i was stinged by words. u know how words sting u like how d knife goes thru d piece of flesh..mayb further..i wonder how ppl would be so cruel to say such words which ends up to be lies.......lies dat wud nvr be true. its juz dat, i know it wudnt be nice to take sumone away...but i'm not controlling him/her. i have found out that ppl are juz so cruel. esp after they are hurt. i duno y...i cant be like them. i'm too nice..for d fact that i'm too nice...they take advantage and treat me like a fool. yes. i'm a fool. if u do it,they will say u are a bitch. if u dont do it, they say u're weak. so wat will u do? ur juz trying to make a good choice. u dont want to hurt d person who asked for it neither wud u want to hurt d person hu was hurt by dat person. do u get wat i mean? its like..ya...u cant juz go hurting everyone's feelings but its juz d fact dat u juz have to hurt their feelings...unintentionally.....when u do..dat person will hate u for wat u have done..y must we have enemies in this world? i juz dont blieve in hating people. i juz dislike them..the way they treat others..but i like the way they make ppl happy...u noe..d jokes n d silly things they do dat makes u laugh. well..i can't n i won't hate ppl....its juz me..i make mistakes..yes, everyone does....but i forgive and forget..i always do..don't u agree? i'm tooo nice. which isnt good. ppl think i'm a bitch. but i'm juz being nice. i'm sorry if i hurt u. i'm sorry. i really do...
hyelozzz...today's d 1st day of d holidays..n its kinda boring..i went for mcc den went to int after dat..o shit i forgot to topup my ez-link card..shit..o well..there's always a tmr..
at mcc...we practiced d dance..i had my wrongs...ya..but my instructor was patient today..den me, idayu n weder went to bedok int...:0!!! sheeeeesh...we ate..den look for stuffs den bought stuffs...den go home...
skali skale go out wif them..seems ok lar ah...:)...
den we go home..i was shocked when
he said
he called me...REALLY!!! no joke..u noe y...coz i was afraid my mom picked it up..which exactly wat happened..my mom said
he didnt sound like a sch boy...i wonder y...shit sia!! omg..if i knew..i wuld hav come home earlier...shit...y is there always d "if" after sumting bad has happened?..haiz..hmph...
o god!! i tried on sum of my mom's old clothes..those which she wore after she had my 2nd bro..
AND THEY FITTED ME EXACTLY!! yep..not much space left..which leaves me to one conclusion..I'M FAT!! F-A-T fat!! o my..i need to lose sum of these mass(weight is actually d gravitational pull on u[physics])..hahx..aniwae todays-->
FINE but BORING
hyeloz peeepeelz..todays a sunday n d suns down...n we are going to enjoy sleepin tonite...woohoo! (sheesh..lame..)
today got maulud...sooo boring..me n my frenz help out but forming a trail to paste down d trays of food..we only watch d food being passed down..i was wondering when we culd eat..ehex..den me,naj,lind n mimi went to bedok..we look for earrings n stuffs...mimi bought alot of stuffs..linda bought ear studds...naj...she bought earphones..quite fun..too bad dany n sisters culdnt cum along..we went hm at around 1..ya..
den i slept at hm..so common to hear me say dat..har har.. my mom woke me up! shit..i was having such a gd afternoon's sleep...nowonder lah..coz it was raining..so cooolingg..den
he msg me...it seems dat
he always msg me at d correct time...when like i'm holding d fon redi...den
his msg will b arrived..or when i juz woke up..
his msg will arrive like a few seconds later...wat a gd judgement
he has..wOw..i'm impressed..hahax...sheeeesh..not like my ex....:P...i went to my granma's hse..sent sometin den when to int to buy sum stiffs den go home...i wld like to say...
Y DO I KEEP MISSING BUS 38?!!!!!!! shit sia...everytime i reach the int, dat particular bus will go off...shit sia...watever it is..i'm home now..tmr will b d mt olevel exam day...so i wish all sec 4 students---->
GOOD LUCK!! BEST OF LUCK!! ALL THE BEST!! GOD BLESS!! k...i guess dats all...o ya..i didnt read alot today...shit...got to continue now..tudulu...n todays-->
COOLING!! FINE!!
hyelo peepelz...its ME again...n todays SATURDAY again..n its BORING again..well todays not daaat boring...coz mendaki's onli till 3pm..i read d bk d whole time...den me n syimah went to mac to eat..kind of fun...we talk about alot of stuffs..told her abt
him...she said
he was...sweet was it? ya..i tink...ahakz..den we met my pri skool fren n her frens...we talk n talk till 5+...waste time onli...my tutor gav me a drink n Oreo..hahakz..[argh....shit...i lost wat i've juz blog juz now..shit..k..let me remember wat i wrote..d top part up there is wat i saved..hahakz..]when i went hm..he wished me to hav a
safe journey..i wonder...wats dat suppose to mean...
den when i went into d hse..my parents n my lil' bro was going out...to d beach...i had to follow..kinda tired but..wat d heck..i read d bk while i was at d beach..ya ya..i noe..its d holidays..but i was bored! i need to do sumting to let time passss..there's sumtin i wld like to type frm d book..k..here it is..
"Is it better to understand things when they're happening or is it better to be happy? You hear ppl talking abt things like a fool's paradise like it's something terrible. But maybe ppl who are stupid or foolish are the only ones who are happy. Maybe it's better to be like that. Maybe I should go back to being stupid & foolish. It doesn't hurt as much as being smart"-------> i kinda totally agree on this..esp when u r in d top classes (like me)..u noe when ppl criticize u by saying "she tinks she's in d
1st class, she can do anything she wants."...or..."she tinks she's so clever juz bcoz she is in d
top class"..u noe how d word top/1st/exp are usually emphasized...we "smart" ppl have feelings too u noe..we have our flaws too ok..we arent dat perfect as tink u are..we cannot notice d obvious mistakes dat we hav done...o well...wat shud i say..we arent perfect..
aniwae todays-->
FINE but BORING
hye wOrLd~!..yeeppiee...it d
HOLIDAYS!!! but sigh...i gotta go back to school...for rehearsals for d speech day n for practices n amaths remedial....ya...there's one week when i got noting at all...which is...ya...great i guess..
at school...we didnt do much...eng...i didnt do d eng tys..but it was good anywaez coz we didnt have to hand it in..ya...we played a game at mt class..it was kinda fun...hehex...a new frenship has started all over again...:)..den..amaths...did a few sums..i didnt finish coz we can hand it in during d remedial lesson...ok..dats one hw redi..recess was
BORING...me n rai walk ard..den we talk to mj n gang..we went to d hall after dat..it was abt d 2bE tingy...sum of d students had balloons coz they signed in it...we had like 10 mins for physics...mr lee seemed pissed off...
den after skool duno y i went to d 3rd level..stupid sia..very d extra...i saw ms rosehana for d last time..good bye ms rosehana....i wonder hu's my new P.E tcher......hm...we practiced d dance..it was boring...i read d bk...so boring so ya...den when d rehersal d started..we danced..mdm salena said we were like professionals..i tink it was bcoz of d
reward mdm marlina had given us...hahax..
he wished me luck...hehex..aww...
my mom cried juz now...i noticed it after she started wiping her face...it seems dat my grandfather tinks my sis is a bad girl..she doesnt know y...she also talked to me abt my dad...my dad's so
stubborn...n
unpersuasive n how shud i say....greedy? or stingy?...ya...haiz...i duno wat i shud've done...giv her a hug? offer her tissue? d tissues r like in front of her redi sia...i'm in my mom's side for dis matter...my dad
IS stingy...n stubborn...once he brings sumting in d hse..it will hardly get out...dats y my hse is
FULL of junk..i long for a hse dats very spacious..enuff room for anyting n everyting..haiz..aww...d rascals r sooo cuteee`..hehex..anywae todays-->
FINE n BORING!!
hyeloz peepz....juz got my report bk today...it was like...k lah...at least my L1R4 was much better den dun ang's...:P...mostly were B4s..onli emaths was B3...Mr Lee had to tell my mom dat d rest of my classmates dat they got A...walao...he took such a short time to talk to my mom...i was like...smiling2 all the way...hahax..duno y..den mrs wadhwani talk to my mom...klah..she gave sum encouragement...d 1st ting Mr Lee said to my mom was
"Faridah is a very good girl"..i can puke sia!! omg...didnt he remember d time i cried BCOZ of him? i tink it wa bcoz of dat..kkk...i admit dat i'm not a good girl..hapi??
k...i missed d bus juz now..so i was kinda late to meet him...
SORRY DEAR!!..den chem period..we went to IT lab...Hong sheng not happy with me sia....wat d hell....go to hell lah...tink u so big..den recess..me tried to do d canoeing thingy..rai's S_______ went there...i was like...raaaiiiii...hehex...den i realized he was there as well...woops! heeheez..i was d
"judge" for d debate today...both debates i mean...they're like so better den me...i
SCREWWED UP!! yea...while
"debating"..i didnt know wat to say n mixed up all d infos..Shittt..
today..ms rosehana was nice...we girls played around with d gym stuffs..my legs kinda hurt..but it was a nice experience..den me, jyss n lid talked..we didnt do PE..so d layzey...harhar..i read d bk till i duno where redi...i'd like to say sumting frm d book...
U have to keep reminding urself of what's important.
U can't let urself forget.
If u don't remember what's important,
then sumting bad might happen.
U might make some kind of terrible mistake.
i tink what it says here is true..if u dont remind urself of sumting important,u might screw up n make a terrible mistake....a mistake u might regret for life....
i guess dats all...yep...todays-->
FINE!! n COLD
hyeloz peepz...today's a
c o l d c o l d day...yea...rain...rain...rain....
frm d start..i didnt want to wake up actuali..so sleepy...but ya...cant do anyting rite..must wake up n go to d sucky place(school lah...where else..)..den at skool..veri boring lah...went to d hall THREE times today..1st was a lecture frm Mrs Song...2nd was to do a survey...stupid zaki..tell him cannot ans with a "i don't know"..he still ans d questions with big "i don't know"(s)..3rd was for assembly..abt money management..1st half was interesting...2nd half was BORING!!! :P
den after skool..i stayed at skool...finished up my maths hw..den went to duno where with lidya..she was bored like me...so ya...den...i read a bk in front of mariana..
he scare me frm behind...but it was sweet lah..(to me)..no one has dun dat to me...yeeaah..
:D..den me n mj ate together..we kinda played in d rain together...peace!! i wn to get sick..but it seems dat i cant..
:(..went hm..sleep..den was ordered to run an errand...sheesh...ya dats all...todays-->
COLD,WET but GREAT!!!
hyeloz peepz...me juz came back from mcc...(juz in case u duno..mcc stands for Malay Cultural Club)..err..yah...today not dat tiring coz mostly we did stretching...i can stretch...woohoo~...
k...dis fine day...
he went to skool wif me..
sumone saw from d above...*deng deng deng* hehez...my fren lah...wat u tinking...duno y...today felt..different...better than d last...yea..blah blah blah..
wanna call me bitch? go on..i dun care...its ur problem anyway...at skool..kinda boring...we were out of class frm 1st period to d 3rd...1st n 2nd went to IT lab..do research on
d skin...yea...dats wat my grp's gona do for biochem project...eventho i dun take bio...tsk..den went to lib for d 3rd period..kinda weird for me coz i found a bk like damn fast den i READ da bk! yesh...i read it...it called "
the conditions of love" i think...written in 1st person point of view...no wonder i'm into it..recess...did noting...saw
mr particular...
;P...heeheez...i paid attention during physics again today!!! wow!! an achievement...!!
i went home after i found out dat i'm not taking a New South Whales eng test...WeEeEe~ d wind was SOO refreshing..its was cooling...sooo nice..den at mcc...did ALOT alot alot of stretching...felt very nice..hehex...no more torture feelings for me i guess..i'm used to it!! i went hm wif Wani...had a great talk wif her..i agree wif wat she said...yep...it was practically true...for me being alone is much better..yep...saw Nadiah at d bustop...
nk pegi mane je tau die...dgn celak lah...hehez...so now..i'm at hm...wasnt dat SOoOo detailed?! nowonder i write alot...sheesh....tadays-->
FINE!!
p/s note to hacker, pls stop disturbing my comp...i noe ur not into my stuffs but pls dun hack into my bro's...it seems dat he is pissed off sumhow..pls dont....
hyez peepz...ya..its me again...today..kinda tiring..i went out wif rai n hafizah np...yep..during skool...wat did happen..err...i juz woke up...sorry..
k..during skool..mr lee had a loooong lecture on us..he wants to see my parents...i failed amaths n PURE physics..both E8 sia..wad d hell..tot i passed amaths..but ya...wad d heck..my mom is redi to meet the tcher...yea..its a usual thang for mr Lee to lecture us...its his usual routine...no need to study english..need to lecture u on ur studies...blah~blah~blah..tried to pay attention during physics....quite a gd job there..i kinda felt left out during chem...coz i got no grp..they forgot abt me..which shittily shitty..but at last i got a grp...which is kinda relieving..haizzzzzzzzzz..
went out with rai n fizah...which was kinda fun..yep..talk non-stop...we went to eat at yasalam...yep...nice ah...fizah ate till it was like damn clean..sheesh..den we went to buy this large cookie which was like damn not nice...sheesh....i tink if i were to make those cookies...it would be nicer...den we went to parkway..we walk around and end up at mph...i suddenly got attracted to all d books....ya...anne frank n a book called "i'm gifted n so are you!"...ya..there was the 9 steps to gd studying in dat bk...ya.....anne frank had dis quote-->
"paper is more patient then man"..
WHICH is TOTALLY true!!!! yea..if u were vulgar at d the innoncent little paper..or even do anything shitty to it..it wil have no reaction...i repeat NO reaction...juz like a wall...dis xplains y i like to rite my feelings on paper..seems dat blogging is no more safe animore.....
i wld juz wanna say at the end :
Wat the HELL are U SHITTY freak THINKING siAL...it juz shows HOW FRIKINLY SELFISH YOU ARE!! u DONT have a heart...NOPE!! YOU DONT!! so waht if u hate me to the CORE! i DONT CARE!! there are many out there who thinks u are BITCH too ok...DON THINK YOU ARE SOOOO INNOCENT N I'M NOT!!! tolerated such indecent actions for such an an indecently long time all redi...SUCH IMMATURE ACTS are for people JUZ LIKE YOU FUCKING SHITTY BITCH!! (when i say BITCH,it DOES NOT onli go for d females..) FINE THEN!! GO AHEAD WITH UR SHITTY LIFE....GO ON AND MAKE PPL UNHAPPY...COZ U WILL REGRET IT ONE DAY....U WILL R E G R E T...............
hyeloz peepz...today is one heck of a boring day! went to madrasah...talk2..take paper...sang songs..u mite go *what??? sang songs?*..ya..coz we're going to hav d
maulud next week...duno if i shud go or not coz my frens dowanna go....den i kinda went straight home..ya...at home..didnt do much..i slept half of d day..scan sum of d pictures...n ya...dats all..now my bro OWES me a box of cereals...he ATE evrythin!! left me wif d dust..hmph...so bad!! sheesh...klah..later i wanna go out...peace out...todays-->
BORING BORING BORING!!!
hyeloz peepel...another saturday..another boring day...i sleep till like 9+ today...yea...den..blah blah blah..had a very refreshing bath...chatted, download songs n looked for lyrics...dats all..n upload pics..ya...dats all..i didnt go to mendaki coz 1st i was lazy..n my fren didnt go coz she got camp...ya...till now..i'm still chattin n listening to songs...so d damn bored...i watched van helsing today...pirated vcd larh..wat else..kinda nice..i like d vampires..hehex..so overall todays--->
DAMN DAMN BORING!!
p/s
Mei Guannie...sorry larh...today no need to go..very lazy to go out...\\//~!
hyeloz peepelz....k...mainly...*woohoo,my comps back to normal redi*..sorry..today..main stuffs r skool n mcc n d dae out with
Mei GUANNIE!!!!!!!!! hehex..
k...in d morning...went to skool with sorida n cindy..blah blah blah..fill up my bottle...gav nasri d newspapers..(we're
competing for the highest amount of things brought in d level)..talk to mj n rai...blah blah blah..veri d boring...so..ya..straight to d point..i had a boring day...during recess time..i was wif rai..as usual..we ended up going to d canteen..(
mrs song was checking at d 2nd level!! wat r we
supposed to do??!!)..k fine..u can go--->
AND THENNNN???
mcc...very the tiring..i looked for ppl..at last i found wani...me n wani spent d
break time together.. expressed to her my thoughts n feelings...she did it too..den i had to teach salihah MY steps..while i HAD to learn Hawa's..but she rarely taught me...SO DAMN TIRED!!! poor weder...i tink she got sick frm wamli..noti wamli!!
den after that i met up with mj at bedok mrt...i saw
him at d int!! i was like..
wat r U doing here???? but i didnt say it out loud lah..i walked behind instead...
:P..i'm sorry...den me n mj took neoprints..which was very nice...*as usual*..den we walked2....i had not eaten my lunch..so..ya...mj found me going cranky..
SORRY MEI GUAANNIEE..den we went to sumwhere to eat larh..i dun think i want to buy the slipper no more..coz now the design all not nice redi..looked for mj's bag...but she was like veri d chooosey..she didnt buy anything...we walked around like a few times....(go on...say--> AND THEENNN??) and then? we went home larh...i showed her my physics paper..u wanna see my physics paper? its very nice i tell u...not much markings...coz mostly it was
WRONG!!..for those of u who think u can take up pure physics..i DARE ya to.. realli...i'm serious..klah..enuff blabbering..overall todays-->
BORING YET FUN!!
hyez peepelz..today...started well..
he kinda went to skool wif me..
wEeEeE~*~ heeheez..it was great! yep...sorry i was late thou....
denat skool...ok lar...got my chem...tot i failed..BUTTT i passed!! yesh..i got a B4...yippie...hist...didnt do dat well...overall for combined humans..i got a B4 also..which is kinda an achievement for me...i did try my best for chem..but not for hist...so...ya...i deserved it..overall o got 31 points...physics d LOW low lowest...den Amaths..i onli failed physics...juz like wat xpected for physics..
other den tests n exams..i'm kinda abit frustrated...duno y ah....dat shitty bashar kept disturbing me...physically..1st at d canteen..he threw *idunowhat* at me...shit guy...den at mt class...i think he purposely knocked my head..shit sia...if u not happy...can talk to me right...wat d hell..
but watever d shit is..i had fun at d learning style workshop..yep..now i know dat i need food, directions n music to study...n i study best at late morning..which is practically d time i'm at skool..yea..& no wonder i needed sweets when in class...n i like to write down notes n draw mindmaps..
DaaaaaaaaTs ME!! hehex...
Todays--->
GREAT~! SHITTY AS WELL.....
hyeloz peepelz....how was ur day??? mine's ok...kinda time wasting astualli...see lah...how time is wasted juz like dat..k...wat did happen ah today? i cant remembered...(short term memory loss!)...let me remember..
today..got back my eng ppr...ok larh...i passed everything..but still...i got a B4...thats d best i can do for now...my target...a B3..hehex...during social studies..very boring...we had our presentations...lidya kept waking me up! i wanted to sleep!!
so boring!! mt..me n hafizah wasted time walking n searching for her compo book..which is in vain...today everyone ended up with a
purple thumb..y? coz we had to do a thumb print...for d magazine thingy...me, rai n hafizah spent d recess time together...kinda....
fun!?!
after skool..me n lid when to parkway parade! i treated myself again..with ice cream...hehex...love treating myself..aww...coz ya...i passed my amaths...n ya....i onli failed physics...
=(...but
=) coz I PASSED d rest...went home den i slept....duno y i'm not punctual when
he sms me lately....haiz...
sorry...anyway...
todays--->
FAIRLY BORING + FUN
hyeloz peepelz....how was ur day??? mine's ok...kinda time wasting astualli...see lah...how time is wasted juz like dat..k...wat did happen ah today? i cant remembered...(short term memory loss!)...let me remember..
today..got back my eng ppr...ok larh...i passed everything..but still...i got a B4...thats d best i can do for now...my target...a B3..hehex...during social studies..very boring...we had our presentations...lidya kept waking me up! i wanted to sleep!! so boring!! mt..me n hafizah wasted time walking n searching for her compo book..which is in vain...today everyone ended up with a
purple thumb..y? coz we had to do a thumb print...for d magazine thingy...
after skool..me n lid when to parkway parade! i treated myself again..with ice cream...hehex...love treating myself..aww...coz ya...i passed my amaths...n ya....i onli failed physics...=(...but =) coz I PASSED d rest...went home den i slept....duno y i'm not punctual when
he sms me lately....haiz...
sorry...anyway... todays--->FAIRLY BORING + FUN
hyez peepz...i'm strucked wif a terrible headache..n i duno how it came abt...shit..i need some rest...realli..so i'm gona make dis kinda short n sweet..
today..i recieved my ss, amaths n physics ppr..i was promoted frm an F9 to an E8 for physics...yey~!..i passed my amaths!! yippe!!..i passed by 1.5 marks..dat is 51.5/100..yesh..isnt dat great...ss..i passed too!~..i got erm...31/50..yep...wee~...d thought of failing was killing me!!...but ya....still got chem, eng n hist to go thru...i wanna pass..no more failing..dats my goal for EOY exam..
today got mcc..ok lar..kinda confusing..i tink dats y i'm having a headache now..den after dat i went to bedok int wif salihah..we had a long talk..wat do u xpect? we hvnt talk for like ages...hahax...still her sweet self..(jgn kembang ya)..aniwae...i gtg..really need the rest now..damn terrible....todays-->
FINE!!
haiz peepz.....sumhow sumwhat...i dun feel gd...after reading sumting...haiz...wat m i suppose to do? haiz...i hav trusted my frens to keep it but...ya...haiz....wat m i to say...lately i've been feeling a pain in d heart..sort of painful to know bcoz of
1 particular incident..haiz...dun they know i'm hurt too..bcoz of dat incident i keep feeling leftout..feeling lonely...i feel d difference in d way they treat d others n the way they treat me..theres soooooo much difference..haiz...i juz wanna noe y...
For every last bruise you gave me
For every time I sat in tears
For the million ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you this
You broke my world, made me strong
Thank you
Messed up my dreams, made me strong
Thank you -jamelia
thank you very much....u all taught me some lessons..i shall take it as a blessing...
if u guys find out abt it sooner or later..ya..i dowan to say dis but...esp mariyanah......
pls dont avoid me okay..i'm juz a human.....i make terrible mistakes..i don want to lose frens...even if i dont mix around wif u guys dat much....i cherish all dat has happened..even d fights...i will always remember u all...
Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday you might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way
Still I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone
-:left outside alone - anastacia
hyeloz peepelz...was ur sunday great?! heeheez...mine was sort of...
GREAT!!! yep..i went out..yey! at last i wasnt dieing today..unlike yesterday..hehez..
my madrasah was ok...we had 3 papers today...studied onli 1..but still...i didnt noe how to do all...hahax...yea..me n shamimi had a loong talk..yep...told me an incident when she was in pri 2...damn stupid incident sia...such lame incidents shuldnt b heard of..
den i went out with
him...yep...aww...such sweet moments shuld b remembered..we went to 3 places ah...d sweet moment happened at d merlion..haaaaaaaaaa~....yep2.. there were embarrassing moments as well...dowan to tell..nope..nu'uh...no way..har har...
went home...blah blah blah...den went online..talked wif mj on d fon..hahax...
SORRY MJ!!!..realli..now u can cry all u want.....not literally lah..sumone will b there to pull u out soooooooooon...hahax...dis date [16/05] has to be remembered...todays-->
FUN! GREAT~ AWW...SWEETT..!
hyez peepelz..how was ur day? isit fun or boring? fun? dats great!..i'm being lame here..k..how was
my day...hm...boring...yep..like other days..aren't saturdays supposed to be fun?!..den y is mine always
b o r i n g...??
normally...for my saturdays..i will wake up kinda late..take a l o n g shower...n go to mendaki..usually i go myself but today..i'm such a lazy bum...i told my father fetch me instead..he was goin to fetch my bro...so ya...wats wrong rite..den me n syimah were d onli gerls in class coz d other girls had to take their tests..my maths..i passed yep..marginally..how much? 57/100..
WoW..hahax...1st two pages..all correct..next few pages..
WoW!! nice....my english...i passed oso..marginally also..how much? 26.5/50..dats after
ONE particular mark was added bcoz d tcher marked wrongly..WoW...see..i told u
ONE mark is
VERY crucial...haiz
i went home alone today..yep..syimah's father fetched her today..me n syimah very d close today..she even voluntered to accompany me to go to bugis to buy some stuff..but ya..too bad..haiz..dats all..very detailed redi..obviously todays-->
B O R I N G ! ! ! !
hyeloz peepz..today i dun feel fine...i'm discouraged..yep..by alot of stuff...d most important ting is by d
FREAKINGLY DAMN TOUGH A-MATHS PAPER set by d
KNOW-IT-ALL MS LOY...shit sia...totally discouraged...haiz...i shall fail for dis paper...its not surprising...
haiz...today's supposed to b a great day for evryone coz its d last day of d 2004 mid yr exams...even mrs song was hapi wif us...haiz..but d amaths ppr totally pulled my smile to a frown...hhfffff....it totally changed my mood...i cant do like 1/2 d frikin paper...walao..i'm so not in d mood...
me n mj went to treat ourselves to bk today..yep..d usual place..i didnt eat much ah..sumting embarrassing happened but nope..i'm not gona tell...hahax..
at hm...went online....cleaned d house..yep..watch mtv..dats all..chat wif pili, ramli, d fratmasta, rai, chee yuan n another guy abit..they tried to cheer me up sumhow..but it seems to b in vain...
he tried to cheer me up as well..haiz...i guez i need some sleep...mayb after dat i'll b fine..todays-->
GLOOMY...VERY GLOOMY...
hyeloz peepelz...how r ya today? great? dats gd....me? i'm fine..kinda..yea...i took my mt ppr 2 today...yep..my studyin paid off..WeEeEe~..it feels better when d tings u studied
actualli comes out..i finished d ppr damn early..abt 9? yea...it was kinda easy as well...yep..its like d mly peepz in my class was restless 30 mins b4 d ppr ended..yea...
i was supposed to go hm wif mr
S today...but i turned him down...sorry ya...so wat u wan me to do? walk wif u tmr? ooh dear...wat m i suppose to do...
i went eat breakfast wif mj, rai, raider n lidya..ok ah..we talk abt lotsa tings..i laughed till i cried..had stomach cramp after dat...rai lah..make stupid mistakes dat made me laugh..
SORRY rai...i still can feel d pain rite now...den duno wat
he n his frens came..raider told me 1st..but i didnt blieve..but ya..she was rite..
They planned to make me embarrased..but too bad i went off 1st..:P u cant do dat to me..nope..na'ah..not in a million yrs..(hopefully)...i'm too clever for y'all..hahax..i supposed he saw me..hmmph..
we went to d lib after dat..n we got a
Loooooooooooong lecture frm d level 3 cleaner..i supposed she's too xperienced to b on d 3rd level..she went to India lah..n duno where else..told us abt her daughter..very clever daughter she's got there..graduated redi..going to teach soon...hmm..i wonder where..den we went hm at last..yep..checked my
FINES n it was
MORE den
TWO weeks...in fact it was
THREE weeks..
TWO books...
Todays-->
HOT HOT HOT, GREAT DAY!!!
p/s IDAYU..PAY UP GIRL..U STILL OWE ME MY MOM'S TUPERWARE N A FEW CDs...OR SHOULD I SAY..ALOT OF CDs..
heyz...today i reached hm at abt 10...so early rite..hehe..yea..feel so priviledged...hehex..den i slept till 11.45..i wanted to wake up at 12..but it seems dat my biological clock is 15 mins faster...
den at around 2, i went to meet they all n study..at d airport..yep..d day has come! wee~...i was kinda late ah..den
he was late as well..hehex..there was 6 of us..frm dis blog u'll noe hu d
'particular' guy is now..k..weder walked wif her prince..always at d back..rai walked wif hafizah..always in front..while i walked wif
him..always in d middle..hahax..~
everyone in twos~!!..he tutored me..now i kinda understand better...rai n fizah nvr study dat much...noti gerls huh..! there i saw Miza n her fren..i didnt see Mr E..ya..i tink he was there..he should be there..ya..like duh..
den we went hm..i was in a delimna coz i duno wether to go hm straight or go hm by bedok..so at last i went hm thru bedok...(i hope u understand wat i mean)..
Sorry Rai!! Sorry if i pissed u off!! Really!!
today was kinda fun..we were wif our pairs n we kinda enjoy ourselves EXCEPT dat it was kinda boring..hahax..u noe wat i mean...duno y yesterday i culdnt sleep..mayb it was bcoz i was worried of my Hist ppr today..ya..i didnt know which to do..i did on d weimar republic instead..hope i can get a pass...todays-->
GREAT!!
hyez...kinda late today so gotta hurry..must study history! today got my emaths ppr 2 n my chem ppr./ok lah..can do...duno wat, i culdnt absorb anyting w/out my notes..ya..i
FORGOT to bring my notes...den i tried using d txtbk..but its all in vain..i guez i can at least get a pass...*blink blink blink*..*praying*..juz like wat ms rosehana said..b calm n do it calm (i tink)..if all fails..
PRAY!
yesterday i cried...1 ting..i was stressed..another was bcoz my
IRRITATING sister came back hm..den we had verbal fights..i reali
HATE her to d core..she is a BAD memory to me..she's
IMMATURED n
INSENSITIVE...
den today i had lunch wif mj...yep..where esle..Banquet lah..it was crowded there...but we found a seat quite fast..talk abt being single..hehex..she's in d 'sampan of singles'..yep..i'm in d water..mayb going in..but being pulled out...yep...SORRY mei GUANNI..den at hm chat abit, sleep abit..watch tv abit...now wanna study ALOT..
hahax..cant wait for tmr..gona study wif peepelz..hehex..it wuld b of so much fun! hopefully...
WeEeEe...i gues dats all..todays-->
STRESSING BUT KINDA FINE..
hye peepelz..ya..today i got my pure physics n mother tongue ppr 1 exam!! mt paper can do ah..yep..got quite an idea there...
PURE PHYSICS!!!!! can do..d 1st part..d 2nd part...dono wat hapen redi...rush rush rush!! d particularly 3 last qns n 1 mcq qn...yep..u mite say mcq qn? 1 mark onli..y must bother...must bother coz wif dat particularly
ONE mark..it can make u pass or fail...yup..den we were released..i didnt want to go hm wif dat b****..BUT she asked me to..so i went..wat a WRONG mistake to do..on d way i met up wif rai, mj n raider..so we ALL sort of went to d bustop together...dat b**** was wif d TWO particular ppl..they were happily together..dats noting..me n mj,rai n raider talked oso..den when d bus came...i told dat b**** den she say "oh ok bye!"..pissed pissed pissed...wad d hell!! k FINE! u wanna piss me off..well done! todays-->
PISSED PISSED PISSED
hiez ppelz...today is MOTHERS' DAY!!!
Happy mothers' day mom..i love u so much mom....sorry i took granted of u all this while...since d day u were found out to b diagnosed with d sickness...i felt dat u r much more special to me den any other ppl...i love sooooo much...*muacks* -hugs-
todays a damn hot n boring day.....ya..it seems as thou its not mothers day at my hse..my mom went to johore..its her day out..yea..i saw her walking away frm d blk...aww...=(
today my father cooked..y? bcoz my mom not hm..its ok ah..not dat tasty but ok ah..=P....frankly speaking, dis is d 1st time i reali tasted his cooking....yea..\\// *peace!
ya..i guez dats all..i'm looking forward to this wednesday...hehe..yep...hehe...;) lets hope its gonna b fun n
educational..todays-->
HOT HOT HOT n BORINGGGGGGZZZzzzz...
hyeloz peepz....todays a practically boring day...yep...woke up kinda late..peace!...
told my mom abt d ss ting...she was as usual givin me a damn long lecture..her lectures always makes me cry...not bcoz i'm sad or wat..its bcoz d way she says it is like d ppr is damn easy n i can take all day to do it....
her words sting...den juz now i let her talk...i let her lecture...i told d truth...den when it came to d compo part..i told her
"i tried but its still wrong"...dat made her speechless...n when tears role down my face frm my eyes..ya....after dat i sleep again..
den i went to mendaki wif Ada..she late again..more den 10 mins late..sucks sia...den at mendaki..we had two test...eng n maths..maths sum i cannot do coz i forgot how to do d sec 2 work redi..:P..den eng..can do..of coz....d eng tcher told us d
9 steps to success in stuyin..they are-->
1.
Aim (aim high..once u aim low,ur brain will shut down so Aim high!)
2.
Plan (hav a schedule..tings dun come with a blink of an eye u know)
3.
Execute (hav discipline..there's a price to pay for everything)
4.
Power Reading
5.
Power Note Taking
6.
Super Memory
7.
Apply (no use doing tings wen u dun apply it aniwhere)
8.
Prepare For Exam! (of course!)
9.
Take the Exam! (like duh!)
yea..so there's d 9 steps to gd studying..of coz..ppl hav different ways of learning..but these are d few basic steps..ya..so take note of it!
aniwae....Ada say she wont b coming nxt wk..it wasnt a surprise at all..till now..she onli came for 3 wks onli...so..ya..den me, farah n her went hm takin d same bus togeder.
at hm...hvnt do aniting yet..i ate den of coz..went online..wat else...ya...hehe..kinda hapi last nite..peace..yeap..mayb i'll tell one day..yep...one day...it'll b soon till i tell...yep...ask me personally if u wanna noe....i guez dats all...yea..todays-->
FINE!!!!!! but boring..
shitti freako wicked bitch of da hell...not happy can tell me rite..wat da hell...stepping onli...tink u so big izit...frik shit of da hell.....bitching frikin shitto fucker of d freak hell in d freakin mini unwanted world..so phueny..so uncivilised...go to hell lah shitz..!
haiz....wat a day today was...it juz sux so much...blufferzz..i'm like
SO into ur bluffs..u tink i duno how to read btwn d lines or wat??? juz tell d frikin truth lar..wat da hell...freak shits..i on d verge of crying but i cant cry....its so hard...argh....
today got emaths ppr 1..kinda easy...great..dat was over..social studies sux...i did a whole qn extra...which sucks like hell....frikinly 'no time'...shitto...i wanna turn back time..but den again..i wanna look at the future now so dat i dun do d mistakes dat i will b doing...argh...
today...during recess me nmj studied..went frm 1st floor to 4th floor den stayed there..so peaceful..haaiz..hmph....den me n mj together wif hafizah went to TM..we talked alot...yep..it was kinda fun..talk mostly abt boys...sheesh..mostly abt fizah's boy ah..hehe.....haiz...when...? when...? hm....nah...now stressed redi...wif d exams especially..later den can....
now..i wanna sleep...still quite early..still can sleep...i need sum sleep...haiz.....wat can i say..i'm stressed....firli found out sumting shocking..! wow! i'm not suprised...hu wuldnt...so ya..today-->
SUX SUX SUX!! STRESSED!!
hyeya peepz....k..i wanna hurry coz i wanna study..tmr got SS n Emaths paper 1!!! shittt...today...the usual stuff..it was rainin during PE till recess till i duno wat tyme..PE we did circuit..i ran!! i actualli ran!! heehee...juz bcoz it was a short distance...den recess me n rai was at d canteen awhile..den we walk2 awhile...i was rarely wif sorida today...i saw mr
particular today...yippee...heehee...yesterday he didnt contact me...hmm...wonder y...me n rai walk alot at d sec
3 level today..heehee....wanted to see hers n wanted to take my bk....frikin bks...such a heavy load to carry...a burden...me rai n mj went to BK today...wanted to see sumone else but saw mr
particular n his fren instead..gd ting he didnt see me...
phee'eew...den we went hm...me n mj took d same bus..d tao nan boys was a disgust towards mj..she was frm that skool...they were doing sumting damn ridiculous...hahax...edn at hm..i sleep awhile...lately i've been sleeping in d afternoons...which is veri weird coz i'm veri sleepy during school hours...hmm....i've been wonderin alot lately...haiz...i wanna study redi...gtg...biez! today-->
Rain..Rain..n more Rain..
p/s-
IDAYU!! PAY UP GIRL!! U used my card so u JOLLY WELL pay up..
heyloz.....kinda early today...yeap...tired la..wanna get it over it as soon as possible..ya today..raihanah's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAI!! heehee..i gav her a hug today n accompany her for recess...yeap..i was kinda fun...wasnt at d canteen dat much..everione was so sweet to rai today...so envy her..peace..me, lidya n jyss talk alot today..esp
HER..a person frm our class..not rai lah..it was kinda nice to let out my feelings to them..they agreed wif me..for once there is sumppl out there hu agreed wif me..abt idayu oso...she's bein unreasonable...i let her use
MY card to borrow
HER books n when
SHE returned them late..
I have to pay for
HER fines..or else
I cannot borrow
MY books..wat d hell!!! she CLOSED her EARS when i told her abt it..WAHT d HELL..ya..ya..i noe she's
DEAF n
FORGETFUL juz like an
OLD FRIKIN WOMAN...after reading surely u wld straight away wan to return it rite...its like
TWO FRIKIN WEEKS!! u noe how
LONG dat is?!!
HOW much
IT cost?!! wat d hell..such
selfless stingy ppl...den we had a debate for cme n pc lesson...it was abt girls joining d NS..no one won of coz..den duno wat sorida ask me to go hm wif her..such typical frens....i went..bought food wif her...den go hm..after i ate, i went to CGH...d frikin appt was juz a short while n it costed $20!!! but its a gd ting i got my card...den i go hm...i realized the ppl working in d pharmacy itself doesnt understand d doctors' hand-writings...such untidy hand-writings...haiz...i reali hate ppl who take ppl as an advantage..when they do wrong..
THEY BLAME IT ON D PERSON WHOM THEY TOOK ADVANTAGE OF!!!!.frikz....wat d hell...dalah..dowan to talk abt it...today--->
PISSED OREDI!!
hyeloz peepz...i'm piss..pissing~...pissed today...yep..me pissed...its a normal ting for me...1st d frikin bus came late so e n sorida took d cab..which is so waste of money...den mr Tarren pissed me off
SO much dat i wanna cry..but i didnt..he did it more den once..twice..three times...recess time i kinda sit alone..mix wif hafizah gg n d 3/2
SWEETNESS grp..heeheeden me n hafizah gg went to assemble together..guez hu was lookin...heehee..mr
'particular'..peewee...he n his whole lot of frenz were there..he was feelin down yesterday n gez hu made him feel better...
MEEE!! hafizah walk under d shade while i walk under d sun..dowan lah..later i *paiseh*...heehee...i wrote a whole lot of stuff at my 'get rid of dat frikin feelin' ppr..heehee...alot ah..so pissed redi...ss period was a blast..mr azahar made fun of sum ppl..ting2 spit out a whole lot of water when he asked her to b a volunteer..said 'i love 3/2 but i hate them' whenever BRYAN walked passed..which ends up with a smile after dat..hehez..den after dat i went to eat at skool wif rai..she seemed hapi when i ask her..hahax..den me mj n rai when n buy sumtin to eat..eat redi..but still eat sumore..i'm goin fat..gotta lose those weight..heeheez..after dat at hm i sleep...dats all i can remember..yea....so now i wanna do my hw...today is-->
PISS,PISSING,PISSED!!
hey peepzz...how r ya today? fine? great! hehe..today me got english n cme exam....eng ppr 1 ok lah...i wrote till i started writing backwards...hahaz...duno lah..i kept missing d letters...i wrote abt how students should or shldn't take part-time jobs...i dun hv a definite ans..its an argumentative topic..so hv to compare n contrast d gd n bad points..anihow do lah...i used nice words..heehee...eng paper 2 kinda easy..although i dun understand d werds..peace..i finish
40 minutes
BEFORE the exam finish....so like
WoW rite...i duno if i pass..esp d summary..den cme..anihow do..kinda easy..i slept for
20 minutes..heehee...finished damn fast..during recess...i got notin to do...wanted to
study cme but didnt reali study.. hehe..so i went up d stairs at block F..walk at d sec 4 level there..den i saw 2
particular ppl...d
particular guy n his fren....heehee...den aftr d exam i got mt period...talk abt a book about us teenagers...hu's fault izzit??...3/5 answered most of the qns..which meannssss.....3/5 has most of d noti2 ppl...no offence ya...we 3/1 n 3/2 ppl...veri
innocent ah...peace....\\//..den got maths remedial..nasri veri irritating..den go hm wif
da couple..u noe hu...so sian sia...mdm marlinah says our skool is
veri hardworking..ehem...
Harrddwoorrkiiinng...yea rite....tsk...sheesh...i starting to fall...in sumwhere...hm...i'm at d edge redi...still wondering whether i should fall or not...so..overall today's-->
NOT BAD
heyyy....well..today mostly i went out wif nadiah...kinda fun..morning..i was awaken by my bro..he ordered me to iron his clothes...
SO lazy....den i lazy around..sleep awhile..watch tv awhile..juz to make time past by...i watched one piece...it was soo touching...i'm not d kind hu cries when watching tv shows...i was
about to cry..it was soo sad...den after dat nad called...den i got redi..blah blah blah..den we went to bedok to topup our ezlink cards...den go pasir ris...we bought d stuffs den ate...den we went to bugis junction....spent kinda long there...look at sum..try on sum but nvr buy anyting...so phatetic..we talk talk n talk...like duh..frenz rite...hehe...sooo much to tell her....but i did forgot sum..hehe..
sori nad!! den i went hm...came in thru d door den my bro ask me to go out again..walao...so sian..i veri d tired..so i didnt..den my parents came hm..they brought no food hm...actuali got lah but not those kind u would want to eat one..well for me at least...hehe...den duno wat...tears developed in my eye...duno y i cried...haiz...i'm being emotional...ya..dats me...i can cry easily or hardly....haiz..didnt get in touch wif d
'particular' guy today....so sad...miss him...aww....he so sweet yesterday...yep...heeheeeee....but ya....den me n weder compare sumting...she won of coz...heeeheee...klah....mei juan...sori to hear abt d bad news...ur mom must hav sum reason to giv it away..reali..i'm sorriiiiee...dun b sad ya...
keep ur chin up n gd tings will happen ya..dun b sad...so today's--->
FINEE!!!
Hey there...how r ya? me is fine today....didnt go pasir ris today..like wat i expected...got to go to sumwhere with my family....so ya....den they went to johor...tmr den come home...so i'm home alone wif my two bros..onli one is wif me rite now..haiz....kinda boring ah today..my x msg me
again today...kinda unwilling to reply..i wan to forget abt him...but he is not getting the msg..when i replied..he said dat he
really2 missed me..wat m supposed to do??? say i miss him? klah..truthfully i kinda miss him...but i cant say it...coz i really want to forget abt him...he's really irritating..den i told him d truth...it seemed dat he is very sad rite now..so sori.....reali... n i mean it...haiz....den i helped my bro do his work..hehe...type for him coz he veri d slow at typing..hehe....den i took over d comp...but i'll hv to
give it back soon...haiz...klah...aniwae i hope to not tink of him redi...so overall today is-->
VERY BORING!!!!!!