Jot down interesting, memorable events in life
Think things out through words
To avoid the mental burden.





abdillah adillah aidil m. daud ain archi aisyahbi aizat amalina amira asmida cikgu marlina fatimah filzah haddad helfizah idayu ivan izzati junaidah jyssica loy-xing-wen maisarah mei-juan* muhammad nur nadiah s. nadiah z. namira nazif nisa nizal raihanah reyza safiah sarah shakinah suhaila suzana yasmin vanan adawiyah adelina ahny^adi ain angel benjamin bernard darren faizal hanisa hanis syafinaz hilmi hisham hong-sheng joseph kai lin khidir khadijah madarians mariyanah nasri noraisha nosheena ridwan rohanisya salihah saranpal sufyan ting-ting wen-jun xin-yi yanni

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The Fear - Lily Allen
I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don`t care about clever I don`t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I`ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
`Cuz everyone knows that`s how you get famous
I`ll look at the sun and I`ll look in the mirror
I`m on the right track yeah I`m on to a winner

Chorus
I don`t know what`s right and what`s real anymore
I don`t know how I`m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
`Cuz I`m being taken over by The Fear

Life`s about film stars and less about mothers
It`s all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn`t matter cause I`m packing plastic
and that`s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it`s how I`m program to function
I`ll look at the sun and I`ll look in the mirror
I`m on the right track yeah I`m on to a winner

Chorus
I don`t know what`s right and what`s real anymore
I don`t know how I`m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
`Cuz I`m being taken over by The Fear

Bridge
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I`m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I`m not a saint but I`m not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I`m getting thinner

Chorus
I don`t know what`s right and what`s real anymore
I don`t know how I`m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
`Cause I`m being taken over by fear


ok lah, i have to admit, i'm too lazy to finish off day 5 of the last post. anyway, day 5 should & shouldn't be remembered. the whole trip was unforgettable coz of the experience. shitfright experiences are like norm to me, well kinda. no lah. we were better prepared this time? more like it. SO ANYWAY, enuf blabberin'.



christmas.
i had my christmas present. yaa, you've guessed it. he caught me by surprise with his, "i meet you at your block" coz usually meet at the interchange mah..heh. so 2/3 of the day was spent with him, Yes Man movie which was pretty hilarious and um, lunner(lunch+dinner).

its fun to get lost to places you don't have to go you know. coz the next time you gotta go there, you'll know how to get there.


the night was spent with my maklong n ayah n minmin. he's totally cute, he pulled my out of my house to watch the neighbour's rabbit, came over me while i was hotglueing the mini cups for jelly beans and runs frantically over to the window to say goodbye to the mrt train passing by.


lily allen's got a new album!! lets listen.

Oh My God feat Lily Allen - Mark Ronson







i'm trying to do my assignments but i can't concentrate on it. ARGH!
TWO DAYS TO SCHOOL! shitto.


i'm back home, aching my head coz i slept so much today. i miss the trip, the people and everything else.


the number one person i miss is AYAH.

he has been The Ayah i never had i never had the feeling of having The most understandable dad ever. he took care of us so well that he never ever wanted us to cry. but thing was, during this trip, i must say, all the girls, be it sash, mai, fil, idah or diah and me, cried. maybe its of the same reason, maybe its not. only god knows. also, we saw the growth of a young lion, Arif. He recieved the first hand treatment of a real props manager and that alone had him slapped in the face.


the trip made us laugh, cry, scream, shout, swear and whatnot. it was worst than the KL trip but better as well. both trips had its ups and downs. what's different about this trip is that we had to work with Veterans who think of mostly, themselves first than us. sucks but we had no choice but to put up with them and it caused us so much stress on the night itself that we girls ended up missing the next morning.


this is our story.

Early morn of 15th dec, us SSPians, ida, mai, diah, jad, arif, khai, fil, zad and me plus mak enon, cik jabar, ayah ferried off to Tanjung Pinang on a Falcon. we were truly excited and very very thrilled. noone knew what to expect. during the ferry trip, i tried to comfort myself but i was the one who didnt warn people that i was going to vomit, but ended up did. uhuh. and i was helped by anonymous strangers while standing outside, enjoying the breeze. i never knew my sea sickness was that bad. so when i decided to go back in, ayah asked everyone to go up on the ferry. there wasn't many people so we had the top to ourselves. it was FUN! and it helped my sickness, thank god. when we arrived, we were greeted by the people there. friendly, i must say. and we had to wait for our transport. i can't remember who we were greeted by. the ride to the resort was ok. the seat i sat on was leaking. i mean, the a/c. haha. super exciting!! the friendly people of the hotel greeted us and helped us with our luggage. diah and i shared a room, room 106, aka wardrobe room. ida stayed at our room first coz she and fil didnt have a room. so fil shared a room with mai and sash. day One, we went to the pasar to get stuffs. we ate at this restaurant which i don't know what i ate until i asked Ayah. Ayah said i was eating the belen2 of the chicken. which i think was the heart wrapped with the intestines. actually it was nice but thinking about it made me lost my appetite. gee. we headed back to the hotel to get ready for the Opening of the Revitalisasi Budaya Melayu festival. it was grand and we were the vip. haddad and sash joined us and we had dinner there. there, we were introduced unofficially to Buk Wali Kota. she was pretty. after that, we karaoke-ed thru the night. then, while talking to swain, diah and ida pillow fought and we slept after that.



day two was still ok. we got ready with our baju kurungs and went to idk where for the opening of the festival. the tarian lawa giler seh! oh! when we reached there, i had had had to go to the toilet and by the looks of it, there were none! why? coz it was held on an open field! wth. we had to be driven to the toilet! ishhh. the speeches were boring lah. jad with his 'i'm looking at my cam' sleeping pose, ida with her 'i'm reading the program' sleeping pose and fil tried her hardest to stay alert but cudnt. haha. after the acara, we went back to the hotel and we started with the wardrobe. we had boxed lunches. after that, we got to the costumes. then, we started ironing them. i was ironing, after that diah n ida went off to meet ayah. so guess how seram it felt to be in the room alone. i started feeling weird so i went off to 110, mai's sash's n fil's room. so when i was done, everyone returned the costumes and gathered at 106. we karaoke-ed and then talked to swain. i was so tired i slept. next morning, i woke up finding myself alone AGAIN. ida n diah tak baik seh! naseb lah tak ade bende terjadi. but i woke up earlier, around 3 or 4. so urm...hurhur. dont think about it.





i'll be away on a short trip presenting the world Singapore's most bitchiest dayang.
if, i remember my lines that is.


another trip off to show the world what SSP is made of! it's a pity Singapore Poly don't recognise us. it's always like that isn't it? like how your parents think you're the most worthless being on earth when you're getting recognition from everywhere but home.

i wonder how people are like over at tanjung pinang...hm....i need more songs to fill the night. DIAH!!! heh. they actually believe i'm her sister. haaaaaaaaaahaa. veterans. funneh peeepels.


i miss swain like a gazillion times but i'm getting used to him being there but not in person. i hope this trip will help me just forget how much i'm missing him and when the time comes, i have so much to tell that i'd look forward to every single dates we have. heh heh.



From Where You Are - Lifehouse

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here























seriously, i never knew how it'll feel to have my bf go ns.
ARGHHH!!

faridah, you can do thiss. you can dooooooooooooo this!
first times for everything.


yesterday was supposed to be enjoyable.
yesterday was supposed to be memorable.
yesterday was supposed to be happy.


but instead,

i ended up throwing tantrum.
i ended up shouting at swain.
i ended up scolding haddad.


most of all,

i ended up crying coz i was so fucking angry.
swain got angry too. coz i made a scene.
fucked up lah faridah!


i hate it.
i hate it for the fact that i started the day knowing my hopes had to be diminished.
i hate the fact that my family aint gonna be there coz they're going nabil's show instead.
i hate it for the fact that i've got 10 chapters to study and i've got 0 time.
i hate the fact that i couldn't enjoy myself.
i hate the fact that i was so frust up. sampai haddad jadi victim.
ARGH!



i am so sorry.


tapi shak datang!! someone i actually didn't expect to come. thank you shak!!!(:




right now, no more frust.
testestest.
and
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY Shamil!

my first long relationship. thank you..i could have never stayed on if it wasn't for you. ily.