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somehow, i feel the compose part of blogger seems a little bit weeyerrd.

off thatt, i'm waiting for time to pass.i feel like shiitttinn'.

i've been leaving offce early and not coming back but still be late. i leave office at 9am, go to site and never reetuurrnnn.-switch to edit html mode-
k that's better. so anyway, the site visits are so tedious and you just hope you could vomit blood now or it's going to torture you for the rest of the day. i miss the office right now. i want to stay in the office and do reports, please CY?


a night out with the darlings and it has been real nice catching up. I WANT THAT BAG FROM FATFACE! I LOOOOOOVEEEEEEE.

k, swain called. tiimee to go.



p/s. yahoo has some weird news. one was about how you can tell your personality by looking at the nose OR the face and even, gah...time to gooooooo.


i go into buildings for work. i take their pictures and i do a report on them. it is fun, when the places you go are the places you have NEVER been before. sometimes, it's nice. like for example chinatown. there's a few shops down club street that i really want to visit. reminded me of arab street, but more chinese like. haha. apart from that, there's upper paya lebar road. which is not the side of singapore you see everyday unless you stayed or worked there. imagine a two ponytailed girl, buying an apple from a fruitseller and riding a bike home. imagine 100 people staying in a your apartment right now. only a kitchen and a toilet, and 2 bathrooms. i really thought it wasn't singapore. who would have imagined? in a busy buzzy everyone-lives-in-a-hdb kinda life, there's over 70 people sharing a house above a coffeeshop.



it's opening my eye..wide enough.




gurl, i miss you.





i'm now watching match point, watched memoirs of a geisha just now and alsoo haunting sarah.

i am so bored at home.

but i've been bad at home, so i deserve the cold punishment. reached home at 2am yesterday.


days at cpglab was pretty ok. days of report printing has gotten me used to the program and the printer.i even jammed the printer once, god thank you. then, after day 1 we've been eating in the office and the guy sitting at my place is irritating. he just speaks loud ahbengly. and the wretched woman named ju-ann is super irritating with her sarcasm. damn it. yeay, next week we'll start going out on site for some hands on.



valentine's.
we had training at city hall memorial chopstick tingy. we had BK for dinner at the esplanade underpass. i saw a heart cloud! shamil got jealous coz i leaned on haddad. work was boring like toot. marzipan heart, popping candy chocolate and a sweetsweet letter slit secretly in a file in my bag. sweetsweet love(:



13feb.
what will you do if i were to die first?
i wouldn't know what to do. all i know is that, i'll cry, and be sad. it'll take sometime for me to stand up again, but eventually i will. but you wont be forgotten. constant visits to all the places we've been will remind me of all memories we've had so far. maybe i wont do it after you die. maybe i'll do it whenever i miss you. it'll be hard for me maybe because i'm now so attached to you. i dont want to, but me following the flow got me where i am today. you've listened all this while and i wouldnt know who to talk to if you were gone. just the thought is disturbing, what more if it were to be real.




nadee, dayu, raider, mj and all the girls i've been missing,
i am missing you now. wwhereee are you girls??


why virgin? because it is the very first real work i'm in. haha.


i travelled all the way to novena square, just to gt lost finding the stupid office lobby. after i found the lobby(by means of following the crowd) i came to the office where i saw everyone for ITP wearing super formal clothes. everysingleone looked so officy and smart, i felt really out of place(i was in jeans, buttoned up shirt and shoes). and after we surrendered our ICs, we waited at another lobby where i observed everysingleformalperson. then, we were asked to go into the BOARD ROOM. felt really uh..wooow....imagine donald trump's The Apprentice. in the room, we were briefed, introduced, explained about the different sectors, categories, groups and the terms and conditions. everyone there received 500/mth why? because the company was pretty established to start off with. so blahblahblah, cindy talked. then i realised, i was the only one under laboratories. which pretty much sucked because there and then i had to travel back to eunos ALONE because my other coursemate, Rahilah and Hisham, weren't there. i could hear giggles from the few formal-looking girls across me. we had to fill in forms, and everyone in the room didnt bring their passbook. well, yippeedoo, a girl didnt even bring her IC and even a PEN! for goodnesssakkeee, haven't you ever applied for a job before?! when cindy told me i had to go, off i went travelling. a minute felt like houuurrrsss waiting for the train and i felt like eunos was super huuugggeee because i was trying to figure out howthehell am i going to go to the lab. bloodyhell, the bus ride was redundant. i could've just walked from paya lebar mrt station.-take a breather- RIGHT. then, i went into the ulu looking building and found myself nearly lost in the building and terribly terrified whether i'm going to get raped or not by the suspicious looking indian men whom just couldn't understand me when i said "I am looking for Daphnee." when i took this isolated looking stairs up to the admin room, i saw this little lady running across the corridor. "I am looking for Daphnee." I said. "oh, i am Daphnee, are you from Singapore Poly?". "oh yes." and we went into this meeting room where i saw Rahilah and Hisham. "Mr Daniel didn't tell us to go to Novena. That was him just now lah." and then i had to fill in the same form filled in at novena. after a few briefing(which was the exact repeat of what i heard at the Board room), we were introduced to the other people in the building. the three of us were just freaking scared/nervous/shy/putinaword. Daphnee brought us all over the place and in the end, left us with Chee Yong in the Site Room. before we went in, the door stated "Civil and Structural Engineering". hah. we were introduced and brought around the second time, this time to the toilet(which was freaking clean but freaking isolated) and to the other laboratories(don't go imagining the doctor/science lab cause it is NOTHING like those) and also we were brought to the materials lab which was like W515. haha~! and the banglas there are just cheeky, i feel vulnerable. at 12, we were back in the office, waiting for time to past. it was like waiting for a whole packet of glucose to drip down the iv tube. time was seriously passing super slowly PLUS my hp DIED on me. by 1230, all the reports were read and it was time for lunch. i forgot her name, but she brought us to LJS for lunch along with Chris and whatshisname. we ate and by 120, we were done with our food. hisham and i headed to ntuc for some munchkins while rahilah and whatshername had a smoke break. the walk back to work was ok. while waiting for Chee Yong, hisham helped me ask around for a nokia charger. AHAHAH. so it was saveddd. so we rot until hisham got himself something to do(AUTOCAD) and me asking around for some work to do(that was how boring it was) and Rahilah even fell asleep!! i asked cheeyong for some work and he finally got me something to do(tick and highlight some addresses) then rahilah went for a smoke break and then we started printing the reports which i stupidly print like hundredss of pages.(CHRIS WAS TELLING CHEEYONG ABOUT IT IN CHINESE DAMNIT) kanchong me go print even more! and got rahilah mixed up. haha. and hisham was the victim. he binded and kept all the wasted papers. HAHA. all thanks to me. thank you very much. then it clocked 5.30pm and we headed home.


TADA! how was your first day at ITP?





Nang Nak's playing on Art Central.


annddd suddenly,

i still remember nisya, jeff(with long hair), as, nizal, me and whoever else..i think aizat was there too...and jeff was telling us about the Nang Nak story over LJS at Vivocity. jeff and nizal were comparing whether they were telling the same correct story.

jeff: name die Nak ke ape lah...
nizal: bukan lahh, Mak lah..
jeff: bukan lah..Nak lah..


hilarious. it didnt turn out ghostly in the end because they were trying to recall, not to tell. haha!

i miss those times lah. the MZK2 times.


for almost everyday of the week, i've been running with nadee in the early mornings.


it has been real fun and i really feel good running. maybe its because i feel as if i'm running away from my problems, from my family, from everything. and just being with my best friend would be the most perfect thing ever that'll make my day. i dont want to stop running, i dont want to stop feeling free. i dont want to stop feeling good. but all i get when i am at home is the bad feeling.


now tell me WHY i keep coming home super late and going out super early when everytime, every morning, i get a morning slap on the head for all the things that i do wrong. even when i do something right, it bothers me. they bother me. i want to run away, please.


i guess that's why i can just sit and stare at someplace for hours and not do anything. i guess its the peaceful feeling i get everytime i keep quiet and not talk. talking is sinful. it cause problems, it creates trouble. the mouth is a vicious weapon used for all kinds of war. especially the silent ones. i hate it. its not good to talk. i prefer staring. i prefer looking, i prefer listening. i prefer watching, i prefer sleeping.


attachment is in a few hours. i'm estatic. i can't wait to leave the house in the early morning just like when i go to school.


now can you leave me alone?

what the?!

CECILY!!! THE LAUNDRY'S NOT DONE!!!!haha!

Aloo Fawne!

LINDA! where is our dinner?!

ooooooooo.

i never knew what i wanted to be in the future. serious.

nyaaahaaaaa.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. okay, this is in europe/amerika, like duh i'd fail. ANDANDAND, i've NOT read the s'pore's bk yet! so waiittt.

heh, thanks mrs koh. thanks mr ridz.

hah!


k, stop.

a game i've been playing and it has just proved me right that i can never be an entrepenuer. nyah.



i only have a week to spend with my friends and my mom grounds me. how uber nice it is. alah mak, satu minggu aje. boleh lah.
ah ye lah tu, satu minggu.


i miss the farm animals! where masita???? da lamer giler tak jumpe seh..apasal lah TP end lambat?


and i feel alittle distant. maybe because í've not been hanging out/msning much/whatever. i miss gg out with the usual 89sspbunch. asmida, jeff, nizal, diah, sarah, mira, aizat and nisya. remember those times we had at vivo? i still remember last time asmida will always go out with jep and nizal. and i remember the time i was the only girl who went to jep's hse with fuad and nizal. mak oiii, punye lah tak tau malu punye pompan. haha. but it was fun. really. i still want to play the drums. jep, ajar jep!



a'ah seh, berbual tentang main drum, i still owe zaidi a jamming session. he owes me a drumming lesson. ya hah. a'ah seh...and aku rindu the budak lakis yang kadang2 merepek nak mampos. adam salman abdillah amal faris zaidi. what happened to the chalet you guys were proposing about?
talk about chalet brings me back to the prom night.
GOD I MISS THAT! everyone was sweet that night lah kan. and it felt so nice being together with each other.




punk rock.
that was what you guys were/are all about. a few years ago.



I'm going to kill myself, 12am this saturday. only you can help me. that is why i keep coming back. i'm sorry you were bitten by Olive, but she died when i was twelve. i'm sorry my mother thought of you as her son. but she died two years ago. Sam, only you can help me. i know you can. you helped Layla. I saw her scars. You saw mine. I told you about those voices. Help me Sam, you are the only one who can help me right now.

"if i'm insensitive, i only got it from watching you!"




i've been watching alot of tv and i need something new to do apart from sleeping. shit, the library will be closed.




i want to watch Bionic Woman! ruunniinnnggg as fast as a car! totally whacked!


don't you wish you just ditch the dys in your dysfunctional family for a proper functional one?
i would.



but then we would miss on all the unbelievablely crazy things that happens around the household.


couple outing with mei juan and nadee was love.
we were all INsane and everything was just right.
well, it wont be us if something didnt go wrong, haha.
so on saturday, mj asked me out for a date to NTU but we found out it happened the next day inssteadd so we headed to marina sq for lunch and chocolate fondue(!) and a walk and headed for vivo for some window shopping. mj couldnt find any perfect cny clothes so we decided to sit and camwhore at a corner of the balcony. it felt really good catching up on new timess. we visited aizat for awhile at M&S and suddenly i miss visiting asmida there. aww. the clothes now are just not appealing anymore. where's the new trend or something? coz everything looks the same.


okay, i think i should just pen down stuffs i need to get today onwards.
-contact lens(!!)
-contact lens solution(!!!)
-dark blue skinny jeans(help me people, where can i find the perfect one?)
-tshirts, lots of them.
-rich black skinny jeans(those that wont fade.)
-zip up sweater(preferably black, hooded)
-peter pan collar shirts
-sspagheetttiiii straapp/tank topsss(mooorrreeee)





thats all i hhavee to get after walking around vivo with mj. haaahaaa. MJ!!! i needdd more of theeesseeee. pleaseee. I LOVE YOU PIG!!

this is how i'll look like with semi straight loooooong hair.

















after that, i met nadee at around 11 plus and we talked till 12plus. i loooooovvvvvveeeeee her!!! we talked updated each other about the problems we've been facing and ohmygod sometimes i feel so fcking effed up but lets face it, we've just got to get thru it or else.


then it was meeting with haddad nad izzati and abdillah. and it was pretty interesting.
headed to the suicide bridge with shamil and YOU KNOW WHAT! they planted trees there. bleaarrrghhhh. turnn offff.



and the morning jog waaaaassss superrrbbbb. nadee and i ran/walked a few rounds and we talked also and it felt goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.
up for more this wednesday! yeayness to all people who've ended school for the semester! haha.




now i'm grounded.


engineering maths paper was a good paper to end with except i feel super stupid for forgetting the methods. damn it!!!!


after that was lunch at W5 and it was a looong chat with Mr Yoong. met a new friend from year 1, Nabee. and i went home with him and fu lin. and what the hell!!! i felt super duper short! imagine a 1.5 girl standing in between two 1.8 guys. it's like a valley between two mountains! sheeeeeeshhhhh. but it was nice meeting the new guy. bumped into mira(or the OTHER way round) and we had a nice "hello!!!!!!!! time." i miss you lah sey! go out soon!


headed to SGH and when i reached there, granny was still sleeping. so i just sat besde her, reading my newpaper. while reading, Makchu came and she was complaining about her wet kain bcause it swept the floor on a rainy day. ahhh, but the talk between me, granny and makchu was one in a million. i still get nervous talking abt the incident in KL. hehhh. i hope i can talk to that side of granny again. i miss her.


then, i caught Sweeney Todd with shamil. HAH. it was really interestingggg. i like it. really. but you've got to stay alert or you'll miss a line or two. i like toby. haha. GO WATCH IT!!!


(shouted) Alright! You sir, you sir, how about a shave?
Come and visit your good friend Sweeney.
You sir, you sir? Welcome to the grave.

I will have vengenance.
I will have salvation.
(shouted) Who sir, you sir?
No one in the chair, come on! Come on!
Sweeney's waiting. I want you bleeders.
You sir - anybody.
Gentlemen don't be shy!



and i bet everyone who watched the movie is pretty stuck to this song.



i feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel you joannaaa.

how about put that and the skeleton puppet together.

i keeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllll youuu jooaaanaaaa.


haha. k joking. i'm sorry.
have fun!
date with MJ TMR!
yeay!!!!