Friday, July 30, 2004
another piece of me written down....
I'll Always Be There
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling sad,
You can count on me.
I will give you a wink,
Until you smile,
give you a hug,
and stand by your side.
I'll be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever, be your friend!
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz...home sweeet home...i was home all day...eat d medicine...sleep...read other's ppl's blog...watch spiderman...chat awhile...dat's all....todays--->boring...
Thursday, July 29, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz....juz reached hm frm kk hospital...i didnt go to sch today & i wont tmr...i went to fetch my lil bro in d afternoon...den i went to bedok int wif my mommy & my lil bro...we ate lunch, talked wif my aunt awhile den went to polyclinic...wait...we paid for my dad's carpark ting den went to polyclinic...my mom laughed when i told her abt hongsheng's 'joke' abt him on his mom on his dad, bathing together n all...hahax!...oh camp....ergh!! waiting is such a chore!! a long wait for d doctor...went in...she checked..she was like "huh?! how can dat happen?!"...hahax!...she said i have to go to d hospital & get it sown...oh my god!!...i practically cried...these few days i've been crying...bcoz of d pain...bcoz i miss d camp...& bcoz of this!...ergh!!...den we went to NTUC to buy sum stuffs...saw Fahmy & Saifuddin...woops!...saw a few bgss students ah...but anywayyy...my lil bro got lost...so my mom searched for him...i had to take care of d tings she bought..ergh!! we bought d ND t-shirt den went home...(SEMANGAT!!)...saw adidah izit? wif her boifen at my void deck...isap rokok sak!...at home...i slept while waiting for my mom...den we went to KK hospital...shared my story wif my mom abt d camp...nice...in d bus, i overheard a girl's conversation wif her boifen...evesdrop!!...she has d same laugh all d time!! n she has a very sweet voice....awww...they're going to peninsula tmr for lunch i guess...heeheee...we went to d children's tower...i was begining to feel weird...coz the place is FULL of cute lil sick children n i'm one BIG girl...went in...d room's full of BLUE's CLUE's character stickers...so kiddy!!..d doctor had a look..she went "haiyoh!! must be painful..."...but she's a children doctor so she didnt know aniting...n i was suppose to go to d women's tower!! eeeesh!...ergh...we went there...d receptionist nurse is damn slow...i guess she's a newbie..well...i waited for d doctor...dis time...its a guy doctor...i'm totally uncomfortable...but he knows...he's an xpert!...he sorta showed dis note saying "have u ever had sex/intercourse before?"....eeewww!....god NO!!...ergh...he had a look and he gave me pills n pills...how am i ever going to finish it?!! i'm totally not into pills...esp those antibiotics...ergh...so much!!...me n my lil bro ate these sandwiches...machine made...i'm having constipation now!!...ergh...stupid me! careless me!...went to mcdonalds...den my father fetched us...had an arguement...at last he listened this time!! accused me for not following instructions!! hey! i follow okay!...ergh....i guess d campfire for d other batch is also cancelled halfway as well coz its raining...awww....juz like ours...I MISS CAMP!!!....i'm on a 3 day MC!! woohoo!...way d go doctor!!...ohkay lah...i end here...todays--->HECTIC!! OHKAY!!
p/s i guess noONE xcept for me classmates & him noticed i didn come to school..how sad......
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
another piece of me written down....
Bakuteh ah, bakuteh!
Undene ah, undene!
Sak-sak eh-ah, sak-sak eh!
Who u wanna be?!
MADAKAKAS
Who u wanna be?!
No. 1!
whooooooooooo MADAKAKAS!!
i miss d camp alredi.........=(...feel like wanna cry....T.J was damn fun n caring....*watery-eyes*..i hope d other grp didnt have much fun as us ah! hmph!! i wanna go back......but i surely cant do that....its done...we've gone thru it...my heart is very heavy to leave d oh-so wonderful instructors....haizz...i shall blog wat happened d last 2 days n today...here it goes...my wonderful camp xperiences....
DAY 1
my dad fetched me n sorida to sch...our bags are so damn heavy...went straight to d canteen to meet 'da bunch' of ppl at d canteen....jyss n all that larh...met mj there too...and d other D'6...so touching!!..when rai came....they were giving her hugs...she didnt hug me....=(..he met me there as well.....awww.....offered to carry my stuff but nah...i can manage..but in d end he carried my bottle....he said d last 'take care'....awww....=(....we had a spot check...they found erm...sweets, candles n lighter...there's a hp also...mrs song tot d hp torchlight was cute!....my god....den we were off.. i slept thru'out d journey....onli to wake up at lim chu kang road...i kinda had abit of giddy-ness...when we reached there...we had a briefing...we got to know our trainers...D 1st sight of T.J n Carmen, we tot d camp's going to be boringgg...lid said that as well...T.J had this very 'fat' nose...spoil his face onli.....i scratched my arm when i wanted to put down my bag..ergh!...anywayy....we shudnt judge a bk by its cover....3/2 had Poh Seng & Alicia..Alicia looked so chio n sporting....carmen look so tomboyish...3/5 had...Taufik n..hu's dat short lady??...i dono...taufik so d gd looking!!.....ahh...nvrmind....we are not here to admire them...as i expected....we got hut no. 1....shit....najihah said it was haunted....hmph!...hut 4 too...bloody hell...watever it is....i have friends ard...musn't be scared...we had our 'Belaying School'....dat instructor...was...fast n quick...but we understooded him...a few tings we had too ask are "belayer! am i on belay?!!", "Squeeze check!" and "can i climb now?!"...they'll say "Yes, u're on belay" and "Climb on"....it feels dumb to say all that but we had to ensure our safety....shazni was called out to be d demonstrator....HARHAR!! he looked pissed...we had our lunch...azman...d trainer hu instructs us on wat to do after meals...we had to do this eating cheer....it goes " hungry hungry,*clapclap*, very hungry, *clapclap*, i am hungry, *clapclap*, chikalaka piyya piyya, chikalaka piyya piyya CHIAK!"...lame lah!!...d food...wasnt dat GOOD...d rice...we can cut! d rice....d chicken...blahxz!....we ate bcoz we were hungry....no doubt abt dat...after lunch, we went to abseil!...we were suppose to wear d helmet n harness...TJ complained abt d helmet sia..hahax!..we were like...eeeee, so smelly...so stinkey!...hu said this...i dono.. "at night ah, must go wash my hair wif dettol...not juz ordinary pantene"....TJ was it?...dono lah...but when he wore d sunglasses...nicee...cute sia he...i did d ting at last!....very damn nervous man...reallie!...u cud see d ground frm d top of d tower!...yep..its full of holes...square ones...den we did d general stations...borringg....and my secret of being a dancer...WASS OUT!!...there's dis part..we had to walk on a rope...(here, we rarely use string!)...TJ told me to skip thru...my godd...but i fell..backwards...he sorta caught me...heehee...den we did dis problem solving ting...how to catch d rope without getting to d rope...we did our stuff by throwing shoes on d rope so dat it wud swing towards us....we saw, we threw, we swing!....helped favien to put his shoelace back into d shoe...den we had sum break...or did we do sum games....i cant remember...but anyhow, we did CRC next....so damn fun!!....TJ made d funny faces when d instructor was telling us wat to do...kinda kiddy...he also say words like shit, fuck and watever u can tink of in front of us...he gave us d reason dat he was still young...ehem! young..20 lehh...den...TJ forced me to go...coz i was under him for my 1st station...my grp, everyone did it...no one fell..it was like a breeze!....my next station...d guy looked good..but I don't tink I'll like him...I did d obstacle..but I realize jyss's grp wasn't doing well at my 1st station...we had to walk on wooden planks n 2 tyers...erm...my 2nd obstacle was to walk on a rope by holding on ropes...d instructor said Jason sabo me...TJ called d instructor a sissy!! and sum other words as well...ehem!...I shud'v taken advantage of d sabo..d 1st 2 ropes were twisted...hmph!!....JASON!!!...well...i breeze thru dat as well...but jyss's grp kept falling of d tyers...I guess they dono d trick...my grp didn't get to do d next obstacle...walking on a round wooden plank...hong yun was vomiting by den...I guess she wasnt fit enuf for dat..We watched d guys jump frm one platform to d swing...most of them caught it...TJ did it as well...we all sa-bo him!..he did d swinging twice plus a few chin-ups....blahahax!...we had out problem solving after dat...boorrinnng...we had to move on d benches frm one end to another end of d corridor...we prepared sumting for d campfire n played d concentration game as well...I was nicknamed "Rida"...den we had our dinner....it was better...we had fish...ok lah...better den lunch...after dinner, we had our sing-along session...we learnt a song called "a little green/sexy/strong frog"..Hehe...and a banana song...d banana song so cute...there's an echo after each sentence...we learnt d C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E S-O-N-G song...I like d verse "campfire's burning in d dark dark night, ooo yeah, yippie yippie yeah"..we also did d Gate Gato song...they chged d Gate to *ehem* tetek n Gato to Bapok...my godd...d trainers laughed when hearing it...esp Taufik...he practically made fun out of it!...harhar!...den we had our night walk...its not really a night walk...y? coz we were blind-folded n I guess we walked around d camp site onli...gosh...dat was LAME! D aim's to build confidence n trust in us n towards our frens...we were given 2 pieces of cloth and I gave d idea on how d flag wud look like..nice but it didn't turn out d way I wantd it to be...haizz...but anyhow...d flag's nice...den we had our wash up, after dat we slept...GD NITE!
Day 2
Gosh! Wat a night! I can't sleep!!...i was awaken by noises e.g chatters by my frens, d barking of dogs and d sound of d gate opening n closing!...god! wat were they tinking?!!! We woke up at around 5.30 like dat...I'm still sleepy...well...I woke up; bathe and we were all set to go! Melissa n d other girls didn't want to wake up! My god...me, jyss n lid were punctual! O yeah we were...n sum of our boys too...today's a wet wet day!...we had our morning exercise...we had to do crunches!...ergh!...pain...d horror!!...after dat we had nasi lemak for breakfast...yum yum...it was nice..but can improve abit...after dat we had our campfire preparation...we came up wif a skit...TJ told me NOT to smile when doing d 'haka' ting...i have a hunch dat WIJOYO spoilt it all!...i tink he told mr BASHAR abt d haka ting...its our idea 1st sia!!...god damn him!...how can I NOT smile when d skit's funny?? Sheeesh...hmph!!...den we went RAFTING!!...heehee...I didn't get onto d raft eventho T.J told me to...=P...we used his idea anyway...heeeheee...we were supposed to use only 20 mins but we used 1 hr!...wow!...its nice...he drenched us all...esp dun ang...he's like "WHY ME AGAIN!!" shireen very cute..she ran away frm TJ coz she didn't want to get wet...shireen n hong sheng..hehe...shireen trying to get away frm hong sheng but hong sheng's getting closer to her...harhar...mr ben tan took our pic...heehee...we tried our raft eventho it alredi fell apart in d 1st place...but it onli fell apart after d 3rd four rode it...harhar!...we went mud adventuring next..It was fun! Mr Azman followed us only to go back when it started raining...LAME LAH!!! He taught us d hornet drill…gosh! We were dirty...! Hmph! We did two times on d gravel...damn painful...we continued trekking...den it started raining...Azman u-turned,leaving TJ all alone to handle us...so irresponsible!! And he only tot abt himself!! We went on...we found a stream...so clean sia!! My goddd...we washed our shoes there...joseph said we were vandalizing nature...hmph!..we continued our journey only to hear d whistle at d other end of d stream! We were all growling and moaning coz it was so damn dirty! Den we got to play in d mud...I mean it...play in d mud..saranpal was full of mud...my godd...he told me dat d worst ting he ever wanted was his hair to be wet...even Jason was dirty!...mr hongsheng made EVERYONE dirty!! He and CY smudge d mud behind our backs...cy helped me all d way while trekking...thx cy!! TJ made us do d hornet drill at d mud puddle there!! My god...1st hongsheng smudge d mud on jyss's leg...den jyss did it on mine...lidya too...hehe...everyone was dirty except for josey, xin yi n hong yun...they miss d fun! Dun ang was also dirty...EVERYONE was dirty...I was like screaming and shouting all d way...erm...TJ shoo us away frm his 'part of land'..he threatened us dat if we were to sabo him, he'll not help us wif clean our eyes if it gets muddy...sheesh!...den we did another hornet drill in d water...TJ made us turn right n left in d water...soo many hornet drills!! But we were 'cleaner' after d last hornet drill...TJ kept telling me not to be scared...hey! I'm one scaredycat okay...dun ang helped me when trekking back...coz there's one part, he needed me to help him or sumting..harhar!!..we trek back...adam was in front...we did a head count...I said 1 alredi den adam said 2 den carried on n I said 7(I tink)...so it made it look as if there's an xtra person..haha! TJ was like "ey! Do properly can?! I don't wan any xtra head!..."hahax!!..den we carried on...I found out adam n cy was cleaning their t-shirts at d stream...like kampong ppl...hahx!..we climbed up...we had to climb up this steep part of d hill...I heard sumbodi say "eh, d two guys still washing their clothes ah?"..hahax!...den we carried on...we heard d whistle n tot we had to do d hornet drill on d gravel again...false alarm!...we created another cheer for ourselves...hahax!...it was a combine of d “bakuteh" cheer n d "mm ah"cheer...we practically said d cheer more den 20 times alredi!!..we washed ourselves abit...den had lunch...we had fried chicken!! Hmph! We're like dirty alredi!!...hongsheng kept singing d "ain't no mountain high enuff" verse!...TJ called him a sissy!! Hahax! den we went kayaking...hit shit! I was partnered wif kwan cheng! Ewww...of all ppl...d instructor was an ang moh! Nice accent...his rules were 1) have fun, 2) safety 1st & 3) have fun...hmph! Bad xperience made me moody all day long!..i sat on d blade of d kayaking paddle...! i was like...ergh...pain...ergh...nvrmind it farida...noting will happen...I practically cried myself...sum of my classmates found out n asked me wat happen...kwan cheng too!...i hate him!! I duno y...but he’s acting lame!! Saying d word dude and all...eeesh...he's making me loose my mood lor...of all d ppl...HIM! Ergh! Jyss told TJ I guess...coz when we passed him, he asked me "rida, u okay onot? Wan to go back to shore?"... I just ignore...gav him a look onli...den kwan cheng went to shore! My god...I shouted at him after dat...ergh!!! Hate him!!...den when we went to shore...jyss helped me get rid of d blood...ergh...den we went to do some team building...I went to d toilet so I missed d game...they played d concentration game...this is how it goes "concentration, concentration, this is the game of concentration" den we had to say our name twice den d name of ur fren twice...hongsheng kissed TJ...shireen got a dare...cant say wat it is...but damn disgusting...when shireen had to do a dare, hong sheng was EXCITED!! omg...jpseph did his sec 1 tribal dance...hahax! cy licked mr kua's chin...1st he say at d ear...TJ say mr kua is very horny...hahax!! I didn't play like I said...so I was d msger...den we wash up...they took their own sweet time...but den we rushed in d end...since it was raining, my grp didn't do zip line (flying fox)...my other grp of my class didn't do kayaking...we practiced for d campfire...did d "I like d way u move" song...hahax...3/5 spy sia...! We chged into d t-shirt...it's so damn big!! Den dinner...it was nice...no comments...den...campfire...we sang d campfire song...erm...1st up was 3B...i tink..they did d boogey dance...lame lahh...den my class...I laughed! Like duhh...den blalala...sang d frog song...Mr Lee BW was d sexy frog...kekek sak..! 3/5...ok lah...3C...duno wat they doing...3/2...not really clear...it rained halfway so we went to d hall...watched d pics d tchers took...ours was d last pic...hmph!..den we had some supper & gave some feedback to TJ...hongsheng surely had a lot of tings to say...all of us went back to get redi to sleep...& did our yellow booklet...den we slept! GDNITE!!
Day 3
Wake up so damn late...6.30 I must say...d other classes woke up alredi!! I was d 1st to wake up in my class!...3/2 nvr wake us up! Shine d torchlight for wat...we aint looking at u...we're in dreamland...so we got redi...everyone "chong"! tot we were going to some exercise but we didn't...saranpal was bullied by Ah Hao...Had noodles & sausage for breakfast...d noodles are so damn dry!! Den we did area cleaning...I cleaned some tables & waste some water...hahax!..hanisah gav me a hug...awww....hehe...THX! it made me feel muchh better...=)...den its time to go...we had some last min say...finished our yellow bklet den went off...everyone didn't want to go...neither did i...so sad...so very sad...TJ autographed by bklet...he wrote *Dun smile ah!! HaHaHa...All the best for your studies... TJ =p hehe...I'm gonna miss him...everyone lose their voices redi…azman's lame…had quite a gdnite sleep yesterday...we took a photo wif TJ n Carmen...I'm gonna buy it!! I don care!! Den on d bus, we said our cheer, played d concentration game...I slept also...hahax...so fun!! Everyone was really into it!! We're gonna pin d flags on our notice board...haizzz...love it!! This is d best camp of my life...=D
Sum of d tings d trainers taught us were:
Have confidence in urself
Give urself a try, have a say
Don't be afraid to try new tings
Give everyting that u've got
Trust urself & ur frens
Reached home at ard 11...took taxi of coz...haizz...slept awhile den blog...talked to him on d fon...gosh...I'm crying now...how touching...well...i guess dats all...
Sunday, July 25, 2004
another piece of me written down....
AHHHH i'm excited plus scared plus nervous plus happy plus watever pluses there are..tmr's d day...d day for camp...i shall blog on wednesday...yep..cant take my mind off my blogg including the ppl hu reads 'em...i'm gonna miss many ppl!!!...esp my darling....=(....he said to have fun..my fren said dat too...din said that as well...n ramli also....dat means I HAVE to HAVE fun..its a must..musnt fall sick there! must bring my medication...my blog there as well..as in write in my notebk...see how 'semangat' i am!! waaaaaaaa...but i'm afraid!...y? coz of d tall ladders n poles i'm gonna climb...climbing's a sinch but going down?? wow!....i cant look down...cannot!! gosh i'm afraid...i revealed my weakness...blahxz....no electronics too..omg..i sound like a person hu nvr went to a camp before!...wad d?!!...i'm also angry coz of SORIDA!!..u see...she's a foreigner...but dat doesnt mean she shudnt hav ANY food utensils ryte?? even when ur eating outside...dont tell me...no..no...i tink dats wat she does...use d plastic utensils...my god!....rich brat!...i really hate being treated like a slave and thats wat she's doing! my god....tell to bring aLL d utensils for her....i can bring d plate but fork n spoon n even a cup?!! wats wif dat?! dont tell me she drinks frm d tap...straight away frm d tap?? my goddd....i've nvr heard of any foreigners being so desperate before!...walao!.....even d camp bag she has to borrow...mayb she dont have and sum ppl too...but this is too much! wayyyy to much!...BITCH!! gd ting she's in grp B...or else...i'm gonna SUFFER.....bloodddy heLL....i DONT care...i'm gonna have fun no matter wat...wahhh can liddat hah...n for mr TIAN EN! stop bothering me...i've forgave u...isnt dat gd enuff! i'm pissed...too pissed for wat u have done!....acting like an unmatured brat...u know i'm angry at u alredi AND U CAN ASK ME SOMEMORE!!..walao!...how abt this...u mind ur own business n i mind mine...kay?!...dont u dare come and ask that bloody stupid qn again! ERGH!!!
another piece of me written down....
hyelozz...yesterday i went to carrefour....bought my camp stuffs n others as well...cost my mom so much....went out of carrefour at ard 11+....so quiet....barely ani shop open...bought food coz my mom didnt cook....erm....i guess thats all...saw a pink and a purple squishy...nice....
today...in d morning, my nose bled...ergh...ewww.....but i was kinda happi...so long nvr see my nose bled....(wat onli faridah)....erm....tot i wud be late for class but i didnt!...yeay!...hand in my donation cards...one frm last yr...coz i 'lost' it last yr...found it dis yr...blahxz...found out my fren broke up today morning...7-8 mths redi...my...sayang sey!!....helped her...helped to amend tings...i guess d guy is jumping for joy coz i told him she still had feelings for him...put some senses into him abit n he's like pissed wif me alredi...wow!...i'm such a gd fren....went home..no..walked home...bought sum stuffs..there's a cooking show at NTUC juz now...wow!..nowonder i smelled a nice cake baking scent while walking by there...sum ppl frm Suria n a Malaysian chef...nice...alot of those makciks there...at home..i surfed d net...i'm in love wif this song..d artist has dat cute face...click this to see d video-->http://launch.yahoo.com/video/default.asp?vid=1098510..uhuh...can be fitted into my fren's problem...wow!...i reallie need sumone to guide me to pack my bag...packing alone...is...not fun....well...mom's not home..so..i'll hav to pack myself..haizz...there's this astrologer[?] saying abt those Leo ppl..he said "everyone u know will get a year older."...ISNT DAT SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN??..d astrologer aniwae is Squidwort...yep..hahax!....i HAVE to go pack now...tuduluz! todays-->FINE!!
Saturday, July 24, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hylozzz....blahxz...today's remedial....was...erm....okay?...i was abiiiiit late...came a few moments after adam went into d classrm..blahxz...wasnt that late...:T.....erm...gd ting i wasnt d only one late...kok hwa lost his 5 bucks pencil...darren was like "OOoWWWWWW!!"...josey...noting to describe...dun ang...noTing..cy helped me in solving d sums...thx CY!!...den went home..gd ting i brought an umbrella...peace!....went home wif sor n jie min...talked abt tings...accompanied sor..she bought breakfast..wat i bought before..she wanted to try....gd n bad....kpo n curious...i reached hm n slept...keep waking up when i didnt want to..!...blahxz!...argue wif my 2nd bro...not a real arguement....kinda pissed at my family members as they werent moving!..i was alredi late and they are juz slacking around...not getting redi!...shitties....blahxz!...went to mendaki today...(at last!!)...it was ok.....i tot my fren how to do d sums..weepee....eng..i actuallie wrote kinda alot...mayb not that much....abt typical saturday mornings at sch..wrote abt how students arent there...how quiet it is...how dark it was....he let us hear some music when we were doing it....wahhhh...didnt know he did that...d music was classical...erm...felt abit of dizzy...but wat d heck...talked wif syimah...talk abt minahs..d person hu likes her...n sarcastic ppl....(yes, i know i'm one..)....at home...ate..did abit of packing...now in front of d comp...tmr my mom, dad n bro going to johore...must b going to collect d fruits..i wanna follow!!...but..haizzz...cannot...o yeah!...juz remebered sum stuffs...well....erm...dats all...todays-->FINE!! OKAY!!
Friday, July 23, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzzz...today.....kinda boring....typical!...soo damn tomtired!...didnt want to wake up juz now...but...argh.....must wake up....went to sch wif sorida...as pernormal...erm...wad else...studied my history...maths...erm....did sum qns...nasri gimme sweet...blahxz...erm..chem..did an xperiment...we did damn fast...i didnt know we had to add d alkaline drop by drop....just shoot onli!...harhar....mrs tan was kinda mad[?]....she kept scolding us....she caught zaki chewing...harhar...history....anihow doooo~*wif zaki's slang*...erm...recess..wat did i do during recess?...erm...was wif mj....noting reallie happened there...english...erm....wad did we do?....we....talked abt d camp tings....i reallie am not sure if i shud wear d shoe i'm wearing to sch now or sumting else...i guess...eerrrgghhh.....den we had show n tell....adam had alot of erm...'um'....yah...darrens....ohkay lah.....den we took pics at d classrm...did d nazi hand sign tingy...nasri wanted to take a pic wif me...he wanted to like..erm...hug me[?]...but i avoid it straight away....dats me...i wont let other guys do this stuffs unless its him.....heehee...peace!....spent time wif sorida during d few hrs 'interval'....i didnt go to mcc...y?..coz i was layzeee....saw my darling today...=P....harhar....me n sor went to buy sum tings to eat...den sor met her frenz....they ate together..i didnt......her fren kept making d funny tings n me,cheng yee n another fren of hers cudnt resist laughing..my god...even thou i didnt understand wat they were saying, but i understood wat they wanted to tell each other..i can interpret wat they r trying to say....like wat i did to d cats...blahxz....den, remedial...so damn boring!.....wanted to sleep!!......haizz....josey n cy was caught for chewing...we were eating...d funny ting is...i WASNT caught!....wow!...am i dat small??........sheeeshh! saw d pics..jyss developed it redi...there's one very professional pic...darren was cutting nasri's hair....n there's one pic of adam..he looked so innocent...sheeesh....adam n nasri took a pic...juz like lesbians..or shud i say gays....eeesh!....after d remedial, me n sor walked hm..saw dun ang n lena n cheng yee....found out sumting new...harhar.....goodluck dun ang!...heehee....sor said she was sick n tired of eating in d restaurants..n eating outside...whereby I am sick n tired of eating at home all d time...mayb coz she's rich n her dad came to s'pore today...once in a while....can wattt....but nvrmind....erm...came home...blahxz.......todays---->So Damn BORING!!
Thursday, July 22, 2004
another piece of me written down....
-Sometimes you need to tell someone that you are sorry-
Last night you and your best friend had had a fight.
You decide not to talk to her the next day.
She smiles at you.
You grinde your teeth at her.
She tells her friends nice things about you.
You spread Bad rumors about her.
She tries to come and talk to you.
But you push her aside.
She thinks you are a great friend.
You think she is a terrible friend.
She writes nice notes to you, telling you the best times you had had together.
You write all the bad.
Deep down you know she's sorry.
But all you have is hate.
The next day at school you find a note on your desk. It reads:
Dear Isabella,
I tried to tell you yesterday,
But you didn't let me speak,
I tried to tell you good things,but you were afraid to hear them.
I tried to smile at you,
to take away the hate.
But now it's time to tell you, even though it's a bit late.
That i am dieing.
I have a bad tumor in my sromach and it is getting bigger.I'm sorry to have to tell you that i wont be able to go to school today.
I wrote this to you today in the hospatal.
My time is up.
I'm sorry i should have told you sooner.
I'm really sorry about our argument,you are such a great friend.
I promise i shall watch over you,
Lots of love
Katie.
Isabella ran to the hospital to tell her she was sorry,
But only her mum was left.
Her hand claped over her face.
And she was crying. Down on her knees she prayed,
for her daughter Katie to come back.
You, Isabella were too late.
You wish you told her sooner and got to say goodbye.
All friends have their ups and downs, and sometimes you need to say sorry.
Don't wait for her to do it first.
Because you never know what could happen.
If you really love your friends and would watch down on them when you pass away, please send this on and show people that you really have a heart.
Even if you send this to 1 person only. You still have a heart.
But if you don't send this to anyone....i can tell you that when you need help, no one will be there for you because they will remember this letter.
Good luck.
sumting i found in my email....kinda logical except for d last part.....
ergh....blogggy hell...must type all owver agayn........today....maths....noting happen...kinda boring....eng....talked abt sum stuffs...damn boring.....chem..ms choy taught us...damn boring i tell u.....den we went to bio lab for d exhibition...d electirc exhibit was COOLLL...den we ate thosai during recess...took up 1 period of physics....it wasnt dat gd......erm....had physics test...it was okay.....i guess i'm going to fail afterall....haizz.....always fail..no hope!..mt....boring....did d wkbk, talked to d gals....den cme...had a lecture by mr lee...bw....abt 3/5....my god....he said "I'm glad i'm not 3/5's form tcher...y?...bcoz they are irresponsible ppl.....*blahblahblah*"....and he also said....he had to lie if he were to be their form tcher nxt yr....eg. "this boy is a responsible and diligent and hardworking. He hands in his assignment on time and is always punctual for school and for classes."......haizzz...kinda insulting...but i myself dun like d boys in 3/5....harz....other den that...4 out of d d'6 n me accompanied mj...she was taking her test..jia hao n zaki were doing their maths....harhar...den we went to TM to look for their camps stuffs....xcuse me...but fuck dat girl hu said "Dont act cute plsssss" to me on d bus...wad d hell....me n mj bought food den we went hm togeder....saw a keychain which had a very nice msg on it....erm.......mj went down, siti went on.....long time nvr see her!!...my god........haizzz..talked abt sch n moving...she's my next blk neighbour...we are like gonna move together!!...=D......chat wif my darling....awww.....ehem...now i noe d reasons.....heeeheee.....other den dat....noting happened....my dad lectured my mom for being too generous to my eldest bro.....haiz....aniwae todays--->FINE!! OKAY!!
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz....went to see d house model tingy yesterday night...d models were nice...learnt a whole lot of new tings there...i barely msged anione yesterday....he msged me but i barely replied....i duno y...am i dat tired??...why faridah!!! damn u!!!.....ergh.....gosh....nowadays i feel tired very very fast....i have no idea y.....did abit of my maths hw yesterday..tmr i'm gonna get in trouble...i didnt hand it in today...FARIDAHHH!!!..dat's wat ms tan is gonna say....haizzz....
today...blahxz....mj didnt come today....my father fetched me n sorida to sch today....felt kinda early......but it wasnt...went over to 3/2 n saw onli calista frm d d'6....hmm....poor ting calista...went back to my class.....studied physics....woohoo!.....but everyting juz flushed down when i saw sumbodi....bloody hell....realized sum tings abt dat person....but argh.....i felt like stamping my foot so i went out of d class....went to 3/2 again...tied my hair...blahblahblah...den....english period....we had show n tell...had butterflies in my stomach...i was called at last...kinda nervous but....i juz talked....n i clocked 3 mins!!....wad d hell..i was like O.O!!....coz we were supposed to talk for 1 n ½ mins.....wad d hell....mr lee said a girl in 3/5 talked for 2++ mins....i'm like 3!!....wow!...he had dat smile when i saw him....sumting like a giggle tooo....he told d whole class sia...sheesh...d most interesting one is joseph's....like duhh...jyss talked abt her linkin park pics....ohkay...i guess its better den talking abt ur pencil box!!...nasri talked abt it 1st....damn funny...had folk n knife in his pencil case....cheng yee, kwan cheng n hong yun talked abt theirs...damn boring...even mr lee is interested abt josey's collection....after dat....we didnt have aniting for p.e except for a presentation for lightning safety tingy...most are common sense points....like dont stand under a tree b4 or after it rains....erm....also did a wksheet abt frisbee.....eesh....mt...kinda boring...talked abt racial harmony.....recess...i tried to study....kinda 'alone' thou....i was wiff josey, jyss they all....thought me abt d reflection ting...erm.....it was a waste......maths....had no interest at all...noting went into my head......tired!....ergh...physics........ergh....ms tan(my sec 1 p.e tcher) came into d class...wah...fierce sia she....she saw dun ang chewing sumting....n she scolded him like idunowat....welll....i copied my maths work....havnt finish yet....dats y i'm gonna get it tmr...d assembly was kinda interesting but damn rushing.....he rushed thru everyting...ergh....stupid lower secs....take our time onli!....erhhhhh....mena, ramli n ibrizah sat down to eat d meal..kinda interesting thou...the ettiquetes..(is dat how u spell it?).....after dat...camp briefing....normal stuffs.....t-shirts....utensils...torchlight n such.....cant wait.....we cant bring electronics....like duhhh!....today i dun feel i'm wif frens...unless in class....after sch i stayed back for awhile n continued copyin my work...den joined izza, maz n kami....izza wrote a statement...she was m******* by..........dun say.......haizzz...went home wif them....walked home i mean...rarrr...isnt dat fun today....i didnt see him today.....=/...want to say a big sorry....duno y lately i feel this way....want to be all alone by myself.....feel unsupported.....but dat'll wear off soon...i guess once u make a mistake....it'll leave a scar in everyone involved.....i guess i have to mind my language frm now on....cy told me dat....yah...i know....mayb he hates listening to me saying dat...i will mind my language frm now on...todays---->OKAY!! BORING!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz....my everyday word....like duhh!...stepped into d house a few mins ago...kinda tired[?]...well...well...well....yesterday nite, he kinda gave me encouraging words to erm....how u say..nvrmind...haiz....mj was sick today....she went home earlier....i wasnt aware till recess...=(...poor ting....get well aight!....wanted to take photo of d d'6 today morning but everyone were not in their best....wj was kinda eager...i tink...erm....spent time wif rai during recess...sorrie rai...for d past few days i wasnt there to accompany u....i'm a bitch as u noe....true isnt it?...erm...other then dat...o yah..i paid attention during physics!...way d go faridah!....keep it up!..it was kinda interesting...wif mr lee cs talking abt how he was abt to b late for skool today...he called d sec 1nt monkey heads!...harhar...but he said he feels happy after tching us...we are such a gd class....*cough2*.....mr Ta`ren kept burping today...eeesh...but at least his burp didnt smell as bad as Stupid Saranpal's odour.....gosh he stinks...cy kept saying dat it was rather too insulting for zaki to say those tings to saranpal...but...wat d heck....he stinks...he was caught yesterday for drawing during chem lesson n such...my god....nowonder his marks drop..maths period was sooo damn boring!..i have no idea how to do d sums!......talking abt maths...i have a whole lot to hand in tmr...shitties.....copying isnt enuff....haizz...mt..d test...didnt know wat to write...conquered d dictionary....blahxz......haizz...went home....cant blieve we got into d ND concert ting...i laughed till i cry sia....my god.....eeesh.....
went home....rushed back to sch...d bus was damn late!....but gd ting indra was in it as well...so...dat means i'm not alone!...reached there...wondered y idayu they all was still in d canteen...blahxz...make a fool of myself only!..........stomach cramp...shittzzzz...looked for d band room key...d ground's hot hot hot......rawr....salihah juz bought a new hp...juz like rahman's one...my cuz.....but his has a blue circle tingy ting...they complained to osman coz they didnt want to do d excercise...today's steps are rather interesting...but i cant get d steps yet...slow!!! argh......he saw my flaws many times sia!...i know i have so many.....billions n zillions of flaws...haizz......went home wif wani, izza, mazlin n kami....kinda fun...bought d airbatu m'sia....d guy was sooo grumpy!!...ergh....juz woke up frm sleeping....harhar...we were kinda irritating..mazlin's loud....wani too...they were pushed right at d back bcoz of being loud.....mazlin moved in front thou....duno frm where......blahxz......said hi to adawiyah on d way..so long nvr see her....haizz....heard a conversation....my neighbour is sad bcoz of d moving ting...we ALL are...he wants to move to site B....blk 182 there...near nad's hse....awrrrr....haizz....but rest assured...we are going to move on mid 2008-start 2009...so...yah....i'm able to spend ample time wif my frens n neighbours for now....haizzzz....as thou its d end of d world....wanna go see d hse tingy now...tooodlesss....todays---->TIRING!! FINE!!
Monday, July 19, 2004
another piece of me written down....
me again...writing my thoughts...i feel like i wanna say gdbye to everything for once...but not for all.....juz wat i think.....its like, d more i say hello or anything else, d more i wanna say gdbye...n d faster i say gdbye, d faster d problems shoo away...(sumtims).....d case is, i nvr wan to say gdbye....rarely me saying gdbye...its bothering me y i'm like this...is it bcoz i dun wanna hurt ppl?....or isit bcoz.....its juz me.....sumtimes i hate myself for not saying gdbye earlier....or saying gdbye too early.....it hurts saying goodbye....all my life, i wan to say gdbye to the most hatefull ting in my life....problems............problems here, problem there, problems everywhere. sumtimes it happens bcoz of ME!...me i say! M-E!!....fuck sia.......n y do i feel d person has said gdbye alooong time ago when he/she is still there?....everything feels dead.....feels soo dead....
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz......today is juz any odinary days which whizzes past juz like dat...when u realize it, its alredi overr.....haizz.....cant help to think today, most of d ppl i know are pretty quiet...i mean...where's d 'kecoh'-ness in 3/2???....what has happen???...gosh....i'm so out-dated n i'll forever be dat way.....my class is also quite quiet.....d key-word here is quite....what's wif d quietness today???....i know y i'm quiet...coz i'm tired.....but dat doesnt mean d rest has to act dat way....sorida said i looked blur...harhar....she's quite talkative today....nasri is kinda quiet as well...i must say......so is josey...n darren....its not fun....y is everything changing so vast??....gosh i hate it when this happens...makes me feel as thou I have done sumthing wrong.....sumting very wrong.....i shalt not ask n keep myself updated then....if dat's wat makes everyone happy...ergh.....y those it has to be this way??......my godd....n at home...rarely come home wif nobody at home....slept as soon as i reached home.....when my mom came home, she didnt talk much....when i woke up, nobody talked....d tv wasnt switched on to d normal volume...it was on mute....noone talked.....when i asked sumting, den she answers.....my father closed d door...has there been a fight?? a quarrel??? did sumting happen while i was asleep? or is it i'm always asleep n not aware of such things....feeling rather warm today....is it bcoz of d weather??....or is it bcoz of a problem that happened a few days ago which made everyone not everyone......felt so fuck-up in d morning........went to d other class...nobody to really talk to....went out like nothing happened.....found out i pasted one of d ear-shaped ppr cuttings wrongly...n when d song started playing, i found out they go redi....oooh u noe hu u r.....fine then....i wont bother.....gooodbye! todays--->FUCK-UP!! WARM!! DAMN QUIET!!
Sunday, July 18, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyeloz....today..i went to madrs in d morning...kinda fun...much interesting today..d new substitude ustazah(tcher) told us a whole lot of stories..kinda funny as well....sum of d students didnt want to go for break...harhar.....other den that...everyting went on fine...no scolding frm any uztazah-s...den i rushed home...changed n went to meet d rest at blk 108...where r all my tshirts?!..shitties......walked there...didnt have any energy thou...ergh...so tired....erm..went to hawa's hse...ate alot of stuffs....we were like having a kenduri or sum sort....me, izza n gang together wif huda n khai were laughing like nobody's business...after eating, we started...d 1st part was ok....came d 2nd part...d part where d 6 ppl had to dance....joget as they say....d other's went off 1st.....gosh..d most interesting part will be d part we do silat...all of us were laughing like hell when we did that...esp mazlin....ergh!...but we practiced practiced n practiced....3/4 hrs straight....hawa's sis was like "god...cant we listen to sum other song??? i'd been listening to this song for more than 3 HOURS!!"...alisah...eeeee...shit sia her....her high pitch voice...her sexiness...god...ewww...freak sia!....she's not cute...she's irritating...damn irritating...my leg hurts...i'm damn tired.....all d hw have not been done yet...d thought of everyting makes it worst...ergh.....reached home at ard 8.30pm.....ran some errands on d wae home...ergh!....bloody hell.....i'm gonna eat for now...do hw after dat...todays--->TIRING!! FINE!!
Saturday, July 17, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz.....yesterday night was terrible...i was 'shot' down by d horrible migraine....i tried sleeping....worked abit....mom told me to eat panadol but i didnt...blahxz...later yesterday night, i heard my parents n 2nd bro talking abt a new house...i wondered y.....i mean...we used to think abt getting a new hse but its onli btwn mom n me or sumting..but this time..my father's involved..gosh.....a new house...sumting like nad's...i dun like that....i reallie dun like d idea...coz i love my house....d way it is....where it is...every single corner of it...its full of history n memories..sweet n sour...if we go to a new hse, it'll not be like wearing a new shirt...i've been living here for practically my whole life...chging to a new place will be sooo NEW[?]...haizzz
today...woke up...went for remedial..(almost forgot abt that)...my migraine detoriated[?]...sorida called to ask wether i'm going wif her onot...but it was raining...i saw her at d bustop..my papa fetched me to sch..erm..saw her going down d bus...den frm den onwards i was bhind her...yep..maths remedial wasnt great...it was so blahxz...boring n fast....walked home..almost forgot abt my umbrealla..gd ting josy reminded me..den i walked wif jun...reminded jun not to read d bk while walkin...she'll hit a wall if she does...blahxz...bought breakfast for my dear 2nd bro....sheeesh..met sorida on d way..see!..told u i was bhind her...at home...used d comp...den had migraine...shitto...tried sleepin.....ergh...hmph...he so caring...i'm so grateful...didnt go mendaki....migraine...i tink its bcoz of too much comp....den......most of d time i slept....watched abit of tv...listened to d radio abit....read d bk abit...msged him....other den that...i went to my granny's hse....not many ppl....two of my aunties' families were there...syafinaz.....d little baby girl....looked abit like laohan..no offence....she's damn damn shy..said hi to her n she looked down....my uncle wanted to carry her...she cried like nobody's business!...always wif her mom...if not her mom, her dad....found out my 2nd bro n her shared d same bdae date...16 july....my mom forgot abt it...harhar!...how embarrasing....haiz...erm...HAPPY BELATED B'DAY ABG DIN(24) & SYAFINAZ(2)!!......WOW!....my bro's twelve time her age...for dis yr....my big aunty leaned on me...so d heavy sia...!....den went home...met two of my neighbours...they were rather frenly....d 1st ting they ask were "are happy abt moving to d new house?" n "r u excited?" n "found a new house alredi?"..i was like...wats wif dis new house ting?!...found out...argh...my blk..n i guess d other 3 blks' gonna b demolished....sooon....haizz..mom said we're gonna move to d space near d pizza hut there....i was like..haizz...dowan to move!! i DONT WANT TO MOVE!! alot of work....alot of memories....alot of things have to b done...memories have to b left...juz gone wif a swing of a giant metal 'ball'...say gdbye to d walls, d doors, d beautiful wall...d memories....d sight of my pri sch...my neighbours...my frens...all d shops..all d frenly ppl dat i knew or sum that i did not know...haizz.....i'm sad...so sad......
hu d hell is ISbedok ???....i nvr knew that guy?! received a call frm his bro..my god!...wat d hell..go delete my easy to remember no. lah! call me for wat!...farker....menyebok je...menyampah!...bloody hell.....haiz.....todays--->SAD, BORING.
Friday, July 16, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz...how are u ppl??...fine? that's great!...hehex....i feel rather cheery today....mainly d reason is bcoz its my two mths anniversary wif him?...hehe...went to sch wif sorida..noting much happen...we barely speak....waited for him...but he told me to go up to sch 1st...rather disappointed..but...in class...he called me..y?.....(asal seh?!)...met him..den he gave me a 'bouquet' of lollipops...i was like....speechless....haiz.....hmph!...pity... .i'm nvr gd in showing my feelings...haiz...but i'm sooo happy inside...i really am....many of my frens were like...'faridah..y so happy today?'...heeeeheee....overwhelmed inside...shud i? mayb i shud....kkk...he is d 1st to ever giv me presents.....aniwae...mj was like..."he's gonna make u like him more than dat -sumone-"...i guess...=D...erm...we ate d super sour sweet during maths lesson...harhar....everyone had dat "ergh! sooo souuwerrr" face...harhar...joseph...d freak guy...harhar...irritating...dun ang sat at his normal place...harhar....he love it lorh...cy...noting much...cy n dun ang got not taste butts!...they did have any reaction to d sweet...!...wahlao...chem..boriingg...history...we cut 2 pieces f ppr full of 'ear-shaped' shapes which had d hist notes in it..took d freakin period to cut them..i'm so bloody slow...recess...ate...bought d ss practical bk..hawa told me to come for mcc today...sheeesh!...found out all d sec 3 xpres girls nvr attend yesterday's practice...NOWONDER!...eng...we arranged d tables n chairs to a semi circle..we had this 'game' on finding hu's guilty...sumting like that...it was taped!..both taped N video taped....at last saranpal was found guilty...harhar!...evil me...mr choy is very much used to my class...i guess..he comes to my class twice during both mr lee bw n cs 's classes...after sch, followed raider to her house...bought sumting to eat...then search practically d whole sch...found them in d sec 4a's class...MY GOD!!...i'm onli involved in d skit tingy...very much not like my idea!...argh! but watever...i'm not involved in much stuffs...juz so called 'wash d clothes' part...hmph!..watever lah...chem remedial....NOONE had any mood to study....pity..pity...we shud have sum rest..hmph...nooo mood at all....msged my darling....heehee.....Happy 2 month anniversary Dear! May we last......... todays-->FINE!!
Thursday, July 15, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz....today was filled wif boredness which soon turns to laughter....josie didnt come today....four ppl didnt come today...josie, melissa, adam n denise(how do u spell his name?)..i'm not suprised y denise didnt come...fuckingly lazy guy...hate him!..adam n josie are sick....melissa..i duno wat happen....erm...wat did we have today...maths...kinda boring...dun ang was shifted behind...saranpal sits at dun ang's place now...stupid saranpal.....SS!!...cy now very lonely...awww....erm...chem...ms choy taught us...ee...her voice sucks!..(no offence) she has a big nose[?]...sheesh...we went to d book fair b4 recess...bought a book!...jun n me were like...yeay!..heehee...tank u SORIDA!!...i shall pay u back tmr...i sense a fight or quarrel btwn jun n shireen n may...coz...lately jun has been minding her own business...very lonely girl....she was like "aniwhere but there" juz now...Note to jun: If u need anione to talk to...i'm here..=)...read d book....saw ms rosehana in d 2c classrm..told hafizah wen jun n all...they were like.."MISS ROSEHANA!!!"...went to d canteen to do my canteen duty....i saw him...=D...on d way back to class...evryone was like "ehhh..ms rosehana!!..HELLO!!"..harhar...other then that...physics was ok...same as usual...mt...we talked alot...nasri was irritating..salman too...he was seated at d back coz he was tooo annoying...mdm marlinah was too irritated...i didnt do my work!..wooops!...cme...we had show n tell...AT LAST!!..kiat sun...paused too much....favien...very fluent...jun...very nervous...lost of words...dun ang...not bad...sorida...ok...was that all..o yah...lidya...d thing or shud i say d coin box was soo cute...heehee...aniwae...evriting was ok...after that..i ate lunch wif mj...saw a couple...=/...suddenly i felt hot...blahxz....mj fell out for guides for awhile then me, mj, tian en n ashryll went to parkway....ashryll bought sumting for that sumone of his...very nice...tian en...made me laugh till i cry...esp d part....in d bus...i shall not xplain wat he said..mj tripped FIVE times...wif NOTING in front of her or aniting...mj..mj...hahax...tian en-->DONKEY...ashryll--->PENGUIN...mj--->CAT[?]...erm..me....u dowanna know...tian en irritated wif me i guess...he talk or ask me qns..i nvr reply him....HAH!.....ashryll always wif mj...da couple of da day!..tian en treated us ice cream!..n i went out wif him only today...i dun even know him dat well...harhar...suddenly tian en can remember lots of tings abt me..SHEESH!......it was filled wif lots of crap...hahax..went home....ate...blah blah blah...aniwae...todays---->FINE!! OKAY!!
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyeloz.....erm...today...started out well...ended well as well...but along the way.....argh...jus read wat happened today shall we....
morning....did noting....kinda boring...eng...stupid mr lee..nvr do show n tell...brought my box for d two days alredi...he keeps saying "class, pls bring sumting for show n tell tmr"...e-ve-ry-DAY....shitt....today wednesday ryte?....erm..p.e....played frisbee....nasri threw d ting n hit my stomach...AUUU...pain...my grp didnt do well..err..err....u know wat i mean...mt...read d textbk...did we?...yah..we did...no...we read d magazine..gosh...i totally forgot...me n jun went to d toilet...we practically sat on d floor in front of d fan..soo damn tired....it was soo hot!.....recess...erm...talked to mdm salenah...for today's practice...darren called me a BITCH today...bloody fucker...hahz!...joseph was feeling sick today...see lah...haizz....pass...me....d...virus...i wan to get sick!...haizz....during maths lesson..we ate d warhead sour sweets...i ate one..half of d whole ting coz it broke...its alredi sour..n i laughed...dat made me cry...hahax..sheeesh...haiz...nasri called me w-e-a-k...shit guy.....cme...boring...physics...sux...i failed my physics test oryte!....my day was getting betterr...n d results totally ruined my day!...i cried abit...evrione was kinda quiet...they probably knew abt it...mr lee cs sux....i'm such a stupid girl....everyone passed! i failed...i'm such a failure...damnit!...haiz....pc...i didnt hav any mood...eventhou sum of d jokes were lame funny..my previous reaction was a feminine ting to do...ergh....mr lee bw complained d floor was very dirty...he was talking to me...i was like "later den i DOO"..-roll eyes-...haiz...josey, darren, chee yuan n dun ang......suddenly they can recognise when sumbody's unhappy...esp ME...haizz.....after sch mr lee bw was 'accompanying' me in d classrm...dats wat he said..he asked me y i'm soo gloomy....i juz nodded or shooked my head....mostly....no mood to talk...aniway....he's tooo caring...i hate tooo caring tchers....they're tooo lenien...which is bad....very bad...yep...cy swept d floor..told me n hwee shan to go home 1st...he knows..he knows....haiz...mcc...cant be bothered to do anyting but looks like i did alot of tings...shitty...sum quarrel btwn emy n maz.....haiz...u all ah....dun liddat..me talked wif nad n mashita...they were studyin poa...hahax...nad very noty!! haizz.....at LAST!...hawa to da rescue!...yeay!...hahx...went home wif wani...harhar...d same old ting everyone said...haiz...this was wat sumbodi said to me juz now.... "haiz...when u smile i melt inside. im worthy for a minit of ur time..i really wish it was only me and u..."..haiz.....wad d heLL!!...anyway...i'm not gonna betray him...noway...anyway...today-->STRESSED, UNFINE!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
another piece of me written down....
ohkay...hyelozzz....today...nothing much happen..i'm gonna breeze thru wat happened...oryte....went to school...talked to effa...erm...saw d 2R walking together....eng...went to d library again but went back to class earlier coz too many pupils were there...physics..did an experiment...blahblahblah..ss..did my hw....did d foolscap ppr tingy...recess...was wif rai...did sum how u sae...strokes?...i duno wat its called...blahxz...erm...i brought my treasure box...everyone(almost) explored it...many said my face was cute...-roll eyes-.....after recess...wats after recess?..erm...mt?...mt..kinda boring.....cme...boring as well....learnt that most of d class agreed on not to go steady...well..its not wrong....erm....he saw sum of my pictures...god!...i was like wad d hell...but...ergh...he said sumting yesterday dat...ergh...nvrmind...erm....wats b4 cme?.....o yah..maths....borrrinnng...after sch..ate lunch wif rai....had sum tutoring by their maths tcher...she's so nice...has that...sweet n innocent face..sumting like ms kang....but nicer..harhar...mcc...spent time figuring out the play....no..a sketch...sumting for d national day concert...a musical sketch...i'm really irritated by d sec ones n d other sec 3s....not those hu helped me...ppl busy thinking....ask them for help oso canot sia!...wad d hell...all they did was talk...play...talk...n more play...shit ppl!....me n zawani went home....bought meself ice cweem...heeeheeee......always cheers me up to eat sumting that i desire....other then that...noting happen...i'm so damn tired...sick n tired...not physically sick thou.....haizz....seelah...my mom n my bro argueing bcoz of sum cds they want to throw away...hahax!....aniway...this was sumting sumone said... life is beautiful...thiz world is an ugly place...but u're so beautiful to me......astonish..or watever d word is..ergh..shitt....dat sumone had dat look on dat face today....ergh.....todays--->TIRING..
Monday, July 12, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzzz...argh...i hate my immunity system...i barely get sick n i'm NOT loving it....kkk...yesterday i WAS sick..today...i'm my old self back...shit!...today's cold...i mean it!...in d morning...felt abit shivery...i was tinkin..shud i or shudnt i go to sch today?...i went anyway....gave idayat a stare while at d bustop..HAR HAR!..u still owe me sum info...went to sch wif him..heehee....joseph...my granpapa~!...hav u taken ur medicine?..hehe...found out sumting....i shant add it here..noone shud know abt it...for now...erm...darren...was kinda irritated today..esp by lidya...harharhar!...by me?...nahh...harhar...dun ang...n chee yuan!...freak ppl!...saw josie's guinea pig..soo cute..harhar...went to d exhibition...kinda cool...d geography part stinks!..4/2 was also there....sheeesh!..maths remedial was okay...like normal...ss was...erm...interesting as usual?...hist..BOORING!.....chem...ergh...dun talk abt it..there...a moment in d classroom...heard nasri askin sumbodi hu dat person liked...hmph!....but i cant hear further coz too many ppl crowded ard my table..juz bcoz ms tan was there..sheeesh...it was raining!...shitties...me n jun were walkng as fast as we cud n we got 'stuck' at this shelter near the pri sch there...we were like..wanna go? don wanna go...2 girls n a guy came...sec 2b students i can tell....sheeesh....yah..fatimah said a girl said i was c-----.....i was like......huh?!..u sure onot??..shittz...aniwae we walked across to d other blk...all drenched..not quite...he was waiting for me..heeeheee....jun so cute...har har...den he sent me home..raarrr.....peace!......stupid weather....i hope i get sick again...1 day of feeling sick isnt enuff....its onli minor stuffs....i want it to be like old times...went in n out of d hospital a few times...i miss those times...i dont think it will happen again..unless i get into an accident or i become totally.....totally...-sumting-.....haiz....at home....slept awhile...did sum of my hw...still hav more to continue wif...dats all...otey..todays--->FINE!
Sunday, July 11, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz...today....went to madrs....yippiedoo...i'm sick today...kindof...well...i was sneezing like hell....put sum oil on my knee...kinda better today..^_^...madrs..1st lesson..kinda boring..didnt know wat to write at d back of my ex bk...i always write sum thoughts for d week bhind my ex bk...heehee...2nd lesson...fuyyohhh!...d substitude tcher was damn fierce....she shouted to tis guy hu said he wanted to slap her...she dared him to...serves u rite! bloody fucker!..hate u to da core man.....i love dat tcher...way d go cher!...sumtimes i grateful to a tcher for being fierce...y? coz they can shut up the bloody mouths of those bloody irritating ppl...break..noting happened...i felt sick...so...i was like..where's d tissue..hahax!...shamimi.....funny girl....ade2 je die tau...den....hidahny..was d main cast for her skool drama! cool!...naj....still d same...ainaa...kinda frenlier?...linda....not much chg...still d same..blahxz..3rd lesson...kinda boring...d bloody ppl..shitties...since d 2nd lesson...they've bcom..more..'involved' in d lesson?...kindof...4th lesson...my fav tcher..harhar...nice..filled wif laughter n kindness...hu doesnt know wat 'setubuh' means?!!..i know i do...harhar...after that i went home...walked home to b exact...i'm too used to walking..i duno y...tell me to walk frm wherever to wherever...n i will..unless it is damn far...aniwaez....i've got noting to write more...i'm soo not in d mood....so..todays--->FINE!!
Saturday, July 10, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz....today we had our speech day!!....tis was how it went...
i woke up late....late enuff to meet izza...she called me...i was like...wat time izit..oh..5.39...WAHTT...wat d hell...den blahblahblah.....went out of d hse at 6...met them at 6.30 sharp....rarr...emylia kept talking abt d ghosts...mazlin was cute...she was like shut..UP!!...i dowanna hear it anymore!...emylia irritated her..harhar..we saw mdm salenah in her car...my god...went to d pac rm n started washing our faces n all that....chged to d costume...yippiedoo...den we started to do d make up n such...i 'sisik-ed' many ppl's hair..i wonder hu did mine....mazlin was it?...i think so...my mom came LATE as usual...but she came at last...my hair sucked...so damn diff to b combed!...painn...painn..OUUu..hawa andini liza n marlinah were there...very d nice....yea...hawa did d hair..liza did d pinning..marlinah did d pasting of d fake eyelash while andini did d glittery part..d pasting part stinks!!...it smelt like vomit...REALLIEE!....mdm norlinsah make-up-ed me....den went to d girls to do their hair n such.....huever took my sanggul!!..shit u larh! heck girl...leave me wif d no gd one..felt like crying sia!...(xcuse me for my singlish)..went to mdm marlinah n did d samping(s)..my mom?...she added sum extra tings...n did d sampings..overall..she didnt do much....after d tchers went off...we touch-up on our faces...did stuffs..played wif d make up...emylia n her gang kept taking pictures..!...i didnt have my camera soo cudnt take any pictures....my mom was holding d camera!...sorry jane...we cudnt take pics wif u....we were n d midst of getting redi...den...it was OUR turn!...we practiced d dance b4..i FELL once...tripped TWO times....shitt..my knee still hurts...kinda blueblack...=/....mdm marlinah was damn bored...peehee...i was damn nervous....1st ting...i'm going out FIRST...2nd ting...there's alot2 of ppl...3rd ting...he's there!...my mom as well....like duhh...god...ibrizah kept telling me to relax...gosh...i was afraid i wud fall or miss a step or two....but i didn..yeay!....success...d finale...ohkay...had fun.....popped a popper...ewww...d song jus sucks...i saw...my mom.....idayat!!....ramli oso...adam....fauzy...i tink...i saw him last!...when he was speaking to his fren...sit so far!!...hmph!....then we went back to d pac rm...ohkay...d other girls were scolded coz they chged n washed their faces b4 they cleared up all d stuffs...SECOND time oredi hor...(sorry abt da singlish)..den....washed our faces after putting back all d stuffs...took over 1/2 an hour to wash our hair n stuff...heeesheeee.....felt very nice but my hair was sooo entangled!...dayu 'distangled' it?...THX!...den we ate at d canteen...my mom forced me to take alot...gosh!...but i tried to finish it...later we went to d lib w/out my mom of coz..i guess my mom was kinda fick up(?)..i dono...hiazz...at d lib..ate brownie!!....dayu ate d chicken tingy...okay but...d chickins quite..how u say..untender?....i haf no idea...weder take abit frm here n there...blahxz...den we went home...my hp got no batt at all soo....it wasnt of any use...hmph!...must charge way before hand!...i slept...like duhh...its my everyday routine!...
today....not much happened...as u can see...not much to do wif my emotions...coz i was busy wif my stuff n all..i hadnt had time to like take note of any discrimination.....now that u i noe how u fell...its finally over wif....i agree i'm not perfect n nvr will be...but...i'm disturbed by evryting u do...its like evryting u do has abit of discrimination of me...i fell that way...towards alot of ppl anyway...i wonder how u cud like...read my mind....but whatever it is..i'm glad dis is over....u've found sumone....n i hv too....i shant disturb u....for any case i might hurt u again....but...juz come to me if u wan anyting.....applies to everyone...really..but dun mind me if i kinda avoid u or shoo u off....i'm not d face2face kind....which brings me to my weakness....n to him...thx for wanting to b there for me...now i shall rest assured there's sumbodi out there hu will b there...n to my closest frens also...sori jane...totally out done it..i'm juz those kind okay...thx rai!...for being there when u see i need help...=D......but...one tings for sure..i cant afford to lose my frens...even one...they're really precious to me....
well thats all i've gotta say.....todays-->TIRING, FUN!
Friday, July 09, 2004
GET RID OF EVERYTING!! DONT FEEL THIS WAY!! U DONT DESREVE FEELING THIS WAY!! DONT FALL INTO THE TRAP!! EVEN IF SHE SAYS ALL THOSE TINGS, U MUST BE STRONG!! PLUCK UP THE COURAGE!! DONT GET DISHEARTENED!! EVEN IF SHE SAYS THOSE THINGS! EVEN IF U KNOW U DONT MEAN SUCH THINGS! EVEN IF U KNOW EVEYTING WILL NEVER BE FINE!! THINK POSITVE!! DON'T LOOK BACK!! DONT FALL....DONT LOOK BACK fARIdAH...JUST DONT GO BACK TO ALL THOSE TIMES N FALL.....DONT....DONT..
a cry for some help....a cry that nobody hears...a cry that'll be ignored for eternity....a cry that will be in d depths of d heart...n nvr to be out...now...d cry is out..but not fully out...it wont be...
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz...oryte...today i have have HAVE to sleep early..HAVE to wake up damn early tmr..5 in the morning maybe?...shit....make up n costumes...hate them...but wat to do....its all for d show....other than that..its today...okay...noting happen much today..went to sch wif him.....kinda miss him...blahxz...as usual saw idayat get down at d bustop b4 d sch's one...nampak sah tgh tunggu kan si dektu~...tried to do hist hw in class but onli did one...pathetic qn...went over to 3/2...didnt bring anything for show n tell..no show n tell aniwae...maths..i didnty pay any attention at all..sheeeeesh...chem..we actuallie finished d experiment!!...after 2 unsuccessful n wasteful experiments...i guess its bcoz mrs tan 'didnt talk'...hahax...history..didnt pass up my hw..no one did except for sorida....had d mr choy in our class today...d lesson was kinda boring...its like very damn obvious that mr lee 'rehearsed' b4 the lesson..he nvr taught us like that before...sheeeesh...mr choy...wat can i say..he has that old but young look....i duno how to describe...bloody hell....after sch...waited for weder...she was like "u waiting for me??"...gosh...noh..i'm not...blahxz...i dropped my tshirt 4 floors down!!..i was like "OH NO!! SHITTT"...hafizah np was like -.-....sheeesh...hmph..saw her...but i shant say nothing...after mcc went to lib..den went to mcdonalds...ate ice cream..yummy....bought d stuff for tmr...n then walked hm....wif mazlin all that lah...they're soo noisy....said i can b wani's substitude...blahxz.....watever d heck is....thats all..at home...my mom seemed very nice...she's watching the America's funny animal show or sumting...hahax...mom said "hah, tgk faridah...tgk die mkn...tgk tu..." which means 'see faridah..see d rat eat!..see..see...'..-.-..d rat was spoonfed...sheeesh...
i read d july lime edition n theres sumting interesting..sumting i just learnt in cme...
7 DEADLY SINS of Dating
-thou shalt not be cocky
-thou shalt not move to fast
-thou shalt not talk abt money
-thou shalt not brag
-thou shalt not over-do it
-thou shalt not act cute
-thou shalt not put out on d 1st date
har har...try to get wat it means..anyway todays--> FINE, OKAY.
Thursday, July 08, 2004
another piece of me written down....
oryte...today....it rained...so nice...usually u wake up n smell d coffee..but dis time..i woke up n smell d delicious smell of curry..yep..u've guess it..my mom cooked curry in d mornin..early..ard 5+..woohoo......so cold..saw __________ walking wif -blahblahblah- n weder n ramli...i forgot to bring my cloth so i wonder if weder got my msg...blahxz...rAArrR..other than that...i talked alot during maths thats d particular 2 rows were being punished...i'm sooo fuct up...my row n joseph's row are d two most frenliest row ever...maybe coz jyss n darren sits in dat row n lid n me sits on d next row..blahxz...hope u understand...i shant say more....me jyss n josie talked abt hair!..omg...josie said he's gonna buy d hair growth tonic...shheeeesh!..recess...everyone acted weird...blahxz...fizah!!...she 'patted' my cheeks...eewww....n i think he saw it..FIZAHH...i dono y...everyone's acting damn weird...NOone..i say rarely EVRYONE ever said hi! like dat before...mayb coz they read my blog or sumbody told them sumting...physics...i actually kindof understand the ting..i took interest...WoW...malay...full of laughter esp where i sit...d titles given are sooo not into the subject like 'teacher choked on durians'..n..'teacher killed principle becoz he was sacked'..n..'teacher marries van Helsing'...wOw...sheeeesh....cme...not that interesting but...watever....after sch...gave d form to mr tng.....he didnt seem to take any notice...nevermind..my mom didnt let me follow rai n fizah n nisa go bishan!! ARGHHHHH....at home...eventho my mom said she wanted to go sumwhere...i slept!!..*evil grin*......i'm so damn tired..
my head hurts like hell...shitt...bloody hell...aniwae todays--->COLD..FREAKY..FINE
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
another piece of me written down....
oryte...this was how my day started...not good as usual..kkki woke up...kinda early!...blah blah blah...looked for my se-tupid shorts!....which wasnt used later....shitz...i was kinda late when meeting sorida...haizz....at class, raar...english was super un-exciting....i was sooo tired coz of yesterday.....we played wordies during pe..PE! wordies doesnt suit PE!...do u know wat PHYSICAL education means?? sheeesh...then, at 9.30 i went off....went to d PAC room...no one was there..u-turned...saw dayu they all....chged...looked for d cd....told d sec 1 girls to buy some food for d ppl at d PAC rm....sooo pathetic..blah blah blah...i watched d march pass tingy..i was cool...cud see clement frm d pac room..WOW...so distinguishing...cud see rai too...har har...i watched d consert!....i mean...part of it....d facets part...to me it was nice...yep...d potpurri of senses dance was there!..wow....it was damn nice....haiz...but will they do it?...will they try their best?.....our turn...i made a mistake...WOW...dats un-surprising.....den...spent our time at d canteed till 12.25.....i tink..or later was it?...my class was like half-EMPTY...or shud i say 2/3-empty...my tcher cancelled d test...WOOHOO!!...BOO...there will be a test tmr den..shitt....i gotta study...must pass! must pass!!...at class....adam!!!...ArrRRR....he stroke my head bcoz od a dare....shant say more...or else sumbodi wud go looking for him..blahxz....d assembly was cool but our simply pimple students didnt want to simply clap their hands..simply pathetic....everyting died down within a few mins...so un-enthusiastic...den i went home n slept..yeay!...
today also.....i was still feeling no goood...u know y? coz...blahxz....rai told me i made d wrong choice...well i neither made d wong nor d right choice...there's a consequence to all choices made....at least one...for me...yah....wats done is done...i will nvr be in a grp...i shall be..alone.....sumting i've hated all my life...but cant be helped....walked home n had a looooong 'discussion' wif myself abt is happening now....i will always be an outcast...its a normal ting for me...even thou.....ahh...nevermind....but den...i shudnt be in one...coz it'll be like last year..i nomore mix around wif them coz i didnt want to be leftout...n another thing as well....shant mention more....well...if they start 'uniting' themselves coz their in d same class...i cant juz say "hey, can i be in ur grp?"...its too embarrassing...i know ______ reads my blog.....well...how can u say don tink abt it too much when all d tings u have said hurts me to da core?...n juz saying sorry juz like that isnt good enuff when i've never called u anything like wat u've called me...u've said dat u'll NEVER come back to me animore....but wats dis i hear?? how initiative of u.......i'm sooo pent up inside...wif everything...n anything......hmph....i shant say more....todays--->TIRING!! NO GOOD!!
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
another piece of me written down....
today is bad...bad bad day...dis is how it went...i woke up late...not dat late...but...ergh...my mom alredi started nagging me abt using the comp!..how addictive can d comp be?!! den sorida left me....=(....so i took 222...shitties...met him...sorie...i didnt have any mood to talk...too much pent up emotions....at d staircase, i let myself stamp d floor...gosh it felt good...then in class, kok hwa n chee yuan were sitting on my desk n chair!! shitties....was it kok hwa?...yes it was...then i stomped my feets again...den went to 3/2...stomped my feet again then talked to mj n rai abt...blah blah blah....i was kinda late for assembly....gd thing i made it on time..n i shouted on d wrong person!! so...embarrassing!! argh...how 'great' can my day get??...gd thing no one checked on my attire...shoelace!...gosh...
class....very very bored n sleepy....maybe coz yesterday i slept late...adam!...shit u....bloody ass...physics was okay....did an experiment...i learnt a new word....wat was it...erm....sumting to do wif bluffing....d learning style ting we're going on wif is actuallie rather un-interesting...sheesh.....during recess...i copied darren' work...=D...he called me a BITCH!!...nevermind...i shall take it...i need an eraser...shit...den me n rai went to sit wif mj n all...d 5/6 deep`6 ppl...howell...no harm ryte....sarhan n ashryll were there...shit...den he appeared...mj was like dahh! ur ehem2...n it was loouuudd....frankly speaking...i dont realie like that...neither wud other ppl...i mean...yah...so wat if dat guy's ur fren's guy but u dont have to go -NAME- ur EHEM2!!....omg..noe how embarrassing that is?...no offence...but yah...i used to dat but i realised they dont like it...if u wanna tell ur fren dat her guy is there...u cud have tapped her shulder or anyting...he was looking at us...gosh!....bloody hell....oh well....well...wat d heck....ss was rather boring....but full of jokes..malay....mdm marlinah got mixed up between me n jun....talked to nasri....during cme as well...hey..i rarely talk to him....kept saying rAArr..i dono y...mj's rawr...mine's rAArr....i like d 'rrr' part...kk..i'm talking crap...
after that i went home...bought food for myself...den did my physics wkbk coz needed to hand in today.....den went to sch...i nearly got hit by a car!!..hmph...there was these 3 good-looking guys....n i wonder how they knew my name...all three frm damai...i knew 1 is my neighbour...fateha's ex was it?....ergh...nemind...forget it....saw my junior...gosh how fast they grow up...eeesh...minah!!...bloody hell....den at sch...saw _____________....used my hp...yeay!...can use my hp..wooohoo....den mcc....d girls r quiet dumb i must say...not all....no offence....mdm salena said at d music room...den wait there larhh...!!...wat else?? go up to d hall for wat!?..(sorry for d singlish there)...osman came...he made us do stuffs....pain..!!!......he went off early...yeay!...den i got stricter....coz somebody told me too...sorry gals...u all were getting tooo uncontrolable....den went to buy my solution....stupid shop...stripped me frm my cash!...d stupid solution wif d lens casing costed me 8 bucks....hey...dats expensive oryte.....den...now..i shall stop......todays---->TIRING...NO FINE DAY!
Monday, July 05, 2004
another piece of me written down....
hyelozzz....1st ting's 1st....spiderman rox! go see it!
kkk...today i woke up wif a sore neck..shitties...den i watch a horro movie wif my mom....d doll is scary...d guy's soo cute...too bad he's a japanese....welll i have a trait of d japanese blood but i'm not fit enuff to be one...then watched soccer wif my mom...greece won! yiippie..seee jane...seeee...seeee..seeeeeee...hehex..i waited for him to msg me....my mom didnt blabber much when i told her i wanted to go watch a movie...maybe coz i sort of met her criteria...met him....i was earlie...i saw a sec 4 girl...i saw bashar n aidil...for a moment there, i forgot aidil's name...hmph!...both were wearing shorts..omg!...sheeesh..guess they were waiting for sumbodi..then we went to ps...
PS was crowded!....d tix were sold out soo we went to marina square....for a moment there, i tot we were lost! walked walked walked....ahhh....kenneth, SH's gd fren n 2 other short guys were there too!...shitties..seems that they were 'following' us....SH's gd fren gave me dat stare...shant bother...we went out of d cinema place to a very windy corner..so d lomantic....=P....den we watched d movie....we didnt get gd seats...so...wat d heck...juz watch....its sweeet...its touching...its full of surprises....yeap.....dats y....u have to go catch it....there are some qoutes being used in d movie...soo nice to remember....i started to shiver when it was gonna end...i was feeling damn cold....d girl behind me kept popping on d seat!...den when d movie ended...AHHHH..=P...i was speecheless..+P...he's hands were cold as well...took me by surprise...=x...aniwae...took me home....at d mrt, there's a couple hugging n another couple talking like as thou they were normal frens...but they are a couple...blahx..wat am i talking here?...k nevermind....aniwae....today was very sweet....yep n very chilly too....gosh....frm which song does these words come frm---> "When u see me, I want u to see right through me" sumting like that.....gosh adam's getting freaky day by day...but he knows i'm attached...ergh!...sumtimes he just freaks me out!! sorry mj....didnt mean to make u feel used...aniwaez....todays--->SWEET,CHILLY n GREAT!!
Sunday, July 04, 2004
another piece of me written down....
oryte...i have done some amendments to my blog...now u can see wat i write better, erm, see d scroll bar better, hear a different song now...wif a media player..and…ya..the others...if ur not observent enuff, u can't see it very well...how nice...kkk....how about i let out my feelings for awhile since some of u have been askin me about it... recently i feel outcasted, leftout, unwanted n watever u want me to or u dont want me to feel....kkk..i don't feel in a society..in fact it just makes me worst to see that i'm not added into a group...i wont want any of u(s) to exactly say anything coz ya...i'm from another class..i dont meet d criteria....n wat more?? argh...its sooo like me to feel this way...n i wonder y...i hate to say it thou...i don't want to shout out here thou coz there are a million of ppl out there reading this...gosh...i hate it..some how i feel blogging isnt for me animore..wat more EVERYONE can read when u want to pour out ur feelings..there's a need to censore stuffs n prevent others frm reading things abt others...u know wat i mean?? Gosh i hate to say it....BLOGGING SUX!! there..i've said it..but this isn't enuff...i have more shout outs to do...but i can't do it here...ppl wudnt want to see it..i guess i shudnt...no i shan’t...
another piece of me written down....
god i'm soo bored....i'm gonna chg my blogskin somehow..if its not nice...don care..blooddy shits...i'm damn sian..
Saturday, July 03, 2004
another piece of me written down....
i'm back!...kkk....where was i?...o yah...d damai pri ting....my mom told me abt it...but i wasnt keen in listening...when we reached the mosque, my dad went to have his lunch...we had our lunch alredi...after 'escorting'(is that how u spell it?) my lil bro...me n my mom when to dis meeting...its about d mosque's commitee n how they r gonna replace everyone wif everyone...hope u understand...they're also having some financial problem..i wanted to suggest something but..naah..better not...took their pictures...i'm sooo stupid..i didnt catch s person's instruction!..blaahh...my mom's fren wore d same ting...exactly waht my mom wore..hahax...looked like kendarat(s)...after that we went home...at around 7.45 liddat...we went out...fetch my sis..shit her...good thing yesterday i became d middle 'girl'...or else she wont be able to find my mom..n she dare to scold me for not giving d correct directions! hey! i'm a no good direction giver okay! u think u're soo smart...then we shopped at giant...stock up our house stuffs...i was kinda pissed alredi n she made me n my father more pissed....my father bought clams!! 2 types..aim: to beautify our tank...sheeesh!...but i learnt sumting..there's a land n sea mantis!...land mantis is d normal praying mantis..sea mantis is damn beautiful...n d canada seafood (still alive)...are sooo damn big!..i wonder how long did they take to grow them....my father dropped my sis at my granny's...by that time my mom was in her bad mood...mak merajok!! AHHHHH...hahax...i guess my father felt panicky...heeeheee....padan muke! harhar!...but my dad straight away went to d hawker center at Simpang Bedok there...we aLLLLLways go there...hmph..after dat we went home...n i started to blog....hehe....aHHH...d tv's beside me n The Eye show is on!!...oh dear....aniwae todays-->FINE!!
another piece of me written down....
today started off wif ironing my bro's trousers...den making myself sumting to eat...den watched tv...d guy is sooo cute n handsome....i wonder..kkk...den my mom called for some help...u wudnt want to know...watched harry potter wif my mom n my lil bro...a pirated vcd of coz...ate again...then....last minute..followed my parents n lil bro to d mosque...masjid alkaff..my lil bro study there..on d way there my mom told me abt a korean movie she watched..it was haunting..juz like damai pri..dats wat she said...is it true? is damai pri haunted?..my mom said her fren's son was being disturbed....she told me that he always saw a 'green person'...dat ting always takes d shape of a teacher...it was last year..his studies dropped totally...in school n in religious classes...dat thing will always scold him for watever d reason is...but is it true?? my mom said d tchers there nvr believed him nor d other students hu have been disturbed...they said d students are jus making up stories...gosh....i will continue later...gtg now...see ya!
Friday, July 02, 2004
another piece of me written down....
today.....is youth day!..happy youth day ppl...kinda boring thou...oryte..here is how my day went..
in the morning..it was raining....i brought my bro's sweater...very d damn big!...my father fetched me n sorida to school...i guess now my father is making friends wif her..hahax..we reached school so damn early...so i decided to put my bag in class den meet him...i didnt bring my hp..note dat...coz...after i put down my bag n had some chat wif josie, jyss...mj n others...i went to meet him..he was kinda late...i guess coz d bus is late...but anihow...i patient-ed my self to wait...see how long my patience can hold...=)...met him at last..heehee...josie kept squeezing my sweater!! dun ang...weird always...chee yuan...much more weirder...talked to nasri..he's d 2nd britney spears!! wOw!..heehee...adam talked to me today but i gave d 'wat d hell r u talking abt' look...too bad...u gave d unwanted comments...we had real chem period today....we cleaned d apparatus...is dat waht they call it?...i tink soo...had a youth day concert..it was funny but boring....parts of it were good....d part when mr eugene chua played d drums...very nice..he 'conducted' d 'symphony of noise'....was it called dat? i tink so....ms tan gave us lollipop! weEe`..mrs tan gave us instructions....mr toh n mrs song gave us a performance..mr teo gave us a looong announcement n some warning...mr azahar gave us nonsence...mr tan was lame...mr lee was lame as well..he 'gave' us a packet of nuts...NUTS!! are u nuts or wat?! recess..me n d 'deep six' xcept for weder...sat at d parade square....saw him n his fren..har har...saw _________ as well..=/..now i realized ms kang is very slim....har har..yeay! today we didnt have history, monday there aint gonna be sch so no history as well...i guess i have a week to finish my assignment..yippie!...after sch..mcc.....i was wif weder..we chged den wat did we do?...i cant remember...i saw ________ but i met mj n fizah as well...decided to go to them instead..haiz..thx fizah!! for rescueing my bag n stuffs..u no longer owe me aniting!...den i went to d hall...hawa, marlinah n liza were there...gosh! they took their OWN sweeeEeeet tiimmmMmmee to chg sia...i didnt do well...i dont know how, i stepped on my foot...i fell on my knees...everyting was very disastrous for me...hmph!...after d break, we had a better practice...i guess its bcoz i scolded fiercely at a sec 1 girl for biting her lips..she cried...but wat d heck..i told her not to for a few times redi..!!...left her alone...gave d scolding to others...hahax!...nurullah said i wasnt dat fierce unlike hawa...phe'ew!....mazlin told me to chill....den we had a hair demonstration...weder was d hair maniquin...(is dat how u spell it?)....her hair became like salihah's..har har..d sec 1s were like..MY god!! its like that?!! my hair will spoil!!..har har...dats how it goes..i wonder if they take note of it...then went home...i slept....i cud barely wake up! i woke up at abt 7...7.30 like that....wat can i say? i'm a heavy sleeper...i had chat wif idayat n him...sorry darl!...i dont tink u even wan to see d burokness of my face after speech day...MY MOUSE AINT WORKING!! shitties...aniwae today was--->OKAY...FINE...
Thursday, July 01, 2004
another piece of me written down....
Hyelozz.....oryte...today....in d morning....d sky was very beautiful....it was dark on one side...bright on the other..it was cooling....when mr lee announced the prizes, it started raining...sooo cool....it was ncc day today..but he didnt wear d uniform...hmph..i woke him up in d morning...well...sort of...i wasnt dat sure wat to do...0.0!! hahax...
skool...was okay..i was damn sleeping...esp during chem practical...we didnt do practical actuallie..but juz play around wif s retort stand,burette n pipette...kinda boring...physics, we went to d lab..i didnt bring my wkbk...so i had to sneek peek the instructions..kinda interesting...for d 1st time physics is better than chemistry!...i stole some pprs...plain white clean pprs...y? coz i needed some...for printing...maths...i did my own work..kinda..paste d pprs on d cards...eng...wat did we talk about?...erm...was it d profiling ting?...no...that was during cme....but wat d heck..its still d same tcher...we got a highlighter each....i'm in d tactile grp...oyah...dat was wat we did during eng...got into d profile grps...cme, we recieved our prizes...d highlighter....i took an orange one..coz i needed a new colour...other then yellow....erm....after sch...followed mj, rai, wj n fizah to d toilet...met xt n nisa there...kinda funny...rai wasnt feeling well..aww...rai....take a goooood rest okay.....=)..n lots of water too.....i want to be sick too..dont leave me out.....aHHHH...welll...waited at sch awhile wif weder...talked abt idonowat....saw him...play soccer...heehee...i was walking ryte behind him after recess..when we were returning back to class...har har....i shant say more.....walked home...good thing dodnt met up wif any bad tempered motorists.....met up wif mazlin n izza instead..they were going back to sch to hand in their files..=) i guess thats all...i slept awhile...kinda tired...oh well..it rained almost half of d day today...just remembered i have tons of hist hw to do....gosh...i hav to finish it NOW....my mouse aint working!! shitties...aniwaes todays--->FINE,BORING