another piece of me written down....happy holidays people...
i went hari-rayaing with d girls but after d last 3rd house, amal n hidayat tagged along...after that yasmin...had a GREAT time!! n like we raced around....who's d 1sttt??!! nad, tak abis2....saw u-know-who....n like he got gf ready n stuff...d gf was like 'kepit-ting' him n all...ewww....suck lah...same old friends..hurh! ew! minahhh...yuck! cikgu's daughter is sooo cute! didn't want me to go seeyyyy....hahahahahahhahahah...."jemput masuk, jemput duduk, jemput makan, datang lagi" - iman nur dini( cikgu marlina's daughter) spoken ever-so-clearly...sweet! she went taa-taa-taa-taa....while we were there...hahahahahah...so cute...
d next day, my stomach senak like dunowhat, my feet hurt like hell, i felt tired like wtf!...went to my makcik's house, we watched harry ptter on d tv...my makcik urut my feet...SO NICEE!! geli seyy....laughed like HAAHAA....her littlest daughter kepo!!! massaged my leg also siaaa...n she also pretended her leg was 'in pain' n asked her mom to massage her...after that went home n slept like duno what...
went to watch HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!...was feeling nauseous while at the mrt station...n constipated also..shitttyyy.....literally.....den me n my cuz went around looking for my prom stuffs...i still can't get ANYTHING to interest me...urrghhh....we took neoss!!! sweet....harry ptter is so saddening...in this movie he's like being tortured....its so saddenningg...n what more when his fren died...hermoine is beautiful....n like d cedric guy is kinda good looking i must say...d movie kinda made me cry ah....but i didnt...emo!!!
den today, my heart pain...my heart ached....literally....like PAIN sia....my god....den i started having cramps on my chest n my stomach n i started shitting n vomitting...like damn shit siaa~! i had to cancel ALL my plans n head to the doctor...shitty siaaa.....went to the doctor n he gave me 2 sets of diarhoea pills n like PANADOL for my chest pains...sucky doctor...here i am suffering n thr he is giving me panadol...hurh!! i've been going in and out of the toilet for like 16748641361468787 times n like d pill just makes it worser...wonder how is it gonna be tonight!!! can i sleep??!! haiyoooo...shitty....
another piece of me written down.... i can proudly say out loud NOW that my
OLEVEL EXAMS ARE FINALLY OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! without anymore little mini paper one exams, might i add.....yea...so before you could say, 'now i can enjoy', think again! coz its not! wahahahaahaha.....
kkk....the reason i did that was because, AHEM!, some people have been exaggerating that their major papers are over, now they can enjoy blahblahblah when the true fact is that their exams aren't not officially over yet...and like yea, they go talking about their enjoyment, leaving me there envying them n tolerating their whatsoevers......which is like, not irritating lah but like 'what d hell'...yah...but sorry to say it all yah...just ranting my voice out after d looonnnnggg dampening due to Os....WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...
n all the papers was like...DAMNNN...really!! i dont think i can secure any passes...my amaths like shit, my physics suck, my chem like freak coz i barely studied...4hrs for a paper that took 2 years to study? a miracle to pass.....what d HELL!! my history paper was kinda like shit coz i didn't list down the most accurate things n like all d my essays were like so general....my ss also! especially coz i barely finished the source base.....n my eng!! freak! mom said d topic i chose was tough to score...which is like SHIT! shitty shit...what i know is that i've only secured a b3 for my MT....n that is still sucky....so overall, my Olevel results are gonna be suckier than my prelims...maybe a fail for all my major subjects....thats sad....very sad.....
my gramps is OK!!! yeay!!! i love him...haha...but i hvn't visit him since he got out from hospital thou...so...yea.....gotta visit him soon....hmm...wonder how he's doing...hmm.....i wonder how my cuzens are doing...hmmm......haizzzz....
if tmr only d girls go raya-ing, den don't tell me the boys won't mind sey.....coz they also wana go right?..hmm...hoowwww......haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....
this song was stuck in my head d whole day today..
So beautifulWhether I'm right or wrong
There's no phrase that hits
Like the ocean needs the sand
Or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect
I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars
And darling you know
[Chorus]
You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful
Whether I’m up or down
There's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it
And if all the world was smiling
I would only ever want to see your frown
You know they can sail away in sunsets
We'll be right here stranded on the ground
Just happy to be found
[Chorus]
I have lost my illusions
I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I dont understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand
[Chorus]
You are....
So beautiful
another piece of me written down....hyelo.
i'm going to the hospital later on, going to visit my granpa...
pls, please, pleeaassee pray that he'll be well again...
mom told me he was going to get stroke...
she told me he couldn't talk, fell right out of the car when they took him to the hospital..
she said he fell like jelly, no energy no nothing...
she told me that he had dream, no so a dream...maybe it did happen while he was asleep..
she said he saw two men, dressed in white n wore a black songkok, sitting beside him on his bed,
she said, he went to the kitchen to get away from them, after that he prayed, at ard 3/4 am...
then, that was when my grandma woke him up, but he couldn't talk! he mumbled long words..
HE COULDN'T TALK! and he had headaches...
at the ward, my mom n aunties n uncles read prayers for him, and till then, only after that, he could talk again...oh god, please don't take him away...=(
i can't imagine a day without him...
not like i always spend my days with him, but still, he is my only granpa..
i don't want him to go....
i think he despice maths..because he has been having accidents during my maths paper..
like the one for prelims..
now for the O levels...
and i had some weird lonely feeling when it happened...i don't know...
a piece of me is going to go...can't imagine...
=((
this is for him,
Hear You Me
There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
I thought I might get one more chance
What would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
[Chorus]
May angels lead you in
Hear you me, my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
So what would you think of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
[Chorus]
May angels lead you in
(May angels lead you in) [X 2]
And if you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God wouldn't let it live
[Chorus][X 2]
another piece of me written down....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....i screwed up...i totally screwed up...
i screwed up my english, my social studies, AND my maths....both papers...
damn!!! i so so so so screwed up....how am i gonna make it for next yearr????
i'm scared....i'm so so so scared...help me!!!!!!!! aHHHHHHHHHHHH....damn...
stop shouting lahh...
now, time to concentrate on my sciences and my BIG maths subj and dat boring history subject..
went studying with kok hwa just now...n I DIDNT KNOW I ACTUALLY kinda REMEMBERED the facts! wow! but i need more memorising to do....n due to kok hwa squeezing d facts out of me, i now have a migraine.....shit!!!
now, time for my medication n sleep....
maybe i'll go raya-ing tmr....hmmm.....cousins...cousins...
this is a nice song i've been tracking down since last2 week....hmm.....
d 1st verse is...hm....a good one to be thought about...even though i'm not a boy....
Got None
When I was a little boy I used to wonder
Just how old you'd have to be to feel good
Now I've seen a thousand girls but I still wonder
Cause they just don't make sense to me
God knows I've tried
I've tried to be the unpredictable one
I've tried to be the friend that they could rely on
I've still got none
Got nothing at all
[Chorus]
And so I fall into the open
Just singing out your name
And when I'm done, crashed and maimed
I hope that's where you'll find me
You know that if it's up to me I'll still be holding
My own hand the day I die
So please release me now
I've tried to be the mean mysterious one
I've tried to be the sweetest candy you'd suck on
I've still got none
Got nothing at all
[Chorus] [X 2]
And it's a good day for being found
Just crawling in the dirt with my head underground
And it's a good day for you to come
Collecting all the pieces of the damage done
And after all the bandages are gone
I hope you'll find a favorite part you can work on
Cause I've got none
Got nothing at all
[Chorus][X 2]
And it's a good day for being found
Just crawling in the dirt with my head underground
And it's a good day for you to come
Collecting all the pieces of the damage done
another piece of me written down....breathe...
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
oukay......shIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIttttttttttttttttttt....damn freak bloody shit....gonna make a quick one AND go onto emaths...i've finished ss..yeay! but i still need more reading n writing...
whats with ppl putting up exam dates on their blog??!!?!?!?!!?!!!!!?!??! not many ppl ah, only Taren n mj...buttt....stilll......make me scared only...maybe thats a gd sign.....weeeeeeeepeeeeeeee....well well well.....tmr's gonna be a hectic day! aHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....see my nervousness? my hands are cold too....(the fact that the fan is facing me...sheesh) damnnnn.......tmr's gonna be scarrreeeyyy.....
kkk...after this i shall not blog till after 18 November....weeeeeeeeeeeeeee...EIGHTEEN NOVEMBER!!!!!!!!!!! not twenty-two...HARHAR!
kkkk....
tmr, ss n maths P1
two days after, ENGLISH
two days after, maths P2
three days after, Amaths P1
the day after, PHYSICS!
the day after, Amaths P2
the day after, HISTORY n CHEMISTRY!!(shit u lah)
k....there's MY timetable...18 is d worst yet happiest day for that week...after that it OUT for me....with my plans....teeeeeheeeeeeeee.....
The Importance Of Being Idle Lyrics
I sold my soul for the second time
Cos the man, he don't pay me
I begged my landlord for some more time
He said "Son, the bills waiting"
My best friend called me the other night
He said "Man, are you crazy?"
My girlfriend told me to get a life
She said "boy, you lazy"
But I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine
If you give me a minute
A mans got a limit
You cant get a life if your hearts' not in it
I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine
If you give me a minute
A mans got a limit
I cant get a life if my hearts' not in it
I lost my faith in the summertime
Cos it don't stop raining
The sky all day's as black as night
But I love complaining
I begged my doctor for one more line
He said "Son, words fail me"
It ain't no place to be killing time
But I guess I'm just lazy
I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine
If you give me a minute
A mans got a limit
I cant get a life if my hearts' not in it
another piece of me written down....this is the most simple template i've gotten for myself...its cute thou....n fits my email add...whahaahahahah.....
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE FOR YOUR O LEVELS!Hear You Me
There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
I thought I might get one more chance
What would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
[Chorus]
May angels lead you in?
Hear you me, my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in?
So what would you think of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
[Chorus]
May angels lead you in
(May angels lead you in) [X 2]
And if you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God wouldn't let it live
[Chorus][X 2]
another piece of me written down..."It's only in your head you feel left out or
Looked down on." Qoute of the day for me.
HE CHEATED ME! he took an extra dollar!!! i THINK i paid 24....the things cost 23...errr....but nevermind lahhh....i donate to the shop...wahahahahahaha....
i realised NOW that i'm sitting the LAST seat for Olevels....DAAAAAAAMMMNNN~!
the contact lenses shall let me see.....
oukay, today may be the last day i go out with my family...boohoo.
started out awful, duh!
with my sister around, nothing will be fine, never mind good.
damn sister...i was sleeping in the car due to the long and winding journey...but i woke up after hearing the Azan...BY MYSELF...and GUESS who went to shook me awake? damn sister...she hit me like i was a doll..WHAT THE FREAK! i hit her back, duh! my quick reaction...anyway, i lay still like a manequin...not responding to her words, who cares her actions...what the hell lah kay....i feel shitty.
this is what i feel about the chalet:
i think its not gonna be a blast,
its gonna be full of bad chaos,
its not gonna be fun,
there will be tensions there and there,
people will be bored and there wont be much fun...
alot of slacking and bitching...
some will go home as soon as they reach there..
mostly many wont be happy...
what d hell....
another piece of me written down....so....today's hari raya right? i'm supposed to be excited and enjoying myself right? well...maybe i AM enjoying myself and i AM excited but its not like those years back....i wonder why...maybe coz of the Os....kinda dampens the mood....and yah, i kinda had second thoughts about sending greetings to my friends....i don't know why but they too bring the dampness in the mood....well anyway, i'm fully booked right after Os.....WAHHAHAHAHAHA! exams not yet done and you're planing to enjoy you might say..BUT this way, i can actually look forward to something after the exams...and not just slack after it....gonna go out with my FAVOURITEST cousins to watch harry potter...i'm not a huge fan at all...but spending time with them would be the greatest thing everrr....thats on 21st....after that jyss's chalet....after that a few days off to savage for prom accessories AND scavage for chalet stuffs.....then its the chalet, and prom...after THAT i shall sleep over with my FAVOURITEST cousins and do all the sports we have been craving to do in a week...maybe more? hahah....their house is like my 2nd home....AHAHAH! swimming, cycling, jogging....whatever it is that has to be done, will be done. yeay!! all this shall be done after Os AND i have to mke myself feel good BY doing my best for the Os...feel confident after walking out of the exam hall....now, i have to continue my work....
tmr i shall attack the vending machine....wahahah!
anyway, not that i mind or whatever, but i see a trend of ppl also putting up lyrics on their blogs....wahahahahah....trend starter! wooohoo...siao lah faridah! so this means, I'M NOT ALONE!!! never was i am....
i'm missing the book already.....its so damn sweet...altho they got together at d age of 50+...so OLD!!!!
*i shall wait for that special silence to occur woth that special someone...
due to this, i shall put up this sweet song....
More than words - Extreme
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
another piece of me written down....hyelo
i wish all muslims who had actually fast-ed this ramadan a good Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!
hope u ppl enjoy ur days of celebration and then continue with the Os!
anyway, i'm sad to say, I'VE FINISHED READING THE BOOK! and i tell you, its so damn romantic...a true love-story of two best friends...after 50 years, they actually got together...after all the rocky times each other had away from each other....they got together and lived sweetly happily ever after enjoying what they love to do best.
the last letter by the male best friend, Alex,
"My dear Rosie,
Unbeknownst to you I took this chance before, many, many years ago. You never received that letter and i'm glad because my feelings since then have changed dramatically. They have intensified with every passing day.
I'll get straight to the point because if I don't say what I have to say now, I fear it will never be said. And I
need to say it.
Today I love you more than ever; tomorrow I will love you even more. I
need you more than ever; i
want you more than ever. I'm a man of fifty years of age coming to you, feeling like a teenager in love, asking you to give me a chance and love me back.
Rosie Dunne, I love you with all my heart. I have always loved you, even when i was seven years old and lied about falling asleep on Santa watch, when i was ten years old and didn't invite you to my birthday party, when I was eighteen and had to move away, even on my wedding days, and when we fought. I loved you through it all. Make me the happiest man on this earth by being with me.
Please reply to me.
All my love,
Alex."
sweet or not? if yes....wouldn't you want someone to confess it to you this way? well, not when you're 50 years old...but yah, you true love confessing it in a way u always contact each other with OTHER than sms....
when you really meet your true love, you'll get this silence, an awkward silence when with him/her....and when that happens, enjoy every second of it coz you'll never know what will happen next....
rosie dunne had gone thru somany tough times alone...death of parents, lost of jobs, getting pregnant b4 she was married, seeing her child grow just like her...without the pregnancy part...i guess, you will tend to be with your best friend, has to be the opposite sex thou...
"People she has loved so vividly come alive in her head during those hours she read their fears, emotions, thoughts, which had once been so real but which were now gone from her life. FRiends that had come and gone, workmates, schoolmates, lovers and family members. She had relieved her life all over again that night in a matter of minutes."
this is why i like writing...you tend to be able to re-read what you wrote down a few years ago and relive your life like it wasyesterday...this story is so touching, sweet, loving...i guess it made me actually feel the emotions so well, i nearly weld up when Rosie's dad died...i know what i want to do...i want to take up hotel management and work in a hotel...its really fun...and getting to work in such luxurious places will be very swell....well...this is it....gd luck everybody...
"sometimes fate just can't stop meddling..."
all quotes are from the book "When rainbows end" by Cecelia Ahern. catch it!