Jot down interesting, memorable events in life
Think things out through words
To avoid the mental burden.





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Fard,
when are you ever going to learn? that karma exists. that everything you do to others, it will come back to you. when are you ever going to learn? those liquid drops aren't worth it fard. everything you've been talking about, that's what matters. don't you know you're being hit, one by one? you've talk about it before, and it all comes back to you. don't you realise that? don't you? it's one thing to be talking about things, it's another to be talking behind things. have you forgotten all your promises? have you been negotiating, fard? have you been negotiating with yourself? why fard? have you lost yourself while trying to find yourself? where is she now? what happened to her? you've changed fard. you've changed, not for the better. you've become that poison you always thought you'll never be. all those things you talk about, all those shit stuffs, are all coming back fard. one by one it's going to hit you. it'll hit you, real bad. and if you don't start now, you'll lose out. you'll find out what a loser you are. try to remember fard, all the bad things you've been doing all this while. and change it. you selfish mean asshole. come on fard, change what has happened or you'll be regretting for the rest of your life.


carry it well.




the computer's useless without net, unless you've got games and other softwares to entertain yourself. but when it's being reformatted, it's useless.




have been going to school almost everyday now for mzk3.
dance is progressinggg!!!! well i must add!
gosh shit. if everytime i get an idea seconds before i fall to sleep, i WONT BE ABLE TO SLEEP THAT WAY!
nowonder i've lost some sleep. nisya knows.
sleep at 2-3, wakes up at 6-7 in the morning. sick lah liddat.





parkinsonssss.k stop it.nisya will get mad if i dont.
nisya! don't forget us easterns hor! you're still an eastern at heart.




skarang si kucing kurap da ade kawan nak temankan die balek.
sekarang kite semue macam da ade partner gitu eh.
kaple-kaple. mira n diah, kurap n ali(heheh), me n aizat and etc.



talk about having a friend to travel home with, just now aizat and i had the most disgusting experience ever! my gosh.
there were three ang moh's standing in front of us, pretty good looking i must say.
well, their butts were facing us, so we just talk and not bother about the awful sight.
(nizal, you should reaaalllyy pull up your pants. you have nooo idea what people can talk about in front of them)

the center guy suddenly bent downwards, showwwinggg his lovely green-striped boxers to us. when he stood up, we realised he did not pull his pants up. well, westerners right? what do they know about us asians. so we continued talking with me, trying desperately to look away. (his butt was really near my face lah!)




he threw up!! on his shopping bag, on the floor, on his shoes, on the person in front of him's shoes and ew, it was a mean sight. imagine scrambled egg, still gooey with chucks of chicken and white egg and a little bit of tomato. about cooked but not there yet. i feel like throwing up already.


OH MY GOD! ew ew ew. and his friend had to force him out of the train. hiw other friend had to carry his scrambled egg coated shopping bag. YUCK. when he carried it, the scrambled egg fell on the floor, and spread even more.


FUCK sia.




eee. i couldnt stand it because it riigghhtt infront of me so we got down, only to get on the same train as them again. freak.


sheeesh.



whats the good in drinking? tell me.


it's bitter(that's what my friends told me), it makes you loose control of yourself, it makes you threw up if you can't handle your drink well.


so, what IS good about it?




same goes to smoking too.









Samsung U3



Touch sensitive controls
DNSe sound enhancement
1GB / 2GB / 4GB
9 preset EQs and User EQ
Clear 4 Line OLED LCD
FM radio built in
Voice & FM recording
Retractable USB connector
Music MP3/WMA/OGG Vorbis/ASF
15 hours battery life



Creative Zen Stone


MP3, WMA, Audible, WAV
2GB
blue OLED screen
FM player
Voice n fm recordings
stopwatch function
easily configurable
9.5 hours of continuous music playback
drag-and-drop(no softwares needed)
USB 1.1/ 2.0


check this out!



Fiestari 2007: ESSS Malay Dance Titipan Zapin

ESSS Malay Dance Asmaradana this one's nice.

NJC Malay Dance SYF 2003-Bebas

Asmaradana AIM 2005

SAJC Dance: Rapture 06 Musa's Item

SAJC danceworks 2004

SYF Dance 2007 TJC this one's cool. called 'Be'

Cresent Girls's School Dance SYF 2007 cooool.

SYF DANCE 2007 MJC this one's called 'Wired'


sooooooo cooooool!

dimanakah dikau?



mane abanggg?????

da 2 pagi ni maseh belom balek-balek lagii!!!! penat tau faridah tunggu. hmph.=(
abang nak kawen ke? sebab tu abang amek kerje malam eh??
HAIYOYOYO.
ABANGGGG!!!! balek tak semenet, da keluar.
kadang2 batang hidung jambol pon tak nampak, tau2 beg da kat atas kerusi.
ape ni?!!?!??! abes tak tido???
ke abang tido rumah kawan? ingat rumah ni hotel ke bang??
ABANGGGG!!!!
tadi faridah pegi sekolah, abang baarruuu balek. sampai sekarang belom balek.
abang tak penat ke???
siape tu, lina eh? eh, jahat seh. buat abang macam ni. hmph.
hmph.
BALEK LAH.
si nabil tu pon, asek2 on lampu malam2 bute. die bangon, pastu on lampu.
agaknye on tv sekali. pikirkan abang ade kat rumah.
rupenye takde. =(
BALEK LAH!



AHHH!!! LIPAS!!!!!

ah shit. i can't sleep. and i keep waking up early. insomnia?
hmph.



that 'secret ringtone' is so fake.


will GST affect me?


of course.


yeay, my papers are OVER. starbucks or coffee bean? hmmm. call me pleasee.


seoul garden tomorrow. yeay!


and i 'bumped' into raider & abdillah today. haha. they were studying lah. and my neighbour is working at LJS. but...butbut....he's still in secondary school.



now, my blog has just too much information.


gee.
















the last paper tomorrow.


rrroooommm




asmida sent these a few weeks ago. and the fact that i'm moving soooooooooooooooooooon, maybe i should think about one good room to sleep in.


dated mr wei feng just now. haha! chey!!! no lah. accompanied him to an interview. you'll get the job lah ivan!! i'll be waiiittinnnggg. cheycheychey. and we went foodhunt too! can i go out and just eat desserts the whoooooolleeee day?! mmhmmm. we also went window shopping. banana republic is quite over-rated. serious. and i want that bag! buuttt, neverminddd. oh i want to get a hoodie. oh oh oh. no, i want a camera. no, i want this and that and this and that. aiyo. eh, but we studied also you know. topic one. haha. haiyoyoyoyoyo. holidays, here i come.


yoha.


according to plan.



well, things didn't go exactly according to planned for me for the past few days.
thus same for today.


but, for a valid reason.


darling nadee, two days after her birthday, went karaoke-ing. enjoying the day, she had a photo session with all her lovelies and that was when the accident happened. i'm still trying to imagine how she could get into such a situation! nadee, TAKE CARE OKAY! LOOK where you're going! nak selit tu berpada-pada lah. haiyoyoyoyo.



ee, nunu, mama n I met at bedok and got her some snacks and bits and a bouquet of roses. everyone was pretty shocked to hear about it. haiyoyoyoyo. it was a bargain lah, whether to get one thing as a whole or a few things that cost the same. so da gitu, kite bermule perjalanan ke rumah nadee. on the way sempat beli keropok lekor sekali since tengah ade pasar malam kat situ[pasar malam at 2pm?!oO]. tunggu kan bas macam tunggu kan lauk masak. laammeeerr seh.


da gitu, kite sampai lah ke tempat perdiaman nadee. haiyoyoyoyoyo. sane, kite temankan nadee. mintak full story mcm reporter mane tah den kite lepak je, tgk tv, makan, bual2 kosong. haha. kite tengok cite ni..Kyle XY. omgd!!! so cute lah Kyle[matt dallas].





beyond tomorrow.


imagine...

• building a three storey apartment flat in three days.
• getting an x-ray in 13 seconds
• rowing while seeing yourself row
• going to school where the ipod and a remote control is a must have
• a robot modelling every few minutes

did you know...

houses are now factory made?
yep, now houses are factory made in London. due to the high demand of apartments, apartment houses are now ready within 3 days! imagine if you could choose your house and have built the next week. cool...


you can get an x-ray in just 13 seconds in Washington?
a hospital in washington was the venue for the victim of the 911 incident. the x-ray machine can scan the whole body of the patient in a very short time. now, more lives can be saved!


your trainer can spot your mistakes and tell you right away while you're rowing?
a new device has been invented!! yes, the goggles is wireless and is connected to a digital camera where your trainer will video you while you're out in the sea. you can see yourself row through the goggles and correct them. it will be quite disconcerting at first but talk about spot your mistakes!


you're suppose to have an ipod and a remote control if you enter Duke Uni?
the school has made the ipod and a remote control important. they gave away 20GB to the first year students and with these ipod, these students can record, download and listen to lectures or sound effects or whatever is needed to do for their study. and a remote control is used as an interaction tool between the lecturer and students. imagine giving your answers just by pressing that button on the remote!
"Duke will distribute Apple iPods to incoming first-year students, as part of an initiative to encourage creative uses of technology in education and campus life. The pocket-sized digital devices, which can store both audio and text material, will be preloaded with Duke-related content, such as information for freshman orientation and the academic calendar."
-http://www.dukemagazine.duke.edu/dukemag/issues/091004/depgaz2.html



models have been replaced by robots?
yes. sad truth isn't it? that's what happen if models become very annoying. these robots don't do anything except change pose every few minutes. if they're modelling jewelry, they'll make sure you see them. i mean, they turn facing you when you walk pass. the thought of being replaced by robots...scary.



now you know.


talk about a day.


unless you're so bored, go skip this and visit some other website instead.



today started out really good actually. with my mom. well, i wasn't hoping much, since everyday's the same and she goes out by 9. but today was different. she came home an hour later. said it was raining heavily so she didnt want to get wet so she headed home instead. i was pretty shocked to see her back home so early.no, veryvery early.


then, we had breakfast. while watching tv. klaka lah, i tell you. we watch the new channel, Sensasi. haiyoyoyoyoyo. they were playing '100% horror'. an indon horror show lah. and then my mom started talking about fat.rocker and how we should always wash out our sanitary pads before throwing it away. and that we will always use the same uri(uh, oh, cord) so we have to bury it after we give birth. kekek sey. i was pretty freaked out after that and thank goodddness nadee called after that. haha. relieved me a little. fuuh! thanks nad.



the bad feeling...
theennn, i headed for school. i already had a bad feeling before going out. so here it starts.



i was pretty sure and confident that i could solve the questions, or maybe just hentam them...so i looked through my solutions once and gave a little breather. oh gosh how wrong i was. the bell rang when ivan asked about that particular question. i totally didn take notice of it. damn. how stupid. came into the lab, read the questions AND THEN everything went blank. i tried to do the first (a) question. which was 10 marks. and because of that, because i was so unconfident of the answer, i was stuck there! fuckshit. for a whole hour. and thenn, i gave up. i had questions (c) (d)(e)(f)(g) all about 8 marks each that i left blank. thenn, second question, i tried to do the drawing. maybe i could get 20 out of 30. while that was only part (c), the rest i left blank. freak. and the best part, i left the class early. and for the whole time, i was having the worst cramps and i drank too much earlier so nature called, bad. i have screwed up the paper.



like i said previously, lets hope i end the paper good.
and obviously i didnt.
so frankly there goes the other good thing.



i left the class, and i found 3 missed calls and 6 messages. one from singtel reminding me to top up my card, the rest, hah, you know. i wasn't surprise lah, anyway, i understand. so what i was waiting for was pretty much cancelled. alah, the mood's gone anyway. so uh, don't ask me for a trip next time k. bukan merajok lah, just not in the mood. and no, i'm not sad. whats there to be sad about? there's always next time.


so the next best thing happened. aisyah compensate it with fireworks. and she did it while i was answering nature's call. kan best tu. aku da lah sakit perot,makkau.. tapi takpe, thanks alot ah aisyah, i had loads of fun. and shak! haha, now we know M.S better kannn! hahahaha. kekek ah. sampai satu mall kite explore. haha. the fireworks was good. unlike last year's. but the company. kecoh! haiyoyo. kekek lah kan. changing poses for photographs of just laughs makes wonders. rock my socks lah you ppl! haha! THANKS YOU GUYS!



saturday(today), home.
sunday, gym!
mondayy, town!
tuesday, school.
wednesday, test.



alah, shit. i need the moolahs. i need to top up my card. sent so many smses but most of it is wasted. should have asked other people to forward it instead. arrrrgg. takmo call aku. sms me first. unless its very dead important.

i wantttttt:



funny how the day starts and ends.


experience.


i read someone's post just now(bloghopped, obviously) and i read that the person said it was better with him around since he's heard all the stories, had all the experience, and through this he could make his relationship better by improvising.


so i'm wondering, how much experience do you need to know it all? i'm not being sarcastic whatsoever. but i'm just wondering...


i'll have to lemon law you.



talk about studying.
i realise i can never understand the topic. but the aim is to solve the questions.
so i study the solutions. going about the first to the last step on how to do the question.
and i realise how not good that is.
i'm soo structured.
tactile.



i should end my birthday wishes now.and start on blogging.
i hope everyone enjoyed their birthdayss. more than 5 people now are almost legal.
go get your license now, go.



i was bored with my template colour so i started searching on blogskins.com for inspiration. i was never good at starting from scratch to build my blog anyway so manipulating it is the only best way i can make it look like how i want it to. a big stress on like. please help by commenting and criticising me please. the backgrd, for you info, was 'stolen' from blogskins.com, someone with the nick 'emptiness'. i have her/his link in the credits box, don't worry. and the colours, oh the colours. inspiration from asmida's, maisarah's and suzana's blogs. haha.buuut, you dont see much colour now, do you? aiya, go criticise me can?



i was never a good person to start with, so i'd have to pretend. oh god, all this while i've been putting up a facade. i'm me at home. and no, you dont want to meet the 'real' me. i'm an angsty dumb lazy hooligan. i live in a world where 'aku kau' is only meant for people who about my age, and 'you me i' is the only way not to mention 'abg/abah/mak/kakak'. there's this standard of respect brought up in me that when i see my friends talking to their siblings 'aku kau', it's kinda...shocking. but it's in my family though. my mom talks to her siblings 'aku kau', my brothers do it to themselves. my dad too. how i envy people who are so close to their siblings, even if they are just 'pass me the remote control' close. i don't even see my eldest brother, now my 2nd brother is also disappearing. don't ever mention sister to me. and my littlest brother. he's such a tuut.




channel 18, or should i say starworld, has been my saviour for these past few days. i love Psych!! maybe i have his gift. his gift is to pretend that he is psychic. his gift is that he can pick out nitty gritty points way before the team. and tada, he solves the case. but not directly. oh, and How I Met Your Mother is also freaky. tonight's episode, they shared their most embarrasing moments over a few drinks. one was they has sex while the phone wasn't hung up yet. and her mom was on it. another was he had too much to drink because he didnt kiss a girl, so after those drinks he went to her apartment wanting to kiss her but instead he puked on her doormat instead. the main guy told his story about his first love. he saw the girl kissing a man whom he thought was her dad. like, eww. but now that girl takes care of a baby and he, on the other hand leads the free life, 24/7/365. Heroes is going to be played again, Ghost Whisperer, Ugly Betty's going to be played soon, Desperate Housewives, Scrubs and some other else. and, just like RCTI, its playing one after another. now, call me a couch potato, sometimes i wonder what are people doing in front of their computers.



http://www.miniclip.com/ has got me and my little brother hooked.
http://www.devianart.com/ is a really cool site! coolshit i tell ya. GO CHECK IT OUT.
http://www.unclefred.com/ is a cute site too for those who would want to learn how to draw simple stuffs.


CYCLING TMR OKAYYY.
meet kul 5 kat bedok mrt control station okayyy.
pape, sms aku lah.


no, we didn't forget.

Labels: nadiah's 18th

look at the date.
look how i'm cheating.
i feel so lazy to blog these days.



i just can NOT study today. i tried. i really really tried. i had my table messed up, i moved from table to floor, i sat, i lied down, i turned on the radio, i switched off the tv, i plugged my ears
AND STILL I CANNOT SIT DOWN AND STUDY!!! gosh.shit.


maybe the master can show me how.






[addition]
i just read. the studs in my sec sch are going for overseas trips to Indon n M'sia. THAT IS SO UNFAIR. why didn't WE get to go?! oh, i know. stupid SARS. it's okayyy. i've got my own chance. the last time my school(primary) arranged for an overseas trip was to Bangkok. and i couldnt go because i didn't take part in the SYF that year. that is SO unfair right! hmph. and ALL my friends got to go because they took part in something. shittyshittybangbang. then my sec sch wanted to arrange a trip to China but it was only to the chinese. talk about racism. hurh. not fair!!! but its okayyyyy. i shall leave them past behind. grrr. it is okaayyy. i miss Mdm Marlina though. cikguuu, di mana kamu....

this reminds me,
i met izza n fatimah at baybeats the other day
fatimah: FARIDAH!!! i miss you as the president!!!!
izza: yaaa!!!
me: huh? why?
fatimah: because the budak2 now are like fighting over the post.
me: -_-" aler, then why don't you take over?
fatimah: cannot. because we step down oready mah.

haha. haiyoyo. the 90s batch onwards really have to do some uh, changes. not all. no offence.



















ze 700th post.



the fireworks were pretty last night. and i had a great time. =))
eventhough the policemen didn't let the latecomers in. hmph. bad policeman.
ate supper/dinner at mosi cafe. heeheee.
abdillah had this really uh, cool[?] straw like tingy that's attached to his bag.
and the ride home. haha. fuyooo.



now i can't wait for SUNDAY!!!
i wanna cycle.
don't know what came up to me. and i msg-ed everyone to join in.
JOIN KAY!!! heeeheeeeeeee.



now, i'm in NP.
task: STUDY.
i dont see familiar facesss.
oh, me n nadee got lost in IMM just now. haha. stupid me.
plus we went to a clinic especially for uhh, those people in my going-to-be work area.
klaaakaaaarrrr.



i realised, i always get effed up at someone for no valid reason.
haha.
sorry.



SUNDAYYY!!! =))
SEE YA!


alah.

alah, aku screw up akunye kertas.
i gave up. i gave up. i gave up.
please, i don't want to screw up more papers.



screw up or nail it.
screws & nails are kinda the same aren't they?



why am i rambling over THAT.


there was a guy, no, two guys, at baybeats the other day. till today i'm still thinking about one of them. haha. he looks so familiar. sp guy? no. don't think so. he's tall, and he has that mod hairstyle. i think it's mod. well, i think so. he was wearing, hmm..a scarf around his neck, bermudas and polo tee. all black. mcm cool gitu. haha. alah, he's cute lah. now, where did i see that guy?! and he noticed me staring at him! shit...but, haha, that's alll a piece of history now. and most probably the girl he was carrying on his back is his gf, and the other guy's his brother or something. alah. so maybe, he noticed me. but it's just for a second. 'some girl was looking at my direction just now.hurh.' or maybe 'am i too handsome till some girl kept staring at me?' the 2nd one's just tells us how big his ego is.
and she goes all shy.



ya lah. tadi aku barunak tanye orang, kau skrg takde ke yang interested? pasal tadi aku terserempak classmate aku den die bilang aku pasal orang yang die interested in walaupun aku tidak tanye. lepastu kite ade bende nak bualkan. aku rindu lah classmate aku tu. tapi, apekan daya, kite tak seclose dulu. die lah orang kedue aku buat kawan dengan and aku dapat impression pertame yang die tu ahbeng. haha. padahal bukan. sheeshman. kire2, dielah paling tersempurna biler dibandingkan cheenaman yang lain. hishhish.


rush hour three was really funny. but it was short. yah. alah, i still wanna watch simpsons. someone get me the dvd. pleeassee.


the last Malay Class. i'm gonna miss going to class with everyone. i'm going to miss Dr Mukhlis. i'm going to miss the lessons, the assignments. because it's actually very interesting. sedih ade yang tanak amek sebab pikir malay is like...stupid. ridiculous you know. i mean, if you want to learn other languages so much, make sure you're good with your own first. i'd like to join another class please. thank you Dr Mukhlis for teaching us so much. it has been really great. =))

hydraulics, conc design and cecon. please, dont let me down.



who are youuu my country? this was the first line i heard when i past bvss. hahahah. kekekk.



so HAPPY 42ND BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!! without you, i wont be here. i'd be in another country. i wonder, without me, what would you be like? without the people stepping on you, what will happen to you? hmm..well wishes!



i can't wait i cant wait!!!!
SITI SAHURIA!!! MAKE SURE I CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH YOU OKAYY!!!
AMEK LESEN LEPAS KAU PUNYE As OKAY!!!!!
MESTI BOLEH OKAY!!!!!





The Great Escape - Boys like Girls
Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
Its goodbye
But we got one more night
Lets get drunk and drive around
And make peace with this empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
Its so good to be by your side
And well cry
But we wont give up the fight
Well scream loud at the top of our lungs
Theyll think its just cause were young
Well feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that well never find
They dont mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They dont know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight


before anything,

AHHHH!!!! THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT AT TAMPINES MRT RAILTRACK!!!!
boom.

and it caused a congestion. everyone had to get down the train at tanah merah and we were stuck there for only a few minutes.


"makkk, mak tau aperrr. tadi kann, kat tampines mrt platform kann, ade accident."
"abes? siape terjon?" haha.


you know, sometimess, there's always that something that makes your head wonder. it's like, it makes that bell in your head riiinggg and then you start to wonder, why is that happening? and when you realise why it gave you such a rriinngg, you can't help but regret and wish you could turn back time.

gosh shit. that question "please write your name on the piece of graph paper' gave me such a RRIINNGG. and i handed the stupid piece of paper EMPTY!! gosh shit. only after i handed in did i realise, I HAD TO DO A GRAPH!!!! shittttttttttttt.



kay, then yesterday, the 'pushing of the trash can' action gave me a ring. coz while i was walking home, i saw that recycling bin on the grass.


den i forgot how to do the geomatics questions. thanks aaron, for helping me. i guess i cheated. SHIT.


hahhahahahahhaha.
and tmr, there's this stupid death paper i have to sit for and i totally have no idea how to do a single sum.



kay, laughing session for today:
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhaahahhahahahahahah
hahahahhahahahahahahhhahahahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahhhahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahhaahhahahahahaahahahahah
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahaahhahahahahahahahah
hahahahahhahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahhaahhahahahahaha


you think that was enough?
that was definitely.NOT.


kkkk.STUDEH!.



nice song eh ni. the others all 30secs, not fun.




Telescopic Eyes - Eisley
Oh...you humor me today,
calling me out to play,
with your telescope eyes, metal teeth,
I can't be seen with you, you freak.

go cry, go run away,
Let your short legs carry you away,
With your big dress and your dirty hair,
Your prince waiting for you,
Just get far, far away from me,
I don't want your disease.

Please don't make me cry,
Please don't make me cry,
I'm just like you I know you know,
I'm just like you so leave me alone

Dear Matthew, why can’t you see?
You’re just not near enough like me
With your telescope eyes, metal teeth
I can’t be seen with you.

Please don't make me cry,
Please don't make me cry,
I'm just like you I know you know,
I'm just like you so leave me alone

Please don't make me cry,
Please don't make me cry,
I'm just like you I know you know,
I'm just like you so leave me alone

(Guitar Bridge)

Please don't make me cry,
Please don't make me cry,
I'm just like you I know you know,
I'm just like you so leave me alone

Please don't make me cry,
Please don't make me cry,
I'm just like you I know you know,
I'm just like you so leave me alone

Oh, you humor me today...


and today was a day just like any other.



but the whole day i was shivering like i'm having a fever or something. bleah.
and i am just so lazy today.
i tried studying, but it's so difficult to concentrate.
i CANT even concentrate on the TV! what more the notes.
and i ordered food, but i can't finish it!
shittttt.



yesterday's baybeats was good. to me, intone and blindside was good. well, to me lah. i know i've got no taste. haaahaaa. even during the shows, i was damn sleepy. LOUD MUSIC is my lullaby bebeh. loud NOISE is not.


aku rase aku sakit tau. tekak aku macam ade batu kat dalam, aku menggigil macam orang uh...p...alah...ade lah penyakit tu....abestu aku peeeeenat. alahai, time gini nak penat. eh tak, aku tak penat. aku letharjik. a'ahh...kasi aku sikit advise boleh? alah, abes macam mane??? ayoo.


oh, and i just realised, i need at least 6 dancers. at least ah. kalau 9 pon da better. yeah yeah yeah??? nadhiraahhh, kenape tak reply msg akuu??? ape dah.


nak kate sejuk, tak sejuk. nak kate panas, tak panas. APE NII!!!


haiyo. da lah, shut up.


uh, why is my mouse not working???


ok good.





I'm Ready - Jack's Mannequin


[And today was a day just like any other]

I'm on the verge, I'm on the verge
Unraveling with every word
With every word you say, make me believe
That I won't feel your tires on the street
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away

I come undone, oh yes, I do
Just think of all the thoughts wasted on you
And every word you say, say something sweet
Cause all I taste is blood between my teeth
As I'm finding the words... you're getting away

Well I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop, Keep pushing
I'm ready to fall, oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't call, I'm ready so don't call

I am aware, I've been misled
I disconnect my heart, my head
Don't wanna recognize when things go bad
The things that you'll accept
Except that I am finding the words... to say

I'm ready, I'm ready to drop
Oh oh oh oh oh, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop
I'm ready so don't stop

[I wake up to find it's another
Four aspirin morning, and I dive in
I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.
When did society decide that we had to change
And wash a tee shirt after every individual use:
If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.
I take the stairs to the car
And there's fog on the windows.
(And I'm fighting the words...)
I need caffeine in my blood stream,
I take caffeine in the blood stream.
I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:
(And you're getting away...)
My life has become a boring pop song
And everyone's singing along.]

Well, I'm ready, to drop, well, I'm ready
I'm ready so don't stop, oh
Well, keep pushing, I'm ready to fall
Well, I'm ready, I'm ready so don't call
I'm ready so don't call, oh... oh... oh...




haaaa, life.
how are you, life?
you know, life, i've been wondering,
why are you so intelligent?



everything that's been happening these past few days, it's really hitting me. i'm feeling the guilt, i'm feeling the angst. i'm trying to, i'm really trying to. not feel this bad. self pity.


maybe there's someone out there who knows a piece of the story but i don't.
maybe there's many out there who knows most of the story that i know a little of.
n no, i don't like asking questions because, somehow, i feel stupid.



tests and exams are already here. shithead, i need to study. i'm really scared this year. i want to go back to my first term in first year. where, i go to class for the sake of studying, not for the sake of attendance. sshiiittthheeaadd.



arghhh.
lemme just tell those who've went for the NYP production/play, that that kind of life is not what it is like. yes, i'm in the position of the girl. i have no one to talk to at home, which is why i talk to my friends. but no, none of my siblings treat the little one so bad. but violence still roams around in it. i don't think they've got it right, but maybe, they have. maybe that's exactly the life i'm going through, minus the death of Dad. maybe, just maybe, that's why i can't really get along with him that well.


come on, let me study and ask questions for once! if those stupid questions are not answered, then i'll stay stupid for the rest of the time. and hell, don't answer me with that 'this girl is stupid' tone. if everyone keeps thinking they are so clever, then why don't you share it nicely?!
freak. come on! go ahead, ask all the stupid questions. it's not forbidden! it's not a wrong! it's not banned!



______________________________________________________________
it's not about whatever you've said about that school. didn't you realise, it happened way earlier? sorry, i'm just being paranoid. but, thanks eh.


let me take a bow.



i realised something. but this is only an observation, nothing to think much about.
it's either a trend or a decision.
because, everyone's posts are getting alittle vague and short each time.
why eh?
is it because there's this little something to hide?
maybe it's the 'short & sweet' mindset.




today's malay lesson was pretty interesting. it started out really uh, boring but it ended really well because we were learning about the languages used in songs and poems. Dr Mukhlis introduced us to 3 songs, 'MAT TAHIR MATAIR', 'HIDAYAH' & 'DIAM'. zee zongs vere veally veally zoothing zo ze ears. hahaha.


and yesterday's auditions was..ha ha ha. really, new talents are spotted. not spotted lah, but uh, found. or so to speak. singing, over-acting, crying and yadayada have been found. BUT, we've have yet to find uh...more lah. come on down yeah.



***
should i go back to my shut up mode? how about just
because, i think i'm talking too much and all not at the right time. seriously you know. i love observing people so much, that, if i were to tell someone about it, it'll spoil everything.
i think i'm a poison. maybe. don't you think so?
mate aku pedih. MATA AKU PEDIH!
maafkanku abah. ku tidak sengaja. tetapi cara abah mengata tentang perkara itu sangat menyakitkan hatiku. abah tidak tahu bagaimana susah nya untuk kaum hawa memberitahu keluarga tersayang bahawa dia sudahlah tidak suci. titisan airmata ini mengalir tanpa pengetahuan abah tetapi, maafkan aku abah. aku tidak sengaja.

***



actually, there's other things i have in mind to type here in this blog so that thewholeworld knows about what i have been thinking BUT, i guess, it's better to no say anything and lets see what the whole world has to offer. i mean, better to keep it down then saying everything out loud and burst. maybe it is better. nyahahaha.



SO ANYWAY,
i'm pretty bored waiting for the script to finish. really. BUT, i already have a task. to choreograph a contemporary dance for dear darlings and uh, yeah. for now, i'm just waiting by the side, not interupting, not interfering while the mighty super script writers do their magic. lemme just think on shits that can make the show alive. hmmm......HAA, how abouttt.....
kay, i'll throw all my shits later on aafftteerr everything's done. i'll sit down, and crack my head open, dig the brain out and slice it thin. mmhmm. imagine that piece of chicken ham in between that slice of bread you usually eat from 7-11. eheheheh.



aw, i can't upload the song on imeem.com since it's in .wma format. can uh, someone teach me how to uh, convert it?



while walking to the business block, fad, as, sarah and i(kepo2) talked about OC, one tree hill and the adam's family. my favourite show in adam's family is when the wife told the husband 'i know! you failed in failing!" and the husband jumps like a ball, boingboingboing.
so what's yours?


what's with me and 'boingboing'? haha



Dengar Ini Cerita -Sean Ghazi
Mari-mari kawan dengar ini cerita
Perempuan sangat mudah cemburu buta
Kalau suaminya sangat bergaya
Dia so jealous, tidak percaya

You know apa yang jadi pada suatu hari
I perang besar you see!
Tapi baik juga, sudah hilang bengkak
Benjolnya dekat sini you sudah tak nampak!

Di ofis saya ada s'orang secretay
Potongan badannya...
Namanya "Mary"
Merah bibirnya macam cherry
Salah pandang macam Halle Berry

Dia mengajak saya pergi makan angin
[You know she want to 'romance']
I tanya "Ke mana?"
She said "Kebun Bunga"
Ini chance baik I said "Ok, Senorita!"

Tiba di sana si Mary mula lah posing
Sha makes badan I sejuk
Terus I shivering
She said "Don't be afraid my darling"

Saya jawab: "I like this kind of thing..."
Kita pun pergi duduk dekat satu bangku
And then she said "I love you!"
So then what did I do? I think you pun tahu...
Sudah tentu I kiss the girl bertalu talu!

Saya pulang ke rumah cukup senang hati
Tapi my wife ternampak lipstick on my pipi

*

Dia menerkan dan menggigit
Saya tak malu, terus menjerit!

Perabot IKEA terbang melayang-lanyang
Menghentam my belakang!
I would like to tanya
Kalau you yang kena
Wife you juga cemburu jadi what will you do?