Jot down interesting, memorable events in life
Think things out through words
To avoid the mental burden.





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we were so early that when we reached home at m'sia, it was just 10 a-clock.


and during the journey there, i stuck the plug in my ears and slept till i got myself giddy. and i still continued sleepy at home till 12pm.


i'm now stuck with Kate Nash(the one you're hearing now) because she's like lily allen and i love lily allen. so go listen to some of her songs and watch her videos because they are so cute.


i got my kebaya altered and i realised i lost a few miligrams. no wonder it seemed so baggy. but the other one's left over at the tailor till next raye which is raye haji.


went shoe shopping but it was so depressing. i think i'm going to get another one, covered, here in singapore. i like those from primavera(?). lets go see.


and city square is a whole lot bigger than i thought i was and we nearly got lost searching for the surau which was at the other top end of the shopping centre. angsana was just packed with people as though there's no tomorrow. mom got herself 14 bars of butter. 12 of which are gold bars. oo.


and i feelingfeeling jadi driver just now while dad was away praying. haahaaaaa. i really have to get my license fast mann, his leg is getting worse. now his hand too.


we ate at a laksa restaurant and it was kinda worth the money. my family dont eat in restaurants so it was a change. and the food was mmmmm delishiouuusss. yumyum. bulan ramadan tak makan ayam percik macam ketinggalan sesuatu gitu. it's at the basement of city square.



i'm back into my ice cream cravings. i need a tub of vanilla/chocolate/ripple ice cream. i want to eat it in front of the tv on my own at night.



god! i still can't believe my brother acted. though he really looked fake, good job brother.



go try the chipster potato chips from twisties, hot & spicy. it's nice. yumyum.






We Get On - KATE NASH

Simply knowing you exist
Ain't good enough for me
But asking for your telephone number
Seems highly inappropriate

Seeing as I can't
Even say hi
When you walk by

And that time you shook my hand
It felt so nice
I swear I never feel
This way about any other guy
And I never usually notice people's eyes but

I conducted a plan
To bump into you most accidentally
But I was walking along
And I bumped into you much more heavily
Than I'd originally planned
It was well embarrassing and
I think you thought that I was a bit of a twat

I just think that we'd get on
I wish I could tell you face to face
Instead of singing this stupid song
But yeah I just think that we might get on

So I went to that party and everyone
They were kind of arty
And I was wearing this dress
Because I wanted to impress
But I wasn't sure if I looked my best
'Cause I was so nervous
But I carried on regardless
Strutting through each room
Trying to find you

And when I saw you
Kissing that girl
My heart it shattered
And my eyes, they watered
And when I tried to speak I stuttered

And my friends were like whatever
You'll find someone better
His eyes were way too close together
And we never even liked him from the start
And now he's with that tart
And I heard she done some really nasty stuff
Down in the park with Michael
He said she's easy
And if your guy's with someone that's sleazy
Then he ain't worth your time
'Cause you deserve a real nice guy

So I proceeded to get drunk and cry
And lock myself in the toilets
For the entire night

Saturday night
I watched channel five
I particularly liked CSI

I don't ever dream
About you and me
I don't ever make up stuff about us
That would be considered insanity
I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in
I don't even have an opinion
On that tramp that you're still seeing
I don't know your timetable
I don't know your face off by heart
But I must admit
That there is still a part of me
That thinks we might get on
That we could get on
That we should get on


let me blame myself for this one.



i hoped too much and i was crushed till i lost hope.

so,
now, i don't hope anymore.
when it comes to my family.


because promises are never kept here in this family and being a lazy ass is reality.



so here, i really have to ask apologies from every single one if you find me such a lazy ass and a stubborn one too. i'm sorry if i get angry to quick and raise my voise even when we're joking.



i have to say, everyone's changing.

there used to be a time when everyone was so 'hey lets go here together' and we really went there together.
but now, its 'hey lets go there together' but well, maybe a couple of people go and others are left behind.
there used to be a time when it was all jokes and nothing is taken to heart.
but now, its all about the heart and jokes are not funny anymore.
there used to be a time where everyone would want everyone to be there, with high hopes.
now, at least two would be there and the rest, somewhere.
there was a time when everyone was really enthusiatic and want things to happen with a great sense of dependency.
now, it's all about being tired and wanting things to happen on one's self ability.


maybe that's just a few points i can point out.
these very few points i've seen coming but never really voice out because i don't want any to happen. so what exactly happened?
how come everyone keeps thinking being nice is such a big waste now?
how did it become 'get it done and over with' with no fun?







maybe what my family has inculcated in me was/is a very useful tool.
never hope for anything.


"Crimewatch looks at a series of armed robberies that happened in lifts and how the culprit was apprehended through the alertness of the Police Officers. "
- Jejak jenayah, Suria channel, 8.30pm




kekek seh tengok abang berlakon jadi perompak lif.





PANTESANNNN



pantas pintas.




I LOVE TODAY.
it rained when i was on the way to school,
it rained when i was on the way home TOO.
and i met idayat ON THE BUS!
and i realised bedok foodcentre near the bus intchg is much more meriah than geylang.
and i realised i talk to much about other people.




shit.
more cornflakes+milk for sahur nak?

i'm raising my white flag.
i will try not to care.
do what you love most,
just don't involve me in it.

haha. ok, it's kinda cliche.

ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY AIZAT!!! you're off early on friday. wahahahha.

i feel so angry.
i feel so disappointed.
i don't want to eat.
i'm not hungry.
leave me alone!


mom don't allow me to stay up anymore.
didn't follow dad's wishes to break fast at nenek tekka's place.


watched almost half of the episodes for detective academy.
made roti kirai with mom.
haha!


nomore night life.
school life in a few more hours.
boo.


i'm really pissed off.


because godknowswho took advantage of my brother.
GKW really has gone too far.
first he stole my brother 10 bucks.
now he stole another 10 plus all the money he had in his wallet.
i can't believe this. really, i can't.
the fact that i was not home, made me really mad at myself.
the fact that my mother's in the worst mood ever made me really bad.
she did the beating. and i know how bad that can be.
because when i got home, my brother was on his bad.
he was gloomy. he wasn't sitting in front of his tv.


i should've gone home yesterday.
i should've just go with my gut instinct.
why did i change my mind!
now my mother's hands hurt.
my brother's hurt too.
i really really feel like slapping my brother for being so nice.
i really really feel like punching that bast on the face.
not once, TWICE! my god.
ASSHOLE!


seriously, i have to teach my brother a lesson.
a lesson NOT to take anyone's money,
a lesson NOT to give anyone his money.


and my mom think's GKW is a chinese.
i have this really big fat gut feeling GKW is a malay, but i hope its not true.
kerane ini bulan ramadan. bulan baik.
but i just saw a malay guy smoking and cheating 10cents off a mama shop.



=(


well, i've been missing for 4 days.



the day after idayu's birthday, i had training as usual.


training was okay lah, just that well, i don't really have the timetable yet by when it has to be done so i need some pressure. please pressure me more please. and if i can't get things done, please scold me please.



after that was fun. haha, we went to bugis. yeahhhhh. well, after break fast at bugis banquet, we headed to haji lane and we had a childish helluva time. not childish as in immatured but just plain childhood fun. i was scolded at granfather's collections lah, so stupid kan. i opened the fridge and didn know how to close it. thank god jeff bought something or else i'll feel so bad leaving. sooooo jeff bought chapteh. and nisa was taught how to play it. then aizat, diah and mira played too. asmida felt bored so she bought gell balloons! woohoo! haha, we blew and blew and blew. i blew till it burst. mira took two tubes and blew a very big one but uhh, aizat or idunowho accidentally burst it before she could take the picture. apada. den diah nisa adillah mira jeff aizat played some childhood games. me asmida and nisya made a bear balloon!! heehee




cute tak!?





haha




guess what nizal was doing...-_-"
he was playing the ps2 all night long seh. so boring.


then we headed home. i headed clementi. heehee.
we played doll-like games in the train. jeff ah ni, merepek.



den i reached home and khairiah opened the door. hahahahhaha. lambat giler seh. cik nor asked why i was late so i explained. phew! and guess what was the next thing khairiah did. she introduced me to zombie loan and ghost hunt. haahaaa. people go watch them at http://www.crunchyroll.com/ go!!! it's pretty interesting. gogogo! i had to stay up till 3 am seh..forced sehh...haha. we ate cheese sandwiches and drank milk. adelah kite exchange gossip skitt..heeheehee. i had a hard time waking up for sahur. sheesh!



2nd day, i had to register for gems but stupid sas and spice i couldnt log in when i did log in. refreshed the site and couldnt log in. freak. so i had to call SPICE and so i ended up with my third choice. heeheehee. i was pretty fed up with the fcuk up network. sheesh. had to go school for awhile and i took 183 which i don't know where it took me. i was so scared! but good thing i could find my way. haiyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyo. so, i reached B11 but si kucing kurap takde. padehal die yang kate tkmo lambat. so i kepo2 lah. i had nothing to do seh. biler si kurap datang baru kite start with the scripts. and i ended up with a PAPERCUT! irsyad pulled the script and my finger got caught. darahhh...tapi tak sakit. den i walked asmida n sarah to t14 there and went home. khairiah da tanye2 'where are you?!'. so while she bathe and stuff, i had to watch the anime and cut apples(dried). den buke den went to econ mini to get some groceries(& snacks) and den back to anime marathon. hahahahaha. tried to finish ghost hunt but couldnt. zombie loan done thou. slept after 3 since there were snacks and the guys in the anime were so cute. haha



after that day, i was suppose to go home but i didnt because i wanted to finish ghost hunt. lagipon abah tanak amek and dah malam. so haha. thought of baking brownies or cookies but didnt because tak dapat cari chocolate chip. so we ironed cheese sandwiches instead. haha. den malamnye khairiah introduced detective academy Q tapi i got pretty sleepy so i gave up and slept at 3 on the dot. actually no lah...got gossip sumore...heehee.


den todayyy i was late because i watched that anime. and dance wasn't productive. boo. i guess i was tired. but we had some girls talk though. hehehehehehe.



da itu aje.
that's it.
miss me noww...


i miss you girls already!




yesterday, i tried to make those chocohotpots for the first time and, it didn't turn out like what i had expected! the taste was just sweet maybe because I COULDN'T FIND CHOCOLATE CHIPS here in bedok. somehow, the hershey's choco chips has gone missing. his friends, cocoa and syrup are still there on the shelf though. hmph.

so dayu, sorry the thingy turned out sweet and like....uh....shit. ya..
blame it on the chocochips.



we tried to surprise idayu yesterday, me nadee and raider BUT she didnt look surprise. so maybe she was uh...expecting it already. but its okay! we still had fun mann.


we had stingray, beancurd and tom yam soup for breaking fast. somehow, beef kailan was depressed so it didn't came to our table. it's okay! we had a meal anyway. and, we had the 'cakes' and mashpotatoes for dessert. yummm. we presented our gift bag to her and, haha, my card looks too evil for her. soorrry.


too bad i didnt bring the camera. or else we could have remembered this pretty well. RAIDER, it's time for you to buy that camera! i'll get myself one next year. okay?!



raider was sneezing, nadee was dapping her nose with ice-ed tissue, dayu was going 'toilet' all the way. i was the good one around. aiyoyoyoyo.




i won't be home till thursday. i think i'll go take digital image. learn the basics about studio photography first. ok. my mind's made up.

Labels: idayu's 18th

the worst thing a mother can do is to see her child break right in front of her very own eyes.



she tried her best to help, she tried all that she could but she just feels helpless.





---.---.---.---.---.---.---.---.


so in this world, is it getting the highest grade the race or getting the lowest the winner?
staying in school longer or graduating faster the best?
is drinking smoking feeling high cool?




there's no easy answer.
everyone's going out of control.


"i just want you to meet new people and learn from them"
"what kind of people?"
"kind, dangerous, any kind."



so i was bored. i read the articles in the EH! magazine and i realised how immature i am. i ran some errands and i realised how heavy the groceries were. i went to my granny's and i realised how quiet and stiff i can be among the people i should be very comfortable with. i met my nephew and i realised how stupid i was.


so i was bored.
i can't believe the NTUC and shops at the market downstairs did not sell CHOCOLATE CHIPS! omg. i can't believe i couldnt find chocolate chips in NTUC. aisey.-_-"
it is ok, i'll look for them tomorrow. oh shit. i just realised.


-5mins on phone-



ok done. yeay besok buke kat simpang. yeayeay.



i'm in love with DiscoveryChannel Travel & Living!
Nigella Feasts especially.



alah nak amek gems ape ni......


should i be happy?
maybe just a tiny bit glad that a smoked through?
when i know where all my mistakes are?
should i be even smiling because i made it through?
or maybe just a thought will do?
when i know i could have done way better?



you better buck up or you are going to suffer.


faridah namira sarah aizat nadiah
were trapped at dover mrt late at night
dover mrt was hijacked by giant robotic beings
an announcement was made
"please get ready your syillings(coins) or you will never eat again."
by the army man.
the robotic beings popped by the glass walls
namira gave it a note instead of coins
but it wanted to take her wallet
aizat wanted to go to the shop to buy something
but the army man told him 'No!'
so sarah defended him
but they were tied at the center of the place instead
then another army man came
he called faridah and nadiah and namira
sarah and aizat couldnt go because they were tied down


then i woke up.
funny this dream happened in my 5 minutes sleep.
on my 2nd day of fasting,
and moments later my brother asked mom for syillings(coins).
funny how things coincide.
haha.
but i wonder how did namira and aizat and sarah and nadiah came into the picture.
haha!



okay man, the dance is taking shape. yea man. slowly...slowly...



nak amek gems ape eh...





hello


it is 5:55am.
time for subuh.


selamat berpuasa umat-umat islam semua. =)


carrying a 2kg bag on each side of the shoulder seriously slows down the speed, what more carrying it by hand will make your hands hurt than help lighten the load.

and today i learn we can never be too old to be young.
toilet training, steps training, fun training.
you take classes just to have fun, you set aside time just to have time.
and rest of the time, you're back to serious business.
is life that boring?
i don't remember my mom telling me 'we had to learn almost 24 hours a day',
i keep hearing 'we played soccer, fivestones and masak-masak'

they had so much fun last time.
why is life now so structured?
wake up at 6, get ready by 7, sit for classes till 12, lunch break, sit for classes again till 5, head home by 7, dinner, assignments and sleep.

i realised the kids at HOJ had much more adventurous fun than us. just with simple toys, sticks and that roll thingy. i realised how much fun kampong life actually is.
how about one day, you put away ALL technology aside and have fun.
no tv, no cartoon, no hp, no computer, no psp, no mp3, nothing.

my brother scolded and criticised me. motion pictures not suppose to be taken, flash used wrongly, bad lighting, the most amatuer photographs ever.
thanks bro. teach me more wud you?





tukar colour lagi budak ni..
tak habes-habes!
kate budak baru belajar.



johore was fine. sunny and all. there was a sports carnival and my kampong won 2nd(RM5000)! wow. congratulations. and i slept the whole trip there, in the house and home. nothing new.


but i'm not fine with the newly sewn baju rayas.
sheusedmysister'smeasurementsformesonowilooklikei'mwearingsomeoversizedbaju
whichidontlikebecauseitmakesmelooksofatandbajukurungshouldsomehowmakeyoulookslimmer.
bleargh.


aah,i've gotten some more ideas. yeay.


so THATS what i forgot to do. i forgot to VISIT ADILLAH YESTERDAY!
omg.nowonder i felt something's not exactly right.hmm.


interaction.



gee, if i were alone, i think i'll die of loneliness. zen died on me while i was in the bus home and i got so dizzy i nearly vomitted. sms-ed nadee so i wudnt be so bored. gosh, i need to kill these babats man. my dad already criticised me. first mom, now dad. so that's the GO GO GO sign.


going johore tmr. so, ZEN, please dont die.


but how come you throw it to them and not to me?
i always thought i could catch the ball and handle it well and know who to pass it to. but i always disappoint myself because i could catch the ball. and i'm always disappointed because noone wants to pass the ball to me. i'm that person you see in matches who runs around with no ball in hand at all. i've given up playing with balls. i've given up trying to play my chance when i dont get any. i've given up trying to be there to help when i feel useless because noone wants me to help. & i've given up asking.



first i went out with mira, sarah and asmida. went to taman warisan & no. 1 costume shop. AND OHMYGOD, the costumes there are sooo fun! we were laughing & talking out loud when we stepped in so guess how fun it was. i guess it was too loud till the salesguy came to us to assist. haha! then we tried to search for Costume costume & -something- image but we were just too lazy so we headed home.



an hour later, mom called and i headed downstairs. went to bedok corner(not simpang bedok) to eat. dah lamer tak gi so the suasana was like so woaahhh. haha. you know what was the topic? 'mak, dulu kan, biler mak kat hospital, semue makcik2 fada dlm hospital skali eh?" you know why? because all her siblings has got a son/daughter same age as me. imagine those 6 friends of yours are actually your cousins. klakar! then i asked "mak, den the kaum adam buat ape?" haha! my dad answered "we relek-relek lah, ape lagi." haha! seriously, and i think we all had our 'cukur rambut' session together tau. Serentak katekan. jadi orang tkya datang month after month. haha! den came the topic about 'booking' a doctor when you are in labour. for all my siblings, including me, we didnt have a doctor to assist us while we were on our way out of mom.(god that sounds..funny) except for my lil brother. and ya, we all know he's special. so hoohaa.



i guess i'm pretty thankful i'm born in my family. actually i'm proud to be in it just that sometimes, i'm just too embarrassed about being proud.

i owe my khairiah a sleepover. boo!



and i think i've got dad&mom's 6th sense lah. i mean, everyone has it. but it's just the matter of noticing it. well, we can sense when something's wrong. but, sometimes i just put that feeling away when actually the feeling's true. so people, how about sharing with us your sixth sense? it's pretty abstract, i know. haha. just like when they tell you, 'you're missing the X factor'.



then just now i was looking through my links i noticed zana's link was in little letters. so, what else? visit lah kan. then she blogged about this website.
http://www.petatv.com/tvpopup/video.asp?video=fur_farm&Player=wm

'bodoh pey orang, da tau tanak bende tu move, bunuh serentak je kan lagi bagus!? biarlah Allah sahaje yang membalas perbuatanmu, ya insan." was what i said in my head. now i'm thankful Islam taught me the best ways in doing things. there was once when i was in my madrasah class and my ustaza said we had to make sure the knife was sharp enough to make sure when we slaughter the animal, it'll be a short peaceful death. i found this explanation ridiculous because i mean, isn't it logical? but looking at this video made me realise that some people just do not have the same mindset as us.

kay, this is dedicted to my cousins, my friends and whoever else whom are either the same age as me OR older.(& wiser.heheh)-took it from asmida's blog-

if you were born in the 80's in Singapore...........

You would remember:


You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse, Ninja turtles, Carebears, Robocop, My Little Pony and Smurfs.


You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You would squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.


You hated or loved the school nurse (she was either pretty or mean).


You know what SBC stands for.


Everyone's wallet used to be the velcro type


It was cool to have pagers in primary school


There were still bus tickets and bus conductors would come up to check them.


Envelopes were given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.


You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.


Writing lines and caning hands were common, esp if you failed chinese spelling (caning was actually allowed. no shit).


You were there when they first introduced the MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.


You bought tidbits called beebee (20 cents per pack, 10 cents in MGS), and mamee (30 cents), that had a different sticker in it every time.


You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.


Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven were probably the thickest story books you thought you would ever read.


Catching and pepsi-cola was the IN thing, and twist was the
magic word.


Your English workbooks were made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.


The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellized characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you math.


Waterbottles were slung around your neck and a must everywhere you went.


Girls played five stones and boys played with marbles.


Science was fun with the Balsam and the Angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fishes.


Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, immortalized in our minds from school textbooks.


We conducted experiments of our own to get badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.


Every Children's day and National day you either got pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or useless plastic files with 'Happy National Day 1994'.


You wore BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes.


Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.


There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday (you hated them).


You saw Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.


Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.


Class monitors and prefects loved to say, "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"


You brought every single book to school, even though there was a timetable.


There was a pro-yo/bumblebee, digimon craze at some point in time.


instrumental










but this one's a buddhist prayer in tibetan language. if the vocal's scraped..and some drum beats...wonders maybe?




i'm imagining i'm crawling behind a long piece of standing cloth held across the stage. halfway thru, i crawl under the cloth, a turn on the ground into an egg. i'm imagining poeple running and jumping higher than the cloth held. pretty cool. arabian pants. golden brown.a scarf wrapped around the head.



this are just beats. i'm imagining high school lepaking dance.

Ode To My Family - The Cranberries

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause I liked it. I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh me liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care


the holidays.


THESE HOLIDAYS HAS BEEN RAAAAATHER BORING.
mendak tau.


MANE JANJI SEMUE NAK MEETUP? NAK GIRLS TALK? NAK LEPAK? NAK PICNIC? NAK KARAOKE? NAK JAMMING? NAK HAPE-HAPE LAGI LAH.

MANE SEMUE ORANG SEH.
and it's not helping when almost everyone's not online. bleargh.



alahaaaai.
haddad and i and aizat talked about blogs. well, we/i realised some people are just NOT blogging anymore. you know, it's ironic when some people make others continue blogging when they've stopped themselves. anyway, i dont like the big size-12 fonts. i'm changing it back to 9 nomatter what. like haddad said "who told you to read?" i'll big-gen the font size if it needs attention.



now what's coming right up sooooooon.
Choreo dance for mzk3, mzk3 itself, hmm...ade lagi tapi aku tak ingat. but it sure is a whole lot.
oh, next year's GPA. but uh, wont that not happen? i heard NYJC gonna stop it ready? uhuhuhuhu.


ok. no high hopes.BUT today's dance team were really kickin' today. alah, i like lahh. we'll come up with new ones yeah. and i already have got a theme. surely the dancers know already. heeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I MISS DANCING! i'm thankful we're doing this. =)



this part is random kay.
people change right? welllll....they change for the better or for the worst right? so what happens wen they changed for the worst? what do you do? do you leave them alone or do go upfront and say 'hey, you've changed for the worst. can you stop it?' most likely, no right? what if this change is deadly? and it's not on purpose. so what do you do? you can't go and say 'whatever lah, as long as he/she's happy.' so i'm asking you, what will you do?



CREATIVE ZEN STONE PLUS.GREEN.please.

1. Each player of this game starts off by giving 5 weird things about themselves.
2. People who get tagged need to write in their blog of their own weird things as well, and state the rules clearly.
3. In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

the 5 weird things about FARIDAH.
1. i feel very sleepy when i'm on the train or when i'm in a very loud environment.
2. i laugh when i've got nothing to say.(that's not new)
3. i can stay up all night but i'll scare the shit out of myself and run into bed.
4. i come up with dance steps when i listen to my mp3.
5. i can copy someone's action over time and i wont know it.


1. Someone knocks on your door at 2am, who do you want it to be?
hmm. my downstairs neighbour shouting "FIRE! FIRE!"


2. Your boss tells you he/she will give you a $20 raise if you'll do your job naked, do you stay and take the raise?
i deserve better than that. huahua


3. Put urself in a nutshell.
good and nice on the outside, poisonous and bitter on the inside. not something you'd like on the menu.


4. Ever seen a ghost?
nope.


5. Happy with your body?
yes and no. gotta loose the babats.


6. something abt you?
hmm. proud, unfriendly and notorious.


7. A place you wanna visit?
Timbaktu.My pri sch teacher always told us to go there when she's angry, so i wonder where is that place?


8. A job you'll never do, no matter how much you were paid ?
uh......walk in meters and meters of sewage pipes.


9. a band/group you thought was cool when you were 13?
S club 7. kinda like their shows even.


10.you have a nightmare, who's the first person you think to call?
Nadee. she'll laugh at it and make it not look like a nightmare.


11.wanna have kids before you're 30?
let's see when i get married. uh, 3?


12.a memory from sec school.
miss lim standing in front of the blackboard(and i mean blackboard) giving instructions and thank you speech. blackboard filled with messages like 'ROTTEN APPLE SUCKS BIG TIME!' haha.


13.ever had a crush on a friend's parent?
HUH! well, i've not really seen all my friends' dads yet. and those i've seen are not exactly crush-able types


14.do you look more like your mom or dad?
mom. uh...or should i say dad...

15.something you've always wanted to learn to do?
SKYDIVE. that's too far, i wanna really learn driving first.


16.how you'd like your life to be in 10 years?
28 years old...erm, hopefully married with a good career. maybe with a kid jumping/crawling around the house.


17.something you learned this year.
that i'm selfish and mean. and oh, performing arts mean alot more than performing.


18.what do you want for your birthday?
oh, this is sad. since i might be home helping around with the cleaning instead of celebrating. k..hm...
a meet up with ALL my friends, especially Siti Sahuria.(i dont care if its at the void deck.)
a new bicycle with locks that can't break for nuts.(i miss cycling for free on my own)
cheesecake.(got one lined up for me already hehe)
a make-over! chey. no lah.
a day out shopping.( i know i cannot do this on the day itself.)


19.name 4 things u did ystday.
hm..yesterday..
1.played chocobo racing, bowling with my lil bro.
2.watched soleha and candy
3.get stressed because the washing machine couldnt work.(SHYT!)
4.many rope jumps and a few failed crunches.



20. last item you bought yourself.
welllllll. oh. fresh coconut ice blended. yummeh.


tagging:
nizal
asmida
mira
nadee
dayu

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sebab itu ia tidak akan menjadi
kau akan buat aku bunuh diri, bunuh diri
apabila kau kata ia [??]
[??] semua ini cantik perempuan
mereka hanya mahu buat kau berhabuk
mereka akan ada kau bunuh diri, bunuh diri
apabila mereka kata ia [??]

kay, lame.

tried my best to direct translate the lyrics but nampak nye tak menjadi sebab malyu aku memang tak bagus langsung. bukan karat. memang tak bagus. yaaaaa.

the dumb things people do when they have nothing to do.

so here's the rest of the lyrics and the song itself.





Jr. Sean kingston
See it started at the park, used to chill after dark
Oh, when you took my arm, that's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought, that love last forever
They say we're to young, to get ourselves' sprung
Oh we didn't care, we made it very clear
And they also said, that we couldn't last together
See it's very divine, you're one of a kind
But you mush up my mind, you ought to get declined
Oh Lord
My baby is driving me crazy

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

It was back in 99, watching movies all the time
Oh when i went away for doing my first crime
And I never thought, that we was gonna see each other
And then I came out, mommy move me down south
And oh, I was with my girl, who i though was my world
It came out to be, that she wasn't the girl for me
see it's very divine, you're one of a kind
but you mush up my mind, you ought to get declined
oh lord my baby is driving me crazy

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

now we are fussing and now we are fighting
please tell me why, i'm feeling slighted
and i don't know, how to make it better
your dating other guys, your telling me lies
oh i can't believe what i'm seeing with my eyes
i'm losing my mind, and i don't think it's clever

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal!!


haha! feast your eyes.



apologies if the colour is too contrasting.



WHAT A DAY! what a day indeed.



i didn't get myself sufficient sleep, so i was groggy and sleepy in the morning. BUT i was up and going the moment raider called. wahahahhahaha. met her at bedok int and we had ayam penyet for brunch. mmyumyummm. we wanted to have Inspirasi's famous mee rebus/soto but too bad, it wasn't ready yet. hmph. so, the time we finished eating, dayu arrived. such good timing. so we started making our way to NTUC.



we tawaf-ed(circled) the whole NTUC. up down, left right! good thing they've got travellators or else, i dont think we would want to climb the stairs. we got our stuffs and then we headed to the baking shop to get butter since NTUC's butter was kinda expensive(alittle cheapo, i know). after that, i headed back to the bus int to revalue mine and dayu's card after that to my granny's to fetch the nozzle. my mother was abit shocked to see me. i realised my gramp's not home. oh dear.=( so i waited for the bus to raider's and really, what was exactly on my mind was "aku rase tersumbat sak." haha. kay, i really felt like shitting. wanted to go back to my granny's but it'll take time, so i prayed the bus would hurry. THERE WERE ONLY THREE PASSENGERS IN THE BUS! wth.scary.



reached raider's house. heeeheee. we started baking2. yeahh. the muffins were pretty dumb i must say. they only head towards heat, and it makes them alittle heavy on the side. really! like got one baluku on it. haiyoyoyo. finished with the muffins, we did the icing. FIRST TIMERS! our icing didnt turn out so good. haha! we didnt have the electric mixer so we used the hand one sooooo, well, it was kinda soft. we tried alittle and it sucked so we put it in the fridge instead. da malas. then, after alllll the muffins were done, we started decorating. i mixed the colourings in, dayu and raider did the decorating2. i did two decorations(a tv and a blue swirl and helped with the chicken). haha. WE HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!! really we did. it's a girl thing lah so laugh all you want. hahahahahahahahahahahhahahah!



thenn, we prepared the present bag, put the muffins in the fridge and cleaned up. ready, we made our way to nadee's. haha. sempat belikan diri kite fruit-iceblended/milk-bbt! tak lupekan nadee of course. we reached her house and guess who opened the door? NADEE! she can walk ALREADY! GET REAL WELL SOON! dayu n raider freshened up and we gave nadee her pressies. 'korang dari mane?' haha! sorry nad, you had to ask so many times. now you know where. hahahahah. your nenek so funny lahhh. haha! kekek. we slacked and watched tv. lepak lah kan. omg. while she explored the bag, her voice was like a pitch higher. really! squeeky2 sia.