Jot down interesting, memorable events in life
Think things out through words
To avoid the mental burden.





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another piece of me written down....



when i said it was not worth waiting for,
i was actually waiting for it.



a job actually.



but its just so funny, that i have applied so many YET none called.
even the one diah recommended.



isn't it even funny that the book i am now reading is about work. about vacation jobs.



but in the story, she gets the job very easily. very. veryveryvery.
she contacted different companies and one responded. ATLEAST ONE RESPONDED!
and she went to America. for the job. she's our age! just took her Alevels. not a singaporean, duh. a Brit.



now, at least she got herself a job. right?
and when the job didn't turn out good, she ran away from it.
she got herself ANOTHER job before she ran away!



but the trick is, she received another job offer while on the way to that job. ANOTHER JOB!
this time, a person she met recommended her.
AND she got it RIGHT AWAY! just four hours a day. its soo good.


i envy her.
i'm jealous.
okay, maybe because she's just finished school.
and she has a year to spend for a job.
and maybe also because she can act.



hurhur.


another piece of me written down....



it hit me just now that you tend to remember certain people when you're in a certain place.



what if you remember that person while you were in the toilet?



does that mean, the person is..


okay.
make ur own judgements.


another piece of me written down....




played around with emotions, clarity, voice projection and erm...this make-yourself-stand-still 'presentation'....



why i called the last one "make yourself stand still 'presentation' "?

becoz shamil spotted my flaw which he pointed out earlier on. when on stage or whatever, don't go wriggling your hands or whatever coz its distracting.


well..haha...i picked that habit while i was in secondary school...my friend said if we played with our hands during oral, it'll reduce stress or nervousness. HAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAA.



well, now i have to throw away that habit.



and, the emotions thing was actually good but becoz i was sitting in front of arep, the emotion flew away the minute i look at his face. next time, if you're in it coz you're forced to, please do it properly ah...ni buat muke...roll eyes lah, sulk lah...pikir secondary school kepe...kalau tak suke, jangan buat..ikot kawan2 yg tgh dudok kat sane tu hah....sheesh...even AJ could do better....



right...later on...we had dinner at Tong Seng...ahahah...i don't believe it lahh...nad n sham not together...coz they surely do look like one...but maybe they just don't have the specific date or whatsoever for it....specific date...hurh. noone does that anymore..things happen on its own...



oyah..the 'presentation' thing...now maybe i've got maybe better idea.....i didn't know what i was talking about yesterday...i was onto something and then, nothing...when u hear the word 'watch/jam' what doou think about? time, the physical object itself right? hahahahaha....well well well....



qoute from asmida's blog:


and the thing about looking different, to look unique
everyone's trying to achieve that look
so if everyone's trying to look different
even different becomes the same.
agree?


i totally agree. totally. very much. *high five*
hahahaha.


sometimes, different is the same, unique is common, difficult is simple.



lets not be too far ahead. lets just be around the present time. with the present friends. we're different not among the rest of the world, we're different among ourselves. because, God made us different, yet similar. don't you realise, that sometimes, we talk about the same problems? our actions tend to be similar? and our thoughts. maybe someone changes what they want to say because someone has just said what they were thinking, just so that they could sound different.


whatever's gonna happen, let it happen.
don't try to change the course.



kayyy, enough of thattt.


patchwork. i wanna do that. to what? pants? shirts?
its been a loong time since i saw someone with patchwork on their outfit...either that, or i'm blind.




i don't care coz all i want to do,
is cash my check and drive home to you.

coz baby all my life,
i'll be driving right home to you.

-still standing, Starworld-



do you remember when you were five years old?
all carefree and loved.
your parents cared for you like you were porcelain.
your siblings(if you had any) cared for you and daren't even put a finger on you.
you played in the playground, you were read books, you had all the toys you wanted.
remember when we were five years old?
remember Kids @ Work?
remember Barney?
remember mighty morphine power rangers?
remember making stickers? and that disgusting playdoh..(made me puke)
remember Little Lulu, akazukin chacha, polly pockets, doraemon, captain planet, magic school bus? (help me here)
remember your birthday parties?
do you remember your 1st birthday cake? (i don't, that's for sure)

when did your parents stop with the compliments and start with the complaints?
when did your father stopped carrying you around and stopped holing your hands?
when did you find out your siblings had better things to do instead of play with you?
when did all those fights started, and all those fun ended?



in five years time, i'll be finding my soulmate. i'll be wondering why i'm not with anyone or why i can't last long with anyone. i'll try to cross the Three-months barrier.

three months. that's all it takes.




5 tahun - Shanou

Sebelum aku dewasa
bersih putih tanpa noda
belum ada yang meracuni hati kalbuku
memanjakan aura

sekian lama meninggalkan
masa lalu yang aku rindukan

kuberharap dapatkah ku ulang lagi
masa lalu ku yang dulu
yang tak terlupakan untukku

walau kini takkan ku dapat ulang lagi
setelah lewatkan semua
mejalani hidup ini

usia lima tahun ku,
penuh canda dan tawa
tiada benci dan dendam,
penuh kasih dan sayang

setelah aku dewasa
ku dapatkan semua rasa
jalani hidup ini

sekian lama meninggalkan
masa lalu yang aku rindukan

kuberharap dapatkah ku ulang lagi
masa lalu ku yang dulu
yang tak terlupakan untukku

walau kini takkan ku dapat ulang lagi
setelah lewatkan semua
mejalani hidup ini

memang kini takku sesali
hidup ku sekarang ini hanya ini ku ulangi
sebentar saja ingin ku rasakan

kuberharap dapatkah ku ulang lagi
masa lalu ku yang dulu
yang tak terlupakan untukku

walau kini takkan ku dapat ulang lagi
setelah lewatkan semua
mejalani hidup ini

-i culdnt find the lyrics since i duno when so the lyrics here are made up.-


another piece of me written down....



waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh



kawan kite pergi London ahhhh....




tak bilang pulak tuuu....



berdua lagik....



hahaha...



anyway, today the meeting was short and sweet. not much ideas squeezed out from our brains. especially when most of them just started to know what the idea actually was.



and later, we walked around marina square, watched the danceworks and headed east. the danceworks were cool....i like the ninjas...hahaha...i wish i could dance like them..buuuttt, i hvnt even tried yet....



seems like most of the east-siders went today....apart from haddad & mai and AJ....there were shak, nisya, aisyahbi, aizat plus shamil.



after that, i thought of buying cakes buttt, decided not to....just bought snacks and continued watching the sinotrens....i've missed a whole week of it...and now i don't know what's happening...haaarrrhaaaaaaarrrr...



please send me the photos!! ahahahahha....



another sunday blooowwwnn awayyy.




diah, as, jeff plus nizal AND fuad all missed the meeting. so the first three were like, asking me what happened during the meeting...i bet u're surprised when i said the meeting was over already....ahhhaaaaa.....but the thing issss, they messaged me while i was sleeping...waaahhh....yaaa, nasib lah yang call tu bukan bile aku tgh tido...kalau tak, aku tak angkat seh...


we're using the other idea.....SHIT. k..anything, ask me. its better if you ask mai instead though...since, yaaaa....she's the chief.



daaaaaaaaa lamer seh aku tak jumper dgn budak2 east! den like, today, all came. waahhh...terharu....missed them lah...serious! and like, its been a looong time since i saw ALL of them...i bet the west-siders also wish they could meet them...rrriigghht???



nanti lah....kite buat satu perjanjian untuk bertemu....bile...aku tak tau lahhh...
East meets West. wahahahahhahahaha. plus north. and south.




wah.....i've just learnt how to download songs....
how virgin can i get?


Sendiri itu indah - Seurieus
Ternyata menjalin asmara
Tak sekedar bahasa
Agar terasa mesra
Ternyata di dalam bercinta
Aplikasi teori
Lebih dari logika
Tak tahu mengapa
Semua tak menduga

Reff :
Andai diriku ini
Tak harus ada dekat dirimu
Andai diriku ini
Tak harus tahu apa maumu
Ingin kembali ...

Ternyata diriku merasa
Bagaikan dipenjara
Dibelenggu rasa haru
Menangis tertawa
Berharap jadi gila

Back to : Reff(I)

Seperti dulu
Dikala aku masih sendiri

Back to : Reff, (I)


another piece of me written down....



ahahahahahahah.


saturdays have turned out to be family's day. all of a sudden.





anywayyy.

i practically spent more than 12 hours with this girl.


name: Nurul Asmida Bte Ithnin
age: 17
dob: 20th april 1989

(did i get the info right?)


and it turned out not to be a group's day out after all.



instead, it turned out to be a girl's day out.


but it was fun.



girl power! hehhehhhhh.


so anyway, met as at 930am at tiong bahru bustop. she was actually late but it didnt matter since the bus came late too.(maybe it usually came around that time, so its actually punctual? harrrharrr) there was this biker who didn't know how to avoid crashing us, so he VROOMVROOM-ed right beside us. terperanjat seh...met diahh at screenbox and her aunt led us to organic health's department..it was pretty exciting..until the interview. hahahahahahahahahahahaha. you know that company....the company which has just featured its new product...tmr, sunday, go watch SANTAI something and you'll know.....suspense je byk...the product's called Lustre...and they've just release a new product..and the interview was for two retail assistants....waahhh....i'm impressed....but...haha...i don't think i'll get it...i know noothinngg about health products, what more beauty products. blah. and the interviewer's from SP too. wahahaha...see where SPians go mannnn(qoute from asmida) haahahahahahha.


sooooo, we woke dear sarah up while we were at tiong bahru...ahahah...naseb sehhh...then, me n as go explore CTE....it was scorching hot while on the way there BUT the clouds shaded us while we were at CTE....so cool....lets al-fresco there...one day...boleh terbaring skalik...ahahaha...see-saws....terkenang zaman childhood aku dulu...ahahah...we waited for sarah at McD....and when she came, we told her about my interview...and the whole day she kept melatar-ing the same thing....the thing i told her about...mak kauuuu...haha...ade "bapak kau botak" lagiiiii...wahhh...sarah powerrr...hahha...went into almost all the shops in fareast...i've never done that before seh...and it seems, all the shops sell the same thing. all those dresses and pumps and peep-toe shoes....takde yg lain drpd yg lain seh...well, ade ah....and we got to see nisa as a doorgirl at hyatt. ARGH!! cik BABA!!! kate nk kasi farida keje doorgirl!! biler nk kasi?!! since last year SEYYY! aiyo...i really envy her...well, after that, we headed to wisma n taka...gosh...i'm really falling in love with white pants.....serious.....a day to search for white pants...wow...i want white slim fit jeans or straight cut pants....i hate white, i love black. but white pants..something new. lets try..heeeeheeheeeee. okeh...after that, we sat at starbucks for awhile....and later, we walked to plaza sing...nmpk nye tak tgk chingay lah kann...tapi, all the way there, we saw all the floats so...ya...same also lahh...asmida was crushed when she heard the real thing was tomorrow(today)....hmm...sat at B&J...now i'm having this very heaving craving for ice cream...i don't care if i'll be eating alone or whatever...ahahah....well...anyway, this is fun...we must have one outing again like this...not much spent with lots of laughter. =))




but sedih seyyy...the what do u call that...gif is it? anyway..yaa...that..got deleted in sarah's cam....alaaahaaiii....and it was funny seyyy...alaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....haha



the whole week, minus monday lah, i am/was out....ECP, town, pasir ris.....


went to town almost every single day.....wait...erm, wednesday....thursday...and friday....yeap...plus sunday....waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.....







and no calls at all sey. sedey man.






will my holidays go BYEBYE? please dont....




oyah..n i called that man...d interviewer...and....he's friendly on the phone...hahhh....but i found myself feeling relieved after the call...coz i wasnt required to come down whatsoever...and i found myself regretting...coz it made me sound so eager to get the job(to d man)...i sound stupid.


i keep telling myself i sound stupid..

i sound stupid if i need to call someone,
i sound stupid if i need to give comments,
i sound stupid if i need to voice out something.


this is why, i never call anyone unless they are my close friends..yet again, i still do feel stupid when i call them.
this is why, i always keep my comments to myself and why i am always quiet.


another piece of me written down....





went job hunting. AGAIN. yesterday.



it was kinda fruitful. every shop we went in, it turned out to be a 1 out of a thousand chance. yaaa...but, no hopes at all anyone will call...because, there is no point in waiting.



i had the farcoast pre-interview today. why pre-interview? because they have to send my application to the client, aka farcoast. buuttt, the pre-interview was funny. serious. he really smashed the ice when he told me he worked at McD before. haha. it was hilarious.



nadee had called a factory yesterday butt she didn't go for the job...why? because it looks so suspicious. like, as though a kidnapping plan is taken place in broad daylight. haha. but its the right procedure anyway...haha..we were scared anyway, so we didnt go for it.



and today, after the farcoast pre-interview, nadee met her friend. and after a few pages read, i left the library@orchard. i want to borrow that book. Wishful Thinking by Jemma Harvey. i want to finish reading it! i want to know what happened to Lin, Georgie and Cookie. i want to know whether lin finally met her love after 3 disgustingly obnoxious kids. i want to know how georgie finally met her millionaire and i want to know how cookie finally became a sex goddess. these were their wishes at the Wyshing Well. but i just couldnt find the book even though it was not on loan. hmph!



i wanna borrow that book asmida told me about the other day..but thing is, i don't know what the title nor do iknow who the author is...until i saw this person reading a book right in front of her face. Haruki something...is it? is that the author??



and i want to borrow that malay book. Cinta Gadis Pontianak. sounds sooo....its unbelievable.




imagine, a cat with musical background.....cool huh...




there's so many book titles in my mind right now. i should open a library. k fine, exaggerating kayyy.



ooooh...andandand, diah called just now to offer me a position at her uncle's company..i'm pretty psyched about it....hahaha....flawless skin...wow....that's seriously not me.




and dear nadee was stuck to this song since she watched Danielle yesterday, and coz of Danielle, i missed Heroes. totally forgot about it.






Tragedi Oktober Lyrics - Awie

Tak sanggup lagi aku
Mengenang kisah lalu
Keganasan menghantui diriku

Biarkan ia pergi
Menjadi suatu misteri
Bagaikan tiada hati yang peduli

Tidak mahu ku ingat lagi
Apa yang telah terjadi
Tragedi Oktober

( korus )
Sesalan aku hanya untukmu sayang
Ampunilah segala dosa-dosaku
Bagiku kau bukanlah lawanku
Kekasihku...

Hanya satu ku pinta
Kujujuran darimu
Berilah peluang hidupmu
Aku rela bersama
Meranjau onak duka
Agar berkekalan hendaknya
Tidak mahu ku ingat lagi
Apa yang telah terjadi
Tragedi Oktober

( korus )
Sesalan aku hanya untukmu sayang
Ampunilah segala dosa-dosaku
Bagiku kau bukanlah lawanku
Kekasihku...



kay....if i go to diah's workplace and they accept me, and the next thing i get is a call from i don't know where...maybe farcoast? or some shop i applied for....so....what am i gonna do? one thing i dont want to do is disappoint diah....and also get conned but this isn't going to happen most probably....and the other thing i don't want to do is well, not get the right job...ahahahah...aku ni bebual long term seh...padehall padehall...


another piece of me written down....


hahahahahahahaha



semalam kannnn...



hahahahahahahahah



nadiah attracted two guys. TWO.



hahahahahahahah



one was at east coast and another was this guy on the Canadian pizza bike.




hahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahah



the guy followed us, with his friend, all the way from their pit to the center of east coast.



hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahhaha



and the pizza guy smiled plus kening ternaik while we were at the traffic light..



HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA



both, tak salah aku, were mat motors.



hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahah



nad, lets try YOUR luck today! ;P




and yesterday, i reached home nearly at 12 and mom didn't called.



boohoo...she's not thinking about me....



anyway, my prepaid's very low. so don't contact me. just leave a message and i'll get back to you.



oyah, and asmida,

good for imeem! atlast.



hahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha



GPA`07 is HERE. get ready to audition you guys!


another piece of me written down....



suddenly, i realised imeem.com now has ripped away the playlist codes. asmida asked me and that made me realise why i looked different. overrated? i guess.



and....this is very disappointing for me but...and maybe it'll disappoint mj...


because!


i rarely read her journals...


and i just went just now...

!!!!!!!!!


"dahling; i got candy for you hon! pass it to you another day."


awww.....it's either me! or not..


coz i didnt receive any msg about it...


MEI JUAN! i miss yu pig!

and i wonderr....err, has d candy gone bad??


haha...


i'm just feeling guilty and disappointed coz i never keep myself updated with what she's going through...so much for a bestfriend eh? boohooo.


maybe it's just that i had this mindset that she's too busy with school and just have no time for me and she's better with rai & jun and her new love....i don't even find myself talking to her like the old days....


remember that time when we made those roses...on the bus...
remember those times we go to BK to study or just have lunch?
remember that time at the MRT station i walked one round just to avoid HIM...
remember the times we would go to Banquet to buy lunch and eat them at your house..
remember the ten magazines you've lent me and i've yet to return them...
remember the time i accidentally slapped you? gosh..serious, that was an accident..
remember the letters you gave me? i still keep them..



imissyou.<3


another piece of me written down....




they say,
two's a couple,
three's a crowd.


whoever 'they' were is wrong.



hah.




yaa, iyalah...lepas uda planning2, yaa, ada aja sih yang ngak boleh hadir...atau ngak mau dateng..yaa...gue sedih sih...tapi gue hepi juga dong..ada temen-temen yang setia pada kata2 mereka.....baguibagui.



i'm going to live in indonesia one day soon. i'm going to be an indonesian. all these influence is just going to live in me and not go away...even my brother's are being influenced..



'oh oh peh es, oh oh peh es'


harrrharrrr.....'gery's chocolatos?'


hahah...



Denise the Menace is my all time favourite.
i'm left all alone today at home and it was showing on HBO and i found myself laughing loudly.


yaayaaaa..i know all i do is laughing when i'm not talking....blaah.


yessaaa..now i'm left to my 3rd book. i find myself not concentrating when i read books these days...thanks shak, for telling me that...coz now i'm really not concentrating....hahahaha



oyes.trip to east coast today is postponed to tomorrow morning because we couldn't wake up and as you can see, it's pretty wet outside...well here in the east it is anyway...



anyone wanna join us? 7am. just msg me if you wanna join.


us as in nadee and me.



wahahahah.



at last...i looked up the sky last night...and since it was pretty clear up in the sky, i could see the starssss....beauti.....and not only that, we went to suntec and got to get a glimpse of the fireworks...and haahaaa...we led two Russians to the esplanade....and we just sat and talked at the merlion....hahahahahha.....



i have just realised.....i have the MS Frontpage program. DAAMNNN YOOUUU!
when i needed it, it wasnt there.


when is the results coming out?




i really dont understand this song. tell me about it won't you?


You're Beautiful - James Blunt

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.

She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.



k jef, i've read the lyrics. haha...k i think i've got a little bit of an idea what this song's about. haha..but i still dont understand it...and send me the photosss..



eh...ungu is starting to sound very nice....lets start listening to them..;)


another piece of me written down....



" Gublet stamped his foot. 'Oh, fuck it!' Then he had a clever thought. He would find a NEW best friend for Melly so she wouldn't be lonely when he went to live on the moon. It was SUCH a clever thought! "




you two are going to go out.
you two are going to be even more fond of each other.
you two are going to fall in love.
you two are going to forget about the past.
you two are going to ignore everything.
you two are going to not notice me disappearing.
you two are going to forget about me.
you two are going to realise.
you two are meant for each other.





sometimes, i feel invisible.
sometimes, i prefer to be ignored.
sometimes, i love being lonely.
sometimes, i crave for space.

sometimes, you'd want things you actually hate.













dad's not home.


mom's sick.
granny's sick.
gramp's not well.
lil brother's being an ass.



and i'm sitting here, taking care of everybody while trying to entertain myself.



where is everybody?!
















i can't go out.
there's no way i can go out.
don't make me go out.


no!


nooooooo!!


noooooooooooooooooooooo!!



go ahead. make me. drag me out.




Lonely Train - Black Stone Cherry


Big train rolling down the line
Makes me lonely
Sometimes I wish to ride away
Sometimes I want to ride away
Yeah

Big plane flying through the clouds
Makes me worry
Sometimes I wish to fly away
Sometimes I want to fly away

[Chorus:]
But you can't judge a book
Looking at the cover
You can't love someone
While messing with another
No, you can't win a war
Fighting with your brother
You wanna have peace
Gotta love one another

Big guns lighting up the sky
Makes me worry
Sometimes I wish to run away
Sometimes I want to run away

[Repeat Chorus:]
But you can't judge a book
Looking at the cover
You can't love someone
While messing with another
No, you can't win a war
Fighting with your brother
You wanna have peace
Gotta love one another

I have seen my brothers
In ashes on the ground
And maybe in a new life
We can turn this thing around

[Repeat Chorus:]
But you can't judge a book
Looking at the cover
You can't love someone
While messing with another
No, you can't win a war
Fighting with your brother
You wanna have peace
Gotta love one another

No you can't judge a book
Gotta love one another
Can't judge a book
No you can't judge a book


another piece of me written down....



kay. what have i done?



i have just (JUST?) changed my blogger account. to this beta ting.


and i hate it. coz i've been using that password since forever and now, that i've just changed it, it feels different.


not my fault! they made me change it!


hmph.



i sound like some ten year old kid.



kay, so anyway, life has been dull.



seriously. i searched all over for a job and i hate it that my efforts are in vain.


job searching again? hai...



ddiah asked me to go with her yesterday, but i couldnt.


last minute, i had to send my lil brother for his bowling session,
last minute, she asked me out,
last minute, my mom called me to granpa-sit my datok.


huh. granny was warded but she was erm, discharged(not exactly) today. and i worry that she is actually not well and she had actually begged the doctor to let her go home.my granparents have this tendency to beg to be released. they feel the hospital wards are like a prison.


i miss going there actually. i miss how i will visit my granny there and just accompany her for the day. i'll sit beside her on the bed and watch tv with her. or there'll be this huge picnic in the ward itself with my aunties bringing all sorts of food to eat. and there'll just be good company.


i guess i don't miss the ward, i miss the company. the kemesraan-ness. coz if she's warded, there'll be this big chance that my cousins will come and visit and we'll all go kecoh..

haha. this happens in a ward. a hospital ward. a hospital ward where you're suppose to be quiet and let the patients sleep and rest.



sheesh.



yesterday, i was accompanied by salahudin. ahahahahaha. i can tell he's gotten his father's genes. he'll be a good husband one day and an especially fun father. like his father. hahahah. and erm, haha...kay nevermind.



gramps all strong now. he can move from the sofa to the wheelchair on his own..and he don't have to be carried with all our might just to move him from the sofa to the wheelchair or vice versa.


have faith. how stupid of me to cry worrying that i'll lose him. he's a strong man. a very strong man.


went out with mas, dayu, nad and raider the day before yesterday...i miss them....yeay! nad already start her holiday! ATLAST. left raider, dayu and mas. all going to start their exams soon. GOOD LUCK!


hmph. ho well. i miss as, mira, sarah, ddiah, nisy, jeff, nizal, aizat and..i can't blieve i'm saying this, fuad. jeff msged me to head to town today but too bad..i had errands..
how did it go???


my hp's ppaid is low on the credit. most probably i wont pick up calls. DONT CALL ME. thankyou.


did i say this before?
when i go to my granny's, i'll feel like i went through a time warp. "teleport" haha.
and also, when i go there, i'll feel invisible[?].


hah.


erm, doctor,
i can't seem to sleep at night and i can't seem to wake up in the morning.
what's happening to me?



i've finished reading one book. "The Last Anniversary" by Liane Moriarty.
it's an okay book. i can't seem to concentrate reading the book. but i like the way the author can step into different characters. and i like it that one chapter can be less than 100 words.


"But Grace quite likes the fact that you can think something is one way all your life, and it turns out you're wrong, it can e something else entirely. It makes her feel free. Nothing is rigid. Things change. You can change your mind. You can change your thinking."


" Gublet McDublet was a very naughty little elf.

Every day, his mum said to him, 'Now Gublet, do you think it's going to be a Good Gublet day or a Bad Gublet day?'

Every day, Gublet answered the same way, 'A GOOD Gublet day!'

But guess what? Every day turned out to be a Bad Gublet day.

One day, Gublet said, 'Oh fuck it, Mum, you're a boring olf hag,' and he took a knife and lopped off his sweet mummy's head. "


i this gublet tingy. it's funny. it's in the book for a few chapters.


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hahahahaha!



morning inspiration.



that's the cause of my last post.



makes no sense kannn.



hahahahah.



yesterday.



i walked.




from home to bedok mrt station.




later, i rode the bicycle.




15 minutes, from BK east coast to the chalet and back.



my butt hurt, my legs wobbled.




later, at 7,




i walked home.




from ECP BK all the way to my doorstep.



i felt like giving up and taking the bus,




but i didn't.




i didn't even realise the bottle i was holding on to was dripping.




until some philippino lady told me from behind.




i was exhausted, but i couldn't sleep.




why?




i nearly fell asleep.




but dad told me, no forced me to see the tv that was spoilt.




he himself know about the problem better, and he wants ME to see something i have no idea about.




mampos sak.




pentingkan diri sendiri sak.




and i end up scolding my lil brother.




all this coz my maklong go tell my mum i was going home alone.




seriously, i went home alone.




furious and disappointed.




now, this is a funny track. never heard before..





i've posted this song before, lonng time ago. it's nice.






Stars - Switchfoot

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinkin' maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast and maybe
All my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinkin' 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars
I feel like myself

Stars looking at our planet,
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe startin' to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinkin' 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond our own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Began to look like home

I've been thinkin' 'bout everyone, everyone you look so empty
But when I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars
I feel like myself

Everyone, everyone you feel so lonely
Everyone, ya everyone you feel so empty
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars,
When I look at the stars I feel like myself
When I look at the stars, the stars
I see someone



i wanna sit under the moon and stare up at the stars. anyone?


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baru aku prasan...








beruang, itik, kucing, ayam, kambing, tikus, ikan yu. tak lupa babi ya.







semue kawan aku.








ade nenek berkuase majik, seorg celup spaniol[?], pegawai polis-to-be, peguam-to-be & seorg lagi yg secerdik2 3 sains, 2 matematik!










tak lupe dgn yg ade angan2 nak jadi juru latih khas, bintang-bintang punkrok & bintang bola sepak!




















wah. tak ke kagum aku ni dengan kawan-kawan yang lucu-lucu tetapi mempunyai cita2 besar ini?




















eh, mestilah kagum. special tauuuu.


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i've job-hunting for dayysssss now and i simply have no more courage whatsoever to carry on and put that thick smily skinned face up and ask. the reply is always a turn down.



huh.






i hated bus rides today and i hated steamboat yesterday and in the future. why?





well, yesterday i had a class gathering with my oh-so-great classmates at marina bay. i'm religiously food conscious[?] fyi. so, when we reached marina bay, i thought it was some good restaurant which provides bus shuttle service. BUT omg, i was terrified the minute we reached there. seriously speaking, the first thing that came into my mind was "is this place HALAL?" coz we could damn well see that it is not. and those working there WERE ALL BANGLAS! i'm not looking down on them whatsoever, but it really reminded me of Simpang Bedok you know. how they would MAKE you eat at their place. okay, that wasn't all. in fact, shak even asked the bloody stupid bangla whether this place was halal and asked for the cert. and you know what the fella replied? "as long as you don't eat pork, it's halal. i'm a muslim, i know." WTH! sial lah..mampos ah. well, shak asked her brother about which restaurant was halal and she told her brother to fetch her. and we decided to just tawakal and carry on. tande was-was tu da ade. haiz. but we definitely didn't eat the meat stuff there. seafood for the day. but that's where the worst came. the seafood there were ALL spoilt already. EVERYTHING. seriously, i don't know HOW these chinese people eat those food there. omg. they seem...barbaric. i felt like vomiting. ew. i'm not offended by people who eat pork or whatsoever in front of me. i'm offended when they bring me to a non-halal place to eat. they are just plain selfish, don't you think? they get to eat, while i don't. after this incident, i seriously have this disgusted feeling. i felt dirty. DIRTY. i talked to my mother about it, and she understands my situation. but still, i felt dirty. i felt like slapping those classmates of mine and i felt like slapping that bangla. does he think religion is a joke? and what's with the "you ride on my van, you eat my food" tactic? rugi dok....may all their business go bankrupt soon. i'm not laughing.




right. that over, now this.




today i had to meet shak for pizza. i was pretty excited about it. its not everyday you eat pizza isn't it. so i decided to take bus 31 since it takes a shorter route. buttt, it made me wait for 15mins(or so). and and and. this i dislike. not that i don't like people from ITE, but some of them just do not know how to behave in public. the bus was already packed and i made a terrible mistake sitting up front. terrible. coz, the minute the bus stopped in front of CollegeEast, these mamats(malays. memalukan masyarakat je) went up the bus, by the rear door. REAR door. the driver did shout out for them to get down but like duh, they didn't. and they had the cheek to say they were already late for friday prayers. MAK KAU! tak tau malu. tak sedar diri! oh, kirekan k taubat lepas buat salah katekann. the bus didn't move for more than 5 minutes lah. being in the bus that stinks like secondary school and staying there for more than just FIVE minutes is just excruciating. they standing in front of me. and ew. mampos. i felt like..urgh. entah lah. seriously immature ah. please ahh. please...grow up. please..pleaseee. and then, i took 38 home. it was okay until i overheard these mats conversation about their Olevel results and stuffs like that. so i asked my cousin how was his results and later, i told shak. when she replied, i kinda laughed to myself. and i kiinnddaaa loooked up. and! you know what, this mamat looked down at me. and imagine, me smiling and he looking. ahhh! malumalumalu. ni semue shak punye pasall!!! kan org pikir aku GILER! ishishishish...malumalumaluuuuu! ee. nasib banget dorg turon kat eastpoint. siakkkk. after that, at home, i straightaway fell asleep. hah!




iya. kisah2 lucu gue ngak lucu langsung deh. lagian tadi aku nonton Intan. yaa..tapi itu lah..komersilnya lebih dari cerita nya sihh. yaa...bayangin dong, nonton filem nya 5menit, tapi komersilnya 10menit. wah. ngak capek gitu nungguin. lagian iya jam 1900 wib. mau solat lagi...aku dapet nonton hanya setengah aja filem nya. rugian dong. rugi!




oyah.




I BROKE MY NOVO SANDALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


YAAA....IT BROKE INTO TWO!!!
AND MY MOM TOLD ME TO GLUE IT BACK TOGETHER!!
I NEED NEW SANDALS MUM!!
IT CAN'T BE GLUED BACK!!!!!
WAHAHAHAH.





have to buy them asap. anyone to show me good unbreakable sandals??


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oyeah.



I AM DONE WITH YEAR ONE!



yeay.



i watched apocalypto halfway just now and i regret. coz that show makes you stay glued on your seat and, i had to go out. so d rush is spoilt. shouldnt have watched it just now. shouldntshouldntshouldnt.



and i have to finish reading the three books i borrowed. well, i better finish it. BETTER!



oukey. done.


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i need a new erm, what you call that, internet line/modem/whatever.
it's not dial-up or whatever, but thing is, i'm disconnected in less than 10mins.
coz of this, everytime i want to blog, i end up not blogging.
i lost all my inspirations and end up with frustrations.



went to school to mail some cd with shak and later, headed to vivo to just walk around and sight see. seriously, it's such a turn off when it comes to price. no, i'm not those who buys the first thing i see. even if i do, it must have been weeks or months after i saw it. just now, i kept telling shak, "not until i get a job" to most of her questions, like, what are you going to do to your hair, are you going to get that bag or whatever else. it was a real turn off when i saw that price for that thing i really really liked. i told mom about it and she said it will cost double the amount if paid for in installments[?]. so, it is a must for me to get a job this holiday. i don't care what kind.
okay, no dirty ones of course.



while sitting on the park, well, we had nothing to do, so weird me go cut a battery with a pair of scissors. but, like duhh, i failed. i only got to leave scratch marks on it. this shows how strong the metal is. and ya, talking about batteries, shak has been collecting batteries today. mostly used ones. i have nooo idea what she's gonna do with it. haha. maybe let her very old and aging brother of hers eat them while he's hungry? haha.
tell me more!



i was looking for a friend to go apply a job with me tomorrow. FINALLY, i receive a good response after i called the place. but, yaa, noone was free. and its in the east, and i don't want to disturb those in SP coz of the exams so i asked those in other schools but none were free. then, somehow, mom read my mind. (she has this telepathy thing, i have a feeling. mom's instincts?) while watching Intan, she asked about the pants i wanted. she asked me come along with her. and suddenly, i told her about the application thing and then now, she's gonna drag me to my lil brother's bowling session. all in tampines. haaaaaaaaaa. fine. for the company, i will go.
no hopes raised though.



i'm watching Zuriat now and its soooooo cute. i watched G&g and i really hated that girl who accused Putri of spreading that virus to Reza. like, wth! you don't know what was going on and now you accuse the wrong party for the consequence. now, look at who's the bitch eyh.



blahhhhblahhhblahhhh.



i miss people lahh. you you and you. plus you and you and you.



oyah, me and shak ate at that cafe...d one ssp went..what it's called? i forgot. anyway, i brought half of my food home coz i couldn't finish it and mom tasted it and she scolded me for buying such spicy food. i told her to give it to dad, and she sarcasticly said that the food will coz him to shit and get diare(diarhoea[?]). HAHA. and we visited this shop and i'm attracted to this outfit. but, i won't fit into it. too bad. haveta lose weight.




anyone for cycling this holidays?



-5 mins later-

OKAY! i rmbred. MOSI CAFE! haha. k done.


another piece of me written down....






Title: Dear Friend
Artist: Stacie Orrico

Dear Friend, what's on your mind
You don't laugh the way you used to
But I've noticed how you cry
Dear friend, I feel so helpless
I see you sit in silence
As you face new pain each day
I feel there's nothing I can do
I know you don't feel pretty
Even though you are
But it wasn't your beauty
That found room in my heart

Dear friend, you are so precious Dear Friend

Dear friend, I'm here for you
I know that you don't talk too much
But we can share this day anew
Dear Friend, please don’t feel like you're alone
There is someone who is praying
Praying for your peace of mind
Hoping joy is what you'll find
I know you don't feel weak
Even though you are
But it wasn't your strength
That found room in my heart

Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend


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a walk in the park. should be done once in awhile.





dad made a wrong turn and we ended up in a park.




dad, being his cheapo self, parked far far away from Lagoon. we, his part-time slave, had to obey to his decision and follow his saying. buuutttt, there was a good in that.




i sat in the front passenger seat to practice driving. imagination skills, my friend. today i heard mom and dad scold. but not bad words ah. it's like those, "MAK KAU!!!"...haha. it was real funny. mom said "mak kau datokkkk, lambat nyeeeee" haha! translation: your mom's your granpa!!! sooo late!!!! while dad said something familiar too. ahhh. now i know.



leaving our car at car park E, we began our journey. mom took a mini short cut. we walked on the cemented footpath. mom saw something. she noticed a fruit. she noticed a small, dried brown fruit lying on the ground, in between grass blades. she told me it's edible. she told me, during her younger days, they would gather the nuts and, like squirrels, they would take stones, no rocks, and hit the fruit and eat the nut inside. she warned me it was just a small piece but stubborn me, i wanted to see what was in it. i suggested we use my hard cover notebook. dad called me crazy, mom called me giler. as we were in search of rocks while walking up the hill, dad and little bro chased each other around us. haha. childish. they were chasing each other for the radio dad brought. haha. atlast, in between the leaves and flowers, dad found a rock. he shouted for us and i ended up picking it up. squatting on the tarred ground, i hit the fruit with the gigantic rock dad found. and yes, the nut in it was very tiny. the shell was thick and husky but the nut was just like a piece of toothpick cut into 3. the fruit is called, Buah Ketapang. after that mission was over, we continued walking down hill. dad pointed at this plant called the Pokok Kadok. after that, dad did something. he danced. he danced downhill. and lil bro mocked him. omg. as we walked, we saw a few young adults at the side of the bridge. one was injured. dad n lil bro walked far ahead but mom stucked behind. she searched frantically in her bag for bandaids. how helpful and concern for mom to volunteer help to them. but they were doing fine though. carrying on, we walked past the SKI360. amazed and jakon-ed by the skiers, we made comments on how each of them got their skills. mom and i were walking in the middle of the path when dad shouted that the bycicle was coming. she gave dad a scolding coz we were on the footpath, and the cyclist was on the wrong. the cyclist heard that and he turned and said "gua ta da salah sama lu apa!" mom quickly told him she was talking to dad. and he cycled away. hah. mom was curious why there were ants nests on those trees around there. i saw one pretty big. then, we saw an Orchid on one of those trees. pretty. continued walking and at last we reached Lagoon.




while eating, we talked about this, beggars. not to be of an offend or what, but 3 packets of tissue for a dollar is too much, mom said. but, they are looking for money for themselves, dad replied. and i told them of the story Mr LBW told us, a beggar at orchard who is actually capable of working, but resorted to begging because it was easy money. that kinda shut them up.




we were up on our feet again, towards our car. taking another direction, i felt like i was in a foreign area. i heard different languages! i heard japenese, korean, french, german/russian and saw people from, most probably, tibet. most of the people i saw were westerners. avoided the food courts. mom couldn't stand the smell. wanted to go in that shop but realised it was a waste of time. observed people cycling. some were just not dressed to cycle! and i wanna cycled from home to the end of ECP and back again. even if it hurts the bums.




at home, we watched Tentang Bulan after Intan and Darling. Mom really thought Darling was funny. actually it was. they were together coz of a contract. a love contract.



Tentang Bulan(about the moon) tells a story about, at first, five but later, six friends. every full moon, they will sit and imagine about the moon, and their future. when there was five, Ila was rugged and guy-like. she played soccer, swam in rivers and was always with mawi, budi, ibrahim(ketot) and Bulat. Mawi made a promise that they would always stay as friends till forever. the moon would be their witness. but that changed when Zurina moved into the kampung. Mawi fell for her and ditched Ila. coz of that, Ila tried to change femininely but the boys laugh at her. she wanted so much to tell them that she was moving but they wouldn't sit and listen. one day mawi realised his mistakes and he wanted to apologies. but, he was too late. she left for KL when he came looking for her. after years, Ila came back for their wedding. Bulat & Ina's wedding. and mawi succeed in making his dream a reality. he was gonna be an astronaut while the rest were in good state too. budi became a doctor, but ironically, he suffers from asthma. ibrahim is now as tall as the rest and is invovled in political issues.



friendships are forever. you won't ever know till when.



ini kisah tentang bulan.


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jack and jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of wo -ter
jack fell down and broke his crown and jill came tumbling after.



potong bebek angsa, masak di kuuaali.
nonya mintak angsa, masak dua kali.
(this one i forget oready. my mom and my 2nd bro also. -_-")


kring kring kring ada beca,
beca beroda tiga,
ku naik dengan papa,
pergi keliling kotaaa.




hahahaha...



there's something wrong with cbox! the message box doesn't appear!

fu lin was pretty fed up today when he joined in. he was like "wah lau, i was sitting inside, then when i wanted to go out, this guy go sit like this -demonstrates-! and because of that! i hit a girl's head lahh! wahlau. i'm ALREADY so BIG size, and i carry so many thing, and he gave me a small space! felt like slapping that guy lor! don't let me see him again! fahsofahsfosihfoawi hoqiwhalhfaof aos fhaos faskl ahfoashfo;a wfhoa ho!"


yaaa. and he was irritated with the, most probably sec 1 changkat changi students coz they were making a bloody hell of an irritating noise while he was studying. there's something about changkat changi lower sec students that i cannot avoid hating. the way they TRYYY to walk over the heads of someone obviously older than them. MAMPOS SAK! takleh angkat ah changkat. -sorry aizat!-


nisy joined in and haha, we were just talking about looking for jobs. hmmm. later i tailed them to Royal Cakes coz they wanted to get some cakes for their friend's birthday's celebration. i some for myself too. mm mmm mmm mm mmm! they were delicious! i shared 2 small rectangular cakes between myself, my dad and my lil bro. they all prefer the strawberry one. =DDD


i watched Over the Hedge while waiting for my lil bro n my mom at home. but, sadly, i didn't watch it till the end. coz, aahahaha, i fell asleep. eventhough my lil brother knew i was home, my mom realised i was home an hour later. and when she did that, she slept beside me. wahahah. miss the times she used to sleep beside me.


oyah, talking about sleeping, imagine if Siti Nurhaliza were to have a child. wouldn't it be nice, to have her sing everynight. and imagine if the child grew to a toddler. he/she will be asking her to sing one song from which album. try to get my message. haha.


went to the expo but barely did anything. walk around and dad insisted buy a button up shirt from that particular shop. frankly speaking, it's hideous. shhh! and they got stopped by this health org people and dad got his bones checked. he's got oestroponia(i think). nearly to oestreoporosis but not there yet. haiiyoooo. must drink more milk. BUTTT, that'll make him fart more. oops. shudn't have exposed that.


carrying on, i saw mambangs at the netball court just now. seriously speaking, i have to agree to what fuad said sometime ago. something about not letting people know where you stay. coz if they know, they tend to go there. especially if its the opposite sex. siak. i can't wait to move. i can't wait to move. i can't wait to move. but i dont want to.




dad wants to watch that dvd he brought home. Keeping Mum i think. and mom just gave a green light for dad to go search for a new car. 2nd bro wants to use the computer. i want a laptop. and little brother is such an ass.
hah. my family.


another piece of me written down....



howlow. how wow yuw?



i'm talking to nadee on the phone. well, i wasss, until we got cut off. [this was an hour ago]


has been a looonggg time since we talked..like, just bersembang kat tepon..


hahaha. =D


study today was pretty fruitful. i moved from tutorial 3 to 4...BUT, i skipped a whole lot of tutorial 3 coz i skipped that class. i still don't understand what they are actually asking for. hurhur. tutorial 4, i'm coping with. i only did 1 qn. HAH. so much for fruitful. simei has an LJS outlet now. whooppeee..it's getting updated..good2..

after study(we quited coz shak was so into that book i let her read), we headed for SGH. shak had to go for some blood test. i re-read that book again..aww, so sweet. haha. seriously! and i can remember some of the qoutes. =))) i realised i recommended it to Nadee, to MJ, n now to Shak. it really is a very extremely non-like-the-other book to read.
Where rainbows end - Cecelia Ahern. a must read.


after that, we headed to Bedok Lib to return our books and to borrow a book or two. i ended up with two..shak took 1. hahah.. she dumped most of her 'i think this book's nice' book to me to let me have a say. i hope the book i chose for u is a good one! hahah.


wanted to stay up the whole afternoon to watch Buku Harian Nayla again, but, hopelessly for a sleeper like me, i ended up awake after the show was over. -_-" sheesh. but Intan was still there for me to watch. and you know what, there's a new show on Starworld called "Heroes" and it is real nice. but because of that stupid match yesterday between spore and thailand, i didn't get to watch it. thanksssss to my DAD. hurhurrrr. 22 men chasing a ball. hmmm...



dad brought home some dvds and lil bro watched it right after Intan...he watched Open Season first and halfway through the show, he walked out. meaning: it's boring. later, after it ended, he watched Happy Feet. and he sat all the way through it. meaning: it's FUN. we've got this thing about fun and romantic stories. i know i have. don't know abt him though..and i realised, my 2nd brother also now, due to the tv aeriel inside his room, is now begining to watch indon sinotrens. you have no idea how much he loathed them before. me n my mom will be fighting over Dia while he complains he wants to watch Lost. haha. now, my mom is sick and tired of indon sinotrens. a change in trend maybe? haaahaaaa.



listen to this song and begin to realise reality.





Runaway Love - Ludracris feat. Mary J. Blige

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

[Verse 1 - Ludacris]
Now little Lisa is only 9 years old
Shes tryin to figure out why the world is so cold
Why shes all all alone and they never met her family
Mamas always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missin and nobody will listenin
Mama is on drugs gettin high up in the kitchen
Bringin home men at different hours of the night
Startin with laughs--usually endin in a fight
Sneak into her room while her mamas knocked out
Tryin to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says shes bout to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]

[Verse 2 - Ludacris]
Little Nicole is only 10 years old
Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
Why shes not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she makin up excuses
Bleedin on the inside, cryin on the out
Its only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight til the end
Until one day lil Stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says shes bout to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]

[Verse 3 - Ludacris]
Little Erica is 11 years old
Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
Cause shes havin sex with a boy whose sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks shes in love
So theres no protection hes usin no glove
Never thinkin bout the consequences of her actions
Livin for today and not tomorrows satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he aint ready for a kid
Knowin her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say shes about to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [repeats till end]