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Think things out through words
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the best weekend. =)




friday, i ended the day with my animal friends, the chicken, the sheep and the mouse. went scavanging for grass. (i'm a cow btw) i miss them sia...


saturday, i spent it with shak and mls people plus also jeff, nizal n diah AND ended it with my FAVOURITEST cousin. it was fun. except, i was tired and i doze off. i miss sleeping over at her house lah. and my uncle was really kinda happy. i dont know why lah. but he was not like my parents, nagnagnag. in fact! he was like, 'Tido lambat lagi ke smlm?? haha" and he was bugging me to eat and he made fun abt my cousin..hahaha...


so today, i spent it with MEIJUAN and faizal and yusuf and aidil, fadhil, herman. i was late since i was from my cousin's house..went to zaki's(mj's) wedding ceremony. and it was real nice! the interior was nice...and, the food was okay...but, mj like, got left alone because zaki was busy. hmm...maybe...and we had fun playing truth and truth plus taking funny pictures. the boys were funny lah...this was my first time out with them and it wasn't boring. yusuf is CUTE lah! i just realised after 4 years in school with him and two years later. he was the one who made the 'come on, lets stop standing here and move" move at the ceremony. and he was the not really merepek but fun person. kay lah..compared to rest, he's more sane. haaahaaaaaa. anyway, the wedding ceremony was seriously VERY SWEET!!!! we witnessed the last part where the driver called out the family members and all and told them that the couple thanke them and he motioned them to hug their parents and shared where they proposed and why the groom was chosen. could see the bride was seriously touched and sweet and caring. like, omg. she kissed him in front of everyone after the cutting of the cake. and she said something after every kiss. AWWWW..so sweet lahhh. so lovng. aww. the dj's good at entertaining the people. and the cake was brownies and the gift was honey. the parents were friendly and the cousin was also friendly. =) then, we headed to simpang to meet rai for dinner. macamane lahh tak gain weight gini....haha.....yusuf and faizal funny ah...sit in front of them like watching sitcom gitu...haha...herman was with his girl all the way....in the phone...what seh...den farid, fadhil and aidil joined us. fadhil and aidil left for awhile to change. haahahaahaa..it was kinda funny lah...they are ITE studs so, they have this, ITE kinda behaviour...erm......skali skale kan...a new tint....and they are for girls with head scarfs(tudung), people without skin tight pants(aka skinnys), non-emo and non-kong bodied people. i cannot go into their minds at all and i am afraid they'll get hurt if i say something wrong..like when we talk abt ITE...mj had to leave it was me n rai and the boys. wah....no doubt they good ppl ah....yusuf said he dont smoke. LIKE REAL. faker. nampak sah die rokok sey..faizal also...inevitable....fadhil is talkative ehhh...i thought he is those quiet kind sey....hahaha....home ride, i chat awhile with rai...i like chatting with her while on the bus...dont know why....mcm bnyk gitu nk bebual...hahhahahaha....



i used to think wrongly of them but now, this changed everything.





argh. my father seriously bugs me.



at night, people sleep right?
on their bed right?




right.





my father?





he watches THE NEWS at night, in the morning, buy newspapers.
andwhen it comes to night time,
he SLEEPS INFRONTOF the TV.
so, since he's asleep,
its alright for me to change the channel right?






WRONG.





when he wakes up,
HE SCOLDS ME FOR CHANGING THE CHANNEL!!!!





wtf.




get me a tv for my birthday someone.
please.


yesssaaahh,



nizal's stuck with the Grace Kelly song. HUAHUAHUA.


shak will turn to be alittle feminine.


nizaLembut, FuadFayu, JeffJelita.


amcm?


hahahahaha.


the np's production was somewhat confusing. i dont know a thing they were talking about. some semut and mirror image tingy. errr. the band part is just a distraction. bleargh. SSP jugak gerek! hahahahhahahaha


i'm stranded now in clementi.
ATLAST, i get to stay over my cousin's house!
yeayyy.


i will make this weekend fun.


just now...i got lost in Tampines. coz mai left me at the interchange and i didnt know where tamp west cc was. called almost everyone i knew in tampines when i realised, I ACTUALLY KNOW THE PLACE!! naseb baik i'm not a direction idiot and naseb baiikkk tuhan berikan aku otak utk berfikir. haaahaaaa.


oh, and i slipped 3 escalator steps down, plus made a story. haahaaaa.


HEYYY!!!!!! takmo tinggalkan aku!!!!!
TIIIIDDAAAKKKK!!!! tidak.....aku ditinggalkan..
semue kerane kawan dektu, aku terjatuh!!
hai....ape lah naseb...hai...
aku keseorangan!
AADDDUHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
aduhaduhaduh!!
SAKITNYAAA!!!
mentang2 aku ini lembut, die blh pijak-pijak aku!
aduiii.....sakitnya....
hai....ape lah naseb aku ini....
takde orang ke yang nampak aku ni????
mentang2 aku ni kecik, tkde org ke nak pandang??
OOPPPPP!!! phew.
naseb...naseb aku tidak dipijak...die nampak aku..
tapi die jalan je..tak hiraukan aku..
hai apelah naseb......
WWOOII!!!!! Adoi....
wahhh..budak ni.....dah lah pijak aku, seret aku lagi!!!
baik aku sandar ke tepi....da sah tkde org akan nmpk aku..
jadi aku baik selamatkan diri....
hai...apelah naseb aku ni....
alah...penat lah nak sandar-sandar.....
aku baring lagi bagos....
alah, orang da tak hiraukan aku lagi...
yang ddok sblh aku ni pon tak pandang aku.....
alah...da lah......
da naseb aku gini......
nanti lama kelamaan, aku mesti kene pijak, seret.
lepastu, aku join jugak teman-teman aku yang dulu...
dalam tong sampah.
ape lah naseb.....


aku, sebagai beg pauc untuk CREATIVE ZEN yang tercicir di dalam bas.


blocked nose sucks. it keeps u awake, it makes you feel like you are drowning, it makes you feel suffocated.



i ate the blocked nose medicine once, and i couldnt sleep.
i had to force myself to sleep.




sucksucksuck!




anywayyyyy. daily check up.
today's lessons were okay. now i am famous among the lecturers during GEOMATICS. why? because i was
"the girl who booked the GEOMATICS lab for malay cca orientation."


all of them knows my name. SHIT. i have to lower my profile even more. or else its easy to spot my mistakes. by them!


right right.


ssp meeting was funny. jeff kept retrieving the trophy. haha jeff. kay, i bet you'll be one of the committee members. confirm. dah, put back the trophy. cool people get cool names.



then, me and shak went shoe hunting. HAAAHAAAAA. i didn't make my decision thaat long..but shak, omg. shakkkk...she....haiyoyoyooyo.....we went 4 shops...and she couldnt make her mind! hahahahahahahaahahahahah...klaka laahhhh....yes ahh, tmr i get to see her wear them! no more sneakers shak! hahahha

we had pretzels after that and headed to bedok where i had to meet my darls.
NEW BUSES HAVE THE ODDEST SMELLS! THEY MAKE YOU GIDDY.

and it was raining, and we saw ivan working. HAHAHA. sorry ivan, we didnt drop by. you just didnt see us..hahaha..



then, went to get my few stuffs and had food at Tong Seng. ahhh, birdbird. i got myself a birdbird tee. haha. step cute. mazed through Bugis Street and i found the shop i wanted to buy my pants from. and it was actually the Sunday Shop. the shop i hear nizal and sarah and gang talk about. hehhehhh..okey, now i know whr...i think. hahaha..nad, as per usual, got herself studs. prettyyy....raider and me got ourselves this pretty glass pendant. now i have 2 glass pendants. is it a phase?? haha...



going home time, i saw Fairuz, my cousin. why am i bumping into my cousins??? mygod. is it a sign??? haaahaaaa.



i miss NAD, i miss RAIDER, i miss IDAYU, i miss MASITA.



tomorrow, i'm going to MacRitchie.
can i call someone to direct me there??? because i dont know how to go!!
i'm afraid of getting lost.
and worst, i'm going there alone.



OOOOH!
and M&S made a surprise call just now!!!
i'm now nomore jobless!! yeay. and its near too. =))
but, i now may be weekendless. knowing that i wont be free on weekends.
lets see how it goes.
all the best!


kenape lahhh orang suke nahhh belikan aku dan mak aku jam tangan???


kite niii...asek lambat kerrr????


tak kannnnn....kankankannn???


mahir told me it was better to not even do any.



fu lin told me to do the guys style.



hisham questioned me WHEN am i going to start. and that i should do swimming instead.



and asmida asked how it's going.



after she asked, i guess it is time to start the routine.



i've not been excercising since i dont know when lah. so its step by step for me, okay fu lin and mahir?? and, i cannot find the time to swim lah hisham. i dont have a swimming pool next door you know. and asmida, i just started today. it feels good.



i dont know why, when it comes to malay lesson, i tend to find myself doing something ELSE. like, last week, i drew a picture in my daily book, and today i scraped the aluminium foil off the strepsil's plastic thingy. but it was fun drawing, except i dont know what i was drawing. i was just plain drawing. not an art person.



i borrowed this book. its for 10years and above, it has large spacings and with pictures.
10 years and above, i'm only 7 years above 10. so i'm eligible.
the book, is interesting. lemme just let you read the summary of it. and you can go find out what its about.

"She wished something would happen.
Something good.
To her.
Looking at the bright fuzzy picturein the magazine, she thought, something like that.
Checking her wish for loopholes, she found one.
Hoping it wasn't too late, she thought the word
SOON."

"She was thinking that the grass really could be greener on the other side of the fence. It depended on who was standing in the grass. Maybe you had to go take a look."
- Crisscross, Lynne Rae Perkins



this song is funneh.[asmida's style haha]
reminds me of nizal, shak, meijuan, asmida, nadee and some other crazy people.
i can imagine asmida and nadee jumping around holding out a 'peace' sign. hahahahaha.




Grace Kelly - Mika

I wana to talk to you.

The last time we talked Mr. Smith you reduced me to tears.

I promise you it won’t happen again.

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I’m a little bit shy
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you walk out the door!

Getting angry doesn’t solve anything

How can I help it?
How can I help it?
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don’t you like me?

Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on the shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want ..should want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you walk out the door!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you like me?
Why don’t you walk out the door!

Ooooooo, oo,oo, ooooooooooooooooohhya

[i like this part]
Humphrey we’re leaving

kachingA!



eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i scratched my leg, and a few minutes later, it felt funny so i scratched it and then it hit me, that my leg ws feeling wet. and the next thing, i saw blood on my fingers. eek eek eek.


OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH



I THINK MY 2ND BROTHER HAS A GIRLFRIEND!



there goes my once in awhile allowance. boo.



but it reminded me of one time jeff, aizat and i cant remember who....talked about siblings having a partner.



yes, it sounds pretty disgusting. i never hear my 2nd brother giggle before ever in my entire 17years of life. lets make a start.


SHAK! APSAL LAH KITE NYE NASEB MCM SELALU SAMER GITU HUHHH...oooh brother!


i keep going to back to postsecret.blogspot.com eversince hisham introduced me to it.




people always have a secret. if not one, tons. correct?

so i'm not alone. phew.

anyway, the orientation today was pretty much, a blast.
a) i didn't know many would actually turn up since we couldnt really call up many and many didnt respond. who is 'many'??
b) in all the activities, everyone participated! even if they dont know anyone. impromptu, random, whatever lah. and to me, it was rancak. as in there wasn't any pause or whatever. except when the activity go on a bit draggy. hahaha.
c) kudos to asmida nizal diah and everyone else!
d) i managed to drag my darling cousin in. huahuahua.

and we can use the room again too! but, we have to meet the time limit. 5.30 SHARP. i could hear mr tan spitting stuffs out. he needs to go home too.



so anyway, we had a meeting for camp. yeayyyy. we're going to have a camp. the commitee's all set and now, its time to set the camp. epain is weird. not AJ weird. but just, weird. alah, he's trying to be nice lah. dah, shuddup. due to stupid project. [kay people, epain likes to disturb me. and today, because he saw me sick, he gave me a sweet. just being nice? correct. nooottthinggg at all. herlamak! aiyoyo. people, dont get the wrong idea pleaseeeee!]


i love watching puddles being run through by vehicles. i love watching the wave made. i like to play with puddles. can anyone don't be afraid of them?? its just rain water on the floor. when its raining, the best part is getting wet. WET. RAIN = WET.


and sometimes(all the time), to avoid eyecontact, i look at people's shoes.
some are cute.
some are smart.
some are cool.
some are weird.
some are pretty.
i dont know if i do it too, but whenever i see people wearing heels, i tend to go 'why is her heel slanted??' haha. kay, i may be a victim too.



i was walking up the stairs.
and i keep seeing shadows.
this time, i thought 'my mind is playing tricks on me', but...
i saw my cousin right at my doorstep!
haha....
tak pernah2 die datang.....
i thought it was rahim, but then, why would rahim come? and i realise it was rahman. they're twins by the way.
then we had a simple blank talk. about phones, about SP, about..pretty much, nothing.
and i took 2 forms to fill before the the last one(3rd) was perfect.
i also took 3 tries to photocopy a nice document, but this time, the 1st one was the most perfect.



haaahaaaaaaa...
i miss my cousins.
i miss have kenduri-s at granny's and almost all the cucu-s will come and gather and the makcik-s and pakcik-s will be busy getting the place ready for the religious night class.
i miss doing my homework at granny's.
i miss my pakcik erasing me my work just because my handwriting was untidy.
i miss my makcik shouting from the doorstep to the kitchen just for 2 glasses or a plate.
i miss when my grandparents were all healthy.
now they're just plain old and sickly.=((




i was late today for class
and i bumped into my pakcik at concourse.
i dragged my younger cousin into SSP.
i met my older twin cousin at my doorstep.



and by being late,
i missed the train shak was in

ade hikmah nye disebalik kejadian itu.
if i wasn't late, i'll never bump into my favourite uncle.

i miss staying over at my cousins'.
i missed that opportunity last holiday.
coz of work and school stuff. =/



AHHHHHHH.
i miss my cousins.


I'M GETTING HOOKED WITH THE NIZAL'S CAPITAL LETTER DISEASE!!!!!!!!




I'M CHATTING WITH MY LONG LOST FRIEND WITH CAPITAL LETTERS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSYNESS.



k, stop.



i skipped first class today, CECON practical. because im sick and during the practical, there's alot of dust and minute thingies in the air and stuff like thattt...k shh.



anywayyy, asmida was given a task:

design a flyer, photocopy it and pass it all around.


and i bet she was messaging EVERYBODY like mad...ahahahhaha....k lah, i don't know what mad is to her coz she's always pretty near to mad already...HAHA...k kidding..(k dejavu now)


me and shak were tasked to give out flyers all over FC1.

YANG BINGUNG NYE, kite TAK NAMPAK SATU BANGSE MELAYU PON KAT DALAM TU TEMPAT MAKAN! wthhhh. serious seh. so, shak managed to give away 5 flyers and i only managed to give out ONE. ONEEE.


wth.


yang tak senang nye, aku perasan si budak yang aku selalu tak tau macam mane boleh terserempak dengan tu ade kat situu, pastu, die BOLEH TOLEH tengok kite!! wth. macam nak tampar. most probably he's in yr 2, and from SPSU. one of the mr SP ah..sheeeeshhhh.



BUT ATLAST(WOOPS), we get to give it away to my oh so sayang sekali sampai telinge nk berdarah cousin and some other freshies we saw at sports hall. hahahaha.


tanak ah jumpe si mr SP yang tak menjadi tu lagik. nk tampar sey. MENYAMPAH.


k people




THIS SATURDAY, 28th April 2007, there will be a production at NP. tickets cost $8 and its abouttt, alah, you go and see better. i've reserved 4 tickets. so if you wanna go, tell me.



AND



on the 1st JUNE 2007, there'll be a production at TAMPINES JC. called Manifestasi. tickets, 199999999999 US DOLLARS. haaahaaa, like KIDDINGGG. i have no idea how much lah. about what? you go and see. tht's what movies, performances and productions are all abouttt. right??




haaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaa.



kay, kau-orang kau-orang yang bertuah-bertuah ni semueeee, PERGI TAUUU. aku da bilang ni....



biler aku tak bilang, marah komplen tak abes2! haiyooo...


people, people...





Not looking for a reason, not trying to understand
Not trying to catch your eye, not trying to touch your hand
Not trying to show you part of me no one else can find
But I will bring a song to you, who will buy my time?

Not looking for a reason, not trying to understand
Not trying to catch your eye, not trying to touch your hand
Not trying to show you part of me no one else can find
But I will bring a song to you, who will buy my time?

The people get philosophical and say there is no future
I am trying to tear myself away from your eye
The people get philosophical and say there is no future
Nothing is as blinding as your eye

Not watching the seasons, watching days flow by
No quenchless autumn breezes, late tomorrow skies
Are you frightened by the moment? i softly lie
Where i thought i would always be, i let myself get by

The people get philosophical and say there is no future
I am trying to tear myself away from your eye
The people get philosophical and say there is no future
Nothing is as blinding as your eye

The people
Get by

Not looking for an ending to make the pieces fit
Need is always pending on how much you can get
How much you can get

Ooh,oh.oh...Aaaah.

The people get philosophical and say there is no future
I am trying to tear myself away from your eye
The people get philosophical and say there is no future
Nothing is as blinding as your eye


The people
Get by

Where are you now?


makk kauuu...lembab nyerrr!!!!!!!!!!!




















TOOOOLLLLLLLLLOOOONNNGGGG!!!!!!


i made a promise to myself yesterday



that i'll do



10 push ups and 100 jump ropes



a day.



i have to break it for a few days. coz i'm sick.



10 PUSH UPS AND 100 JUMP ROPES A DAY!



please remind me anyone.=)))))))


first of all, i'd like to make a thank you speech.


thanks to:

SHAKINAH
ICE-CREAM
FRIED FOOD
SHARED FOOD
SPICY FOOD
MEI JUAN
and
COLD DRINKS


now, i am

SICK!


thank you so much for testing my immunity.

now i know i'm like everyone else.


yesterday was the day i knew i was about to get sick.

AND TODAY EVERYTHING IS ANSWERED.


yeahhhhhh....


tu lah, mintak yang bukan-bukan kann....

kan da jadi....

pastu da takle enjoy.

KAN KAN KANNNN!




pardon me if i sound sooooooooooooooo excited for getting sick.
because i rarely get the opportunity to do so.


hahahhahhhahahahahhaahahahhhahahaha.......


i woke up with a sore throat which feels like sandpaper. i thiink i've been talking during my sleep aka, mengigau-ing....because i woke up a few times i realise i was making noises. OH SHIT. nooo.....sheesh.


mom called(literally called) me to wake up for prayers but i cudnt....bleahs.
and when i really wake up, i headed for the bathroom for a shower.
i rarely do this.
heckheckheck.


KAY, i have an excuse for not doing things nowww....


oh, and i taught my little brother how to fry and egg. kinda pissed me coz he couldnt flip the egg. takperrr...step by steppp......


KAY. time to sleep.

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.


1st,


HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NURUL 'ASMIDA BINTE ITHNIN!

i didnt sit infront of you, so i couldn't see the look on your face while you opened my present. the first few wraps were interesting, but come to the last few, it got boring coz i 'ilham came after the inside wraps.

SO ANWAY, i hope you feel great today now that you're legal to do almost everything! i don't remember you as FGN, instead, i'm always reminded of you as a batu kerikil. that was when we first got close. and the significant thing about batu kerikils and you is that, a stoned look dont mean a stoned person. correct?? heheh. you've asked me for a candle before for mytrip to KL but i never gave you any so i decided to pay what i owed. that sounds wrong dont it? hmm...now i realise, it is very difficult to see you blush...usually, when people open my present(wrapped alot) they'll say alot of stuff, but you were calm and concentrated..AND you're very smart. you managed to pick the correct two straws from my mindteaser. it took 3hours for a drunk person to solve that okay...and that was the fastest. hehehhh. you've stepped into my life and changed the way i look at girls from girls school. serious. i always thought girls from girls' school will be too used to girls, they feel kekok with boys. hahah. you've proved me very wrong. instead, you always took the first step. and you are seriously very kecohhhh. don't change that part of you. because its you. =)





but i feel bad.




there's a few reasons why i kinda pull myself away from the whole clique. if you wanted to know. i bet everyone wants to know why i've been acting so hostile and isolated.


not that i dont like you people. no. you're one of the greatest bunch of manusias i've ever met. seriously. jeff, nizal, fuad are different from the guys i've met before i got into poly. and the cresent girls plus sarah are seriously the most outgoing girls with style. i envy you all you know.


but because i feel like i'm in the middle of things. between east and west, between poly and sec sch frens, between frens and family. and i dont know how to explain things to you at all. but, the part between frens n family tu i can explain. i know you all can go out as late as you want and stuff like that, and not that i cant but i have this very obnoxious strict brother who goes around calling me when i'm not home and he is. and the reason why i've now nearly stopped staying till late end with you guys is because i nearly got hit on one of the days. my brother nearly hit me lah kay. i'm sorry but sometimes, when i have to go, i have to go. fuad, you are totally different. how can you compare ME to YOU?! so what if we're staying in the east, YOU are a GUY, I AM A GIRL. unless you want a sex change...kay fuad? don't drag me along. i'm not a gunnysack. understand? you've always been one whom i try to avoid lah fuad. sorry to say lah fuad. kadang2, aku tak suke kau lah fuad. sorry ah fuad. aku mintak seribu ampun maaf ah fuad.
yang lain nye reason, its difficult to explain.



hey, but this dont mean i dont want to be with you guys. just that i cant stay late at all. i really love your company. you all are one of the greatest kecoh-est funniest quirkyest funbunch i've ever met. ( :



from injections to sorry to eating to living to dieing.
whats with epain[i'll stick to this spelling from now onwards coz it fits him well] and his why questions?????
hurrhurrr.




the song that reminds me of as.

Friday Night - Lily Allen

Ooooooooooo
Ooooooooooo

Friday night last orders at the pub,
Get in the car and drive to the club,
There's a massive crowd outside so we get in to the queue
It's quarter past 11 now we won't get in till quarter to.
It's quarter to and we get to the front,
Girl on a guest list dressed like a c***
She asked security to check in my shoes,
You can play this game with me but you know you're gonna lose.

[Hook]
Looked me up and down,
I don't make a sound,
There's a lesson that I want you to learn,
If you're gonna play with fire then you're gonna get burned,

[Chorus]
Don't try and test me cos you'll get reaction,
Another drink and I'm ready for action,
I don't know who you think you are,
But making people scared wont get you very far.

Ooooooooooooo
Ooooooooooooo

In the club make our way to the bar,
Good dancing love but you should of worn a bra.
Guy on the mike and he's making too much noise,
There's these girls in the corner wanting attention from the boys.
I see these girls and they're shouting through the crowd,
Don't understand why they're being really loud.
They make their way over to me,
They try to push me out the way,
I'll push her back, she looks at me and says,
What you tryna say?


[Hook]


[Chorus x2]


Oooooooooooooo
Oooooooooooooo


today boring lahhhh....


because the jaws was sick, so she couldn't threaten any victims.

ya lah, shak's sick, then, everytime she talks, she talks OHSO softly, i have to ask her to repeat..then, she's always sleeping....haiyaaa.....

and because she didn't feel like eating, i accompanied her to the library..when i told mahir that, he, victor and fu lin decided not to eat...SWEET KANN...haha...kite semue teman kan....i seriously thought they'll go eat and leave us but instead they followed...


SHAKINAH!!!! GET WELL NOW!!!!! NOT SOON!!!!!!!!



the malay enrichment class was quite interesting....there's only 17 people...oh! AND ASMIDA BLUSHED....hahahahha...merah padam seyy...hahahaha....the cikgu was going around asking people names and hmm, at my turn..


me: name saye Faridah. same course dengan die(pointing towards shak)
cikgu: oh, same course tapi lain kelas lah..
me: ah...eh, tak...same kelas pon...
cikgu: abeh ape yang lain?
me: -thinking- yang lain...orang nye..

hah hah....

the class was very interesting lah....malay right...we learnt about how to pronounce words and stuff...its EUver, not over....haha...asmida loves giving examples....kecohhh.....pastu kene tegur...terus merah padam....hahahha....=P


and another guy from DCSE is also in the class! the another only malay guy..in another class...haha...skrg kite da ade kawan baruuu.....and sarah introduced us to this guy, fadhuli[?]...he knows my cousin...the twins...haha....they are nice...hmmm........



haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....


tomorrow, BANGLA DAY!!!!

oh and did i mention this yesterday? no right...
I TRAVELLED THE WHOLE SCHOOL YESTERDAY.
from W5 to T20 and back to sports hall. we move in less than 10 minutes for each destination. like amazing race seh...padahal2...



i finish at 12 tomorrowww.......................................who wanna meet me up?


its been a looooong time since i put up lyrics. one fine day, i asked adam for a song and he sent me a whole lot..






Me Vs. The World - MADINA LAKE

Sometimes I try not to hate myself
For everything I never said
When you were here
And so I'm burning up photographs
Of what was a perfect past
'Cause I'm still here
But I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here

It's so hard that I try to bury it
Pretend that you didn't exist
So I can be strong
But I feel sick
And I feel diseased
'Cause everyone abandons me
And I can't move along
'Cause I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference
Between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
And I wish you were here

I can not pretend you didn't exist
Misery is just a state of mind
Hiding from the world's no way to live
So I'll convince myself that I'll be fine
I'll be fine
But since I lost you I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
Choking on the difference between
Me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt

So I look up to the stars
And wonder out loud
Why everything I had in life
Has fallen from my arms
Can you even hear this song?
I'm screaming at the clouds
Screaming to a galaxy
That never cared at all
That I need you here


EH! WHY SANJAYA GOT VOTED OUT?!! wth....he's good sia...


"but what's going on?"
that was what i saw on a person's hp screen...and he deleted the message right away.
he wore a wedding ring. something must be wrong...lets hope, it is nothing.




shit man.
ever since asmida told me her hand was shaking, my hand shook even harder. i have no idea why though. it happens all the time...can it be..that disease? P________? i dont rmbr the name.-5mins later- oh, its parkinsons..is it?




ahhh, today is officially called THE SCIENCE DAY.

due to the course i am in, i usually learn about physics and maths. both aren't really bio or chemy.-i'm hvg difficulty typing....- we had Evironmental Science and USOL, unraveling the secrets of life. kay, environmental science started off quite slow with the lecturer(a lady one) giving away the freebies(notes) and taking our attendance and telling us briefly what the whole module is about. thheenn, class started. first, she showed us a video. it was about brazil and its population and the slumps they live in. kinda interesting but it needs more volume. i barely could hear anything. then, she started with the notes. SHE TALKS SO BLOODY FAST LAHHH. and she kept saying, 'if you can't catch anything, just raise up your hand and i will slow down.' WDH. but its all about environment stuff so it was quite logical. then, it came to doing the tutorial. it was like a p4 kinda thing. fill in the blanks, multiple answer and multiple qns. it kinda woke me up. then, it was over.


at 1pm, i just i had to rush to the next class which was up the hill. out the room, I SAW ADAM!!! hahah...type mcm excited gitu..padahal2....anyway, yes, i saw him walking towards the block, plus i saw sufian behind..thing is i dont know if it was sufian or not. haha...walked like something chasing us from behind, we walked up the hill. it was seriously tiring...and i don't always walk that fast...up the hill in 5mins? its a record for me eversince i ran. hah. the class. omgod. the class...okay, the lecturer babbles alot. ALOT. and like, because the computer couldn't work for her, she even called the technical support to fix it there and then. SHE BABBLES. she used the ohp, the computer and the other projector...and she even showed and explained about the blackboard and stuff...like wth? we dont need to know that.....me, shak and sharifah kept teasing the lecturer..as in comment2....i was lost the whole lecture because it was mainly bio, and i had noo background about bio...oh, and there's this guy and girl who sat behind us...i thought the guy looked like a some gay lah...from the way he spoke..but, when i turned, he is actually good looking AND he was wearing HOT PINK....hmm.....so is he? sheesh. the class ended because the projector couldnt work.




lady lecturers. whats up with them?!
science is fun, but missed a whole lot of the fun stuff since secondary school. its all maths for me.


the booth was seriously mendak...hisham saved the me by treating me ice cream!! hahah...he's nice....and he's funny...but the way he talk is sleepy...kekek....but as, nisa and nad managed to pull a feeww people. we ate at fc3 and had some talk...saw ARSHAD there.. whoaa...i wonder what was he doing in my school...and i saw some girl talking to him oh so cheerfully...haha...hmmm....alah, pass it. he's gone. we walked to fc5, shak left for mls and we headed to bukit gombak for some laser! alah, fun lah..the girls screamed and shout while the boys boo-ed and jerked. it was fun for me to sneakysneaky shoot nizal from top, but afiq kept shooting me right into my face. wani told me to go the other side, and i fell. and SHE FELL RIGHT ON TOP OF ME!! hahahahahah....klakar seh...haha....the experience was seriously FUN!!! and i want to go againnn...haha.....one day go again...bring my idunowheretheyare friends there.




i left for home after that. didn't join them for dinner at bukit batok...it was a loooong journey...i notice a man who thinks he's perfect, a girl who held her instrument on her lap and hit the man and a sleepy lady who keeps landing on the girl. i saw two little kids and i envy how close they are. i envy how the boy dont need to be called by the mom and how he teases his little sister and makes her quiet. in short, i envy close siblings. because i know, i don't have anyone close enough for me to share anything. i want my kids to be just like them. obedient and with a bond.




sorry lah....aku tau aku selalu buat hal...lain kali cakap banyak2 k. puaskan hati k. i dont mind.


ivan requested for this:


yes ah, FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.


it actually went well, except for a few grandmothers out there who couldn't wake up to take their granddaughters to school. so bad right?!! atlast, shak n i were late. what only. but! this i have to say, never in my days to school have i bumped into a chicken. who else, NADEE lah!!! wah, her hair was really straight and some said it looked like a bowl! haha...no lah...anyway, it was real nice to bump into you nad! hehehehehehehehhhhhh. and i was on the platform from 710 onwards waiting for shak. we took the 740 train. IMAGINE THAT! class starts at EIGHT lah. NOT NINE! aiyoyoyo...but it's okay, because confirm, for the 1st hour, the lecturer blabbed about rules and regulations and stuff like that, so yeah. fu lin sent me a text message saying that he was even EARLIER than we were! wow. good example ya fu lin! way to go! haha. oh, n i also saw salman at the staircase of the bustop. hah. anyway, 1st up, engineering maths 2! wowwww, probability..............shit, my amaths skills n knowledge has gone into the 'not-been-used' file for so long, it's all dusty. in my head that is. wah.....but, we're still learning the basics and doing catching up, AND the class ended BEFORE we expected BUT right on time. get what i mean? means time flew fast. next was Hydraulics. i have this feeling this lecturer is our past lecturer's sibling. haha....same surname and features....so....yeah...realised ALOT of people have failed this module so he WARNED us to study and pay attention. i can tell it is going to be difficult, because it is ALLL about physics. shithole. he said "what did he say?"...hahah...whad d hell....anyway, break time i bumped into my cousin....WAHHH it's only the first day of school, and they already have a clique.....hmm....we spent break time in the library.....hoping to read the book but end up talking...thats the best part. haha. Structural analysis was seriously boringggg...justlike STRUCTMECH mann...same lecturer too. sheeeeeeeeeesh...how am i going to survive this module, i have nooo idea....shit ass....we were soo eager to end the class, we did everything she told us to do! but still, we finished when class ended, so no big deal...OH, and there;s this VERY wild girl in my buddy class..last sem, she came to class with BLONDE highlights, NOW!! guess the colour....WAHHH, like a rainbow siaa...RED YELLOW GREEN! good thing there isnt any blue...hahaha...and i couldnt stop looking at her tremendous hair colour just now while she sat beside me..wahhh......so agressive sia the colour! after that, me and shak walked past erm, sports hall with all the cca booths...bumped into the bear....after that, at FC5, bumped into Faris but he didn't notice me...met nisy and aisyah and their friends....had to leave early becoz mom called telling me lil bro was home alone....took a bounce train....in the train, bumped into Amal!! never imagined this would happened...hahahahah



okay ivan, i translate directly only my main body of yesterday's blog ya....hahahah

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DAY 2!!


i hate lady lecturers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they are sooo booorrrinngg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
serious.

today is COCK UP DAY! yeay. two class ended up cancelled because the software wasn't installed properly. both taught by lady lecturers...but the 2nd one, she just have to make us stay...haaiiiiii.....

i nearly fell asleep during CADD lecture today....omygod. i just couldnt open my eyes..and 15 mins power nap kinda helped..KINDA...and i have to buy a textbook for this module...shit...the notes were not notes AT ALL...it was like, a CONTENT page for the book! what the hell. and since i didn't pay attention, i missed out on ALOT of stuff. after the 15 mins break, i ended up plugging soft music into my head to entertain the other part of my brain. and no, the book is not cheap BUT it's a year long module. so good investment? maybe. another boring module to cover and pass. errghhhh. the practical was cancelled...oh goodie.

CECON! is all about DESTRUCTION bebehhhhh...yeah bebehhh....what we built last year, is what we are going to DESTROY this year...step. by. step. huahuahua! an hour of practical was actually not a class at all. shak and i reached there at around 830...WHEN class starts at 8....hah...and the class stiiillll have yet to start....wahhh....destrooyyyyyyyy....oooooohh..



struct-anal pract was dragged...but she ended up cancelling the class....lady lecturer...hurh.



shit. there wont be ANY break tomorrow AT ALL in between classes. and from t7 to t20?! crazy mann...the classes are so far apart...shit......PLUS NO BREAK. bleargh.


-msg-
SINGAs!! mai suro tolong tarik orang masok ssp kat cca booth. TOLONGlahhh...besok, wednesday....take your time...30mins, 1hour..up to you....how????


tunggu punye tunggu, atlast selalu ditunda-tunda. bongok pey orang.



might as well i ask the story from nisy or aisy sey. bile tanye, 'later, when you go online, i tell' or, 'wait eh, i'm doing blablabla' and 'da malam lah, besok aje lah'.. sheesh. tak suke seh gitu macam. buat orang tunggu je, tapi da nampak sah dektu tanak share story. da ah, malas mau lain ni macam orang. hmph



yessahh, FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.



it actually went well. except for a few neneks out there who couldn't wake up to bring their cucu to school. ish. tak baik kannn. atlast, me n shak lambat. APADA! but! this i have to say, tak pernah2 aku pergi sekolah, terserempak dgn si ayam. siape lagi, NADEE lah!!! wah, rambut straight giler seh...as commented 'macam mangkok!'..haha..tak lah...anyway, it was real nice to bump into you nad! hehhhhhehhhhh. and i was on the platform from 710 onwards waiting for shak. we took the 740 train. IMAGINE THAT! class starts at EIGHT lah. NOT NINE! aiyoyoyo..tapi takpe, confirm, for the 1st hour, the lecturer blabbed about rules and regulations of class and stuff like that, so yeah. fu lin sent me a text msg saying that he was even EARLIER than we were! wow. good example ya fu lin! way to go! haha. oh, n terserempak salman at the bustop/staircase tingy. hah. anyway, 1st up, engineering maths 2! wowwww, probability..........shit, my amaths skills n knowledge has gone to the 'not-been-used' file for so long, it's all dusty. in my head that is. wah...but, we're still learning the basics and catching up, AND the class ended BEFORE we expected BUT right on time. get what i mean? means time flew fast. next was Hydraulics. i have this feeling this lecturer is our past lecturer's sibling. haha..same surname and looks...so...yeah...realised ALOT of people have failed this module so he WARNED us to study and pay attention. i can tell it is going to be difficult, because it is ALLL about physics. shithole. he said "i can recommend you, if you dont study, you will fail." like, wTH! kayyy. fineee. we study okay...OH and he has this very THICK cheena accent..shak nI kept going "what did he say?"..haha..whad d hell....anyway, break time i bumped into my cousin...WAHH baru 1st day, da ade mcm clique gitu ahhh....hmmm....spent it in the library....hoping to read the book but end up talking...thats the best part. haha. Structural analysis was seriously boringggg...just like STRUC MECH mann..same lecturer too. sheeeeeeeeeeeesh...how am i going to survive this module, i have nooo idea...shit ass...we were soo eager to end the class, we did everything she told us to do! but still, we finished when class ended, so no big deal...OH, and there's this VERY wild girl in my buddy class..last sem, she came to class with BLONDE highlights, NOW!! guess the colour....WAHHH, macam itu rainnboww ah..RED YELLO GREEN! naseb takde blue...hahahaha...and i couldnt stop looking at her tremendous hair colour just now while she sat beside me...mak kauuuu...tanak kalah seh kaler..after that, me n shak walked past erm, sports hall with all the cca booths...terserempak dgn si bear, den kat FC5, terserempak dengan si Faris, tapiii die tak nampak aku pulak eh....takper...den met nisy, aisy, and friends...had to leave early coz mom called telling me lil bro was at home all alone...took a bounce train...haha..dalam train, terserempak dengan si Amal pulakkk....tak tersangke-sangke sehhh....


hari ini, aku terserempak dengan raaaaaamaaaaaaai orang,
nadee, salman, hadi, jeff(ni da mmg selalu), faris, amal.
yang tak terserempak, si adam. hmmmm....




ahahahahaahahahahaaahahahhaahahahhaahhaah


wahhhh,


best nye FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!


you must be happy of everything you get!




do you know that safe feeling?
that comfortable feeling...
when you know your friends did well,
or your parents are walking strong and steady.


do you know that feeling?



well, i did. just now.




aahhhh, today was fun!!!!


it started out pretty slow, with late comers(as usual) and people we didnt really want to see and then, the music started and happiness was all around. cheydebah, bebual..mcm org mane tah.


okay lah......


like i said, it didn really started out with the BOOM. lame people and games, seriously. mendak giler. dah tau nak gi beach, tak bawak tikar and food and expect the guest. hurh. but after we left the whole group, the BOOM popped out. the SKYRIDE. everyone must go. especially those afraid of heights. its not rollercoaster thrilling, so you wont really feel like falling. just that, maybe, your slippers or shoes get loose or maybe your bag falling. yeah. thats all. ahhh!!! screaming was the best part of that ride. because it lets out everything. I EVEN CRIED! kay, that was impromptu okay. but, hahah. the LUGE. MUST GO. not really a long journey, because of the scarce land singapore fact, but, you should go. its fast and ongoing. MUST GO YEAH. where is this all held? Sentosa lahhh, where else. stop going to the beaches. its boring.



then, we went to the shop and slacked there. silkpro worked, so a`bi and i went to get a drink. plus window shopped at vivo. i like visiting the batu kerikil and the npcc officer at work. heehee. window shopping is always the good thing, but when it comes to shopping, i hate it. hurh. had lunch at the shop and normal crazy fun there. chronicccc ah seyyy. hahahaaa...the kedai is like a picnic shop, with bread and different spreads provided. you should go there one day! hahaha..serious shit fun we had at that shop i will remember. good thing the owner wasnt there yet..or else, all the spreads gone. seriously SHIT fun! terberak-berak nye. confirm.



i headed home, figuring out what am i going to get for my friend for his gathering. his birthday today and i didn't really bought him anything since he really slipped out of my mind. i'm sorry! and since obviously, i'll be late, i didn't meet jose n lena. wrapping a hexagon is toughhhh...real toughhh...walked to HS's house, and there, i was welcomed by HS himself who sounded tired, and the pizza guy. ahhh, so nice to meet them all again! joseph, lena, JYSS!, jackson AND hong sheng. i came right on time since, the pizza came with me. haha..we watched some freak shows which made us stay glued to our seats. a french show(with subtitles) with has a lot of short people and people who push for a living, plus people who wear masks for a living. some freak shows lah...channel 44 if you guys have cable, called tvmonde. haha..and jackson showed us some mind boggling tricks and bryan showed some fish tricks..later i share with you people k! hehh...the jack trick makes people buy more drinks and it made him eat my part of the chocolate. URGHHH!! naughty jack!!! and we still cannot solve the fish trick. dumbdumb.



took a group pic and i headed home, while they went to simpang for some milo dinosaur. i wanted some but, nah, next time i'll go with the normal clique. WE GO DRINK MILO DINOSAUR OK?! -mj, wj, rai, hanna, raider, nadee, dayu, mas!!



hahaha.

didnt feel sad for going home early.

just...

safe.


i'm curious. i'm bloody curious.
i have a whole lot of questions in me yet to be answered.
i know there's a lie somewhere out there which i didn't even missed.
i know there's too much truth out there i keep missing.
i don't want to let go of these thoughts.
i hate sounding outdated.
i don't like seeing things going beyond my knowledge.
i regret not even talking.
i regret laughing all this while.
i hate not knowing.
but i dont know where to start.
i don't know to whom i should ask.




because i know, if i do, it will make things more awkward than it already is.










lie to me one more time. i beg you.














where is he. i need to talk to him.
i know i'm a nobody. let me be a somebody.





this time, you wont see me laughing generously.


happy birthday my sayang.


you were there when i was down, up, left and right. i hope you could read this but i know you dont even know how to get to this. i know i never ever say the special three words to you at all but you know how i feel. those three words are always especially meant for you. i'm so happy you love the gift i presented til you wore it the night of your day going out for a last minute eat-out. you don't know how far up i'm jumping. you don't know how i always keep thinking, will you like it? will you approve it? you have no idea. but, no matter how i hurt you, you know, we know, everyone knows it.


i love you mom.


this is the way i've been....



yadayadayada



school stays the same with the shortcut blocked. shit. now we'll all have to walk a longer route. the elevator's going to be jammed packed in the mornings. pasta stuffed me in the afternoon. the walk to business block helped a bit. bowling session sucked for me. didn't even 'passed' the 1st game. atleast i did better the 2nd round. it was fun. next time, the bowling ball has to be loved. i envy my lil brother for doing it so easily. cake at secret recipe's just stuffed me so full, i could barely walk straight. what's with me these days with food?! i feel full so fast. thats not good isn't it?



"keeping mum is the best thing to do" - namira's blog.
i agree with you. which is why usually, i laugh. don't be too serious mira, ok? =)



did a little confession cum counselling thing with joseph lately, well, yesterday more accurately. he's begining to actually share his never heard problems while i'm just being the curious, need-to-know-more me. being disappointed is not the way to live but i keep disappointing people. atlast, i know what my close friend now thinks. he has been observing me since secondary school, and now, i think he knows me more than me. when it comes to many things. even family.


now, he wants me to stop thinking what i'm been having in my mind all this while and just return any favour. towards anyone. he regreted some things and he dont want any other person to go through the same thing.


now i know why i prefer friends to attached. or anything close. because i'll distant myself from anyone close.


and he didnt reply my last message.


anyway, its just not easy to lead a carefree life. ihavemyrestrictions.







Oh, this road is long, this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing bound in thought you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things but not all of them came true.

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

And I know a man who lost his wife,
This is the way he chooses to describe his life,
He says, "If I think too much, I find there's just a hole,"
But before she went, she left a son,
He says, "Dad, you're not the only one,
Maybe love is just a requiem for the soul..."

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

Oh, do you still feel small?
Just a speck of life on an ocean wave,
Does it pull us all?
Does it pull us all?

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe,
No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.


shit. i can't tag at everyone's cbox and i can't go eljay. stupid 403 forbidden error. any advice?
mine even. i prefer tagboard mann.



school starts NEXT WEEK. monday. hoorah.
i have gatherings lined up till saturday.
and i've done nothing for the new school term.
same route to school, same transport, same time gaugement[such word?] AND with, most probably, the same oh so lovely person, INAH.
its funny how sometimes we, without planning, wear the same colour, and, without planning, take the same train.
i need to get my concession now. nownownow.



fetched my lil bro from bowling. sad to say, HE BOWLS BETTER THAN I DO!
i want a bowling session. :(
raider is still out there fishing with my bike! raiiiderrrr~



long train rides. here i come.





Ordinary Day - Dolores O'riordan

This is just an ordinary day
Wipe the insecurities away
I can see that the darkness will erode
Looking out the corner of my eye
I can see that the sunshine will explode
Far across the desert in the sky

Beautiful girl
Won't you be my inspiration?
Beautiful girl
Don't you throw your love around
What in the world, what in the world
Could ever come between us?
Beautiful girl, beautiful girl
I'll never let you down
Won't let you down

This is the beginning of your day
Life is more intricate than it seems
Always be yourself along the way
Living through the spirit of your dreams

Beautiful girl
Won't you be my inspiration?
Beautiful girl
Don't you throw your love around
What in the world, what in the world
Could ever come between us?
Beautiful girl, beautiful girl
I'll never let you down
Won't let you down
Down, down...


I GOT TO SEE THE SYF MALAY DANCE -TRADITIONAL COMPETITION JUST NOWWW!!!


a day in school brings back memories. lots of them.


bedok green secondary school. how fun it was during those days in school. i mean, with the similar schoolmates and teachers and environment. now, with all those changes, i dont believe i was in the same school. the p.e tshirt has changed, there's an extra stage beside the basketball court, there's paintings and artworks everywhere, there's even an extra made up stall which i don't remember opening. there're new storage spaces for teachers and for those outside the labs and there are curtains in the classrooms! where were those things when we needed them the most?! and, the vice principal has changed, the teachers too, the students..omg, the student. you know, one of the dancer's head reached my arm only and he(yes he) is sec 3! and he reminds me of my grandfather! he has that skinny looking face that looks so sweet when he smiles. like my grandpa. was kind of shocked to hear there were 7 guy dancers in the team because, in my days, all the guys have this mentality that dancing is gay. -roll eyes- but i like guy dancers, because, i find some of them cute. haha. but the dance now is pretty good. it's a fun dance so you dont really get to see much mistake but, i'm afraid this dance won't be one of those silver/gold ones because mr Osman had used the same song from the Jie Min kid's dance. i really have this big humongous[?] feeling that people are going to compare this dance to that dance. what more the students doing it are in a different age group! if they dont pull this off, i dont know what will. the dancers have to report at 6/SIX in the MORNING. (i see jaws open...) we seniors are going to meet at six. SIX! that's when my dad wakes up! and he's the first to wake up! my god. help. and, they're going to do their prayers in school. woohoo! this will be the first. i dont think i will be praying there though. don't feel right to walk out of the house in the morning without morning prayers done.



anyway, dinner just now with izza, kamilia(i remembered her name then, when i've been spending half the day with her..!!) and raider was just sweet. too bad idayu couldn't make it. boo. izza has loads of funny videos in her hp!! one of them is this cute one called 'Enjit-Enjit Semut'. i remember chanting this song with nadiah on a wednesday when we went jobsearching together. and this song reminds me of nanyang poly's production too. the guy with the afro.....(:







playing with hair and make up tomorrow!
waking up at 5am tomorrow!
seeing them go for SYF tomorrow!
eating in school tomorrow!
seeing old teachers tomorrow!
fun fun fun tomorrow!


kay, time to sleep.
zzzzzz.


mom and i have been talking after our morning prayers.



one of the topic was about my nephew.



she was wondering what happened during sis-IL's pregnancy that had effect on it. well, its true that sometimes, while you're pregnant, some of the things you do will have effect on your baby if you don't remember about it. mom gave a whole bunch of examples like, her friend, someone from kelantan and whoever else. her friend had a craving for siput sedut, and the outcome, her baby didn't have, literally speaking, an asshole. all the tubes and everything was functioning, except for the hole. so doctor had to dig a hole for him. the person from kelantan went fishing one day and, instead of catching fishes, he caught a turtle. he didnt let go of the turtle, instead, he smashed the turtle and when he reached home, his wife gave birth. weird thing is, the baby came out like a ball, like a turtles egg. the bidan had to press out the arms and legs and head of the baby, and it looked exactly like a turtle. another person was, she craved for crabs. and, well, her baby [edit] turned out to walk like one. had only the thumb and the pinky finger left because the crab she ate had 3 fingers missing. the weird thing is, the baby had stumbs that looked like it was barbecued. [/edit]


these are not fairy tales or whatever and while talking about it, my mom figured out that my nephew is like a jackfruit. miripnya sperti buah cempedak.


if you're thinking my nephew looks like a jackfruit, please, dont go there.

the jackfruit: before it is ripe, the fruit will be taken down.
the baby: before the actual day he was suppose to be born, he was taken out, c-section.


the jackfruit: after it has been taken down, the little wood on the fruit will shrink. that little stump helps to transport food from the tree to the food.
the baby: the tube that helps to transport food and whatever else from the mom to the baby had shrunk. thus, the baby kinda shrunk instead of growing big.


the jackfruit: when its left away from the tree, it'll shrink.
the baby: left on his own, he shrunk.

why the jackfruit? because, at 6months, the baby was okay and at 6 months, my brother had plucked a jackfruit. and after 6 months the problem developed.


maybe we're just thinking too much but my mother and i have been linking things and it all falls nicely together. plus, mj did some linking but i can't remember what her link was. the strength of the Almighty is unbelievable, don't you think?


my mom advised to always remeber that you/your wife is pregnant. or bad things can happen.


we all know we can believe in superstitions and that life works in mysterious ways.


another piece of me written down....





days at home with full of sleep makes a person much more tired than what the whole sleeping thing is about. it will only make your head hurt more. plus a few nightmares here and there.


i miss talking on the phone with mei juan. impromptu[??] speaking, she asked me out for a wedding. i'm stunned. and, she's popular among the kids. whooheee. speaking of someone who promised never to like kids, its pretty ironic. talking about long time no see friends, i can't wait to meet those in bgss. i miss the school itself, frankly speaking. and i heard some teachers are out of the school already. can't wait. syf malay dance this tuesday! i'm excited but too bad i cant watch the show. seniors helping out? haha..reminds me of ssp.


nad's coming home today! yeay. i miss her. meeting raider & dayu on tmr! i miss them too. school's starting in a week! i miss it alot.







another piece of me written down....




i cried in my sleep again.












=(











hisham said this during camp:

"happy thoughts. happy thoughts. Think happy thoughts."


another piece of me written down....




the camp was great. the activities was good, the food was great, the people too.




but, i just wasn't there.




maybe i've been missing alot eh? but i lost my mood for camp a few minutes after i arrived there. i'm sorry to every single one. because i could see from faces that you think i've got a problem. sometimes i tend to undur without warning.




lets start a thank you speech lah kay.




i wanna congratulate Red Boom for their effort. one day, they were apart, the next they were a part of the team but the day after, only 2 survived. i'm still stunned because the skit storyline was changed. nisy, hadi and hanaa, good job!=)




and to logi and games. it's been fun. hisham, zahier, taufik, ahmad, raudha, abd. hadi and nazif. i thought zahier was a quiet type of guy, but turns out wrong. hisham's cute(as in funny). looks just like my cousin. crickets, cooking stove, masking tape, ketchup, egg yolk and mealworms. eee.



the freshies were great. had fun bonding with them. even promoted SSP to them. Shakirah confirmed she wants to join. the others, we'll see how things go. ooo, some freshies're cute. haha. but i can't carry(direct translation lah) the part hafiz(the acTOR) ran from one point to another during the nightwalk. sheesh. zurin was sporting though. hooray for freshies.




my eating buddies, nisy, aisyahbi, al and hanaa, were great. didn't know hanaa was that chatty and al is surely the tricky one. suke nah curi hp org..tak baiiikkk. nisy & syahb eh...very d nonsense eh. thanks eh. hah. silkpro, happy working! gerek lah korg.




and the rest, very spontaneous. efin tak habis2 dgn..eee...nvrmind...sorry, i'm not gf material. as eh...sampai cockroach pon nak kejar...pe saje...zack & fahmi were very cheeky. jarang nampak fahmi bebual...shak!! kite dpt masok same class. yeayyy. wahhahahah. mira, sarah, wani were very chatty...falina paling cute...didn't know mls people were sooooooooo talented..keke...




yet another year for MLS! semoga maju all the way!




and my cousin just went for camp today. he looks bloody different now. i dont know what happened. emo hair, black shirt. has he turned emo?! please...no....heard from hamizan, he's called "HaHa" since the other malay guy also has the same name as him. the other guy is called "DiDi". so go figure what their names are. and, si mate keranjang has gotten his target. gotta save the victim. please.


another piece of me written down....



i'm watching Nightmare Before Christmas now and its soo cute!


i love the songs....


this will entertain you all for 5 days yeap. i'll be in camp.


see ya and enjoy!





Kidnap The Sandy Claws

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Kidnap Mr. Sandy Claws

[LOCK]
I wanna do it

[BARREL]
Let's draw straws

[SHOCK]
Jack said we should work together
Three of a kind

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Birds of a feather
Now and forever
Wheeee

La, la, la, la, la

Kidnap the Sandy Claws, lock him up real tight
Throw away the key and then
Turn off all the lights

[SHOCK]
First, we're going to set some bait
Inside a nasty trap and wait
When he comes a-sniffing we will
Snap the trap and close the gate

[LOCK]
Wait! I've got a better plan
To catch this big red lobster man
Let's pop him in a boiling pot
And when he's done we'll butter him up

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Kidnap the Sandy Claws
Throw him in a box
Bury him for ninety years
Then see if he talks

[SHOCK]
Then Mr. Oogie Boogie man
Can take the whole thing over then
He'll be so pleased, I do declare
That he will cook him rare

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Wheeee!

[LOCK]
I say that we take a cannon
Aim it at his door and then
Knock three times and when he anwers
Sandy Claws will be no more

[SHCOK]
You're so stupid, think now
If we blow him up into smithereens
We may lose some pieces
And the Jack will beat us black and green

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Kidnap the Sandy Claws
Tie him in a bag
Throw him in the ocean
Then see if he is sad

[LOCK & SHOCK]
Because Mr. Oogie Boogie is the meanest guy around
If I were on his Boogie list, I'd get out of town

[BARREL]
He'll be so pleased by our success
That he'll reward us too, I bet

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Perhaps he'll make his special brew
Of snake and spider stew
Ummm!

We're his little henchmen
And we take our job with pride
We do our best to please him
And stay on his good side

[SHOCK]
I wish my cohorts weren't so dumb

[BARREL]
I'm not the dumb one

[LOCK]
You're no fun

[SHOCK]
Shut up!

[LOCK]
Make me

[SHOCK]
I've got something, listen now
This one is real good, you'll see
We'll send a present to his door
Upon there'll be a note to read
Now, in the box we'll wait and hide

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Until his curiousity
Entices him to look inside
And then we'll have him
One, two, three

[LOCK, SHOCK & BARREL]
Kidnap the Sandy Claws, beat him with a stick
Lock him for ninety years, see what makes him tick

Kidnap the Sandy Claws, chop him into bits
Mr. Oogie Boogie is sure to get his kicks
Kidnap the Sandy Claws, see what we will see
Lock him in a cage and then throw away the key