where are you.
WHERE ARE YOU.
maybe you should be the one who start talking all about this instead.
me? special? really?
make me feel special.
TURN THINGS AROUND.
turn this around.
If you don't love me, let me go.
but why can't i let you go?
I WANT TO LET YOU GO.
but you told me not to.
you want me to keep all the memories.
my head hurts.
thinking of why you haven't called.
thinking of where you've been.
thinking of who you're with.
i feel like some psycho.
so calm on the outside,
only through this blog, you know how i really feel.
but you never acknowledge.
if you wanted this to work,
you'd push for it to happen.
you said, if you want someone to be happy,
you should be the one making that person happy.
keep calm.
keep composed.
and leave.
want
to
make
this
work!
but i can not.
because you don't want to try.
you don't want to talk about where we are going.
you don't even call.
you don't even tell me you miss me.
you don't make effort to meet me.
even if you do, it's cos i initiate.
where are you.
WHERE ARE YOU.
maybe you should be the one who start talking all about this instead.
me? special? really?
make me feel special.
TURN THINGS AROUND.
turn this around.
If you don't love me, let me go.
but why can't i let you go?
I WANT TO LET YOU GO.
but you told me not to.
you want me to keep all the memories.
my head hurts.
thinking of why you haven't called.
thinking of where you've been.
thinking of who you're with.
i feel like some psycho.
so calm on the outside,
only through this blog, you know how i really feel.
but you never acknowledge.
if you wanted this to work,
you'd push for it to happen.
you said, if you want someone to be happy,
you should be the one making that person happy.
keep calm.
keep composed.
and leave.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
I'm a phonecall away. But you don't have a phone.
You know that feeling..
when you pick up the phone, to call someone,
and you are expecting their answer or response to be as happy-sounding as you are trying to?
well, yeah, you may hate to pick up the calls due to facts that maybe, people are calling you to complain or give you a job or maybe, you are just not in the mood to talk. but, don't you actually realise, that, maybe they were looking forward to a positive sounding voice atleast, even if the news is bad.
like on the radio, every news given are said in a pretty chirpy voice, even if its a traffic jam or an accident that just happened on the road.
but when the person isn't receptive, you just go blank. like, after the call, either you feel like cursing the person OR just blank out, stop doing work, thinking, did you say something wrong? or did you spoil their day or something for calling them?
Friday, October 19, 2012
No to all the bad things in the world.
Dory sings while she motivates(and annoys) Nemo's Dad.
Saying yes to everything doesn't make you cooler, saying no to everything doesn't make you look boring either. you just have to choose which to use at the suitable time.
Death comes like traffic on the road. Random. but you know it's coming. Nothing can be more sorrow than death. But being a Muslim, we must always be prepared for death. It's not something to be afraid of, but it's something we must ponder upon everytime we wake up after one night of sleep. It's the life thereafter that is scary and no matter how good or bad you were, it all boils down to your knowledge and not your fortune. Knowledge, is much worthier than fortune on Earth. The greatest fortune is knowledge. How you love you parents and family, how you recite the Holy Qur'an, how you practice Islam and how you love the Rasul(SAW) and Allah(SWT). This religion has put upon us goals which many of us have yet to achieve. Just praying 5 times a day is hard enough, what more preforming Hajj. If there is anyone who can save you while you are being questioned up there, its your pious children.
Work hard now, and enjoy later.
But, i guess, what they mean by 'enjoy' if you're a Muslim, its really in Paradise, and not here on Earth. My goal, i hope, insyaAllah, is to meet Allah(SWT). But, here i am struggling just to be a muslim, not even a good one yet.
I hope He provides me with Guidance. Amin.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Not a Swift fan, but her songs are catchy.
Looking through messages, how sweet we were at the start of the year. This year. Realising that it was all a lie, realising everything was a lose-win situation. Finally, i lost. I had the time of my life. I owed it all to you. Now, i am having the time of my life, but i owe it all to Allah(SAW).
We are never ever getting back together - Taylor Swift
I remember when we broke up the first time
Saying "This is it, I've had enough", cause like
We hadn't seen each other in a month
When you, said you, "needed space", what?
Then you come around again and say
Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change
Trust me, remember how that lasted for a day
I say, I hate you, we break up, you call me, I love you
Oooh we called it off again last night
But Oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together
Like ever...
I'm really gonna miss you picking fights
And me, falling for it screaming that I'm right
And you, will hide away and find your peace of mind with some indie record that's much cooler than mine
Oooh you called me up again tonight
But Oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk to my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together
I used to think, that we, were forever ever
And I used to say never say never
Huh, he calls me up and he's like, I still love you
And i'm like, I just, I mean this is exhausting, you know
We are never getting back together, like ever
We are never ever ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk to my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together
Not getting back together, we
Oh, getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk to my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Please.
Gym
Cycling.
Target: Best friend's Wedding!
yes darling, i'm fat and you hate it that i have a buldge(but oh, you said you loved me the way i was. but everytime i ate something, you held my tummy and said what u would.). you hate that i love short boylike haircut than that long, till the waist hair. i prefer wavy than that stiff straight style you had me get.
if i didn't like it, why did i still do it? to please you.
but still, you weren't happy enough.
i changed to please you. but you weren't happy with my change.
now i change, not to please you.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
You sang this to me once, now I understand why.
Sometimes, i really think you like the song not just by the music, but by the lyrics.
If i could make a mixed tap for you, I would, with all the songs that reminded me of you.
Talking To The Moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have
Chorus:
At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah I've gone mad
But they don't know what I know
Cause when the sun goes down someone's talking back
Yeah They're talking back
Chorus:
At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon
Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,
Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
If i could make a mixed tap for you, I would, with all the songs that reminded me of you.
Talking To The Moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have
Chorus:
At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah I've gone mad
But they don't know what I know
Cause when the sun goes down someone's talking back
Yeah They're talking back
Chorus:
At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon
Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,
Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
Teach me to love again.
i fell in love with that guy while i was in KL. he took care of me, he was at the verge of breaking down, but i wanted to be there for him. when i saw him lead prayers, that was when i really fell in love with him. i fell in love with the guy who showed care, didn't force me to run when our cikgu forced us to run in the early mornings, who just ensured i was in good hands when he left, who gave me sneak peeks while i wasn't looking. he didn't know i had trouble eating pills but he was patient to wait. we weren't so clingy but we were there for each other. we were all over each other but we made sure we were comfortable. always complimenting on each other's looks. hehe. people made fun of us, saying we looked the same. from the back especially. haahaa! always giving each other lucks. we were very helpful with each other. the time when i looked into his eyes after received the letter from his ex for his birthday present, i knew he was hurting.
all i wanted to do was to be there for him. especially when he needed me. i felt like i was in good hands.
i still want to be here for him now. but all i feel is hurt. sometimes, when i look and him and i feel loved, i wonder if it really is love.
yesterday's pract was as expected. i knew i was going to fail. and i did. last night i had trouble sleeping. i kept waking up thinking about the test. it was terrible. all i thought of was the failed test. it was terrible. he told me i was in a daze the whole day. i told him i was still thinking of the test, he didn't believe. i'm so tired now. i need sleep. i couldn't leave him feeling like i was about to cry, but the reminisce of our 1st 2 years in the relationship was sweet. i didn't want to spoil it further. leaving didn't feel painful at that moment.
"We accept the love we think we deserve." - The Perks of Being a Wallflower
i thought after years of being single, i did meet a good guy and he would be my true love. i guess i don't deserve his love knowing he don't love my traits. though i am worried i'd be like his 'ibu', the lady his dad didn't marry but still kept in contact till they became as close as family. nahh..my parents never taught me that. being overly nice should never occur. we always had to have our limits, especially with the opposite gender. listen and learn the good things, leave the bad.
if i am bad, leave me. for i won't do you justice.
Aku harus redha dengan apa yang terjadi.
all i wanted to do was to be there for him. especially when he needed me. i felt like i was in good hands.
i still want to be here for him now. but all i feel is hurt. sometimes, when i look and him and i feel loved, i wonder if it really is love.
yesterday's pract was as expected. i knew i was going to fail. and i did. last night i had trouble sleeping. i kept waking up thinking about the test. it was terrible. all i thought of was the failed test. it was terrible. he told me i was in a daze the whole day. i told him i was still thinking of the test, he didn't believe. i'm so tired now. i need sleep. i couldn't leave him feeling like i was about to cry, but the reminisce of our 1st 2 years in the relationship was sweet. i didn't want to spoil it further. leaving didn't feel painful at that moment.
"We accept the love we think we deserve." - The Perks of Being a Wallflower
i thought after years of being single, i did meet a good guy and he would be my true love. i guess i don't deserve his love knowing he don't love my traits. though i am worried i'd be like his 'ibu', the lady his dad didn't marry but still kept in contact till they became as close as family. nahh..my parents never taught me that. being overly nice should never occur. we always had to have our limits, especially with the opposite gender. listen and learn the good things, leave the bad.
if i am bad, leave me. for i won't do you justice.
Aku harus redha dengan apa yang terjadi.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Some things will never change.
the one thing i hate when i'm nervous, i have this pain in my tummy & i just need to shit. haha!
Last Episode! Last Night! i wanted to cry BUT because all three of my brothers were there, including my mother, i dare not cry. hahaha. my little brother obviously had tears in his eyes. and my 2nd brother was obviously distracting himself with jokes so that he won't be so emotional. haha.
What am I talking about?
Tentang Dhia Episode 30.
The story revolves around NurKamadhia, who had a boy bestfriend, Rafi since young. He fell in love with her but eversince another boy joined the school, she fell in love with him, Azmir. Rafi could not accept that he lost her, heartbroken, he left the country to study abroad. Years passed, Azmir got engaged with Dhia. Rafi returned home, got drunk and slept with Melly. Melly, Dhia, Azmir & Rafi are all childhood friends. Their life revolves around each other. When Melly found out she was pregnant, she knew she couldn't ask Rafi to be Pak Sangkut as he was overseas most of the time. So she plotted a plan to trap Azmir to be the Pak Sangkut. She crash their solemnisation ceremony and he was forced to marry her. Dhia was so heartbroken, she wept everyday until he parents decided to marry her off. That was when she met Zikir. After a few weeks of courting, they got engaged and the next month, they got married. Nope, life was not as easy.
whatever the story will end, you have got to watch it!! Its so sad. but it taught me so much on patience and soulmates. i guess you don't have to spend years in a relationship just to get married.
tomorrow is my birthday. i wish my loved ones will make me the happiest person on earth. i want to fall in love again, and forget about my heartbreak. i'm sure there's someone out there for me who will make me the most happiest person even if its just for the weekend. :)
BACK TO WORK!
Last Episode! Last Night! i wanted to cry BUT because all three of my brothers were there, including my mother, i dare not cry. hahaha. my little brother obviously had tears in his eyes. and my 2nd brother was obviously distracting himself with jokes so that he won't be so emotional. haha.
What am I talking about?
Tentang Dhia Episode 30.
The story revolves around NurKamadhia, who had a boy bestfriend, Rafi since young. He fell in love with her but eversince another boy joined the school, she fell in love with him, Azmir. Rafi could not accept that he lost her, heartbroken, he left the country to study abroad. Years passed, Azmir got engaged with Dhia. Rafi returned home, got drunk and slept with Melly. Melly, Dhia, Azmir & Rafi are all childhood friends. Their life revolves around each other. When Melly found out she was pregnant, she knew she couldn't ask Rafi to be Pak Sangkut as he was overseas most of the time. So she plotted a plan to trap Azmir to be the Pak Sangkut. She crash their solemnisation ceremony and he was forced to marry her. Dhia was so heartbroken, she wept everyday until he parents decided to marry her off. That was when she met Zikir. After a few weeks of courting, they got engaged and the next month, they got married. Nope, life was not as easy.
whatever the story will end, you have got to watch it!! Its so sad. but it taught me so much on patience and soulmates. i guess you don't have to spend years in a relationship just to get married.
tomorrow is my birthday. i wish my loved ones will make me the happiest person on earth. i want to fall in love again, and forget about my heartbreak. i'm sure there's someone out there for me who will make me the most happiest person even if its just for the weekend. :)
BACK TO WORK!
Monday, October 08, 2012
a smile, is all i need.
Why?
Why must i degrade myself til i hate myself like a selfish nut? I thought he still remembered us. Me. But i guess he just wanted the luck. So i let myself think that he really did missed me and that he wanted to make amends. At least. That was what i thought. But i keep thinking deeply about all the gestures that he does.
why.
its a question. its a dangerous question.
unless i start keeping my feelings back inside, i can never try to amend the broken relationship i have with him. it's sad that after nearly 5 years, He shook our hearts and drift us apart.
Looking at the situation, if there were any, i guess i have to stop all my expectations. depressed that this should be the happiest month i should be enjoying, this month i'm barely happy. everything that i was really happy for feels hopeless now. i need distractions right now really. but i have none. all i have is that tv-drama that reminds me of every little bit of sweetness he once showered me with.
5 days to my birthday. 5 dreadful days.
if really, if i really mean something to you, you would've fought to stay everytime i pushed you away. you would still carry on with the little bit of emotion you could savage on. if you really missed me, you should have said it to me. you should at least ask me out. but now, look, its me again. i keep dwelling in this circle. i keep wondering, Really? you miss me? if thats the case, let me ask u out. WHY ME? why didn't YOU ask me out instead huh?! You aren't working, but hell, you are so busy with everything else important. so WHY MISS ME? just to boost your ego? just to give you the courage you've lost? if i MEANT something, if i WAS/AM someone special, then you shouldn't have made me an option.
but see, it crossed my mind that, friends are irreplacable, family too, colleagues are just the same, but you can always find another lover. true love can always be chosen. the rest, not so much since they come and go and you can't control. but the person you love, that you can control. you can control who you want to love.
i shouldn't have entertained your messages. shouldn't have let you messed with my head again.
i leave you, for good. not because i'm happier alone, but because its for my own good. i'm not asking you to decide whether you love me or not. but i'm asking you to decide, whether u want to stay or leave. no use saying you want to leave but still be by my side. hypocrite.
i do not treat ANY friend special. you are no exception.
Allah, please help me. Give me the strength I need to move forward. Forgive me for I have sinned too much. Astarghfirullah halazim.
Why must i degrade myself til i hate myself like a selfish nut? I thought he still remembered us. Me. But i guess he just wanted the luck. So i let myself think that he really did missed me and that he wanted to make amends. At least. That was what i thought. But i keep thinking deeply about all the gestures that he does.
why.
its a question. its a dangerous question.
unless i start keeping my feelings back inside, i can never try to amend the broken relationship i have with him. it's sad that after nearly 5 years, He shook our hearts and drift us apart.
Looking at the situation, if there were any, i guess i have to stop all my expectations. depressed that this should be the happiest month i should be enjoying, this month i'm barely happy. everything that i was really happy for feels hopeless now. i need distractions right now really. but i have none. all i have is that tv-drama that reminds me of every little bit of sweetness he once showered me with.
5 days to my birthday. 5 dreadful days.
if really, if i really mean something to you, you would've fought to stay everytime i pushed you away. you would still carry on with the little bit of emotion you could savage on. if you really missed me, you should have said it to me. you should at least ask me out. but now, look, its me again. i keep dwelling in this circle. i keep wondering, Really? you miss me? if thats the case, let me ask u out. WHY ME? why didn't YOU ask me out instead huh?! You aren't working, but hell, you are so busy with everything else important. so WHY MISS ME? just to boost your ego? just to give you the courage you've lost? if i MEANT something, if i WAS/AM someone special, then you shouldn't have made me an option.
but see, it crossed my mind that, friends are irreplacable, family too, colleagues are just the same, but you can always find another lover. true love can always be chosen. the rest, not so much since they come and go and you can't control. but the person you love, that you can control. you can control who you want to love.
i shouldn't have entertained your messages. shouldn't have let you messed with my head again.
i leave you, for good. not because i'm happier alone, but because its for my own good. i'm not asking you to decide whether you love me or not. but i'm asking you to decide, whether u want to stay or leave. no use saying you want to leave but still be by my side. hypocrite.
i do not treat ANY friend special. you are no exception.
Allah, please help me. Give me the strength I need to move forward. Forgive me for I have sinned too much. Astarghfirullah halazim.
Friday, October 05, 2012
Another empty weekend.
After what happened last week, it's time to put it aside and get on with life(as if it wasn't moving).
The surprise messages were either by luck or coincidental. Or meant to be bad.
Finally the week's over. And i have an almost empty weekend again. Last friday was traumatising enough for me to ask anyone out ever. Let them ask me instead, if they remember.
I can't wait for my holiday. If only it is confirmed. I don't know how to tell my mom. She'll be disappointed of me. But she knows i am not gonna be there for the wedding.
After a long week, i was expecting something happier. But i ended it. On a bad note. I'm still so confused. I thought i'm numbed but i still have the feelings. We're not supposed to be contacting! So why... I'm sorry i had to push you away like that. For the umpteenth time, you made me cry without even trying. Everything i tried to forget came rushing back to why we are in this mess. Nothing is going to clear & its getting messier by the moment. And you shouldn't be missing me. You are busy enough to get your mind occupied. Unlike me. Maybe i'll wait, maybe He has better plans.
I don't wanna ask anyone out anymore. I feel like a pushy brat. If you need me, you know my number, & where to find me. But while you don't, please leave me alone.
The surprise messages were either by luck or coincidental. Or meant to be bad.
Finally the week's over. And i have an almost empty weekend again. Last friday was traumatising enough for me to ask anyone out ever. Let them ask me instead, if they remember.
I can't wait for my holiday. If only it is confirmed. I don't know how to tell my mom. She'll be disappointed of me. But she knows i am not gonna be there for the wedding.
After a long week, i was expecting something happier. But i ended it. On a bad note. I'm still so confused. I thought i'm numbed but i still have the feelings. We're not supposed to be contacting! So why... I'm sorry i had to push you away like that. For the umpteenth time, you made me cry without even trying. Everything i tried to forget came rushing back to why we are in this mess. Nothing is going to clear & its getting messier by the moment. And you shouldn't be missing me. You are busy enough to get your mind occupied. Unlike me. Maybe i'll wait, maybe He has better plans.
I don't wanna ask anyone out anymore. I feel like a pushy brat. If you need me, you know my number, & where to find me. But while you don't, please leave me alone.
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
Guilty.
"So why if we love them, do we find it acceptable, nay necessary, to bitch about them to others? It’s required for any conversation between women about men. Maybe I’m missing some female chip in my brain, but why would you be with someone you don’t absolutely adore? Is that unrealistic? Because the idea that growing to resent and hate the person you’re choosing to be with is terribly depressing."
http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/i-dont-want-to-complain-about-my-boyfriend-am-i-weird/
Monday, October 01, 2012
Happy children's day.
Tasted double yolk mooncakes.
A smooth 1hr practical.
A pc of chicken for dinner.
If you can't make your partner happy, someone else may be doing it for you.
Happy 1st October. Looking forward to a month of nothing.
A smooth 1hr practical.
A pc of chicken for dinner.
If you can't make your partner happy, someone else may be doing it for you.
Happy 1st October. Looking forward to a month of nothing.